Difficult to return

I don't know if it's Zihua's current situation that is in dire straits, or Song's father's anger at his son's loss of control. During this time, Song Shuhua has been repeatedly forced to propose remarriage to Lu Mingchen.

First, Song's father repeatedly called and scolded him as an unworthy son, a scum, and a white-eyed wolf. Then his mother called and cried and complained about the harm caused to the family and the entire family due to his divorce, and the relatives of the Song family also called one by one to persuade him.

Seeing that he was still indifferent, one day people from the Song family actually found his family's community in City A, and called him because they were stopped by security guards at the door.Fortunately, he moved out and did not live in that house. Otherwise, he really didn't know if he could bear such persecution and censure face to face.

In the end, he didn't bother much, and his psychology was pushed to the limit. He turned off his mobile phone, and the world suddenly became quiet.

It was also at this moment that he was surprised to find that he could get rid of those annoying people in the Song family. He could use avoidance to get rid of his fearful father and his bored but helpless mother.

He can't convince them, he can't resist them, but he can escape, he can hide far away, so that they can never find him again.

Lu Mingchen kept asking him why he was so afraid of his father.Song Shuhua only said that he didn't understand everything. At this moment, he suddenly understood the other party.He was no longer the child who couldn't protect himself.He's a grown man in his 30s, and even if he doesn't have that fortune, at least he can support himself and he doesn't need to depend on anyone, especially his parents.Except for some emotional and moral kidnapping, the parents have nothing to do with him.

Thinking about it this way, Song Shuhua suddenly became enlightened, and naturally put all the troubles of the Song family aside.

But this does not mean that he has no worries, and just like Lu Mingchen wished, he has stepped into a new life.

He was very troubled because of Lu Mingchen.

With the passage of time, Lu Mingchen's online and offline fusion became more and more clear, and he also recalled more and more details that he had never thought about in the past, and the more troubled he was about them.

There was a time when Lu Mingchen was always away, Song Shuhua subconsciously thought that he had a new lover, but in fact they chatted a lot during that time, Lu Mingchen was not at home just for the convenience of chatting with him.

And earlier, when he was at the Song family, Lu Mingchen asked him about wearing skirts when he was a child, and said that he just wanted to know him better, probably hoped that he could have a showdown, and the two of them had a good talk.But he was too worried to say a word.

Later, Lu Mingchen insisted on adding him as a friend, and the fierce words he said about his revealing clothes and dancing after adding friends, if he said it from the identity of "husband", it is actually very understandable.But Song Shuhua only thought it was a stranger, and insulted him a lot, until finally Lu Mingchen said - no one loves me, and my lover doesn't love me either.

It turned out that the "lover" in his mouth was himself. He once suspected that he was a transgender person. How sad and desperate he must have been when he said this to himself.

And Song Shuhua was moved by these words, moved by a stranger's love and understanding for his lover, but never looked at the husband who really paid for him.

During that time, there were always Beatles records playing at home, and Lu Mingchen always dragged him to watch the movies he had already seen, and discussed some literary works with him.He was just puzzled, even annoyed. Thinking about it now, those were Lu Mingchen's efforts to get closer to him after being rejected countless times by him.

These details are like the end of a thread, more and more they are pulled, and they can't stop. The clues that are pulled out fill the whole mind, and the head of each clue has only one name——Lu Mingchen.

He began to regret a little, whether the decision to divorce was still too hasty.

He has some doubts, is this because he has left no love for Lu Mingchen's Internet person?Maybe he was woken up by the Song family's ignorant words?Or maybe, they have lived together for so many years, and some of the feelings they have been together day and night have already been buried in their hearts?

He didn't know why his persistent yearning for Lu Mingchen came from at this moment. Reason told him that he should be quiet for a while, wait a little longer, and think everything through before he said it. The most important thing to do is never Go to bother each other again.But it was the same as before, he was never as rational as Lu Mingchen.

After struggling repeatedly, he breathed a sigh of relief and called Lu Mingchen.

"Hello, I'm Lu Mingchen, who is it?"

Only then did Song Shuhua remember that in order to avoid the Song family, he changed his phone number.

"I am me."

Lu Mingchen obviously recognized his voice, but he didn't speak, and there was only a little breathing in the receiver.

Song Shuhua was already very nervous, but the other party's silence made his throat tight, his breathing was messed up, and his mind was full of things to say.

"My parents keep calling me, asking me to talk to you..." Song Shuhua immediately realized that he was about to say the wrong thing, and quickly stopped, "Anyway, it's very annoying. I changed the phone and didn't let them contact me. During this time, I always Use this number...in case something happens in the future...you can save it."

"it is good."

