can you let me go

In the last scene, he was sitting with his father, and his father looked at him, sighed, pondered for a while, and finally said: "Can you be more cheerful and gregarious, how can you integrate into society when you grow up like this? "

Pei Xiangli no longer remembered how he answered at that time.

He suddenly opened his eyes, looking at the dark ceiling, Zhou Jibai was sleeping very peacefully on the side, he should be very tired from work these days, Pei Xiangli got up and went out of the bedroom without him noticing at all.

Pei Xiangli put on his overcoat, opened the balcony window, and lit a cigarette.

The dream just now is lingering in my mind, and it weighs heavily on the emotional strings. It's not sad.

Pei Xiangli has vaguely felt since he was in high school that his need for emotion seems to be lower than others, and he has less emotion to give than others.

Other people's emotions are feedback to life, while your own emotions are just to be more integrated into life.

After entering university, Pei Xiangli felt that he was like everyone else, with good friends and a normal life.

Then before graduation, I felt again that it was still different. Few people would rely on a relationship so much, and even the center of life began to shift. At that time, Pei Xiangli thought at a loss: He can take away almost all of my life.

this is not right!It has been a long time since Pei Xiangli seriously recalled that time. At that time, he should have been a little confused and afraid. As graduation got closer, this feeling deepened day by day.

Finally, after getting the right opportunity, I chose to escape, and tried to convince the correctness of this behavior with high-sounding reasons. No matter what, people should build a life centered on themselves when they live.

Pei Xiangli remembered what his senior said to him once after drinking: "You are really difficult to get along with..."

"You always pretend to be easy to get along with, but no one can step into the boundaries you draw. I have never seen anyone as possessive as you. Your possessiveness is not for others, but for others. You yourself, you want to have all of yourself and give nothing to anyone else. You are... mean... cheapskate."

Pei Xiangli was also a little drunk at the time, so he didn't take it to heart, but now he remembered it completely.

After smoking this cigarette, Pei Xiangli's fingers were already stiff from the cold, and he closed the window tremblingly. At the same time, he made a decision that he should treat Zhou Jibai better in the future. After all, the day he left, he never Dare to think that Zhou Jibai could accept him again. According to the young master's temper, he should have broken up with him from the day he found out that he was gone.

When the quilt was covered again, Zhou Jibai, who was still sleeping honestly next to him, seemed to feel that Pei Xiangli's temperature was low, and turned over unconsciously, holding him in his arms, his warm skin pressed tightly.

From the second day on, Zhou was inexplicable and felt that Pei Xiangli seemed to have changed back to his original appearance. He couldn't tell what it felt like, but it was different.

But Zhou Jibai didn't think it was a good thing. If he had to give an example, Pei Xiangli's emotions in the previous period were like a crack in a tightly closed shell finally opened, allowing people to vaguely peek into the situation inside. , I haven't seen it clearly yet, and it shuts again with a "snap".

On this day, a photographer who was good at taking portraits in the studio was invited to take promotional photos for a boy group, which happened to be the boy group led by Chen Ran.

During this period of time, Chen Ran can almost be described as "withered and haggard". The children under his hands were not at ease, and they gathered together and were picked up to make a mess. Chen Ran was like a fire brigade fighting fires everywhere.

"If you don't want to do it, you can disband!" Chen Ran poured down a glass of wine, and complained to Pei Xiangli!

The two of them were sitting in the open-air food stall against the cold wind, the beer was freezing, Pei Xiangli she ordered to accompany the gentleman, holding the wine glass in one hand, and the other hand was still in the pocket of the coat.

"What are you looking at? Drink!" Chen Ran filled Pei Xiangli again, as if he was not drunk.

As a result, halfway through the drink, Chen Ran was fine, and Pei Xiangli was drunk first, no wonder people say that people who have something on their minds get drunk quickly.

"What's the matter with you? How did you drink too much?" Chen Ran felt inexplicable looking at Pei Xiangli's unfocused eyes.

Pei Xiangli shook his head, and was about to say something when the cell phone that had been placed on the phone rang suddenly, and Zhou Jibai's name flashed on the screen.

Then Chen Ran looked at Pei Xiangli with a serious and cautious attitude, staring at the phone screen but not answering it until the phone hung up by himself.

"Why didn't you answer?" Chen Ran was puzzled.

Pei Xiangli didn't answer his words, thought for a while, and suddenly said in a low voice: "Tell me, do people have different opinions?"

"Ah?" Chen Ran didn't quite understand what he meant.

"Obviously I don't like it that much, but I like it very much. I don't want to show that I care, but I really care about it..." Pei Xiangli seemed to be really drunk, and his voice was low, as if he was asking Chen Ran, but also as if he was talking about it. ask yourself.

"What are you talking about?" Pei Xiangli mumbled away Chen Ran's drunkenness: "Did you quarrel with Lao Zhou?" It's strange!

"Hey, if you feel uncomfortable, tell me..." While Chen Ran was concerned, a fire of gossip ignited again. After the initial shock passed, he was really curious. Pei Xiangli and Zhou Jibai How can these two people talk about love?

He leaned over, sat next to Pei Xiangli, and raised his hand to pat Pei Xiangli on the back.

Pei Xiangli, who was drunk, reacted slowly, and didn't notice Chen Ran's unconcealed gossip. He drank beer again, and suddenly asked, "How is Zhou Jibai after I'm gone? He... Did you tell me anything?"

