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Fang Zhi originally thought that Xu Xie had moved, but at least he was still in this city. As long as he waited in No. [-] Middle School, he would be able to wait for him sooner or later.

He calmed down for a while, and even began to imagine how he would question Xu Xie if he came back—whether he asked him what he meant by that sorry first, or why he blocked him, or asked the inexplicable reason for leaving without saying goodbye. because of what.

These questions were spinning in the center of his mind like wheels. After spinning for too long, he suddenly lost interest in the answers to these questions. Therefore, if Xu Xie came back, he would most likely not ask these questions again, but run away. Go over and give him a light kiss or a soft hug.

But later, Lin Yufeng and Zhou Lecheng used all their connections, and they did not find any news about Xu Xie in this city.Later, they found out that Xu Xie and Xie Wen went to the airport and flew to another bustling city near the sea. After that, there was no more.

The day Fang Zhi received the news happened to be the autumnal equinox.He sat on the seat covered with golden light, staring at the short lines of words on the phone screen for a long, long time.

The news of Xu Xie's disappearance spread like wildfire, and soon spread throughout the entire third grade, becoming a topic of conversation among teachers and students in their spare time.Many people turned into unknown detectives and put forward their own speculations about this unexplained disappearance.

These remarks are pervasive, even if Fang Zhi deliberately doesn't listen to them, and fills up those holes with study papers, it won't be able to prevent someone from coming to him to find a sense of presence.

Jiang An is one of the big heads.

This fool can warm people's hearts when he is careful, but he can drive people to death when he is not so careful.He knew that Fang Zhi and Xu Xie had a good relationship, and he believed that Fang Zhi must know the secret of Xu Xie's disappearance, so from time to time, he came to Fang Zhi to verify the authenticity with guesses that he didn't know where he got them.

"Some people say something happened to Mr. Xu's family, and others say that he studied well and was poached by other schools." Jiang An told Fang Zhi what he had heard in detail, then looked at him expectantly, and asked him Which one is true.

Fang Zhi wanted to smile sarcastically, saying how do I know, but the corners of his mouth only lifted a little, and then fell down weakly again.

In fact, if you contact them back and forth, you can probably guess what's going on.

Lin Yufeng also said that their couple ring was seen.

"His mother has such a strong desire to control, and Xiaoxie has hidden you for so long. Once she is exposed, she will definitely do something crazy." Lin Yufeng paused, and then slowly continued the second half of the sentence, " And you have to understand that this matter between you two...not everyone can accept it. "

How could Fang Zhi not understand.

It was because of understanding that it was even more difficult to accept. The reason Xu Xie left was because of herself.

Fang Zhi couldn't hear what Jiang An said later.He just suddenly recalled the afternoon when the rematch ended, when Xu Xie wanted to hold his hand, but he avoided him.

The temperature that can be split at the touch of a touch is something he will never touch again.

The rumors about Xu Xie finally ended when the semi-final results came out.

Fang Zhi's prediction was not wrong. He won the first prize in the province and was eligible to participate in the independent enrollment. If there is no accident, he will be able to get the score reduction discount of Z University.

The school is very happy.In recent years, with the rise of key colleges and universities, No. [-] Middle School has been suppressed to the point of being helpless. Although it intends to compete, it is very difficult to establish itself because of the source of students and the number of teachers. At this time, Fang Zhi Zhi's first prize is undoubtedly the most powerful pointer for the school.

The Third Middle School held a special commendation meeting in the auditorium for this purpose.Fang Zhi, as an outstanding student representative, stood where Xu Xie had once stood. Facing the dense crowd, he read the manuscript he had prepared before, but his mind was reminiscing over and over again when he took the promotional photos before. , the "wedding photo" of him and Xu Xie in the auditorium.

After the conference, Lao Han had a long talk with him.

Anyone with eyes can see that since Xu Xie disappeared, Fang Zhi's state has been very different.The person who was able to laugh and make trouble with great difficulty seemed to have been sucked away from those enthusiastic and lively youthful spirits, and turned back into that cold look that no one should enter.

