[Ting Feng] Victorious

It has been half a month since the last update. During this period, I almost forgot all the trivial things. Because I was tired, my brain took the initiative to forget some unimportant things for me. The only thing I remember clearly is the whole process What happened was that night five days ago.

At about eleven o'clock in the evening, an unfamiliar mobile phone number dialed into my mobile phone. After I answered it, Li Yifeng's messy panting came from the other end of the phone.

"Hi, help me in the parking lot downstairs." He said emphatically, his voice several degrees louder than usual.

"Immediately!" Before I had time to ask what happened, I picked up the shoulder bag on the entrance hall and replied.

He hung up the phone immediately after hearing my affirmative answer, and I rushed out in a hurry.

In the underground parking lot, Li Yifeng's car was smashed to pieces. The glass of the car was shattered all over the floor. The contact information of Li Yifeng has been posted.

"What's wrong!?" I ran over and grabbed Li Yifeng's arm, "Are you okay?"

He shook his head, limped back, and went straight to the point: "Where's your car? Take me to the Central Hospital! It's urgent!"

I froze for a moment, and said without confidence: "I haven't bought a car yet."

He glanced at me in disbelief, didn't say a word to me, and limped out of the parking lot by himself.

I stepped forward to support him, but he shook his hands and broke free: "Go back, I don't need you."

I stopped, he walked stubbornly by himself, and I followed him three meters away out of the underground parking lot.

I stood with him on the side of the road, he looked very anxious, his hands twisted together uneasy, every time he reached out to hail a taxi, but it was not empty, 5 minutes passed, and I saw mist in his eyes , he was anxious to cry.

Finally, an empty car came towards us in the distance. Li Yifeng stretched out his arms and waved to greet the driver, but someone was already waving to the taxi 100 meters away from us. Twisted, he tried to walk towards the car with limited mobility.

I glanced at Li Yifeng, and rushed towards the taxi quickly. My own heavy breathing filled my ears. Finally, I got the taxi before that man. Driving, without looking at the annoyed expression of the taxi man, he pointed at Li Yifeng at the driver.

After picking up Li Yifeng, he choked up and said, "Quick! Central Hospital!"

I saw from the rearview mirror that he rubbed his eyes, and when he took his hands down, his fingers were stained with tears. His hands were tightly clenched into fists. I turned around and looked at him worriedly. .

He sniffed his nose and said in a harsh voice, "Thank you."

I looked into his eyes, shook my head silently, and sat back down.

The driver finally drove us to the Central Hospital under Li Yifeng's constant urging. He opened the door and got out of the car.

"Where is Zhao Yiqiu? Your hospital is calling! Where is she? A girl!" Li Yifeng said incoherently with red eyes, and his hands were still gesturing at the height of the girl he mentioned, his voice was out of tune.

"Emergency No. [-]." The nurse at the front desk pointed in the direction of the emergency room.

"Thank you!" Li Yifeng's thank you was full of tears, and he turned and ran to the emergency room.

Later I remembered what I saw and I still thought I was dreaming.

Li Yifeng rushed into the emergency room and saw the noisy nurses running around inside. The messy situation made him calm down quickly. He just opened his mouth quietly and walked towards a doctor.

Doctor: "Are you Zhao Yiqiu's family?"

Li Yifeng: "I am her cousin."

Doctor: "We are already treating the patient, you go and pay the bill first."

Li Yifeng took the form and walked out of the emergency room. He looked back, his eyes were wet, and he looked helpless. I nodded at him and motioned him to go quickly, and he immediately ran to the payment desk.

I stayed in the emergency room, watching the gastric tube go from the girl's mouth into her stomach, and she was vomiting a pungent liquid, which, I knew, was pesticide.

The girl was crying violently, maybe just subconsciously from the stimulation of vomiting, her heavy makeup was too much to look at, and her garish green dyed hair had to be mentioned.The nurse wiped her face with a wet towel, and she struggled subconsciously due to difficulty breathing.Maybe not only her stomach, but her whole body was burning.

I frowned and looked at her, the water from gastric lavage poured into her stomach through the tube, and then urged her to vomit up.Her brows were twisted into a knot in pain, her face was flushed purple, her saliva was pulling, and her heart-piercing vomiting sounded back and forth in the empty hospital corridor.

The doctor said, whose nose is better?Smell it out to see if it still smells.I avoided them to get in the way, my nasal cavity was filled with the smell of that chemical agent, my sense of smell had already failed at this moment, and I couldn't tell whether there was a smell or not.

