Yu Liangmu

Now, outside the emergency room of the hospital, You Liangmu is squatting in the cold corridor, holding this elderly machine that has only been used for more than two months in his hand.

His forehead was pressed against the phone screen, and he kept chanting: "Amitabha, Bodhisattva bless, Amitabha, Amitabha..."

Believe in Buddhism?He doesn't have this habit, it's just that the unconscious thoughts are exported.At this time, no one can ask, even Tang Yungan, the savior, is useless. You can only ask the Bodhisattva and the Buddha.

"Ayou," resting his hand lightly on the top of his hair, "tell me if you feel uncomfortable, you can cry if you want to cry, don't hold back."

You Liangmu raised his head and saw Tang Yunqian standing beside him with his usual calm expression, looking at him with trustworthy eyes.

It was quite miraculous, he really wanted to hug this man's leg, use it as a pillar, and lean his weak self against it, without thinking about anything else.

"Brother Gan, do you know? I've always thought about it since I was a child. My grandma...is obviously very tired from life, but she smiles more than anyone else and looks more comfortable than anyone else...As for her, she always has one hand. Take a puff of mahjong, laugh happily, heartless..."

You Liangmu rubbed his eyes, "I haven't seen what kind of person my mother is, so I can't comment on it... But I think she did a good thing for this family, that is, she gave birth to me so that I can live a good life." Be filial to my grandma..."

"With me here, even though I don't have much ability, alas... But it won't mean that my grandma will not be sent away. After all, my uncle's useless person can't be counted on. At least with me, before the old lady leaves, there is someone The black-haired man squeezed her shoulders and wiped her back, picked up shit and pee..."

Tang Yunqian didn't speak, just stood beside You Liangmu, never left half a step from the beginning to the end, quietly listening to the words of this dimmed man.

Almost three hours later, the red light in the emergency room finally went out. You Liangmu lifted his spirits almost instantly, jumped up from the corner, and rushed forward. Tang Yunqian was with him.

A doctor came out and took off his mask, "The patient is out of danger, and his condition is stable, and further observation is needed."

You Liangmu let out a long breath, half of his body went numb.

Tang Yunqian patted him on the shoulder lightly, You Liangmu turned his head, and the two exchanged glances, he suddenly felt much more at ease in his heart.

Soon, a mobile hospital bed came out of the emergency room, and the old lady lay on it with her eyes closed. Many tubes were tied and she suffered a lot, just like a piece of bark on the verge of drying up.

Fortunately, the white cloth on her body did not cover her head.

Grandma turned the corner from danger this time, forcing You Liangmu's eyes to turn red.

"Grandma..." the man called out.

Tang Yunqian communicated with the doctor about some matters, and remembered all the precautions before coming to tell You Liangmu, "Grandma is fine, don't worry."

His voice is very calm, every word is very clear, always with a persuasive force that no one else can replace.

Because it was Tang Yunqian, You Liangmu could believe it without any reason, and instantly felt relieved.

"I..." the man wiped his face, and said angrily, "Scared, frightened me to death, Brother Gan, I just... I was really scared just now..."

Fear welled up in him belatedly, and he suddenly felt that he was out of strength and needed a little solid support. His body slowly leaned forward, and his head naturally rested on Tang Yunqian's shoulder.

Tang Yunqian hugged him, and slowly moved his hand along his back, as if he was soothing an animal.Although You Liangmu was very tired and sleepy, it seemed that he had finally regained some strength.

Always at this time, when you need a shoulder to lean on the most, Yu Liangmu will clearly perceive——

I need Tang Yunqian.

From the very beginning, three years ago, he not only admired and looked up to Tang Yunqian, but also needed this man like plants need sunlight, air and water.

There are also types of people, and different types have different habits.Some people are dragons and phoenixes, others are mice and domestic animals, and You Liangmu is a crawling ant, a lonely ant forced to be independent.

He could have been a tiny ant all his life, crawling on the dirt road day after day, with his two thin tentacles dangling, ignoring everything.When you are tired, stop where you are, and be a sad piece of wood. When you have enough rest, you will continue to climb forward, and live your life numbly and boringly.

But Tang Yunqian appeared.

This man, like a scorching red sun, hung naked in front of him, blocking his original path as an ant, leading him closer to light and heat that he had never seen before, and giving him hope that he had never imagined .

He is fragile, Tang Yunqian is right in front of him, for him to stand next to.He was powerless, and Tang Yunqian was right behind him, letting him lean on him.

As long as Tang Yun is there, there is no need to be afraid of the sky falling.This is the first and only person he has met since he was a child who can help him and save him.

Over time, the lazy and unmotivated You Liangmu began to think, could he live a different life in his life?

At least, the future will be different from the past, and the world can be different from now on.

But then one thing after another happened, his tentacles gradually became more sensitive, and while deepening his dependence on Tang Yunqian, he also did not forget that this man could throw him away at any time, as easy as throwing away a can or a garbage bag .

He had learned his lesson half a year ago.

Lu Juan was still in the intensive care unit for observation, and You Liangmu couldn't go in to visit for the time being. After looking through the glass window, he couldn't do anything.

The doctor also told him to be mentally prepared that this kind of relapse may occur for a long time in the future. You Liangmu digested it for a while, but his heart was relieved, and he was not as flustered as before.

People face more and more complicated things, and the heart will gradually resist and withstand the toss.

Tang Yunqian still didn't speak much from the beginning to the end, and he still stayed with You Liangmu all the time. After completing various formalities and coming out of the hospital, it was already very late at night.

You Liangmu lowered his head, only to realize that he was being held by Tang Yunqian all the time, and his hands had never been separated.

