wildfire in the heart

I haven't seen you for many years, but I ran into Youyu again at the high-speed rail station. I buried my excitement well under the peaceful appearance. Only God knows how grateful I am for the surprise it bestowed on me. I don't hold any resentment anymore. God is not fair, let me be diagnosed with cancer, I just want to seriously live the remaining days of my life with Youyu in my life.

Since that meeting, I couldn't help thinking about You Yu, her youthful appearance in high school, her hands and feet that were frozen in winter, and her gentleness when she leaned on me for warmth.

In my daily life and work, I often fall into fantasies about her, forgetting the existence of reality. I don’t know when I will see her again. Although I asked for her contact information, I dare not be too abrupt. Extremely, afraid of disturbing her, but also afraid that she will forget me.

One day while eating and watching TV, I accidentally saw You Yu on the screen.

My heart was beating wildly, and the TV was saying: "...two women rescued a child by the sea..."

I saw You Yu wearing a blanket. She looked very cold, and there was an arm around her. The owner of the hand was familiar to me. It should be the An Zhizhi I saw at the high-speed rail station last time.

I looked at An Zhizhi's hand resting on You Yu's shoulder, my eyes spewed fire, I wished I could burn that paw off.

I couldn't control so many worries, so I called Youyu, I was afraid that she would catch a cold and feel uncomfortable.

"Hello." There was a soft and touching voice on the phone, it was her.

Hearing Youyu's long-lost voice again, the blood in my whole body rushed up, my eardrums were a little itchy from the beating of that simple word, my face against the microphone was red and feverish, my heartbeat was out of order, I I don't know how to make a sound out of my throat.

You Yu tentatively said "Hello" again, probably because she was afraid that I would not hear her.

I desperately found my voice: "Youyu, are you okay?" I asked.

You Yu was stunned for a moment, and then she realized what I was asking, and she quickly said, "I'm fine."

"That's good," I kind of said to myself, and after I finished speaking, I couldn't help but let out the words in my heart, "I've been worried about you since I watched TV."

You Yu smiled softly on the other end of the phone, and she said, "Thank you, Li Shu."

Excessive nervousness prevented me from giving full play to my conversation ability, so I could only regretfully hang up the phone after exchanging pleasantries.

Although it was just a few short sentences, my heart was sweet for the whole night. Youyu's voice and smile kept circling in my mind, and my yearning for her became more and more intense. A dense net, but this net only caught me.

I waited silently, occasionally looking for the right time to send You Yu a slow and unhurried greeting. My patience finally paid off, and You Yu broke up with An Zhizhi.

I gradually strengthened the density of connection with Youyu, I want to infiltrate into her life unknowingly, I want to make her unable to ignore my existence, and finally I want to make every cell in her blood remember me .

Heaven pays off, I finally persuaded Youyu to work in our company after she left her to work in a company, and I also found a very bad excuse to break up with my girlfriend Hong Youyou at the time.

Everything went smoothly, I thought I could develop well with Youyu from now on, but I didn't know that I was tricked by An Zhizhi and Hong Youlian before I got Youyu.

There is no place for me in the country anymore, so I decided to take Youyu away, Youyu trusts me very much, she doesn't know that I took her away, so she doesn't plan to send her back.

On the pretext of a business trip, I took her away from the country we are familiar with and came to country N, where I could finally spend time alone with her. Before going abroad, I had already arranged the follow-up. I want to live with her Relive our fondest memories and build the walls of our new life together.

In order to prevent other people from finding us, I took Youyu to country R, ​​a neighboring country of N, where I rented a vacation house. The furnishings in the vacation house were carefully designed by me, warm and romantic. Will definitely like it.

However, my full expectations were in vain. When Youyu found out that I lied to her, her resistance made me extremely chilled. The huge bubble I imagined burst instantly, and the rainbow-like light and shadow on the bubble completely dissipated in the air. , You Yu became cold and alienated, she was full of hostility towards me, I really couldn't accept it.

I want to get close to her, but she refuses and hurts herself, but I know she must be unreserved when she is with An Zhizhi, which makes me feel very sad. I don't understand, we used to be very close , Why is she covered in thorns now.

I tried my best to win Youyu's heart, but before I could make any progress, An Zhizhi came, I knew she would come sooner or later, but the moment I saw her, my anger and despair accumulated to the extreme , I firmly believe that if she comes a little later, I can conquer Youyu.

An Zhizhi wanted to take Youyu away, but I went crazy and accidentally injured her. She and Youyu rolled down the cliff. I looked for them everywhere in horror, but I couldn't find them. I knew that everything between me and Youyu It's over, I went back to the vacation home to make the final preparations, and then called the police. I hope the police can find Youyu as soon as possible. She can't die. If she dies, my life will be meaningless.

Fortunately, You Yu and An Zhizhi survived, I returned all their belongings, I decided to flee, I had no choice.