Laohan looked at the silent young man with drooping shoulders in front of him, the hair on the top of his head seemed to be refusing to be approached by others, and he seemed to see the previous one outside the office, looking into the distance without saying a word, as if he was hiding a lot of thoughts children.

After staying with these people for a long time, Lao Han always has the illusion that he is very old.He couldn't understand what people of this age were thinking, and he also forgot whether he was so stubborn at this age, just like Fang Zhi, no matter how much he persuaded him, no matter how much he told him, his grades were enough to get into a higher level In the university, the young man in front of him still lowered his head, whispering that he only wanted to be admitted to Z University.

Lao Han sighed and didn't know what to say for a while.The two were relatively silent for a moment, and Lao Han put the teacup in his hand on the table, and said with a "boom" sound: "Xiao Zhi, I know you are suffering now, but how old are you now? I admire you Perseverance, but it is not a good thing to become stubborn if you become persistent too much. You still have decades to go in the future, and you are wrapped up in your life by memories and make decisions. At a certain moment in your future, if you suddenly Do you regret it? Can you understand me when I say that?"

"Think about it again."

After that, Fang Zhi was waved out of the office by Lao Han.

He understood what Lao Han meant, and it was nothing more than wanting him to forget the promise of taking the Z University exam with Xu Xie, so that he could think about it without distractions.

But... the agreed party has become an unknown, if even the other party has to give up, then is there any possibility for them to meet again?

After that day, Fang Zhi devoted all his time to competitions and studies.He used this method to numb himself, as long as he didn't think about it or look at it, or recall it or recall it, the suffocating pain wouldn't come to him.

He changed back to his taciturn appearance, and the stomach that Xu Xie had raised for a long time also became bad again under his irregular diet day after day.Everything returned to the beginning overnight, as if time had been reset, and that rebellious yet gentle boy seemed to have never existed.

Those around him who knew or didn't know will try to comfort him at first, telling him that it's okay, now that the communication is so developed and the transportation is so convenient, we will meet again one day.

But even though the communication is so developed and the transportation is so convenient, if a person wants to hide from others to find, and want to break the inextricable relationship in the crowd, it is an easy thing.

Some people call him forgetful, saying that he is just a passer-by in life, even if he does not forget now, he will gradually lose his place in his heart as he gets to know more and more people in the future.

It was Jiang An who said this, and Fang Zhi wanted to laugh when he heard it.

Sure enough, the comforting words spoken by those who don’t understand will only be like this, ridiculous and superficial, except for making the person being comforted feel infinite bitterness after a brief ridicule, it is of no use at all.

Time is just stopped because of someone's departure, so the years still rush forward.Everyone has their own things to do, and their own things to worry about. After the meaningless comfort, they will pat the comforted person on the shoulder, tell him that life must go on, and then go on to their own lives .

After coming and going, Fang Zhi was left alone again.

In fact, being in the crowd every day, facing countless exercises, exams and tests, those continuous, seemingly invisible sadness and longing will not overwhelm a person. What is difficult is the night, when he is in the Lying on the bed in silence, when I looked up and saw a piece of bed sheet hanging down from the upper bunk, tears would always rush out from the eye sockets uncontrollably, leaving a pool of wet marks on the pillow.

Gradually, Fang Zhi fell asleep later and later.Every day, he exhausts his energy until he can't squeeze out any more before going to bed, and then secretly releases a little miss during the waking time less than a second apart.

When the days are boring and monotonous, the time will pass very quickly, so before Fang Zhi could realize it, New Year's Day came.

The arrival of New Year's Day meant that his birthday was approaching.Because it was his birthday, Fang Haisheng paid special attention to it. He booked a restaurant box long before New Year's Day.

"This is a big day...Xiaozhi, ask your classmates if they are free tomorrow, call them if they are free! Last time, Xiaoyou, Xiao... Kishi, call them all !" At home on the first night, Fang Haisheng yelled loudly at Fang Zhi who was in the living room while helping He Hui choose dishes in the kitchen.

Fang Zhi didn't tell Fang Haisheng about Xu Xie's disappearance, but he had Lao Han's eyeliner at school, so it's not difficult to know about it, let alone such a big event.