He knew that he should take his hand out, but occasionally when he was weak and tired, when he let go of his defenses and barriers, he was also a little nostalgic for the rare warmth of his palm.

You Liangmu hesitated for a moment, letting himself feel for two more seconds before slowly pulling out his hand. However, Tang Yunqian tightened his hand and did not let go.

"..."

Looking at the man's tired face, Tang Yunqian even lowered his voice, "It's so late, it will take at least an hour to get back to your home from the hospital."

"..."

"Come stay with me tonight. It's close to the hospital. It's more convenient for you to visit grandma tomorrow."

"Hey."

This time, You Liangmu didn't refuse again. Compared with some pointless and meaningless persistence, it is obvious that grandma is much more important.

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After driving for about ten minutes, he returned to Tang Yunqian's apartment in no time.

After more than a year, he came back here again. As soon as he stepped through the door, You Liangmu felt that nothing had changed here, nothing had changed.

The floor is light brown ceramic lacquer, the leather sofa in the center of the living room has a warm luster, an exquisite frosted coffee table is placed in front, and a layer of snow-white wool carpet is laid underneath, which is very warm to the eye.

The coffee table, chandelier, carpet, sofa and other furniture are still the ones he and Tang Yungan picked out in the past, and it is normal to still use them, but the tablecloths on the table, the brand of drawing paper, and the flowers in the glass bottle need to be replaced regularly Consumables, unexpectedly also immutable.

This house seems to have been preserved intact, someone is carefully maintaining its past appearance, and it has not changed at all.

You Liangmu remembered that in the past, he had struggled to stay here and keep the traces of him and Tang Yunqian.

But struggling may not help.

He also wanted to occupy this nest to his death, so he refused to move. Even if Gu Zhihan wanted to put a foot in, his butt would firmly occupy this position, preventing anyone from changing this home.

In the end, it was Tang Yunqian who kicked him out himself, so there was nothing to say.

Now, You Liangmu is still amazed as he stares at the familiar wisteria patterns on the carpet.

Tang Yunqian behind him closed the door, and said to him lightly, "The guest room hasn't been cleaned, you should stay in the master bedroom first tonight."

You Liangmu was stunned, and turned his head, "Ah? Then you..."

Tang Yunqian looked at him incomprehensibly, his eyes seemed to say, what kind of stupid question are you asking.

Indeed, You Liangmu also felt that he was stupid to ask this question.Tang Yunqian is the owner of this place, so he will naturally sleep in his own room. Could it be that he still sleeps in the living room?

Thinking of sharing the bed with Tang Yunqian again after such a long time, You Liangmu was speechless, not knowing what to say.

After a while, he forcefully squeezed out a sentence, "I, I just need to sleep on the sofa, the living room, uh, the place is big enough..."

"There is no heating in the living room, it is cold at night, and it is easy to catch cold."

"what……"

"You have to take care of grandma in the future. You'd better pay attention to your body. If you get sick, no one will take care of you."

Tang Yunqian's speeches always made sense, and You Liangmu racked his brains but couldn't find any mistakes or omissions.

He thought, maybe Tang Yunqian was just out of kindness, and he was thinking about something messy and out of tune here by himself.

Tang Yunqian was very tired after spending the whole night with him. No creditor was so kind-hearted. Not only did he not say "thank you", but he still had to grind around here again. Wouldn't it be cold to others.

"Hey, then... okay. Thank you, Brother Gan."

You Liangmu changed into his slippers and walked into the master bedroom familiarly. He has slept here for two years, even with the lights off and blindfolded, he can walk in directly without bumping into the wall.

Entering the room, it was still exactly the same as before, all the furnishings and even the smell were familiar, which made his heart tremble a little.

Tang Yungan followed in and opened the door of the cloakroom, "The clothes and towels are here, remember?"

You Liangmu walked over, took a look, and was quite surprised that a small part of the clothes he had left before was still there.

Not only are they still there, even the way they are placed has not changed. The trousers are placed on the left side of the closet, the tops are neatly folded and stacked by category, and a few pajamas are inserted in Tang Yunqian's clothes.

He opened the lower drawer, and there were some underwear, mixed with his and Tang Yungan's, exchanging breaths, clean and ambiguous, which You Liangmu often misplaced before, but he simply ignored them later.

You Liangmu stared at it for a while, his face and neck felt hot.

He quickly took one from the inside, then reached for the towel and pajamas, all of which were crumpled up, hurriedly pulled the slippers and rushed to the bathroom.

Tang Yunqian behind him looked at the clothes in his hands and said, "You—"

The man hesitated to speak, but before he could say anything, the steamy guy had already slipped away, and then, the bathroom door closed with a "bang".

Tang Yunqian had no choice but to close his mouth.Forget it, it's not the first time Yu Liangmu has worn his underwear.

It wasn't until You Liangmu took a shower, dried his body, and was about to put on his clothes, that he realized to his shock that he had taken the wrong underwear again, and Tang Yun did it.

Ah this.

He looked at the fabric that was obviously going to be one size bigger, his face flushed, he knocked his forehead on the marble sink, hit it hard twice, and died of shame and anger.

The bathroom door was pushed open, and the man came out slowly from inside. He was wrapped in the pajamas he wore before, his hair was wet and half dry, and the towel was draped around his fair neck.

He held the fabric that had been crumpled into a small ball in one hand, while the other hand unnaturally covered his lower body, covering his crotch.

Tang Yunqian watched him move towards the cloakroom in such an awkward posture, and raised his eyebrows, "You—"

"..."

"No panties?"

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Xiaoyou: ... (dementia-like