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When Xu Xie returned home, Xie Wen was sitting on the sofa in the living room, staring blankly at the fragments of light bulbs all over the floor.

After hearing the sound of the door opening, she raised her eyes, saw Xu Xie and stood up, rubbed her hands awkwardly, and explained with some guilt: "It turns out that the light didn't turn on, so I just wanted to change the light bulb. , probably because I haven’t taken care of myself well, and I feel like I’m struggling to do anything, and I’m going to trouble you to come back...By the way, have you had dinner yet? The porridge is warm in the pot, and I’ll serve you a bowl.”

"No, I've already eaten." Xu Xie stopped her movement, changed into her slippers and walked into the room. Her eyes wandered from the debris on the floor to Xie Wen, and asked, "Are you alright?"

"I'm fine." Xie Wen showed a pale smile, "I just accidentally wiped it when I was tidying up."

"Be careful next time." Xu Xie withdrew her gaze from her hand, and turned to get the broom in the corner of the living room.

Xie Wen followed behind him step by step, and when Xu Xie turned around and gave him a puzzled look, she said cautiously: "Xiao Xie, it's so late, you won't go back to school today, right?"

"I..." Xu Xie was thinking about Fang Zhi in his heart, and originally wanted to refuse, but when he looked up and saw the fine lines on the corners of Xie Wen's eyes and the band-aid on his hand, his heart softened suddenly, and he couldn't say the words of rejection suddenly , "...Well, I have asked for leave, and I will go back tomorrow morning."

Xie Wen's eyes brightened instantly, and she smiled and said that she would make some delicious food for him as a supper.

Xu Xie was also a little happy to see her like this.A car accident seemed to have changed Xie Wen. After three years, he finally saw the shadow of the past in her again.

The atmosphere at home was rare and harmonious, and Xie Wen also mentioned things at the dinner table that she had never asked about before.

She has forced Xu Xie to study all these years, knowing that her son's grades are very good, but she has never asked Xu Xie about his future plans.

She didn't ask because she didn't care, because she knew that no matter what, Xu Xie would definitely have herself in the future.Even if she is a burden, Xu Xie will allow herself to be parasitic because of blood relationship, family affection, and these inextricable relationships engraved in the blood genes.

But that day, when she woke up in the hospital bed but failed to see Xu Xie for the first time, she suddenly wavered in the idea she firmly believed in.

That day, she looked at Xu Xie who was standing silently beside the bed, and she didn't know when she had to look up to see her face clearly, and realized for the first time that she could no longer control this boy.

He has grown up and become independent, and he doesn't need his nominal mother so much anymore.He is fully capable of abandoning himself and flying away, letting himself fend for himself.

So what if there is a blood relationship?Xie Wen knew that since Xu Likai's death, she had never fulfilled any responsibility as a mother to Xu Xie, but instead made things difficult for him and controlled him.

So she started to get scared.She was afraid that Xu Xie would resent her because of this, and even abandon her.

During those days when she was recuperating in the hospital, she was tortured by these thoughts and couldn't sleep well.She was terrified, afraid that Xu Xie would leave her if she blinked.

She tried the previous method, using various extreme behaviors to attract Xu Xie's attention, trying to keep him in her sight all the time.The goal was achieved, but seeing Xu Xie's increasingly irritable and tired expression day by day, she realized that if this continued, sooner or later Xu Xie would loathe and even abandon her.

So she changed tack.

so far……

Xie Wen raised her eyes and glanced at Xu Xie, who was obediently serving food across the street, and the restlessness in her heart was finally suppressed for a while.

... works well.

She picked up a chopstick of vegetables and put them in Xu Xie's bowl, and asked him softly, "Xiao Xie, have you figured out where to go for the university entrance exam?"

Such a Xie Wen looked so harmless, it was rare for Xu Xie to let go of her guard, and told her about her future plans: "I want to be admitted to Z University... Don't worry, I checked, it's not far from home, It's about an hour round trip."

Probably because the expression on Xie Wen's face was too gloomy, Xu Xie thought for a while, and added: "University has plenty of time, I will come back as long as I have free time...I promise you, after I go to university, I will meet you at least once a week. Come back once, it won’t be much different from now.”

He told Xie Wen all the plans he could think of, but the other party stared at him, his expression not much relaxed.

At the end, Xu Xie didn't know what to say.He lowered his head silently, picking up the tasteless vegetables in the bowl.

Xie Wen clenched her hand under the table into a fist, and her slightly long nails sank into her palm, causing a sharp pain.

The thoughts that she had thought before turned into reality, and the anxiety and panic in her heart surged up uncontrollably, and even gave birth to a burst of violence in an instant, making her want to destroy everything in front of her eyes.

But she held back.

... She can no longer annoy Xu Xie like before, increasing the possibility of being abandoned.

Thinking of this, Xie Wen took a few deep breaths, suppressed the impatience in her heart, and forced herself to soften her tone: "University Z...why do you want to go there? Mom hasn't heard you mention that you want to go to this school."

The expected angry scene accompanied by roaring and roaring did not happen, Xu Xie coughed in shock, and looked up at Xie Wen with an incredulous expression on her face.

"What do you keep looking at me like that?" Xie Wen stood up and poured him a glass of water, with a smile on her face, "Why don't you ask mom?"

"No...not." Xu Xie stuttered, took a sip of the water she handed over, "You...you never asked before."

"Isn't this your third year of high school? Mom always asks about your future plans."