"..." The other party's indifferent attitude has been conveyed to him through the tone of not wanting to continue talking with him, and Song Shuhua's heart was suddenly a little uncomfortable, "Then what, I like the necklace you gave me... Thank you! "

"You're welcome."

"I also want to buy one for my friend..."

Before he could finish speaking, Lu Mingchen said, "I'll give you the phone number of the store later, you can contact me yourself."

"...Okay, excuse me."

Both of them were silent for a while, Song Shuhua was really struggling to find new topics, Lu Mingchen asked, "Is there anything else?"

This means to hang up the phone.

Song Shuhua hurriedly said: "There is one more thing..."

The other party waited quietly for him to speak.

"...can we talk sometime?"

"Talk about what?"

"..."

Yeah, what are we talking about?Talk about how he was upset for him during this time?About the guilt he felt for ignoring everything he gave in the first place?Talking about meeting him but unable to let go, unable to start a new life, let Lu Mingchen give him an idea like in the past, and tell him what to do?

"Sorry, I'm in the company now, I'm a little busy, so I'll hang up first."

"well……"

Before Song Shuhua could finish speaking, the other party had already hung up the phone.

His heart seemed to be grasped by a cold hand. Sadness and grievances flooded in. Whether it was from "husband" or "netizen", he had never encountered such indifference.But now the person on the other side of the phone is neither his husband nor a netizen, he should have thought of it when he made the call.

Lu Mingchen has never been such a procrastinating person like him, but can he really just let it go and let it all go without any emotion left?

No matter what he thought, the answer given by the other party was just like this - he didn't want to talk to him anymore, and he didn't even want to talk too much.

Stop contacting each other, let go of the other party, and let go of yourself too, the entanglement of love or not love for so many years is enough, Song Shuhua said to himself.

But within two days, he charged forward with enthusiasm and drove directly to Zihua.

It was because he repeatedly remembered the kindness the other party had treated him, even the divorce was put first, and the last meeting gave him the necklace he wanted, and the last words were to let him be good.

But he couldn't do anything well, he was tangled and sad now, he couldn't figure out anything, only a mess.

He has never been so emotionally turbulent. He used to be always depressed and depressed, wishing to turn himself into an emotionless puppet.But now, the feeling of breaking the embankment is like a flock of free sheep on the grassland, slanting down like a wave, rushing forward regardless, he can't handle such chaotic and complicated emotions, he just subconsciously wants to seek help, wants to Find sustenance.He didn't know what to do when he saw Lu Mingchen, but he just came.

Standing in front of Zihua's office building for the second time, Bonkou squeezed in with the flow of people.Similarly, I was stopped by the automatic gate on the first floor.He picked out a nice-looking person and asked him to swipe his card for him.The man flicked it for him, and Song Shuhua got on the elevator and pressed the 32nd floor directly.

However, as the elevator went up, Song Shuhua's courage was fading, and his blood was cooling down. Lu Mingchen said that he would never see him again. What would happen if the other party saw him again?Do you just let him go indifferently, or do you get angry at him, think he doesn't know what's good, and then tell him to get out and never appear in front of him again?

Just thinking about the possibility of humiliating himself made his legs weak, and he instinctively wanted to escape.However, the elevator has stopped at the 32nd floor.

He bit the bullet and got off the elevator. To his surprise, Zihua's door was open, and there was no one at the front desk.Not only was there no one at the front desk, even the employees who were in a hurry came and went the last time I came, and the first floor seemed too quiet.

Song Shuhua knew the location of Lu Mingchen's office, so he walked in nervously.No one stopped him this time, not only that, but there was no one in the corridor inside the company, and there was no sound.He still remembered the last time when he passed by the sales department outside, it was noisy inside like a quarrel.

He went all the way to the door with the sign of the general manager, but the door was not closed tightly, leaving a crack.

Song Shuhua stood by the door, taking deep breaths before raising his hand to knock on the door.At this time, the voice from inside came intermittently: "Mr. Lu, do you really want to give up Zihua and leave? Zihua is what it is today, and you built it all by yourself. Are you willing to leave all this hard work?"

"This is already a certainty, and it doesn't make sense to say it."

"Then where are you going next? I'll go with you."

"I haven't made up my mind yet, but I will rest for a while. After I leave Zihua, you are the person who is most familiar with all the company's businesses. Now is the time when there is a shortage of people. The board of directors will reuse you. Stay and compare Follow me to have a future." Speaking of this, Lu Mingchen stopped suddenly, and shouted towards the door, "Who is outside?"

Song Shuhua hadn't finished his deep breath when he was suddenly interrupted, blushing, and hurriedly opened the door: "Yes, it's me."