That 1 his waist protruded

20

The cinema is half an hour away from the school.

I think the main passenger flow of this theater is from the nearby schools, otherwise why would it be in this area.

It takes half an hour to walk, but something went wrong today—I sprained my ankle while walking.

Yan Chaoling asked: "Is it serious? Do you want to go back and rest?"

I resolutely refused: "If you don't reply, you can't waste it."

Yan Chaoling didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and sighed while holding his forehead: "How can you sprain your feet on flat ground?"

I pointed to a tile with a slightly raised edge, "Look, it's not flat."

Yan Chaoling laughed lowly, squatted down in front of me with his back to me, "Come on, carry you on your back."

"Huh? I can still go."

After all, I am too embarrassed to pounce on it directly.

Yan Chaoling urged: "They're all men, why are you so shy?"

I blinked, "That's what you said."

I lay on Yan Chaoling's back, put my arms around his shoulders, and whispered, "It's not like you don't know that I like men."

Yan Chaoling didn't stop walking, and was obviously silent for two seconds before continuing: "I forgot..."

Hey, straight dude.

21

I finally knew why Qian Yi went to the movies with a big bag on his back.

When he sat down in the screening room, he took out Coke and snacks from his bag and started to distribute, "The movie theaters are too expensive, so I might as well recite them by myself. Although this is not allowed in theory, it can't really kick me out. "

Yan Chaoling and I shared a large bag of potato chips, and Qian Yi explained: "You can't bring too much bag, and the snacks are limited, you two should eat together."

Yan Chaoling and I were seated next to each other, at the other end away from Qian Yi.Tang Hongxi rejected Qian Yi's snacks: "I don't have the habit of watching movies and eating." He pushed his glasses, "Or I don't watch movies much either."

Qian Yi was stunned for a moment, "Didn't you say that sharing food is a convenient way to get closer to people, so if it's not the food you absolutely don't eat or the person you hate, you will accept it?"

He looked down at his little snack, "Then what's wrong with you?"

Tang Hongxi grinned, "No cucumbers, thank you."

Qian Yi glanced at the packaging bag, "The cucumber-flavored potato chips are not cucumber-flavored, and they are delicious."

"No, I refuse, psychological shadow."

Yan Chaoling and I sniggered together.

Yan Chaoling said in a low voice, "It's rare for the third child to be like this."

I nodded, "I've always been a pretty calm person since I knew him."

The movie started right away, and we fell silent.

It suddenly occurred to me that the last time I sat in a movie theater was when I was in middle school, and it was an activity organized by the school.In my impression, watching a movie is a group activity, and going alone seems too lonely.

I seem to be very afraid of being lonely, but the excitement always has nothing to do with me.

In theory, liking men does not affect my making friends and building my own social circle.But every time I mess up, I never communicate on the same channel, I don’t have crossed common hobbies, and I always talk nonsense.

I'm probably not suitable for making friends.I crossed my legs and leaned on my chin, thinking freely.

I know these negative emotions come from my illness.But I can't control my mind.It is my brain, I am controlled by it, it is not controlled by me.Then who am I?is it the body?Whose body is this?

Yan Chaoling picked up his drink and lightly touched my face, "Hey, you don't like this movie?"

I shook my head, "No. I just have a hard time concentrating for long periods of time."

Yan Chaoling nodded half-understanding, then turned to look at the screen.

I still seem to have a hard time communicating with people.

Frustration was like sea water rising up suddenly, drowning me in an instant.

22

When I went back, I took care of me who became lame again and took a taxi, and then went to the cafeteria to eat together.At night, Yan Chaoling climbed into my bed after the lights were turned off with the excuse of "you seem unhappy, why don't we talk about it".

"You are so small." He hugged me and said in an exaggerated tone, "It's almost Chinese New Year, let's grow some flesh."

"hold head high?"

"Oh, it's a joke, you still don't understand." Yan Chaoling smiled, "In the countryside of my hometown, the family used to raise pigs, and they would kill them for meat when they were young."

Hearing this, Qian Yi couldn't hold back a burst of laughter, and then choked up, coughing uncontrollably, and was laughed at by Tang Hongxi again: "It deserves it."

After Qian Yi finished coughing, he still persisted in finishing what he wanted to say: "Before it's too late, feed more beans and gain weight." After finishing speaking, he laughed again.

I was confused for a while, "Where is this going?"

Yan Chaoling sighed, "You don't have to worry about him, and you don't need to worry about me." After finishing speaking, his arms tightened a little bit, clamped me firmly, and lowered his head close to my neck.

I don't want to struggle, the warmth brought by my body is what I like, even if I get greedy once in a while, it doesn't matter.

I don't want to distinguish Yan Chaoling's mood and thoughts, and whatever self-positioning he has when he makes such a move.I'll just be fine for now.

When I was about to fall asleep, I vaguely heard him calling me.

"Small."

"Huh?" I was confused and made a single sound in my mouth.

Yan Chaoling said slowly in my ear: "If you are sad, please tell me anytime."

I probably didn't answer, or I answered an "um" and then forgot.After all I fell asleep afterwards.

I don't know if a pillow with human flesh will help you sleep, but the effect of being a pillow with human flesh is good.

I can't see clearly how much of my pure liking for this person is besides longing for warmth and seeking help.I was afraid that if I dissected myself clearly, I would appear mean, selfish and a failure.

In the psychology class, the teacher said that love is childish love because of need, and love is mature love because love is needed.But I don't want to be mature.Isn't childish love worthy of existence?

Do I like him or not?

Can I like him?

Should I like him?

Even if Yan Chaoling said he was sad and wanted to tell him at any time, I wouldn't dare to be so arrogant.The enthusiasm, sympathy, and kindness that a person can carry are limited. Everyone may be different, but there will always be a day when they are exhausted if they spend too much.

If he is also tired, who else will find me in time and give me a hand?

I don't like people who are always glowing, and I even hate them.Because such a person doesn't understand my sadness and pain, and always says things in front of me that make me feel like "it doesn't hurt my back to stand and talk".Thinking about it later, people didn't need to understand my sadness. After all, I don't need others to bear this crime.

Mr. Lu Xun said: "The joys and sorrows of human beings are not connected, I just think they are noisy."

I think they don't feel pain in their backs when they stand and talk, and they think I'm pessimistic and world-weary.

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So far, the collection is a whole dozen, and I feel very comfortable immediately.

——The strange satisfaction from rounding up the obsessive-compulsive disorder