wildfire in the heart

I squatted at the door crying, I don't know how long I cried, the doorbell rang again.

I hurriedly stood up, thinking that Youyu must be back, I opened the door and shouted: "You..."

After seeing the person in front of me clearly, I was stunned.

It was Shu Ci, she saw that the light in my eyes dimmed, and the smile on her face also disappeared.She opened the door and came in, closed the door and said, "It's not Youyu, it's me."

I lowered my head and didn't intend to apologize. She found a pair of slippers and put them on herself. With so many years of friendship, she didn't treat herself as an outsider.

"I have business with you." Shu Ci said while walking inside.

I was not in the mood to talk, and quietly followed her inside.

Seeing that I didn't ask what was the matter, she looked at me hesitantly: "What's wrong with you?"

My voice was a little hoarse, and I said: "Youyu came to get her things, but she ignored me and left after taking things. She doesn't like me anymore."

This time it was Shu Ci's turn to stop talking, we sat silently on the sofa for a while, she got up and went to the kitchen, took out two cans of beer from the refrigerator, opened one and handed me one.

I took it mechanically and took a sip.I felt as if I was thirsty, so I took another two big gulps.

"Slow down, no one will grab you." Shu Ci said.

"No," I said, "Someone will rob me. Youyu is so good. She is outside. There must be many people coveting her."

"Who is to blame for this?" Shu Ci showed no mercy to me.

I took a few more sips of wine and asked, "What's the matter with you? Tell me quickly, let's go after I finish speaking, I want to rest."

Shu Ci didn't care about my words of chasing customers, she said: "Sa Xiangwan wants to order a batch of milk from country L, and I would like to ask you for a favor, the price is negotiable."

"Okay," I said briefly, "you can go."

Shu Ci knew that I might not be sober at the moment, and I didn't really want to discuss business with her, so she didn't say any more, and didn't intend to leave.

I went to my bedroom with a little vain footsteps: "I'm going to lie down for a while, and lock the door for me when you go out later."

In the afternoon, I fell asleep like that. When I woke up, I looked at my phone. It was already 06:30, and it was still dark. I was going to eat something.

When I came to the living room, I smelled the smell of food. I looked towards the kitchen. Before I was fully awake, I saw a figure in the kitchen. I tentatively called, "Youyu?"

I saw Shu Ci coming out with two bowls of noodles. When she saw me, she said, "You've finally woken up. I'm going to call you."

Going to bed in the afternoon made my head hurt. I rubbed the back of my head and said, "Why haven't you left yet?"

Shu Ci put two bowls of noodles on the dining table in the living room and said, "I don't have anything to do on Sunday. Seeing how miserable your relationship is, I will spend more time with you."

Sleep seemed to have diluted my loss a bit, and my emotions were not as intense as in the afternoon. After seeing Shu Ci making noodles, I gained some appetite, and decided not to bother her about whether or not to leave.

We sat down to eat noodles, and Shu Ci asked me: "I told you about Sa Xiangwan this afternoon, is there any problem?"

I knew she was worried that I didn't take it to heart, so I said, "No problem, I will remember it."

"Sa Xiangwan asked me to move in with her yesterday." Shu Ci changed the subject.

I looked up at her: "Did you agree?"

Shu Ci picked out the noodles in the bowl, paused and said, "No."

"Oh." I'm not interested in this topic.

"Don't you ask why?" It seemed that Shu Ci didn't intend to end this topic just like that.

"Why?" I had to ask.

She put down her chopsticks, put her arms on the table, looked at me seriously and said, "Because she is not my destiny."

I trust her intuition, Shu Ci is a smart person, if she says no, she definitely isn't.

"Well," I said casually, "I know you're demanding."

"No," Shu Ci said, "She is already very good, I just don't feel that way."

"What kind of feeling?" I asked casually.

"That's the kind of feeling that I can't let go of." Shu Ci said, "I will always think about that person, afraid that she will not go well, afraid that she will be unhappy."

Isn't this how I feel about Youyu? I don't think about Youyu for a moment, I'm afraid that her life will not go well, and I'm afraid that she will be unhappy when she sees me.

I said, "I understand."

"Do you understand how I feel?" Shu Ci asked me.

I nodded, I really understand.

"Oh, well," Shu Ci said with a sigh, "I hope you really understand, you fool."