It's a rare holiday, and it's a good time for New Year's Eve. Fang Zhi doesn't want others to ruin his good mood because of him. He forced himself to go to bed early the night before, and today he went around looking for work for himself. Right now, he's in a pretty good mood.

Hearing Fang Haisheng's words, he instinctively didn't take them to heart—since junior high school, Fang Haisheng asked him to invite his classmates to celebrate every birthday of his, but every time he returned to his birthday, there would only be him and Fang Haisheng in the big box, They looked at each other across the cake and food.

It was better when I was in high school, I would have multiple river banks, and then the three of them would look at each other around cakes and meals.

Li Zhihe sat cross-legged on the carpet in the living room, nestled next to Fang Zhi's lap and opened macadamia nuts. When he opened whole pieces, he piled them on the plate in front of Fang Zhi, and when he opened them, he stuffed them into his mouth.From the corner of her eye, she caught a glimpse of Fang Zhi not moving after answering Fang Haisheng's words, and asked curiously, "Brother Fang, don't you call your classmate?"

Just as Fang Zhi was about to say that there was no one to call out to, he accidentally grabbed the phone beside him and opened WeChat.

Previously, based on the principle of out of sight, out of mind, he had removed Xu Xie's WeChat account from the top, and now he was replaced by a group that had just spoken.

Looking at the group name of the erratic group name, Fang Zhi suddenly discovered that apart from "I'm sorry" and blacklisting, that person actually left him a lot of good things.

Click on the aspiring youth group, and the people in it are wishing each other a happy New Year's Day. The latest message is from Li Xiao. The content is a link. Click on it to see a firework simulator.

[Li Xiao]: There's nothing to say, so let's send everyone a firework!In the new year, everyone must work hard to get into the ideal university!

[Zheng Gengyang]: Go for the duck!For the ideal university!

[Wang Lin'an]: Duck!For the ideal university!

[Wu Xi]: Duck!For the ideal university!

[Xu Lili]: Duck!For the ideal university!

[FZ.]: Duck!For the ideal university!

[FZ.]: Tomorrow is my birthday, do you want to come?

[Li Xiao]: Go for the duck!For the ideal university!

[Li Xiao]: Fuck.

The inspirational declarations in the group came to an abrupt end.

Facing this familiar scene, Fang Zhi, the "Master of the End of Rhythm", couldn't help feeling amused, and his mood, which had been gloomy for several months, slightly improved.

He reorganized the language and invited again.

[FZ.]: [Location]

[FZ.]: Tomorrow this place is my birthday, do you want to come here?Food, drink and play included.

I have never done this kind of thing, even if I reorganize it, the sentence is still very blunt.However, none of the teenagers in the aspiring youth group cared about this. After a brief silence for a few seconds, Li Xiao, who thought he was fairly familiar with Fang Zhi, took the lead.

[Li Xiao]: I'll go!What time tomorrow?

[FZ.]: It starts at nine in the morning, you can come any time.

[Zheng Gengyang]: Will I be kicked out if I just eat and drink without giving gifts?

[FZ.]: No.

[Zheng Gengyang]: Then I will go too.

[FZ.]: Welcome.

Most of the aspiring youth group had stayed with Fang Zhi in the intensive class, and they were somewhat familiar with him. Soon, as someone took the lead, many people spoke one after another, expressing that they were going.

Counting carefully, there are twelve.

Fang Zhi expressed his satisfaction, and later sent invitations to Lin Yufeng and others, as well as Jiang An Chen Mushu, and said that he could bring his family.

The next day, Fang Haisheng looked at the box that was filled with people for the first time in several years, and smiled very gratified and happy.

Fang Zhi was also quite happy, sitting in a chair in the corner, drinking slowly with a glass of fruit juice, while looking at Li Zhihe surrounded by the crowd, with a smile that he didn't realize was always on the corner of his mouth.

Lin Yufeng came a bit late due to work reasons, and when he arrived, everyone had already eaten a round, and they were huddling together to grab the mic and sing.

He found Fang Zhi who was sitting in the corner amidst the howling ghosts and howling wolves. He dragged a chair and sat beside him. While stroking the things in his pocket, he pretended to be careless and said, "Isn't the birthday star the protagonist? Why are you sitting alone?" Drinking... fruit juice here? Pfft, I thought it was wine."