Finally the nurses stopped their movements, and a bunch of instruments for inducing vomiting were withdrawn to the side. The girl lay on the bed in a collapsed state, breathing weakly through her mouth, her expression still in pain.

I breathed a sigh of relief, thank God, it seems to be saved.

The doctor took off the mask and wiped the sweat from her head, told me some precautions, arranged a hospital room for her, and walked out of the emergency room.

I sat on the bench at the door of the emergency room and waited for Li Yifeng. He ran towards me, and before he could speak, I said, "Okay, it's all right."

He took a deep breath and took a step back. It seemed that a heart hanging in his throat was finally let down.

"Let's push her to the ward." I stood up and patted him on the shoulder comfortingly.

Li Yifeng nodded and walked into the emergency room. The girl had already been driven onto a mobile stretcher by the nurses. Li Yifeng and I were pushing and pulling the stretcher one behind the other.

From the emergency room to the inpatient ward, I didn't say a word to him. He looked at his cousin's sallow face and tangled brows, and only shook his head in heartache.

It was already 03:30 in the morning when Li Yifeng’s cousin, Zhao Yiqiu, was placed. He gently stroked Zhao Yiqiu’s messy bangs aside, sat on the bedside and yawned tiredly. I asked softly, “Are you hungry? Shall I buy you something to eat?"

"No need." He replied weakly.

I saw the folded camp bed beside me, I helped him set it up, and said, "Then you can sleep for a while."

"I'm not sleepy." He shook his head and refused, "Please, please go back."

"You can't take care of yourself." I wanted to stay with him.

"It's okay, you go quickly." He insisted that I go.

"Okay then." It's not easy for me to be an outsider, so I took out my bank card from my wallet and handed it to him, "Use it first, and call me if you need anything."

He didn't answer, shook his head and didn't speak again.

I put the card on the bedside table, patted Li Yifeng on the shoulder, and walked away slowly.

The next morning I came back with a big bag and a small bag. Li Yifeng had already fallen asleep on the camp bed. I looked at Zhao Yiqiu and put down the things in my hand.

I took out the blanket I brought specially to cover Li Yifeng, and picked up the thermos bottle to fetch water.

After fetching water, Li Yifeng had already woken up because his cousin was awake.

As soon as I arrived at the door, Li Yifeng's hoarse voice came over: "Why don't you really die?!"

Although Zhao Yiqiu's voice was a little weak, it carried a vicious meaning: "Who the hell told you to save me?!"

I hurriedly opened the door and went in, and carefully put the thermos bottle filled with boiling water aside to prevent Li Yifeng from kicking it away in a fit of anger.

Li Yifeng's lack of rest eyes were bloodshot, he stared angrily, and said loudly: "When you said you were going to transfer to Hong Kong for high school, your mother listened to you, gave you money, and asked me to take good care of you , are you sorry for your mother?!"

Zhao Yiqiu sneered, and unconsciously changed his accent into a local accent: "I'm so annoyed that I'm sorry to suppress me!"

"You!" Li Yifeng looked like he really wanted to slap his cousin, and he had indeed raised one hand.

Of course Li Yifeng would not slap him down, he gasped angrily, I pulled his hand away.

"You always blame others and make excuses for yourself. This is the reason for your incompetence." Li Yifeng said angrily.

These words stimulated the rebellious girl who was already emotionally unstable, Zhao Yiqiu yelled: "Get out! Get out! Get out of here!"

I was afraid that Zhao Yi would kick the needle again, so I hurriedly pulled Li Yifeng out of the ward.

Li Yifeng shook off my hand angrily: "Why are you pulling me?!"

I folded my arms helplessly: "A rebellious adolescent girl, the more you scold her, the less she will listen."

Li Yifeng leaned against the wall: "I'm so mad at her! If something really happens, how can I explain it to my aunt!"

I said, "You go home first, take a shower, eat something, and I'll look after her for you."

After a whole night of tossing around, he must be extremely tired, and he also has a cleanliness habit, so he was really shaken: "Then..."

"It's okay, I've already asked for leave from my class." I smiled at him comfortingly.

He nodded gratefully to me, worriedly glanced at Zhao Yiqiu through the glass on the door of the ward before leaving.

Then I played alone, I went back to the ward, Zhao Yiqiu gave me a supercilious look.

I poured some water into the thermos, and smiled softly: "You vomited too much yesterday, you should be very thirsty, the water is too hot to cool before drinking."

Zhao Yiqiu probably didn't expect that I would treat her so patiently, so he nodded awkwardly.

