After we broke up, I still asked about your situation

Tong Shen couldn't feel the pain, and only one thought remained in his mind: What should I do?

Tu Jiazhi said that he is not gay, that he likes neither girls nor boys.

"Then didn't I become that sinner?" Tong Shen said in his heart, "I caused him to walk on this road of no return..."

What would Shuber think?

Would wish to kill him...

What kind of repayment is this.

— This is simply revenge.

Even though he knew that the person in his body was already very drunk, Tong Shen couldn't help but tried to save him: "Are you... in a daze for a while? I know that the consciousness of puberty has just sprouted, and it's normal for you to be influenced by me. Yes... Otherwise, I will try not to see you in the future, okay? You, you are in college now, the outside world is very vast, go out and have a look, there are countless people in this world who are better than me, why bother... you How can you see me?"

He babbled a lot, Tu Jiazhi only understood the last sentence, looked at him stupidly and said, "You look good."

"I... I'm so pretty!" Tong Shen was about to die of anger, and shouted loudly, "Why do you have long eyes? Don't you appreciate so many beautiful girls?! What's so good about me?! A trash moth! You are such a smart and good young man, why do you have to look at me?! You..."

"You're so noisy." Tu Jiazhi raised his hand to cover his mouth, pressed his palm against his lips, and the itch spread from his chest to his throat, "Stop talking, once you open your mouth, I can't help it..."

"What are you doing?" Tong Shen asked vigilantly, "You still want to beat me up?!"

"You are so rude." Tu Jiazhi frowned unhappily, "I like you, why would I want to beat you up? Brother really doesn't understand... Oh, you don't understand, you don't want to give your heart, so you never liked over others."

Tong Shen felt that his words were very logical at the moment, and immediately struggled: "Get up and drive quickly when you are awake!"

"That's fine." Tu Jiazhi said to himself, "You've never liked anyone else, so the first one you liked was me."

"...you fart!"

"I didn't fart." Tu Jiazhi asked, "Did brother fart?"

Tong Shen couldn't catch his breath: "My mother..."

"It doesn't smell." Tu Jiazhi said and was about to turn him over to have a look, "Let me have a look."

"Damn it!" Tong Shen was scared to death, and quickly grabbed the sofa, "I was wrong! I was wrong! I didn't fart! Don't look! You're stupid! How can there be such a rogue drunk like you!"

"I'm not a hooligan..." Realizing that he was accused, Tu Jiazhi felt aggrieved, "I've endured it very well...I didn't even kiss you."

"... Grass!" Tong Shen's eyes widened, and he was at a loss for words, "Tu Jiazhi, let me warn you! You, don't mess around! This kind of thing...even if you are drunk... Anyway, you If you really dare, I will definitely beat you tomorrow...you, try it!"

As soon as he spoke for a long time, Tu Jiazhi couldn't tell the difference, only from the tone of his voice, he seemed to be angry.

"Brother, don't be angry." Tu Jiazhi remembered Tong Shen's actions every time he comforted himself, and followed suit clumsily, fingers lightly running through his hair, patted his chest and assured, "I'll be good."

"..."

Tong Shen looked at him for a while, suddenly felt blessed, and asked tentatively, "If you are good, will you listen to me?"

"Listen." Tu Jiazhi said affirmatively, "Everything is up to you."

"Then..." Tong Shen glanced to the side, "I'm thirsty and want to drink water."

"Okay." Tu Jiazhi didn't say a word, let go of him, got up, and walked outside crookedly.

Tong Shen hadn't had time to breathe a sigh of relief when he saw that he almost tripped over with his left foot hooked up with his right foot, so he hurried over to grab him: "Okay, I'm not thirsty anymore, you sit down."

Tu Jiazhi fell backwards, and then tried to sit up straight with difficulty, with his hands firmly on his knees.

Tong Shen wanted to laugh.

This person usually has a deep and unpredictable appearance, it is rare to see him being stupid, and it is quite amusing.

After laughing, he continued to feel sad. He only hoped that this kid would wake up tomorrow morning with fragments of amnesia, then he could act as if nothing had happened.

As for the future... In the future, try to reduce contact as much as possible.Tong Shen thought optimistically, after all, the cub is still young, and there is a high probability that he was influenced by him. When he sees a wider world in the future, he will definitely be able to go straight back.

but……

Tong Shen felt unspeakably uncomfortable at the thought of reducing contact with Tu Jiazhi.

