wildfire in the heart

I just knelt on Youyu's bedside and waited until she calmed down slowly.

I gently lifted the quilt off her head, and her face was exposed, with tear stains on it. I reached out to caress her face, rubbed it lightly, and wiped away her tears little by little.

Her eyes remained slightly closed as I wiped her tears.After drying her tears, I leaned over and kissed her eyelids, her eyelids were tender, and the soft touch went straight to the bottom of my heart.

Her trembling eyelids and eyelashes swept my lips, making me reluctant to leave.

After kissing her eyelids, I saw that she hadn't opened her eyes yet, so I boldly continued to kiss her. I kissed her forehead, her cheek, the bridge of her nose, and then kissed her lips down.

Youyu's lips were soft and elastic, and that feeling was wonderful.Although I know that You Yu is still very fragile and sad at this time, I still want to soothe her heart. When I kissed her full lips, I started to think about something that I shouldn't think about.

I hugged Youyu's neck tightly, and kissed her harder. I hinted that she would kiss me back, and she gradually responded.She responded very gently, she only gently opened her vermilion lips, moistening me slowly, making my soul seem to go out of my body and fly above the clouds somewhere.

I don't know why, the more I kissed, the more I couldn't let go of her. I didn't let her go until she was a little out of breath and struggled slightly.

"You Yu, You Yu." I called out to her, "I...I love you."

She opened her eyes, which filled with tears again.

"Thank you." She moved her lips slightly and said in a very soft voice. I know her emotions are still a little suppressed and there is nowhere to release them.

I stared at her obsessively, put my thumb on her lips and rubbed it lightly, hesitated for a while, and asked her as if I made up my mind: "Youyu, can you tell me why you are sad?"

"I... can't tell." You Yu replied honestly, her voice was a little hoarse.

I understand that it's not that she doesn't want to tell me, but that she doesn't know how to tell me.

I tried to guide her: "Is it because of your mother?"

"Yeah." She nodded, and my thumb touched the corner of her lips as she nodded.

"Didn't your mother call to wish you a happy new year?" I asked tentatively.

"No," You Yu shook his head, "She called to blame me."

"Why is she blaming you?" I asked her, looking her in the eyes.

"She... She blamed me for giving my brother and son too little New Year's money." You Yu finally said it, her voice trembled a little, and then she began to cry silently again.

Now I get it, she has a mother who favors sons.

It might be because of jet lag, her mother got angry when she saw the money sent by You Yu early in the morning, so she called to question her.

I don’t have brothers and sisters, I have always monopolized the love of my parents, sometimes willful and domineering, so I can’t understand what it feels like to be the younger sister in the family. In my opinion, all the older brothers in this world should love their younger sisters , but it seems not to be here in Youyu.

Seeing her sad again, I didn't care so much, I just lifted the quilt and lay next to her, and hugged her into my arms.

She buried her head in my chest and continued to cry, and occasionally sobbed when she thought of the sad place, I knew she must be remembering some unpleasant past events.

I just kept hugging her like this, and didn't speak. After a while, You Yu began to tell me about her family situation.

She is three years younger than her brother, and she was conceived accidentally by her parents. At that time, her parents planned not to have a son, because they thought that one son was enough, but the doctor said that her mother's body was not suitable for abortion, so she had to give birth. The world is lucky to have her.

Youyu said that in her memory, her mother never seemed to give her many smiles. Her father was busy on business trips all year round, and occasionally he was very strict with her when he came home. Although she was a girl, she suffered a lot from her parents. beat.

On the contrary, his elder brother is loved by thousands of people, and all resources are devoted to him. His elder brother's academic performance is also good, and he is very popular with his parents.

When Youyu was a child, she was timid, unconfident, and cautious, and her academic performance was not good. At home, she felt that she had a weak sense of existence, and she was simply an ugly duckling.

"I envy my brother very much. My parents bought him the best clothes and the most expensive study materials." You Yu said slowly, "When I was young, I always followed behind my brother, learning from him and bringing him Take it as a role model. At first he was okay with me, but as he grew up, he began to ignore me, scold me, and think I was a drag on him. I never understood why.”

"Seeing that even my brother treated me badly, my parents ignored me even more. When I was in junior high school, I studied hard and worked hard with my brother's remaining study materials. I finally improved my grades, and later I was admitted to the A good high school, but my parents didn't seem to be very happy. The family's financial situation was not good, and it was often difficult, so they were not happy to continue to support me.

"My brother was admitted to the top-ranked university in the province. My parents have a bright face and always show off in front of relatives and friends. They don't care much about whether I go to university or not. They always reveal it in their words. I didn't hope that I would marry sooner, but I did not succumb to fate and was admitted to university.

"My relatives, friends and neighbors who liked me were all happy for me. My parents still paid my tuition fees out of face. In order not to look at my parents' faces, I have been saving money since I went to college. After half a year, I started working part-time to earn tuition and fees. Living expenses, after my sophomore year, I got an opportunity to come to country L to complete my junior and senior studies. Education in country L is free, but I have to pay my own living expenses, so I have been working part-time since I came here .

"Fortunately, country L has a very favorable policy for students to work, and the tax rate is very low, so my life is guaranteed. My parents rarely ask me about my life. They see that I don't ask them for money, so they can lighten their burden. My brother He got married right after graduating from university, because he made his classmate pregnant when he was in college, so he hurriedly held the wedding before the child was born.

"Every year on my mother's birthday, I will send some money to her. During the New Year, I will also send some money to my brother's son. Every year, it will be more than the previous year. But this year, I don't seem to meet my mother's expectations, so she is very straightforward. Baidi expressed her disappointment, and her tone was terrible. Maybe it was because I had so much fun tonight, so I suffered setbacks after great joy, and some great sorrow, so that all the grievances burst out suddenly."

You Yu talked a lot intermittently, and finally she stopped talking, and there was silence in the attic. After listening to her story, my heart ached.The moment she was silent, I suddenly understood that a neglected child must have a lot of suffering in his life.

I put some strength into my arms, hugged her tightly, and said emotionally: "You Yu, I will be your closest person from now on."

You Yu did not answer, I know she lacks a sense of security, she dare not ask for anything easily, she is afraid of losing.

"You don't believe me?" I was a little unwilling and asked her with a bow.

"I believe you." You Yu said, she rubbed her face against me like a small animal.

As soon as she finished speaking, there was a warm current in my heart. Her words were like a shot in the arm, instantly giving me great courage.I reached out and lifted her chin lightly, and kissed her lips again.

Between kissing her, I kept repeating: "Believe me, Youyu, I love you, I can't live without you, I can't live without you."

The feelings I had accumulated for more than 20 years submerged me like a torrent, and I plunged into it regardless. In the torrent, I held on to Youyu tightly, and decided not to let go in my life.

I kissed her randomly, my hands started to be dishonest, I slowly probed, wanting an answer, I felt Youyu was responding to me, so I decided to make our relationship one step closer, more intimate, I want her completely My heart is mine, and I finally got what I wanted.