I stared at her with wide eyes. I hate people saying that I am a fool. How can I be stupid?I was able to catch You Yu in the first place, so I definitely couldn't be a fool.

Seeing me glaring at her, Shu Ci knew that it hit my pain point.

"I'm sorry," Shu Ci apologized, "I take back my words, I know you are very smart, but why do you always fall into the hands of the same woman and can't get up?"

I retorted, "I didn't."

"Nothing?" Shu Ci seemed to have a good memory, "You still remember the first time you broke up, you cried to me and looked like you couldn't live anymore. Look at you now, you don't have any fighting spirit No. You are doomed to lose her like this."

I suddenly realized that what Shu Ci said was right, I can't just throw away my helmet and armor, I want to win You Yu back, I want to let her see my real change and the hard work I've put in for her.

"Thank you, Shu Ci." I put down the bowl and chopsticks and walked to the study.

Shu Ci hurriedly stopped me: "I haven't finished eating yet, what are you doing?"

"I'm going to study. In the past, Youyu said that I don't like to study except for work." I said without turning my head, "I'm going to read classics, I want to become a love of learning and motivated, I want to let her see knowledge Change me and make me a better person."

I went straight into the study, placed an order online and bought more than a dozen books.

Then I bought a bi-year membership for e-books and decided to start reading books on the e-reader anytime, anywhere.

I also found a desert island book list and set a task to finish reading one book a day.

I decided to post a note in Moments every time I finished a book. Of course, I only sent it to a private group. There will be only You Yu in that group. I want You Yu to see my determination.

I was tossing and turning in the study, with my hands on my shoulders all the time, I was startled, and then I remembered that Shu Ci was still at my house.

"Go ahead, I'm leaving." Shu Ci said above my head.

I turned around, glanced at her and said, "Go slowly."

"En." Shu Ci's warm hand stayed on my shoulder for a while, and finally left. I felt a chill on my shoulder.

Shu Ci left, she locked the door, I was stunned for a while, and decided to start reading the first book.

It's "Journey to the West", and you can't go wrong with choosing a masterpiece.

After I watched it for the first few times, I was completely shocked. This guy Wu Chengen is so good at writing. He can write more than 1000 words in a paragraph. I am so impressed.

But my lack of patience quickly conquered me, and I found that I couldn't stand it.

what to do?My grand vision and great cause cannot be folded here when I first started.

I found an audible version and started listening on the couch. After listening for a while, I fell asleep. When I woke up, I blamed myself and went back to continue listening.

I found that listening to the book was too slow, and I couldn't bear it. I decided to start speed reading, forcing my eyes to move quickly. The final result was that I read something that I didn't understand, and I didn't seem to remember it. Fortunately, I read it before. After watching TV series, I can barely keep up.

When I saw it, it was already two o'clock in the morning. I was thinking of Youyu, and I was unwilling to go to sleep, but I couldn't do without, because my brain had completely stopped working.

I climbed into bed after washing, hugged the quilt, and muttered: "You Yu, I'm sorry, don't be angry, I will definitely finish reading "Journey to the West" tomorrow, good night." After that, I passed out from sleep.

When I woke up the next day, seeing that it was getting late, I quickly got up and watched it ten times before I was in the mood to wash my face and brush my teeth.

I watched it ten times before breakfast, and another ten times after breakfast. I have watched it a total of eighty times, and there are still twenty more.

"Mr. An, what time are you coming to the company?" It was Lou Qin's message that urged me, and I remembered that there was a meeting today.

"See you in half an hour." After sending the message, I ran downstairs to drive, with "Journey to the West" on my phone, and heard the company along the way.

After the meeting, I watched it ten times without having lunch. In the afternoon, I was busy contacting Country L to order milk for Sa Xiangwan, so I didn't bother to watch it.

When I got home in the evening, I ate some canned meat in a hurry, and then read the remaining ten episodes.

After reading it, I couldn’t wait to post it on Moments, writing: The first day of reading "Journey to the West", in the future, I will be as firm and self-disciplined as Tang Seng, guard the people I want to protect like Sun Wukong, and quit eating and lazy like Zhu Bajie , Cultivate hardships and stand hard work like Drifting.

I satisfactorily fantasized that Youyu saw my circle of friends and learned about my good intentions.

As a result, on the second day, I failed to get a card due to various reasons...