wildfire in the heart

On Monday morning, You Yu went to work on her first day, and she got up at a little after six o'clock.She lightly went to wash up, and before I fully woke up, she kissed my forehead and walked out the door with her bag on her back.

In the mist, I heard the sound of her locking the door, and I was left alone in the room for a moment. I gradually woke up and couldn't fall asleep again.

After being intimate for so many days, suddenly no one was seen, and the person left. This feeling is really bad.

I got off work as usual and drove home first. I knew Youyu was still on the bus. It would take longer to get back to the city center from the suburbs in the evening rush hour. I could only sit at home and wait for Youyu to give me news.

When she told me that her shuttle bus would arrive in 15 minutes, I hurried out and walked towards the stop of her shuttle bus.

The shuttle bus stood next to a bus stop, where there was already a long line of young and old people waiting for the bus. I stood not far away and waited, looking out of place.

You Yu sent me a message saying that it would be there in 5 minutes, so I hurriedly followed the direction of the shuttle bus and looked forward to it.

I didn't know which bus she was on, so I had to keep a close eye on every parked bus.After two or three buses, another bus stopped, and I hurriedly looked up the window to look for You Yu.My gaze finally caught Youyu who was sitting in the middle. She should have seen me first and was waving at me desperately. She looked very happy, which meant that today's work went smoothly.

The car door swung open, and I saw You Yu get up and follow her colleague to get out of the car, so I hurriedly stood at the car door and waited for her.

She jumped out of the car briskly, and I resisted the urge to take her hand, thinking that her colleagues might be watching her.

You Yu understood my concerns, she naturally inserted her hands into my arms, and held me. This is a normal movement among women, and it will not give people an ambiguous feeling at all. I understood it and smiled comfortably.

"How was work today?" After walking some distance, I put my free hand on the back of her arm that was holding mine.

"It's not bad, the working environment is quite good." It can be heard that You Yu's mood is still relatively high.

"That's good." Hearing what she said, I was relieved a lot. "There is a shopping mall next door. I'll treat you to something delicious to reward you for working so hard today."

"Well, good." Her voice was still full of joy, and she couldn't hear any fatigue at all.In fact, she is in this class like a star and a moon. She goes out early in the morning, and it is already dark when she comes back from get off work. She is not tired, and I will be tired for her.

After entering the shopping mall, we left the noisy first floor and went straight to the top floor, where the entire floor is full of restaurants.We all have to go to work on weekdays and come back late, so we have no time or energy to cook, so this mall has naturally become one of the canteens for the two of us.

The shopping mall during this time period is extremely lively, and the basement floor of the shopping mall is connected to two subway lines, so the flow of people is particularly strong.

Most of the restaurants on the top floor had people waiting in line for a seat. I was afraid that You Yu would be hungry, so I found a restaurant that didn't need to wait for a seat and took her in.

After we sat down, we ordered our meals. I poured her a glass of lemonade, and I asked You Yu: "How is your company's lunch?"

"It's pretty good, there are many tricks, I'll take you to try it next time." It seems that You Yu hopes that I will have the opportunity to visit her company.

"Okay, how about I go over early this Friday and pick you up and go home together?" I suggested.

"That's great." My proposal obviously surprised Youyu.

Seeing her happy, I stretched out my hand, climbed across the table, and spread my hand beside her. She quickly put her hand into mine. I held her hand and squeezed it gently. I felt extremely happy in my heart. Said: "Honey, it's great that you can go back to China. In the future, we can go to many places and eat many delicious things together."

"Yeah." You Yu nodded with a sweet smile, and I saw her good expectations for our future from her eyes.

I didn't know I was so good at sweet talk before, but it's all from the heart, and I'm willing to make all the promises to her.Although many promises were discounted later, every time she heard my promises, she was very happy. I like to see her happy, so I have always enjoyed it and kept drawing her a beautiful blueprint for the future.

At first, every time I heard my blueprint, You Yu believed it. When I procrastinated and failed to fulfill my promises several times, You Yu finally came back to his senses and said to me: "You hung so many carrots, I didn't eat anything." I knew I was wrong, so I just laughed beside me.

The promises I make are all sincere, but it is really difficult to keep the promises, so sometimes I pretend to be stupid. Fortunately, Youyu is not the kind of serious person. She usually just scolds me a few times and forgets.I can clearly see Youyu's good temper and tolerance, so I'm sure about her step by step.

When we returned home after eating at the mall, Youyu finally started to cry out that she was tired. She was about to take a shower first and change into home clothes, but her cell phone rang when she walked to the bathroom.

You Yu walked back to the living room to pick up the phone, looked at the screen of the phone, she froze for a moment, she didn't seem to want to answer the call very much.

"Hello, Dad." She pulled herself together and shouted into the phone.