They have been together day and night for so many years, how hard must they work to adapt to life without each other?

The more Tong Shen thought about it, the more he felt his throat was congested.

He sighed, and slowly squatted down in front of Tu Jiazhi, raised his head slightly and stared at the young man's blushing handsome face.

"Originally, your elder brother only let me take care of you until you became an adult, so today I can be regarded as a consummation of merit." Tong Shen said softly, as if talking to himself, "You are fine, but I actually didn't take care of you very much. Sometimes...you take care of me more. So, you can take care of yourself without my asking. "

"I, I miss you a little bit." Tong Shen lowered his head and remained silent for a while before continuing, "I miss you very much."

His nose was a little sour: "For these few years, I really treat you as..."

The words got stuck here, Tong Shen originally wanted to say "son", but felt that this was really inappropriate, wanted to say "brother", but felt that he treated him far more than just a younger brother.

He thought about it for a long time, and secretly castigated that he was really uneducated. If Tu Jiazhi were to come, he would definitely be able to figure out a hundred and eight tricks.

"I'll treat you... as my heart." Tong Shen laughed at himself after speaking, "Don't think I'm stupid, I'm telling the truth."

"I've never cared so much about anyone in my life..."

He felt aggrieved as he spoke, and couldn't help the heat in his eyes: "I never thought about being separated from you...Really. I have thought about it. When you get married in the future, I will represent your parents. I am alone. Sit at the same table, if you have a child, I will raise it as my own, just like my brother and sister, send the child to MIT, Cambridge, Oxford, Harvard... But you... how can you... ...How can you have such a crooked mind? How can you force me like this? You are so fucking heartless...Fuck! "

The more you talk, the harder it is to make a decision, Tong Shen stood up abruptly: "I'm leaving."

"Where are you going?" Tu Jiazhi looked up in shock, and hurriedly grabbed his hand, "Brother...where are you going?"

"Go...to your bedroom." Tong Shen said, "You're drunk, I'll take you to sleep, let's go."

"Oh." Tu Jiazhi felt relieved, holding his hand but not letting go.

Tong Shen led him to the bedroom, put him on the bed, covered him with a quilt, and turned off the light.

The room was plunged into darkness, Tu Jiazhi held Tong Shen tightly, and said in fear, "Brother, don't go..."

"I won't go." Tong Shen wiped away his tears vigorously, and comforted him choked with sobs, "Go to sleep, I will accompany you."

"I, I can't sleep..."

"Aren't you dizzy?" Tong Shen said, "Close your eyes and fall asleep in a while."

After speaking, he hummed a lullaby softly.

It wasn't the usual lullaby, it was a unique tune passed down from his grandmother to his mother, and it sounded very gentle.

Tong Shen was a little talented in art since he was a child. He can learn both art and music very well, but he is lazy, so he is not good at anything.

Fortunately, he still has a good voice. Even if he can't remember to tune it when humming, it will give people a kind of wonderful enjoyment as it should be.

After tossing around for most of the night, Tu Jiazhi was indeed a little tired, unknowingly falling asleep in his gentle voice.

Woke up the next day with a splitting headache, but unfortunately, he was not as broken as Tong Shen expected.

He clearly remembered every word Tong Shen said, and the first thing he did when he woke up was to rush to Tong Shen's room——

Sure enough, it was empty.

Tong Shen stayed with him until early in the morning, and left a note saying that he was on a business trip. If he was afraid of being late, things would change. He bought a plane ticket and fled overnight.

When the plane landed, Tong Shen just took out his phone to cancel the flight mode, and the information flooded in like a flood.

Before he could click to open it, the phone of the partner of the studio kept ringing like a urging call.

Tong Shen quickly connected, wondering if the studio is going to close down so soon?

Before he could speak, he broke down and shouted: "Brother Shen, where are you, my God?! Pity us! Your illegitimate son is about to overthrow our place! Do you care?!"

"...Ah?" Tong Shen didn't react, "What illegitimate child?"

"You're the one who was admitted to Huaqing!" The partner wailed in despair, "Don't you brag about him every day?! Why are you a fucking lunatic?! Can you control it?! Can you send him to prison for education? Okay ah?!"