"Do you want to sit up?" I still kept a warm smile and asked intimately.

"Mmm." Sure enough, it was soft but not hard, she responded in a low voice.

I carefully lifted her up and put the pillow on her back. She felt a little embarrassed, and said softly, "Thank you."

Zhao Yiqiu's lips were dry and peeling, she licked her lips in embarrassment, and smiled at me.

I sat on the camp bed and looked at her up and down. She was unhealthily thin, and it seemed that her green hair was often tossed by her. It was dry and unkempt, and her nails were still dyed with pure black nail polish. She was completely..."Noble ".

After so many years, I still don't know that Li Yifeng has such a younger sister. She is thin and sits quietly on the bed, her pupils are dilated.

"You..." I asked tentatively.

She immediately cast a vigilant and unfriendly look, so I stopped, got up and handed her the water glass, "Drink some water."

She took the water glass and held it in her hand but didn't drink it. It took a long time before she whispered, "Tell my brother not to tell my mother."

"This matter is difficult to handle, and your brother may not listen to me." I told the truth.

"My mother knows, she must..." Zhao Yiqiu drank his saliva and closed his eyes.

Now I know I’m scared, middle school kid, it’s no wonder your mother didn’t break your leg if she knew about it.

"...will die of grief." Zhao Yiqiu put the cup back on the bedside table, curled up his legs and buried his face in the quilt.

Unexpectedly, I heard her muffled crying, and I was dumbfounded for a moment.

"I'll discuss it with your brother." I patted her almost bony back.

"She is already very tired, she only has me..." Zhao Yiqiu's shoulders shrugged slightly.

I understand, it turns out that Zhao Yiqiu is a child of a single-parent family. I don't know why the single parent is, this is her private matter, and I won't ask unless she tells me.

"What can make you so upset." I withdrew my hand and sighed, not saying this to her in a questioning tone.

"It's just lovelorn, I was impulsive." Zhao Yiqiu was really moody, she raised her head, and a smile suddenly appeared on her tear-stained face.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"I regretted it after the first sip." Zhao Yiqiu said with a smile, "I tried my best to help myself out of the sea of ​​suffering, but pesticides are really bitter."

"It must be very hard, last night." I nodded and patted Zhao Yiqiu's head.

She looked up at me and said, "It's hard, it's so hard that I don't want to die anymore."

I looked at the dazed girl in front of me, and suddenly felt distressed. I advised softly, "Don't think you have no future to look forward to, try to walk into the circle of ordinary people."

Zhao Yiqiu seemed to like this very much, tears filled her eyes again, and she stared at me.

"It will be fine. You look beautiful without heavy makeup. In the future, you will dye your hair black, eat well, and gain weight. You have your own way to go, and it will be a long way." I smiled encouragingly at her , "Don't try this so-called escape from the sea of ​​suffering. Even if you escape from the sea of ​​suffering, the person who loves you will fall into the sea of ​​suffering because of you. Can you bear it? Your brother loves you very much. When he heard that something happened to you, he came to the hospital When I was in a hurry, I crashed the car, and when I saw him, I was stunned by the collision, but fortunately no one was killed."

Zhao Yiqiu finally felt sorry. It was obvious that she had a good relationship with Li Yifeng. She opened her mouth in surprise when she heard my exaggerated description.

I gave her some tissues and she blew her nose.I helped her lie down again, let her sleep well, and was about to leave the ward when she stopped me.

"I know you." She said hoarsely.

I turned around and looked at her suspiciously.

"I saw you on my cousin's cell phone, and he said that was someone he liked." She smiled at me while curling up under the quilt.

It may be true what she said, but it may have been many years ago.

"I really envy my brother, being able to be with the person I like." Zhao Yiqiu said.

"We're not together." I explained.

Without even thinking about it, Zhao Yiqiu said, "Is there any reason for you not to be together? Or do you despise my brother?"

I really couldn't understand why Zhao Yiqiu was so sure that Li Yifeng still liked me, I sighed and said, "No, it's your brother who hates me."

Zhao Yiqiu laughed hard as if he heard some joke: "My cousin, who wants to save face, moved from Chengdu to Hong Kong for you, and now he just moved from home to the door opposite you, and said he doesn't like you. ?”

I couldn't accept such a large amount of information for a while. Although this is great news for me, I can only half believe it. I can only avoid sensitive topics: "Are you sure it's not because you are too noisy at home?"

Zhao Yiqiu curled his lips unconvinced: "Definitely not."