Later I learned that An Zhizhi and You Yu did not confess me, and the police did not file a case.Even so, I can't stay in this country anymore, and I can't go back, so I decided to go to another country.

Now I have nothing but money and my body which is not much time left. I don't know how long I can survive, but I know that as long as I am alive, I can still care about You Yu.

When I arrived in country C, I made some investments with my own money, so that I could at least leave something for You Yu after I died.

I tried my best to get information about Youyu in China. Fortunately, money can make ghosts turn the clock, and the Internet technology is now developed, so I didn't have to spend much effort to find someone in China who could provide me with clues. .

In the difficult years of fighting the disease, the news of Youyu was the only sustenance in my life.

From the person who provided the information, I learned that once Youyu was taken by Hong Youlian to meet a client, he was drunk and almost had an accident. When I heard the news, I clenched my fists.

The next day, Hong Youlian lost her temper in the company, and the company suffered from top to bottom, because the tires of her new car were punctured, and the camera did not capture when the tires were punctured.

Hong Youlian was in a bad mood, so I let out a bad breath in my heart. Of course she wouldn't know that I found someone to blow her womb. I want to be the invisible hand in her life, the ghost that can't be caught.

I originally thought that it would be difficult for me to meet You Yu again in my life, but I didn't know that God was merciful, and I actually saw her again in Country C.

The moment I saw her, I suspected that I had misunderstood the wrong person, but there is only one Youyu in this world, and she was right.

She didn't see me at first, but the more I saw it, the more I became more and more certain.

I waved at her, and she finally looked in my direction. The moment her eyes met mine, I was pleasantly surprised to find that she hadn't changed at all. Time has never defeated a beauty, and it was true.

The smile on her face as she walked towards me told me she didn't blame me at all.

The moment she stood in front of me, I burst into tears, and I couldn't tell whether it was more missing or more guilt.

We found a place to have a deep talk, and we told each other's stories. My story is very simple and lackluster. I know more or less about You Yu's story, but I am willing to hear her tell it again.

After listening to her, I sighed and said, "You Yu, it is said that good people are rewarded with good things, but what I see is that the villains and villains in the world hunt good people like vultures."

"Actually, there is no need to be so pessimistic." You Yu looked at me, her eyes were still clear after experiencing so much suffering.

After staying abroad for so many years, my mentality has changed a lot. I said: "Youyu, you are too gentle and kind. Don't forget that there are many people in your life that you don't understand at all. They are different from you, you have to be on guard, you know? Even your closest people, you have to be careful, the invisible manipulation of people is everywhere."

In retrospect, I myself have exploited her weaknesses and tried to manipulate her, so I want her to be on the lookout for traps at all times.

You Yu understood my intentions, she nodded and said thank you for my reminder.

You Yu will return to China soon, I can’t keep her, although the time with You Yu is short, but it’s enough for me to remember for a long time, before she returned to China, I gave her a box and told her it was my wish, let her She accepted it, but she could only read it after returning home.

Inside the box is a heart-shaped USB flash drive, which contains the things I want You Yu to see, and she should have seen them all after returning to China.

There are three folders in the USB flash drive. The first folder contains photos. There are photos of You Yu that I secretly took in recent years, and those I took abroad, all for You Yu to see.

In the second folder are some documents, which are the diaries I wrote on the computer. The diaries are all recorded by her. Some of the contents are very private, but I am not afraid of her reading them.

The third file contains some pictures, which are the love letters I handwritten to You Yu in high school and college. I transcribed them into the computer, and I have destroyed those paper love letters.

This flash drive contains all my feelings and longings for Youyu. I don’t know how she will react after reading it. Maybe she will silently put away the flash drive and never take it out again, and then bury everything about me in the memory. deep.

Maybe she will tell An Zhizhi, because there should be no secrets between them, but I am a dying person, I believe that An Zhizhi will not want to argue with me any more.

In short, I have no right to interfere with what Youyu wants to do.

All my wishes are fulfilled, I can say goodbye to my past and this world in peace, after the memories are burnt out, I know that Youyu will no longer belong to me in this life, and I don’t plan to write any more chapters in my life .

But just when there was no more disturbance in my heart, Hong Youyou broke into my life again. The moment I saw Hong Youyou, I realized that I was wrong.

I always thought that she and Youyu were the same book, but they were different. I clearly realized that Hong Youyou was another book in my life that should not be finished hastily.

When Hong Youyou and I met again, it aroused great waves in my heart. We saw each other's salvation like two dying people. The fire in my heart was ignited again. She desperately wanted to heal Me, she did, her mom's doctor friend gave me cancer shots and I miraculously recovered.

Hong Youyou paved the way of life for me, and I also want to open all the doors of life for her. I decided to take her back for revenge and end her exile in this life.