Difficult to return

During more than a month from the end of spring to the beginning of summer, Song Shuhua still withstood all kinds of pressure, quarrels and intimidation from the Song family, and managed to make this marriage come to an end.

In fact, he knew very well that it was Lu Mingchen who took the initiative to bear half of the divorce responsibility for him that made him struggle until now, and he never revealed in front of his parents that he really didn't want to divorce.Until now, their parents think that each of them has half of the reasons, and that Lu Mingchen, as the leader of their small family, should take more responsibility.

The air conditioner in the Civil Affairs Bureau was fully turned on, and the staff in the window were all wearing two-piece uniforms. Song Shuhua, who was only wearing a shirt, felt the cold through his vest.

He and Lu Mingchen sat in front of the window expressionlessly, handed in their materials as required, and waited for the staff to review them.

People with the same expressionless and indifferent expressions like them sat in the queue behind them.Some couples can't even sit together, leaving an empty seat between them.

There are neither those who are sad about marriage crying nor those who feel relieved are happy.Regardless of whether they are reluctant or relieved, at this point, most people's faces are full of scars after one fierce battle after another, leaving only numbness and desolation.

The same is true for Song Shuhua.Lu Mingchen didn't readily agree at the beginning, but after knowing his determination, he didn't deliberately make things difficult for him.Now that he got the result he wanted, he should feel relieved and relaxed.In fact, sitting here did not feel good to him.

Maybe this is marriage, no matter whether you enter voluntarily or leave voluntarily, in short, when it ends, you have to peel off a layer of skin and lose a kind of life.

The staff flipped through their materials, raised their heads and said to the two of them, "You two came here not long ago. I remember that you persuaded them well at that time. Why are you leaving again just a month ago?"

"At that time, we didn't persuade it well. We knew we wouldn't do it for the first time, and we didn't want to waste everyone's time. Let's go through the motions." Lu Mingchen said indifferently.

The staff at the window were so choked by him that they opened their mouths and had nothing to say.

"We've really thought about it, let's get a divorce." Song Shuhua asked the window again.

Gathering time for the two of them, preparing materials, and queuing up with numbers... Not only is it troublesome, but every time he does it, he has to go to Lu Mingchen to communicate repeatedly. At this stage, every contact is embarrassing.

There was a sound of "chop, chop, chop" stamping, the marriage certificate handed in was invalidated, and two brand new divorce certificates were handed out from the window, followed by the sound of horns, and the couple behind them couldn't wait to stand behind them.

Get out of the divorce window in the small room, and pass by the row of marriage windows in the hall.Here a pair of waiting couples sit together and still hold each other's hands, sideways and close together.

They came out together with a pair of young people who had just received their certificates. The boy put his arms around the girl's shoulders, and the two of them hugged each other and walked quickly to the front.The boy called his wife nervously, but the girl was shy and asked him not to call him that outside.

Since an hour ago, when they met in front of the civil affairs building, the two had not spoken.It wasn't until after completing the procedures and arriving in front of the building again that Lu Mingchen asked, "How did you get here just now, did you drive?"

Song Shuhua shook his head: "I took a taxi."

Lu Mingchen took out the car keys: "Where are you going next, I'll see you off."

Song Shuhua hesitated for a moment: "No, let's separate here."

"...Alright."

"Goodbye."

"Goodbye. Take care..."

Lu Mingchen probably wants to say something else, such as being friends after divorce, if you encounter difficulties, just come to him and so on.Before he could figure out what to say next, Song Shuhua nodded to him: "You too."

After saying this, he took the lead and walked in the opposite direction of the parking lot in the yard.

Lu Mingchen's car drove out of the compound of the Civil Affairs Bureau, and Song Shuhua had disappeared.He drove the car into the traffic flow of the highway like a fish swimming.Only he himself knows that at this time he has no destination, doesn't know where he is going, and has no place he wants to go. He just drifts with other vehicles.

The car drove up the elevated highway, and Lu Mingchen turned on the stereo, feeling overwhelmed by the quiet atmosphere.The carriage was immediately filled with Eason Chan's deep and slightly hoarse voice——

rose red

easily hurt dreams

Hold it in your hand but lose it between your fingers

Lost again...

……

Lu Mingchen's vision became blurred, and tears fell on the steering wheel until he could no longer see the road ahead, and no longer knew the direction of life. He parked the car on the side of the road and buried his head on the steering wheel , burst into tears...

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A continuous rain made City A cool down, and it also completely washed away the summer heat.When it cleared up again, the sky became higher and farther away, and it already had the taste of autumn.

Three or four months have passed since Song Shuhua's divorce, and he still often receives calls from his parents, especially his mother, asking him to think carefully and persuade Lu Mingchen to remarry.He also tempted him with the company's equity. If he can find a way to remarry, Zihua's equity will also be given to him.

It seemed that the mother was very anxious, but he knew that it was his father who was really anxious, because the Song family was in an embarrassing situation, and the company could only be placed in Lu Mingchen's hands. Now that this person has become an outsider, his father must be very worried.

Song Shuhua believed that Lu Mingchen would not betray the Song family on this point.If he was not sure in the past, after this divorce, his understanding of Lu Mingchen has increased.

He originally thought that Lu Mingchen was a "businessman" in essence, because he had a very strong businessman temperament exactly like his father - reason, restraint, desire to control, and a strong desire to pursue fame and fortune.