The temperature in the box was a bit high, Fang Zhi sat here without moving for a long time, even if he didn't drink, he still felt dizzy.He shook his head slightly, and took another sip of peach juice: "I have a bad stomach, so I can't drink alcohol."

Lin Yufeng saw that his face was blushing, and his speech was not clear, and he always felt that something was wrong, but seeing that he could still talk to him, he didn't pay much attention, and continued to find topics: "Why don't you sing with them?"

The light here is not good. When the young boy lowered his head, the shadow of his forehead just blocked the expression on his face.Lin Yufeng couldn't see clearly, and waited for Fang Zhi's answer after a while, muttering, "...I'm tone deaf, and my singing is terrible."

When he said this, his tone was very serious, the seriousness of trying to persuade others, especially like a drunk person would say.

Lin Yufeng raised his eyebrows, and taking advantage of Fang Zhi's inattention, he took down the cup that he held up to mid-empty, and sniffed it closely—oh, it smells so strong of alcohol.

He scanned the few remaining glass bottles containing liquid on the table, found the pink one and took it to look at it—the fruit wine disguised as fruit juice, the alcohol content was not low.

Lin Yufeng turned his head to look at the young boy who was holding his cup with his arms raised high. After holding back a smile for a while, he took out his mobile phone, clicked on the chat interface with someone in WeChat, then clicked on the photo, and pressed After pressing the button, he patted Fang Zhi's shoulder, and asked the previous question again after he looked up at the camera: "Why don't you sing with them?"

Fang Zhi couldn't look good after drinking, but his eyes were so blurred that they lost focus.It's hard for him to be like this, and he even found out that Lin Yufeng was holding a mobile phone.He blinked twice slowly and asked, "Are you shooting me?"

Lin Yufeng suppressed a smile: "No."

"Oh—" Fang Zhi responded in a long tone, and blinked his eyes twice again very slowly.

With just a few actions, the seconds of the WeChat video have been exhausted.Lin Yufeng let go, sent the video to the person opposite, then raised his eyes to look at Fang Zhi, just as he was about to cut to the point of today's talk, he found that the little boy had been staring at his phone.

Lin Yufeng was startled, quickly turned off the phone screen, and asked him cautiously but uncertainly, "Did you see it?"

Fang Zhi shook his head hesitantly - he didn't know if he saw it, he seemed to see it, but he didn't seem to see it.

Fortunately, the young boy is not so clear-headed now, otherwise it might not be so easy to fool.

Lin Yufeng breathed a sigh of relief, and was about to continue when Fang Zhi spoke.

He spoke slowly, his voice was soft and hoarse because of the alcohol, and matched with his drooping eyelashes, it was a bit pathetic.

He said, "He used to take pictures of me too."

Others may not understand this about him, but Lin Yufeng understands it as soon as he hears it.

He was about to answer, but Fang Zhi didn't give him a chance, and continued talking on his own.

"He didn't show me either."

"It must be very ugly, so I didn't show it to me."

His voice became lower and lower, and his head hung lower and lower. In the end, from Lin Yufeng's perspective, he could only see his slightly pouting mouth squirming.

Lin Yufeng sighed slightly, and held up the phone again helplessly.

The young boy muttered a lot, but he was a little clearer when he cursed.He kept talking, and Lin Yufeng kept holding his phone. After more than a dozen videos, Fang Zhi finally said he was tired, tilted his head, leaned against the wall, and fell into a deep sleep mixed with the smell of alcohol.

Lin Yufeng put away the cell phone facing Fang Zhi, went to the sofa and took a pillow between the little boy's head and the wall, looked down at him for a long time, then reached out and grasped the gift hidden in his pocket, thinking After a long time, he still let go, allowing the little thing to fall back into the deepest part of his pocket.

He took out his phone and sent a message to the person who received the video without even saying thank you.

[Brother Lin]: Let's see how wronged I am.

[Brother Lin]: I didn't give you any presents, so you can coax them yourself.

[Brother Lin]: Let's go.

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Happy Lantern Festival! ! !Today is big and thick, right?long?Bar? (*/ω＼*)