"Huh? After you said you went to study abroad without saying anything?" Chen Ran thought for a while, and suddenly asked: "Old Pei, to be honest, what did you think at the time? How did Lao Zhou offend you? You know You are going to study abroad, those who don’t know think you have escaped..."

"I'm running out of time." Pei Xiangli drank another big gulp of wine, shivering from the cold, the wind blew past, and his mind was dizzy.

"Fart! You two are as good as one person, don't you even have time to say goodbye to him?" Chen Ran's tongue was so big that he patted Pei Xiangli's shoulder with a "slap".

"Did you like him at that time? Which one of you two is chasing who?" Chen Ran's gossipy heart was agitated: "Old Zhou said that he did everything possible to coax you into his hand, but I don't think you two are the same. What about the story that you love but cannot go far away?"

"Hey..." Chen Ran sighed: "You two will be able to get in soon after graduation..."

"Nonsense..." Pei Xiangli was hurt by his slap, and after avoiding it, he didn't care whether the table was clean or not, resting his elbows on it and leaning on his chin.

"Didn't he have a girlfriend when he graduated? How can he remember me?" Pei Xiangli seemed to be telling himself, he was really drunk, and he couldn't quite understand what he said.

"Ah?" Chen Ran was taken aback by Pei Xiangli's question: "When did it happen?"

"When did Lao Zhou get a girlfriend?" Chen Ran tried hard to recall the story that happened before: "Are you two living on the same plane? Later, Lao Zhou scolded you for being of the opposite sex and inhuman while drinking."

"Which opposite sex?" Pei Xiangli picked up his eyes, and his temper rose. When people are drunk, their emotions are always out of control. He put his chopsticks on the edge of the bowl with a "click": "The thief shouted, catch the thief?"

"Hey! I'm standing on Lao Zhou's side! Zheng Fu, Zheng Fu! Isn't that sister back? Who does she have a story with you two? You're about to have a grudge, can there still be scandals?"

"Zheng Fu?" Pei Xiangli leaned on his body, recalling Zhou Jibai's attitude towards Zheng Fu: "I haven't seen her for a long time."

"It's not a matter of today! Did you get close to that sister when you were abroad? I saw that there were photos of her in Moments who were very close to you. When Zhou Jibai showed us while drinking, he was so angry that he dropped his phone." broken!"

"At the time, I thought you two were having a fight, but now that I think about it, Lao Zhou is jealous!" Chen Ran pouted, looking like an eighth wife reliving the drama of the past.

"Next time you spread rumors in front of Zhou Jibai, do you think he will deal with you..." Pei Xiangli paused, and finally shook his head.

"Zheng Fu did come to see me during the school holidays, but it was only her first year studying abroad, and she hasn't been here since then." Pei Xiangli tried his best to dig out the memories of that time from his mind.

"That's not right... not long before you returned to China... I remember seeing that sister posting your photo!" Chen Ran and Zheng Fu are not very close, and there are too many people in the circle of friends, so I can't be sure for a while.

"Did you read it wrong?" Pei Xiangli reopened a bottle of beer and poured it for Chen Ran: "Drink..."

"I asked you to drink with me, why is it that I'm here watching you drink now?" Chen Ran took a sip and grinned with cold: "Why don't you go back and have a drink with Lao Zhou..."

"...Farewell." Pei Xiangli's face changed and he waved his hand.

"All right, all right! Drink, drink!" Chen Ran gave up his life to accompany the gentleman, and started to drink with Pei Xiangli.

"Really, I think you two are very good together. I'm not surprised to hear that you two are dating. Lao Zhou is a good man. I can see that he likes you very much. You two go out together. His eyes rolled Just staring at you right now... Ouch, I'm so tired!" Chen Ran babbled.

"Pfft——" Pei Xiangli almost choked on the wine: "Aren't you disgusting? Stop staring at other people all the time, go fuck yourself!"

"When we were in college, I felt that you were a very thoughtful person. When I first entered the dormitory, I saw that Lao Zhou was a young master, and you were a literary youth. This dormitory is not good! Unexpectedly, you really have fun. We went together..."

They didn't know how long they had been drinking, Pei Xiangli's phone on the table vibrated, but Pei Xiangli just glanced at it, then leaned back.

"It's Lao Zhou again! Pick it up! Whatever you two say, just pretend I don't exist!" Chen Ran couldn't speak clearly: "If you don't pick it up, I'll pick it up for you!"

He has been an agent for a long time, and hearing the ringing of his mobile phone is like winding an alarm clock, and he feels uncomfortable if he refuses to accept it.Pei Xiangli didn't hold him down, and the answer button on the phone was pressed.

"Hello... What time is it yet?" Zhou Jibai's voice came over.

"Hey! Old Zhou! It's me! I'm drinking with Lao Pei at the food stall!" Chen Ran muttered.

"What are you two doing in the cold weather?" Zhou Jibai frowned.

"Hey...Old Pei is also a big man, you look at him like a little wife every day, no wonder he annoys you and doesn't like to answer your calls!" Chen Ran couldn't speak his mind.

"He said he bothered me?" Zhou Jibai's voice on the phone was suddenly colder than the wine glass in his hand.

It's over, something bad...

Pei Xiangli thought so with the last sliver of reason, but he couldn't control himself to snatch the phone back.

"Give me the address, I'll go over and ask him why he bothers me!"