I said something to her, go to sleep, and walked out of the ward.

That night, around eight o'clock, Li Yifeng came out of the ward. As soon as he came out, he saw me sleeping on the bench in the corridor.

"William Chen, wake up, don't sleep here, you will get sick too." He gently pushed me.

My eyes were sleepy, I saw him squatting in front of me, I sat up straight up, my nose was freezing cold, I rubbed my sore arms, and asked, "What time is it?"

"Eight sixteen." Li Yifeng stood up and looked at his watch, replied, and asked again, "Didn't I let you go? Why are you still here?"

"You haven't had a good meal for two days," I glanced at the box of instant noodles in the trash can, "I know you don't like instant noodles, so I didn't make them for you, and I don't know when you wake up, I'm afraid to buy them The rice will be cold, so wait for you to come out and eat something."

Li Yifeng hesitated, he looked at me for a long time, then squatted down again and asked: "William Chen, what are you thinking?"

I was so sleepy that I pulled him up and said frankly, "I'm afraid you'll be hungry."

I habitually took his hand and walked outside. I don't know if he didn't break away from my hand habitually.

After leaving the hospital, Li Yifeng said that he really had no appetite, so we went to Starbucks.

"Do you remember? We used to sit in Starbucks all night, chatting, chatting about the future." I smelled the same coffee aroma as I remembered, and I sighed, "Afterwards, I seldom come here."

Li Yifeng swiped his phone with his head down, drinking coffee from time to time, but didn't say anything.

I took a sip of coffee, and the atmosphere was slightly embarrassed. I remembered what Zhao Yiqiu said to me during the day, but Li Yifeng's expressionless face obviously denied all Zhao Yiqiu's words.

I didn't want to continue suffering in such embarrassment, saying: "I know I can't go back, and I don't want to go back at all."

I stood up and went to the front desk to pay, and he finally responded: "Wait."

I paused and went to pay the bill.

I was about to leave, but Li Yifeng didn't wait any longer, and followed me out of Starbucks.

The two of us walked aimlessly on the street, the weather became so cool for some time, and our breath was even faintly covered with white mist.

"Yesterday the doctor said some things to pay attention to. My cousin's stomach is burnt out, so she can't eat greasy and spicy food. If you want to eat, eat something easy to digest." I ordered, "I have to go to work tomorrow, so I won't go to see it." her."

Li Yifeng nodded: "Understood, you can go home."

"Well, go back quickly too." I looked at the elongated shadows of us two under the street lamp, and suddenly felt that the two of us walking together felt more lonely than our shadows.

I stopped, and he turned and left first. I watched him tighten his coat and walk alone in the night.

I looked up at the already dark sky, turned around and went into a nearby supermarket, bought a beer and prepared to take it home.

On the way, I took out a bottle, opened the bottle cap with my teeth, and took a sip for myself. Compared with those years, my drinking capacity is much better, because people who get drunk in the wine market have a drinking capacity of Can't be bad.Until two and a half bottles down, I still just feel full but not drunk.

I simply sat on the edge of the flower bed in the park and drank it. Finally, when the fourth bottle was empty, I was drunk.

When people are drunk, they are very comfortable crying and laughing, and almost 90.00% of people are drunk.I stared blankly at the gazes that passers-by cast on me, which was a kind of unscrupulous response.

I lay on the flower bed, looking at the cigarette butt in my hand, the cigarette butt that flickered in the dark night looked like stars, because there are no stars to see now.

I wonder how I let myself go in a way that I can only squeeze into the cracks in the end, so that I am in a dilemma, so that I can't forget but I can't get it.

The wine bottle was gradually empty, I stood up, and fell down firmly after walking two steps, but there was no pain at all.

Thanks to the wine, a sensitive person can't react to anything. I think that when I fell down when I was a child, it hurt so much, and now I feel pain when I think about it, because I didn't know what real pain was at that time.Now that there is a comparison, I don't feel any pain.

When I got home, the first thing I did was to go straight to the toilet. I dug my nails into my throat, and let the wine come up mixed with sour gastric juice. This kind of liquid burned my throat repeatedly. I think I can understand it well. Zhao Yiqiu's miserable feeling.

When I woke up with a hangover, I felt that everything around me was still near and far away. I washed my face and looked at my swollen face in the mirror. I was so depressed that I would just get drunk and live in a dream.

But in the dream, is it just a fairyland that can only laugh but not cry?And in the final analysis, I can only stay awake contradictoryly, occasionally looking forward to the dream.

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