Hearing the word "prison", Tong Shen exploded on the spot like being poked into a tube in his lung: "What the hell are you talking about?!"

"...No..." The partner was stunned by his voice, "You...Brother Shen, are you okay?"

"You said I'm okay?!" Tong Shen said angrily, "Who are you cursing?! If you can't use your mouth, cut it off and feed it to the dog!"

"No... I didn't mean that, Brother Shen." The partner said awkwardly, "I'm about to talk, so don't get angry, Brother Shen, I'll take it back, okay?"

Tong took a deep breath, not in the mood to argue with him: "What's going on?"

"It's your... uh, your brother, isn't it?" the partner said, "He came here early in the morning. Before we opened the door, he has been squatting here. I just checked the surveillance and he has been sitting there. At the door, I didn’t drink any water, and I squatted for more than seven hours. I came to pick up something after dinner in the afternoon and saw him. As soon as he entered the door, he was crazy... Grass! You didn’t see him like that, really he Mom was so crazy that I almost called the police!"

"Stop adding oil and vinegar!" Tong Shen roared, "Get to the point!"

"I didn't... Oh, okay, let me get to the point." The partner said, "Anyway, he came in and rummaged everywhere, even under the fucking rug! After rummaging, he asked me if I saw you. I'll call everyone who knows you... I'm really, I'm dead, okay? Brother, please brother, just take care of him, okay?"

"I..." Tong Shen opened his mouth and muttered, "If I can control him, why don't I go abroad in the middle of the night..."

"...Where are you?!" The partner thought he heard it wrong, "Where the fuck did you say you were?!"

"...Overseas." Tong Shen sighed guiltyly, "I really have nothing to do with him... I didn't expect him to go to the studio to make trouble, I just knew he might go to look for me, and forget it , I didn't know...he usually looks quite stable..."

"Are you kidding me?!" the partner said, "Catching a stray cat on the street is more stable than him!"

"Fart! Don't speak ill of him to me!" Tong Shen said, "Just tell me, how is he doing now?! Where is he?!"

"You...you are still in the studio, I sneaked out to call you." The partner suddenly lowered his voice, "Brother Shen, I didn't say that, although he is crazy, he is really crazy." It's very pitiful, you didn't hear what he said... He said that his relationship with you is not as good as that between a dog and its owner, and the dog can follow the smell to find home, but he only knows your studio, you said... ...You, why can't you two talk about it face to face? Why do you have to make such a fuss?"

Tong Shen's heart was clenched tightly, and he couldn't breathe for a long time: "He...he really said that?"

"Can I lie to you?!"

"……Oh."

"Don't!" the partner said anxiously, "How are you going to solve it? I have something to do in a while, so I can't lock him here, can I?"

Tong Shen hesitated for a moment, then sighed resignedly: "If you're not far from him, give him the phone and I'll tell him."

"Not far not far!" The partner said quickly, "Just wait! I'll go find him right away!"

There was a noise in the earphone, and after a while, a cautious "Hello" came from the other side.

In just one day and one night, the voice was so hoarse that Tong Shen could hardly recognize it.

He regretted it instantly: "You go home and stay, I will buy the earliest ticket to come back."

"Yes." Tu Jiazhi didn't blame him, but obediently replied, "I'll wait for you."

"Don't wait for me, go to sleep when the time comes." Tong Shen said distressedly, "I've been here for more than ten hours, and you can see me when you open your eyes, good boy."

"Why do you..." Tu Jiazhi's voice trembled faintly, "How could you go so far away?"

Tong Shen's eyes were so wet that he couldn't see the way clearly: "I, I got a brain fever..."

"Do you hate me that much?" Tu Jiazhi asked softly as if he was afraid of scaring him, "It's so far... how do you let me find you? If I can't find you..."

He said in a low voice: "If I can't find you, how can I live?"

"...Don't say such things!" Tong Shen was so frightened that his heart stopped suddenly, "Don't do stupid things! Did you hear that?! As for?! Tu Jiazhi, can you have some backbone?! What am I? Ah?! I What the hell is going to kill you?!"

"What are you?" Tu Jiazhi curled his lower lip silently, "What do you think you are?"

"I……"

"You are my backbone." Tu Jiazhi said, "You are my life."

"..."