Feeling the long-lost care from her mother, Xu Xie felt a little flattered: "I don't have any special plans, Z is big, I'm heavy, I have the ability, why don't I take the exam?"

These words were a little arrogant, and in a trance, Xie Wen seemed to have caught a glimpse of the rebellious and rebellious gangster Xu Xie from him.

...the figure she hated and even hated the most.She thought that after her two years of "education", that figure had been completely killed.

A trace of anger flashed in her heart, but her face was still gentle: "Indeed, my son has this ability."

After eating a late night supper until almost ten o'clock in the evening, Xie Wen took the initiative to take over the job of washing dishes and urged Xu Xie to go in and review.

It was rare that there was no pressure at home, Xu Xie walked around the room twice with a relaxed mind, and then threw herself into the swivel chair with cushions.

so good.

Everything about this day, from early morning till now, seems so incredible and joyful.

The people he likes also like him, and the hysterical people are slowly getting better. Everything that he used to dare not even imagine has happened in reality.

……so good.

Xu Xie slumped on the seat, looking up at the lights on the roof, the dazzling light hurt his eyes a little.

For no reason, he suddenly wanted to hear Fang Zhi's voice.

It wasn't until the WeChat call he had dialed was automatically hung up because no one answered, that he suddenly remembered that the boy's cell phone had been confiscated.

Thinking of the reason for being confiscated, he couldn't help but smile with the corners of his mouth curled up.

He changed into a comfortable position, dug out Peng Jin's WeChat from the address book, without disturbing others' self-consciousness at all, and clicked on the voice call casually.

It's fast over there.The moment the connection was made, Xu Xie heard a loud howl of ghosts and wolves.

As soon as he heard this kind of voice, he knew that Fang Zhi or Ma Lintian could not make it.So after the other party said "Hello", Xu Xie immediately answered, "Are you not in the dormitory now?"

"...Ang, I'm playing cards in my brother's bedroom now. What's wrong?"

"Oh... I want to ask Fang Zhi something, but his mobile phone has been confiscated, and I can't contact him now, so I just want to ask you, can you give him your mobile phone so that I can chat with him ...quickly, a few words."

"Okay, no problem. Just wait, I'll go back to the dormitory and give him the phone now."

"Okay, thank you."

After thanking him, Xu Xie stopped talking, and quietly listened to Peng Jin shouting "Wait for me to come back and kill the Quartet", followed by the sound of the door opening and closing.The sound of trampling footsteps lasted for about ten seconds, and then there was another sound of door opening. Peng Jin called out, "Fang Zhi, Mr. Xu is looking for you." After a while of rustling, the receiver suddenly fell silent.

After a while, Fang Zhi's distorted voice came over after electronic transmission: "Why do you want me?"

Her voice was laziness and she had no emotion, but Xu Xie just felt a kind of displeasure inexplicably.

He chuckled and said, "I miss you."

The other party snorted out of his nose and didn't speak.

"Don't be upset, there is something at home." Xu Xie softened her voice and coaxed, "I'll go back tomorrow morning."

"How early?"

"How about making sure you can see me as soon as you enter the classroom tomorrow morning?"

Fang Zhi sneered: "I promise you a fart, the school hasn't opened so early."

"I won't lie to you, I can climb over the wall and get in."

"Really?"

"you guess."

"……cut."

Xu Xie was "cut" by him and laughed: "What's the matter? Are you looking forward to my return?"

Standing on the balcony with the night breeze blowing, Fang Zhi raised his eyes to look indoors, and when his eyes swept across an open space not far from the bathroom, he suddenly stopped moving.

In the early hours of the morning, it was there that he and the boy on the other end of the phone stood facing each other, their breaths and body temperature intersected, full of collision and ambiguity.

As a result, now, more than ten hours later, they are separated by miles and can only be contacted by mobile phone.

...the cell phone is not his yet.

Fang Zhi suddenly felt aggrieved and angry, and inexplicably resented Xie Wen who had called Xu Xie home.

So he answered the question in a vicious way: "What did your mother tell you to go home for?"

Xu Xie obviously didn't react to the sudden change of topic: "Huh? Tell me to go home and change the light bulb... What's wrong?"

"She..." Fang Zhi had no position to criticize Xie Wen, and felt sorry for Xu Xie because of such a trivial matter. After a while, she murmured, "Does she not know that you are a senior in high school? Time is so tight, why do you still let me?" Running around..."

Xu Xie knew that he felt sorry for her, and her heart softened softly: "I was about to tell you... I feel that my mother is different from before."

"How to say?"

"She seems less paranoid than before, and her mental state is much better than before."

Although Fang Zhi has never met Xie Wen, he can also know from Lin Yufeng and Xu Xie's few words of description that "paranoia" is a relatively euphemistic term.

Inexplicably, he didn't believe that Xie Wen would change so quickly.Even though she was in the hospital more than ten days ago, she still looked hysterical.

But Xu Xie on the opposite side was very happy, so Fang Zhi suppressed the doubts in his heart, and asked a question that he also found inexplicable.

"You will be admitted to Z University with me, right?"

The other party paused for a while, before affirming without hesitation: "Of course. Isn't this what we agreed on earlier?"

The author has something to say:

Sister Xie's strategy is to be tough and soft

Xu Xie, who was pinched to death: This is the cage of family affection, I can't break it, I can't break it [BGM: Yijianmei]

Tomorrow's New Year's Day～I wish everyone a happy New Year's Day in advance～[Ah～I have another reason to ask for leave～]