That 1 his waist protruded

57

I grew up so big, and it was the first time I was looking forward to the start of school.

Sending messages, video calls, and big orange pillows can't appease my desire to see Yan Chaoling.This is not the same as the desire to go to bed, it is a different kind of urge, like a kind of "charge".

I consulted Ayu and he said it was normal.

He made a joke: "I used to want to recharge my cat too."

"Maybe petting a cat can also recharge your batteries." Ayu changed the subject, "I think you may be skin hungry."

I am not unfamiliar with this term, but I can't explain what it means specifically.After all, I just understand it as "wanting to have some physical contact with people".

"How are you?" Ayu called. It sounded like he was worried about me, which was a little different from his relatively reassuring attitude towards me before.

"Why do you ask that all of a sudden?"

"I'll explain academic questions to you later, so you answer me first. Have you had a follow-up visit recently? Are you still taking medicine? Do you have auditory hallucinations, panic attacks, self-harm tendencies? Do you still eat well? Throwing up? Can you sleep well?"

He asked too many questions too quickly, and I thought about it carefully before answering, "I had a panic attack, and I didn't sleep very well. I don't have much appetite. I always think it's because the takeaway is not delicious."

I heard Ayu let out a long breath, and then asked my opinion: "If you need, I can hug you from time to time. Or come to my house before you start school."

My first reaction was that Zhang Qiushu's jealousy might drown me.

Ayu obviously also thought of this, and explained to me: "Don't worry about Zhang Qiushu, I just need to explain it clearly to him. He is very nice and won't object. Don't worry, he won't quarrel with me because of this."

I always feel that there may be another sentence after Ayu: He can only... As for what Zhang Qiushu will do, I can't guess.

"Now let me explain to you what skin hunger means." Ayu said that, and I knew he was about to start talking about the relatively academic part.

"This is some information I have checked before. Touching can bring comfort to people. When people are in danger or anxiety, being touched can relieve bad emotions, and lack of contact will increase stress. This is why I suddenly asked you Is there any more serious reason for the recurrence of the disease?"

"What's more, when the skin is touched, serotonin increases. When serotonin levels are low, people are more prone to insomnia, anxiety and depression. And being touched before going to bed makes it easier to fall into deep sleep. And a Neurotransmitters that affect pain perception, stress levels and mood are released during deep sleep, so sleep is a really important part of that."

I suddenly had a more scientific understanding of my sleeping with Yan Chaoling in a hug.

"So you mean, you can often come to me and give me hugs, or I can live in your house, and you can give me a hug before going to bed every day to relieve my symptoms?"

Ayu replied: "I don't rule out the possibility that you just miss your straight boyfriend. Of course, I think it is more likely that you have skin hunger."

I thought about my past years, "I felt the same way." I didn't always want to have sex, but I wanted to be stroked and hugged, and I just couldn't find a better way at the time.

Ayu smiled, "When I lived alone, I once wanted to raise a cat. Petting a pet can also relieve human beings' need for skin-to-skin contact."

I thought about it, "I still have more than 20 days before I leave school. It is definitely not allowed to keep pets, and I don't dare to live in your house... I'd better bear with it."

Ayu was still worried, and then urged: "Come on, let me cook for you? Zhang Qiushu gives you a goodnight hug every day."

Me: "..." I was scared.

In the end, I packed up and lived in the past.Ah Yu put a bed for me in his library.

Probably because he has practiced for a longer time, or Ayu's cooking tastes better.

58

I remembered what Su Hefeng said about showing weakness appropriately, acting coquettishly to ask for benefits, and sending a message to Yan Chaoling: "I may have skin hunger and thirst, and I want you to hug me."

Yan Chaoling replied with a cute kitten sighing emoji, "What do you tell me to do. I can't wait to fly back to find you."

Ah, this, I can't stand it anymore!

Yan Chaoling: "I originally booked the ticket for school on the [-]th day of the first lunar month. Now I will see if there is an earlier one."

what……

I jumped up from the bed, grabbed my phone and ran out to find Ayu.He was reading a book on the sofa in the living room with a pillow in his arms.

"Brother, that..." After meeting someone, I couldn't find anything to say.

Ayu patted my head, "Speak slowly."

"My friend said that he would change the ticket to come back earlier."

Ayu nodded, "Very good." He smiled, very softly, "So you came to find me to share your happiness?"

I nodded heavily.

Ayu put down the book and the pillow, and gave me a hug.

At this time, the sound of the door opening suddenly sounded, and Zhang Qiushu appeared at the door.I thought that Ayu would at least let me go in a hurry, but I didn't expect him to pat me on the back and say, "Don't panic."

To my surprise, Zhang Qiushu was calm and composed, and went upstairs to change his clothes before coming down.

Ayu and I will definitely not be able to hold him down.But I looked at him, inevitably a little guilty.

Zhang Qiushu sighed, "You don't have to be so trembling, I won't scold you."

"Of course, it's two different things to believe that Ayuhe will be jealous. Sometimes I will be jealous of Deng You or Su Hefeng, even though I know that's impossible." When he said this, I haven't had time to let go of my heart Raised even higher.

"Now I am wishing you every day, wishing you and your straight boyfriend a smooth relationship. In this way, Ayu is mine alone. Of course, this is just an idea. In fact, even if I want to put Ayu in my pocket, Nor will it prevent him from forming friendly relations with others."

Zhang Qiushu really deserves to be jealous.But just like what Su Hefeng said, "That product also has its merits."

Seeing Ayu hooking his fingers at Zhang Qiushu, I immediately went upstairs - there must be another bowl of dog food left behind.The two of them don't care if it's in my presence or not.

The phone vibrated, and Yan Chaoling said that he had changed his ticket two days in advance, and he would be able to see me on the thirteenth day of the first month.

"Tell me the train number, I'll pick you up at the station. Let's go home first and go back to school after the Lantern Festival."

Yan Chaoling replied quickly: "I think so too."

He then sent another one: "Do we have a tacit understanding?"

I covered my face, it must be red.With Yan Chaoling like this, I always feel that he is going to confess his love in the next sentence.

I sat on the bed, picked up the big orange and held it in my arms.

Why do I have so many daydreams?