That 1 his waist protruded

51

When Yan Chaoling left, he refused to let me see it off. He said it was too late, and he was afraid that I would be in danger on the way home.

Nine or ten o'clock is really not too late in this city, and I also walked through the streets at three or four o'clock in the morning.But Yan Chaoling insisted, so I listened to him.

Yan Chaoling touched my face, "I'm afraid you will feel sad watching me go."

"Then I'll watch you go."

Yan Chaoling smiled, "Then what should I do? I'll take you home for the New Year?"

I shook my head, "No, I found a part-time job and will start working in two days." I went to his house for the New Year, what a deal.He's not guilty, I'm still guilty

Yan Chaoling rubbed my hair.

"Are you rubbing enough before you go?"

Yan Chaoling burst out laughing, "Okay, I won't tease you anymore."

Although women have a needle in their hearts, men don't give in much.Humans are complex animals.I couldn't figure out what Yan Chaoling was thinking, and I didn't bother to guess.After all, he and I have different brain circuits.

Yan Chaoling picked up his suitcase and went to the train station. I stood in front of the window in the corridor and stared blankly for a while, watching his back as he left—mainly because the window of my house was not facing the direction of the building door.Waving from a distance is naturally impossible, he doesn't know I'm looking at him.

After he left, my mind was blank for a while, and I didn't go back to the house until I felt cold.Then I had to contact Su Hefeng again. I had agreed with him before that I would do part-time work for a while during the winter vacation. I don’t care about the content of the job, just do odd jobs.It would be best if there is no holiday for the Spring Festival and three times the salary-but this kind of thing is unlikely to happen.

Recently, I have basically been able to stabilize my emotions, and I have no problem contacting people.It's good to be busy, it saves a lot of time to think about it, and it also saves too much time to face the empty house alone.

This year is my second Spring Festival spent alone.

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Last year, my uncle told me to go back, saying that my grandparents had just left, so I couldn’t let me spend the holidays alone.But as soon as my aunt saw me, my nose was not my nose, and my eyes were not my eyes.At that time, my cousin was not married yet, so he originally said that he would bring his girlfriend back, but then he gave up.

After all, I didn't spend this Spring Festival at my uncle's house.I went back on the morning of New Year's Eve and left just after dark.When I left, my aunt was still saying: "He has his own house, why do you ask him to come here? Does he care about you?"

Uncle said nothing.He was always like that, his role in this family was always silent and evasive.Only when my cousin grows up does he occasionally argue with his aunt, otherwise this family is hers.

I don't know if my uncle feels aggrieved, but my cousin told me about the aggrieved.It's just that he has no one to tell from now on.

My cousin put on his clothes and went downstairs to see me off. He wanted to persuade me, but he hesitated to speak, and swallowed the words after hesitation.He sent it to the subway station.

I asked him, "Are you going to deliver it to my home?"

The cousin replied: "It's not impossible."

What did I say?Probably asked him: "It's all delivered home, why don't you go upstairs and sit down? It's all upstairs, why don't you take a shot?"

The cousin sighed, "You still blame me."

"Ah."

My cousin reached out to rub my hair, but I avoided it.

Cousin was so cold that he sniffed, "You've broken up with me."

I asked back, "Isn't that what you wanted?"

Cousin was speechless.

I asked him: "Will you cheat in the future? Go out and sleep with other men behind your wife's back? While enjoying the benefits of a conventional married life, pursue your real desires?"

Cousin was silent.

I shook my head and walked into the subway station without looking back.

I guess he will.He doesn't have a strong sense of morality, and he's not someone who quit just because he got married.And his change to me was just eager to get rid of it.

In the past, he pulled me around, just because we ate and lived together and had a lot of contact, so it was not easy to be suspected.Our situation is different now. If we still maintain that relationship, it will be inconvenient and easy to overturn.In order to get rid of me smoothly at the right time, he also made preparations very early.

53

I didn't feel bad, and I didn't blame my past self for being blind.

The fact is that, no matter what his thoughts are, he did defend me in front of my aunt and gave me a fairly warm time.When I was young, the world I saw was all I could see.In such a depressing family, only my cousin can give me some comfort.

With grandparents around, the relationship between Cinderella and stepmother will never happen to me.My aunt can't starve me or order me to work, and I don't need her to buy anything for me.All she can do is scold me in different ways and create mental pressure.

Two years ago, my grandparents passed away within half a year, which was a big blow to me. At that time, my cousin was also with me.He looks like he's doing his duty as a big brother, but I don't know if he's doing it with the intention of making me up.

Now, instead of "trying to forgive him", I'm "trying to forgive myself".Try to forgive the self who accepted an immoral relationship because of the desire for warmth, and the self who indulged in the physical relationship because of the desire for companionship.

If I hated my cousin and my aunt, I might feel much better.As long as I attribute everything wrong to someone else, it's easier.

But I don't really want to do that.

Shirking responsibility may make you feel relaxed, but it is not a good habit.I don't want to be that kind of person.

After getting to know Ayu, many of my previous thoughts have changed.Later, Yan Chaoling, Qian Yi, and Tang Hongxi extended a helping hand to me and rescued me with friendship. Looking back today, it seems like I have been reborn.

Only the house was still empty and cold.

I took out my phone and asked Ayu in the group when they would have time to get together, but what I thought was that I hoped to live here with Yan Chaoling.One more person can add some popularity.

Of course, the best thing is to live with Yan Chaoling and be neighbors with Ayu and Deng You.When you are free, everyone will hang out and play together, and help each other when you need it.But thinking about it this way is very similar to "group pension".This way of providing for the elderly has become popular now, and I hope to be able to join them by then.

—I know this idea is a bit far-fetched, but the idea is too tempting.

But considering our age, maybe Yan Chaoling and I will be the last to join the family, and we have to take care of the older Ayu and Berg...

My thoughts spread out indiscriminately, as if I would soon be old enough to retire.

The phone vibrated, and everyone replied to the message in the group.

Winter is more suitable for hot pot. Before I start a part-time job, let's make hot pot again.