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186.

Yin Jiahang sent Liang Yuan upstairs.

Liang Yuan is reluctant to ask him to help carry things, because it feels like ill-treating patients.

Yin Jiahang: "I just have a bad stomach, not missing arms or legs."

Liang Yuan: "Oh, then help me get a mop."

Yin Jiahang: "Aren't you going to class today on Thursday?"

Liang Yuan: "I'm on leave, I just moved and need to clean the house."

Yin Jiahang: "We purposely rented it near the school?"

"Hmm..." Liang Yuan seized the opportunity to show off his affection, "It's shared with Jin Yu."

Yin Jiahang was stunned for a moment, probably thinking that it was a bit strange for Jin Yu to come out to rent a house, but he didn't continue to ask.

The two entered the house.Yesterday, when the luggage was first delivered, it looked tidy because it was packed, but after a day of tidying, it became more and more chaotic, scattered all over the floor.

Yin Jiahang put the mop against the wall, looked around and found that there was only space around the sofa, and a row of condoms was spread on that limited space.

Liang Yuan also saw it, and first shouted in his heart, "Why didn't I put this thing away earlier", and then thought, "It's okay and he doesn't know who used it, I said I used it".

—Wait, why should I tell him who used it?It's weird to say this all of a sudden!

——The dead face paralyzed said that he had never had a relationship with his ex and he didn't know if it was true. Now I can ask him directly.

—but how shall I ask him?It's weird to say this all of a sudden!

"Sit down, I'll pour water for you." Liang Yuan plugged in the freshly cleaned kettle, "It will be ready in no time."

Unexpectedly, Yin Jiahang did not refuse and actually sat down, sitting next to the pile of condoms: "There is no need for hot ones."

Liang Yuan: "When it's cold, it's cold."

Yin Jiahang: "...Okay."

Liang Yuan suddenly felt that the other party was talking a lot, and it was not as cold as it seemed at first glance: "I saw you didn't talk much yesterday, what's the matter with you two, didn't you break up peacefully?"

Yin Jiahang smiled, but there was only expression but no voice: "You are really straightforward."

Liang Yuan: "When I thought about it, I asked."

Yin Jiahang: "We've always been like that, and we have nothing to say when we break up."

187.

The water boiled, but it was too hot to put in my mouth when it was poured out.

Liang Yuan took two porcelain bowls and poured the water back and forth, saying that it would cool down so quickly, but Yin Jiahang didn't stop him, staring at the bowls with both eyes and turning over and over until he became dizzy.

Liang Yuan asked him why he broke up with Jin Yu back then.

Yin Jiahang: "He didn't tell you?"

Liang Yuan: "He said that when you were young, you did your homework together on the roof of the building. Later, you stopped playing with him and watched him do his homework from the window. Later, you split up."

Yin Jiahang: "He remembers it really clearly."

Liang Yuan: "He also said that he wanted to decorate the roof of the building as a banquet hall and installed lights in the greenhouse, but it was very ugly, especially the one on the ground looked like a circuit board caught fire."

Liang Yuan's poor summarization ability prevented Yin Jiahang from fully understanding what he was saying, and he was also not sure whether there was something wrong with what he relayed or what Jin Yu told him in the first place.

Liang Yuan also saw that the other party didn't understand, coughed lightly and changed the topic: "So why did you break up?"

Yin Jiahang: "If I tell him otherwise, who do you believe?"

Liang Yuan: "Trust you, because I want to hear bad things."

Yin Jiahang: "No bad words, he's pretty good."

"Don't be like this, just tell me and I won't tell him." Liang Yuan instinctively thought that Jin Yu hadn't told the truth to himself, because he and Yin Jiahang's childhood sweethearts had heard the description that he and Yin Jiahang spent a very romantic and beautiful teenage years, which brought him this The person who has a good memory should also be a naive and cheerful little sun. After seeing him, he felt that the other party's character and attitude towards Jin Yu were completely different from what he imagined, "He won't abandon you all the time, right? ?”

The water finally cooled down, Liangyuan poured it back into the cup.

"It was I who broke up." Yin Jiahang held the cup with one hand, but didn't drink it. "I knew I liked men when I was a teenager. I needed a man of my kind so much. I took him as a straw. But later I knew The same kind is just that the same kind can't be a lover, I can only accept the part I need from him, and I can't bear anything else."

Liang Yuan: "What do you mean, you want him to hang out with you but you don't want to fall in love with him?"

Yin Jiahang: "You are very good at focusing on the key points. The thing is indeed like this, but I didn't realize at that time that many problems slowly appeared after being together for half a year."

Liang Yuan: "But I heard him describe how happy you are together."

Yin Jiahang: "At that age, there were not many unhappy things. I tried my best, but some root causes cannot be solved by hard work. What scared me at first was that he disclosed our relationship without authorization. Although the adults did not Seriously, my uncle and aunt don't care too much about this, but I'm different... I may be precocious than him, I know what it means to come out early, I care about what others think, my parents are not so open-minded .”

Liang Yuan spit silently when he heard this, thankful that he is a wild animal and no one cares about him, and the brothers around him are also "advanced in thinking".

Yin Jiahang: "He is very strong, stubborn, and doesn't listen to advice. He will treat you silently in a way that he thinks is correct and efficient, but he won't care about things he doesn't want to care about. As for me, I'm not a person who is good at changing others. You should have seen it yesterday, our personalities are actually not that compatible."

Liang Yuan: "Fortunately... I just wonder why you can sit face to face for so long without talking."

Yin Jiahang: "In the last half a year we were together, we seldom chatted seriously, but he didn't think there was any problem. At that time, I couldn't figure out why we became like that. Now I understand that it was me who tempted him to like him at the wrong time. Falling in love with a man is like treating my own kind as a life-saving straw. He regards coincidence as destiny. If it weren't for the so-called fate, we might not even be friends for long, and the relationship will gradually fade after a long time... But now No difference."

Liang Yuan was somehow a little sad to hear him say that, because he still believed in the theory of fate to some extent.Like he has encountered so many things since he was a child, the bad ones are fate, and the good ones are all fate?

Liang Yuan: "It's not that serious, he still misses the past, and now he still has that ugly lamp on the roof!"

"Nostalgia...heh." Yin Jiahang smiled wryly, "He still remembered that I insisted on going abroad and broke up with him unilaterally. In fact, as long as he cared more, he would know that my stomach problem was already serious at that time. When he had the opportunity to develop in the United States, he proposed to take me abroad for medical treatment and study. I didn’t tell him because I was angry. He kept saying that he loved me but he didn’t understand my illness. I hinted at him about going abroad, but he just let me Rebelling against my parents but never asking me what I want, what I need..."

"Why didn't you tell him the truth? If he knew that you were going to the United States to see a doctor, he wouldn't blame you. It's just that you don't like talking to each other..." Liang Yuan suddenly thought wrong, if I made it clear that if they don't share, I have nothing to do with it. This misunderstanding is very necessary!

——It’s right not to speak, if you have nothing to say, you should say a few words less!

Liang Yuan: "Cough...you can still explain it if you have a chance, even if you break up, you can still be friends!"

Yin Jiahang: "There's no point in explaining now, and he should already know."

He paused for a moment and continued: "You are right, it is because we are all like this that people become what they are now, or I am not enough to make him change. From the very beginning, I was not suitable for him. It’s not going to end like this.”