"If it wasn't for you..." he whispered, "I would have been buried in the snow-capped mountains with my family when I was 15 years old."

"You, what nonsense are you talking about?!" Tong Shen was almost crushed to death by the weight of his words, and said in horror, "It's your fate that you survived that disaster! How can you say it's because of me?!"

"Living alone is hard, brother."

"How could it be! You are obviously very strong, you..."

"Even if I don't die, I will still live in a muddy mud." Tu Jiazhi said, "It's not because I have no expectations for my future life, but...just at that moment, it's hard, can you understand? I'm not that good, really Yes, if I was the only one left at that time, it would be really difficult for me to survive."

"That's how people are," he said. "When you fall down, you can't get up again. No matter how proud I was, the spine was broken, and it must be healed by someone, otherwise it can only continue to be broken." , or hang on for breath, or die completely, don’t you think so?”

"I..." Tong Shen was speechless, "I don't know..."

"I know, I have experienced it myself. It doesn't matter if you don't understand, I can tell you, brother, you are the bandage that binds my spine. I don't want any backbone, I just want you." Tu Jiazhi said warmly, " If you hate what I said last night, I will never say it again. I can, can...not like you. So you come back soon, okay?"

When he said this, the partner was standing by. Hearing his tone and these contents, the partner felt his body was cold and his scalp was numb, and he wanted to call 120 immediately.

But Tong Shen didn't realize it.

He just felt distressed, both remorse and guilt.

He never thought that Tu Jiazhi would rely on him to such an extent. If he had known earlier, he would definitely have considered another way.

At least he won't use this stupid way of running away overnight.

It took more than ten hours for the plane to land, and it was already the second night when Tong Shen returned home.

Tu Jiazhi stayed up all this time, when he heard the door knock, he bounced reflexively.

Tong Shen didn't bother to change his shoes, threw his things away, and came over to hold him tightly in his arms.

But Tu Jiazhi was afraid that he would be disgusted, so he froze and did not dare to hug him back.

After a while, Tong Shen let go, patted him on the shoulder and said, "Let's have a good talk."

"Yeah." Tu Jiazhi nodded, and asked again, "Are you hungry? I'll cook a bowl of noodles for you."

"I'm not hungry, I ate something on the plane." Tong Shen said, "You're tired too, come and sit down, don't make a fuss."

"Then I'll get you a cup of hot water." Tu Jiazhi waved his hands awkwardly, "I'll be quick, you sit first."

Seeing that he was getting more and more uncomfortable like this, Tong Shen waited on the sofa for a while fidgeting, and when he saw him coming with a water glass, he quickly got up to pick it up.

In just over a day, the two suddenly became strangers as if they had been apart for ten years.

Tong Shen sat on one side of the sofa, looked at Tu Jiazhi who was sitting on the other side of the sofa, struggled for a few seconds, licked his lips and said, "Then what, you, you don't need to be so far away from me, I really don't hate you...how can I May hate you?"

Tu Jiazhi silently moved a little to this side, but still kept a gap.

Tong Shen had no choice but to take the initiative to approach him, returning to the distance they used to get along naturally.

"I don't hate you." Seeing that Tu Jiazhi didn't dare to look up, Tong Shen emphasized again, "I hate no one and I won't hate you, so don't think too much about it. I'm just... just guilty, and I don't know how to face you, after all You have followed me since you were a teenager, and now that you have done this, my responsibility must be the greatest..."

"You have no responsibility." Tu Jiazhi interrupted him, "I covet you."

"No...you were only young at that time, you must have been influenced by me..."

"At that time, the classmates I fell in love with had changed several boyfriends and girlfriends." Tu Jiazhi said, "I know what I am thinking, and I am not so easily influenced by you."

"no……"

"If you came to apologize to me and admit your mistakes, then it goes without saying." Tu Jiazhi said bluntly, "I don't want to hear it."

"Then..." Tong Shen asked dully, "Then what do you want to hear?"

Tu Jiazhi turned to look at him: "You know what I want to hear."

"..." Tong Shen's Adam's apple rolled, "I, I can't promise you about that matter... Otherwise, how would I face your brother?"

"You rejected me because you dare not face him?" Tu Jiazhi asked persuasively, "Isn't it because you don't like me?"

"I, I like you, but definitely not that kind of liking." Tong Shen said, "I like you like a child. I think you are very cute and excellent. You..."