"I called you a few times, why didn't you answer?" There was a questioning voice on the opposite side. After hearing it, I understood Youyu's stupefied just now. She once told me that she was afraid of answering calls from her family. She will be worried about the number, she is afraid that she will not be able to meet their expectations and requirements, and she will be blamed by them.

I felt You Yu's discomfort, and in order to give her more private space, I walked into the bedroom and left the living room to her.Even so, the voice of the other party is very loud, and the house is too quiet, so I can still hear what the other party is saying.

"It just so happens that you came back from abroad, and there is no jet lag now. Your brother's child can't speak English now, and the remedial classes outside are too expensive. Your brother wants you to tutor that child in online classes every weekend." The voice of Youyu's father heard It looks very coercive.

I knew something about You Yu's family before. Every time her family came to her, they either asked her for money or asked her to help this and that, causing all kinds of troubles for her.I happened to hear it once or twice, but I usually didn't ask because I didn't want to embarrass her, and she seemed to avoid talking about her family.

I know she doesn't want to interfere with my life with these things, but I'm actually willing to listen and share.

The day when his brother put his child's education on You Yu finally came. If You Yu agrees, then she will have to live behind her original family's back for the rest of her life and help her for many years to come. The endless responsibilities and obligations of her elder brother raising a child will make her never free, and it is likely to be thankless.

I said to myself: "You Yu, don't agree, don't agree."

You Yu is the type who reports good news but not bad news. No matter how hard she is, she never complains to her family, so her family always thinks that she is living a comfortable and prosperous life. Since her parents gave birth to her and raised her, she should repay her. family.

I never had this problem, I'm an only child, everything in the house is mine, everything my parents give me I take for granted, I never think I need to do something for them.

When I was a child, my parents threw me into the care of my grandma. I still keep this account in my heart, so no matter what I say to my parents, I am confident.

I wandered away for a while, not knowing what Youyu's father said. Youyu was suddenly very emotional, and I heard her suppressed and trembling voice: "Dad, I just started working, and I usually get home after eight o'clock. Not really that much energy."

"Then you can teach your children on weekends, can't you spare this little time?" The other party seemed to think that You Yu's resistance was unreasonable, and it was simply evading the responsibility that should be borne.

"I don't take classes, I don't take classes, I'm not a tool." You Yu broke out.

I think if her father dared to say that raising her for nothing in the next moment, she might say, then I will give you my life back.

The unpleasant conversation is over, and You Yu, who has always been gentle, finally learns to resist.

I saw You Yu sitting on the sofa tremblingly and staring at the ground, without saying a word, with a heavy face, I was frightened, but I felt sorry for her even more.

She walked over and sat beside her, not knowing what to say.

After a while, without raising her head, she whispered, "I shouldn't have come back."

I finally understood why she had concerns before and why she didn't want to come back.

But she came back for me, and I brought her all that she has to face. At this moment, I can't help but feel guilty.

I sat beside her silently and accompanied her. She struggled to adjust her emotions. After 5 minutes, she finally raised her head and looked at me and said, "I'm sorry, Chizhi, I scared you."

I saw her trying to smile at me, but there were tears in her eyes, my heart tugged, and I couldn't bear it any longer, so I hugged her and comforted her carefully.

She leaned on me docilely, with her arms tightly around me, we passed each other's warmth, she sighed softly and said: "Forget it, I've made it clear to my dad, it's okay, don't worry .”

I nodded: "You're fine."

After a while, Youyu whispered: "Zhizhi, you know, I really want to fly, but whenever I try to exert my strength, I feel my family pulling me down. After the phone call, it will be uncomfortable."

I also have the pain of the original family, and I also complain about my parents, so I am more willing to get close to Youyu, I can’t wait to show my heart to her, and I said: "Honey, your family is me, and other people Don't take it too seriously."

My words didn't seem to alleviate her anxiety. I felt tears wet my clothes, and she said: "But, I only have one father and one mother in this life. I have no choice. I also hope for love, but why is this so? Love always has a price, there are always strings attached?"

The desolation and despair in her heart seem to be somewhat unbearable for her. Sometimes I think, maybe it is because of this that I have a chance to catch up with her.

From me, she saw the life of a person who only lives for himself, a life of a person who has no burden, and this is the life she has always expected to live.

I continued to try to comfort her: "Youyu, it will be fine in the future, you just need to stick to what you want to do. You have to stand firm, and you have to let them know your true thoughts, or they will eat you forever .Don’t be afraid, step back ten thousand steps, you still have me.”

She sighed, nodded softly and said, "Thank you, Zhizhi. I also hope that I can live a little easier in the future."

After snuggling for a while, Youyu decided to wash up and go to bed. Her emotions were ups and downs, and her mind was exhausted. She was really tired, and she had to get up early the next day. The new job required her to be very energetic, after all, she was still in the probationary period .