What he didn't expect was that at the end of their divorce agreement, in terms of property division, Lu Mingchen not only gave him the house they lived in together, but also strictly divided half of the marital property to him.Lu Mingchen's personal investments, stocks, funds, foreign exchange...all the assets were converted into cash by professionals, and half of them were given to Song Shuhua.

Lu Mingchen told Song Shuhua that as long as he can protect this property and not be cheated, the money will be enough for him to live for the rest of his life.So let him find that he still can't work after trying, and don't fall for money in a place like QUEEN.

Song Shuhua didn't think he had a reason to take the money, but Lu Mingchen said that it was what he deserved under the law, and it was also compensation for taking care of his family for so many years.Song Shuhua said that even if it is compensation, it should not be so much, and he has not brought any big benefits to the family's economy.Tired of talking, Lu Mingchen signed the divorce agreement, telling him to "sign if you want a divorce, or leave."

Even though the marriage was divorced, and she successfully disobeyed her parents' orders, in the end, Song Shuhua still felt that she had failed.

Her husband had always been protecting her during her marriage, and she also got her husband's help in the matter of divorce. After the divorce, he still had to rely on Lu Mingchen's protection.

Song Shuhua did not touch the money.The money legally belongs to him, but he is very guilty and does not feel that it is his due property. It may take some time to figure out how to deal with the money.

He did not continue to live in the house they lived together, and rented another well-decorated one-bedroom apartment in the same neighborhood as the old house at a cheap price.

I am used to living in the flats in the central area, but now I am not used to living in a small house in an old community, but there are too many traces of their life together in that house, and Song Shuhua doesn't want to face it.

Probably due to the same reason, Lu Mingchen only took away few things from that house, even the clothes he used to wear in season, and Song Shuhua only let Song Shuhua handle the rest.

He didn't know what to do, so he simply closed the door, shutting their past life and days together in that house, making it all an untouchable past.As for when to open it again, he didn't know.

As for the actual situation of divorce property division, his parents did not know.Lu Mingchen asked him not to speak, and Song Shuhua also knew that he could not speak.

In the past few months, he has also been trying to find a job. There are few jobs suitable for him. In addition to his personality and lack of work experience, he has not found a suitable one.He also failed the teacher qualification test.At present, I still rely on the performance income in QUEEN to support my life.

When he was in QUEEN, he was still the same as before. Although he didn't spend the money lying in the bank, it did become his confidence to "get out of the mud without staining".Lu Mingchen was right again, spending money from his ex-husband is better than pleasing guests for money.

And his performance in QUEEN also ushered in a low tide period.

After Xiaofeng left, a group of newcomers came, and the interest of many guests was attracted by the newcomers.And that time when he appeared on the stage in men's clothing was also a huge blow to his popularity, not only because he failed to meet the expectations of others, but because the mysterious beauty showed his true face, and his seductive mystery disappeared.The biggest problem is that his recent performances are always wrong, not to mention, he has also lost his unique aesthetic feeling and has become very mediocre.

Everyone could see that he was not in the right state. The director had talked to him many times, but he kept silent.

Song Shuhua knew very well that the reason why his performance was not good was because he could no longer find happiness on this stage, and he could no longer go on stage with an excited mood.

Not just the stage, but everything, whether it was dresses, high heels or expensive jewelry, he had lost interest, and this loss had been a long time ago, starting with the loss of the love object he had never met.

The feeling of being broken in love is still going on, and it has been too long for him to bear.

Originally thought that he would be able to come out soon, even the drag of the divorce some time ago made him burnt out, he had no time to think about it, and had the illusion that he had already come out.It was just an unrequited love, compared to everything he faced in reality, it was nothing worth mentioning.

However, after all the dust settled, the state of not being interested in anything, the feeling of loneliness, and the longing for that person grew like a meadow after the rain.

He can only talk to Xiaofeng.

"I don't understand why this is happening. I feel like I'm dying. I miss him all the time. I just stop thinking about him. I know he won't come to QUEEN again, but I still go to the show every day and pretend he's still in the audience. ...How did I become like this?" Song Shuhua covered his face with pain.

"If you want me to tell you, you might as well ask him out to meet." Xiaofeng on the other side of the screen was very worried. He was about to make a new boyfriend, but he didn't expect that TT hadn't come out of the broken relationship on the Internet. I’ve been dating online before. In fact, online dating is all about projecting your own imagination onto the other person. The real person may not be as good as you think. The illusion built by imagination can be easily broken by reality, otherwise online dating is basically blind die."

"Have you ever dated online?"

"Yes, when I was in junior high school. On the Internet, I thought that person was very good. He knew a lot and understood me very well. He also recharged Q coins for me. He was like a prince charming. But when we met, I found out that he was a greasy uncle with a thick hairline. It has receded to the back of my head, and my forehead is as oily as a spoon, and I was so scared that I ran away."

Song Shuhua smiled wryly: "Is it really so scary?"

"Really. So think about why that person didn't even post a photo? A good-looking person can't help but not post a photo of himself? You just open any software and post photos of your hands, abs, and photos That's right, men are things like this, anyone who can get them would want to show them. Even if they are useless and only have one height, they will write that they are 180."

"He should not be such a person."

"How do you know if you haven't seen it? I feel that this kind of thing is unreliable. It's the valuable experience of someone who has been here."

Song Shuhua lowered his head, frowned and thought for a while: "He said he wouldn't meet."

"How do you know if you don't try?"