"I was taller than you when I met you at the age of 14." Tu Jiazhi said, "I'm not cute, and I'm not a child."

"But you are young..."

"I'm not young now." Tu Jiazhi said, "I'm an adult."

"But you are very small in my eyes..." Tong Shen said irritably, "I really can't understand why you have such thoughts, we have such a big age difference, you..."

"I'm only six years younger than you." Tu Jiazhi almost became angry with embarrassment, "Six years old, maybe you think it's a big difference from 24 years old, but what about 30 and 36 years old? 60 and 66 years old? Really? Is there such a big difference?"

Tong Shen's lips moved, as if he couldn't refute.

Tu Jiazhi stared at him for a while, swallowed dryly in his throat, and said without looking away: "I know that I am a bit deviant."

Tong nodded deeply in agreement, and was about to echo a few more words when he changed the subject:

"But so what? I followed the rules for the first 18 years, lived like a ruler, and didn't dare to make a single mistake. Everyone said that I was young and old, and I had to learn to carry the family at a young age...but I am, I can't Presumptuous?"

Tu Jiazhi tilted his head again, eyes locked on Tong Shen's face, and asked pleadingly: "Can't I unscrupulously... fight for what I want?"

Tong Shen was silent.

Tu Jiazhi waited for a while, but didn't hear him speak, so he continued spontaneously: "But I don't want to force you. I know you have always treated me like a child, that's why you want to confess to you so anxiously. I'm afraid... I'm afraid if I If you don't say it, you will just treat me as a child for the rest of your life. I didn't expect you to agree now..."

Tong Shen: "I promise."

"I'm just afraid that you don't take me seriously. I hope you can at least consider me when you want to fall in love in the future, so I..."

Tu Jiazhi stopped talking suddenly, and after a while he turned his head in disbelief and asked, "What did you say?"

"I said, I promise you." Tong Shen didn't have the nerve to look at him, and anxiously brushed his hair and said, "I made up my mind on the plane, if I can't convince you when I come back today, then I will try to talk to you .”

After a pause, Tong Shen added: "Of course, it's not that I'm really here now, it's just... that's what you said, I'll try to accept you first, at least change my attitude towards you... Just, I'll try my best not to treat you like a child..."

Tu Jiazhi couldn't come back to his senses for a long time, he froze into a sculpture in place.

Tong Shen poked him on the shoulder: "Speak, what do you think?"

"I..." Tu Jiazhi stared at his hand intently, and said in a daze, "Are you serious?"

"Really." Tong Shen said, "I'm sick, did I lie to you about this?"

"……Oh."

"Oh?" Tong Shen raised his eyebrows, "Is that how you react?"

Tu Jiazhi glanced at him: "No."

"Then what do you mean?"

"I have a very strong reaction. In my heart." Tu Jiazhi said, "It's a reaction that you can't allow."

Tong Shen: "..."

"Thank you." Tu Jiazhi buried his head, "Thank you brother."

Tong Shen didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "What's there to thank for that?"

He whispered: "Anyway, I actually..."

Not really.

It's just that Tu Jiazhi's real state on the phone frightened him. He didn't have the time to think about what was wrong. After all, if he really killed the little boy, then Shu Bai might not just want to beat him to death.

So he thought about it for more than ten hours on the plane, and came up with such an expedient plan.

He thought that Tu Jiazhi relied on him so much now, just because he had no relatives around him now, so he felt lonely easily.

But after another year, Shu Bai will be released from prison. By then... he shouldn't need him so much, right?

Anyway, what happened this time made Tong Shen understand that even if he withdraws, he must pay attention to the timing. Now is the time when Tu Jiazhi can't leave him the most, so he can wait and procrastinate.

But one year has passed in the blink of an eye.

But he didn't expect the young man's affection to be so violent, and he completely misjudged the little thing's face.

He really didn't expect that Lengtouqing, who had never been in a relationship before, could be so impatient.

I just said it was just trying not to treat him like a child, it seemed to him that they were fast forwarding to being together!

Just as Tong Shen finished answering that sentence, Tu Jiazhi immediately leaned over, stared at him with innocent and innocent eyes, and asked nervously:

"Then can I kiss you now, brother?"

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Tremble, I'm going to write sweet, I'm tired of you, hehe.