After being dressed as cannon fodder, I tear up the script

Before Song Jingxi opened the door, or even hesitated to come to Anjia, she never thought that things would suddenly take a decent turn.

In the process of looking at An Xiaoxiao, he was excited because of nervousness, and his heart was pounding.

"How do you know?" Song Jingxi's voice trembled, he didn't understand why An Xiaoxiao asked such a question, and what did she know.

"Why don't you go to my room and talk?"

An Xiaoxiao pointed in the direction of her room, raised her eyebrows excitedly at Song Jingxi, "Let's go bro, let's go."

Although I don't know what An Xiaoxiao meant, Song Jingxi has no other choice now. No one knows about that book, and no one knows about Xing Wenkang and Gao She. Now that An Xiaoxiao suddenly told herself such a thing, Song Jingxi suddenly caught There was a glimmer of hope.

On the way to An Xiaoxiao's room, he also met An Zhi who came up from downstairs.

Seeing that the two seemed to get along well together, An Zhi asked, "Where are you brothers and sisters going?"

"I have something I want to show my brother," An Xiaoxiao winked at An Zhi, playful and cute, "Mom, go back and rest, you're exhausted these days, don't stand still."

"Little girl, I have a secret with my brother so soon," An Zhi glanced at Song Jingxi again after speaking, the smile on his face turned into a faint and alienated smile, "Xiaoxi, tell mom if you want anything."

Song Jingxi forced a smile and shook his head.

He didn't have any complaints about An Zhi's different attitude towards him and An Xiaoxiao.

After all, An Xiaoxiao was brought up by An Zhi himself, and she...is just a guest.

As An Zhi said, if it wasn't because she couldn't find out the symptoms this time, she would never recognize herself again.

If it weren't for the pressure from the two elderly people in the family, An Zhi probably wouldn't have taken him back to An's house.

My surname is Song because the dean of the orphanage is surnamed Song. Apart from the fact that he came out of An Zhi's stomach, Song Jingxi is just a stranger to her.

Seeing An Zhi live so happily before, Song Jingxi really has no idea now.

When his mother was found, the knot in his heart was almost let go, at least he didn't become a burden to his mother in the end.

That's good, he won't think too much about the rest, and he can't think too much.

"Mom, I'll tell you what brother wants," An Xiaoxiao saw that the atmosphere between the two was not good, she immediately broke the embarrassment of the scene, then pulled Song Jingxi, and said, "Jing and I Brother Xi will leave first, Mom, let's talk about what you have to do later."

Seeing the backs of the two leaving in a hurry, An Zhi stopped his thoughts of catching up.

Although I don't know what unspeakable secrets lie between the two little ghosts, but speaking of it, it was beyond An Zhi's expectation that the two could get along so quickly.

Before she brought Song Jingxi back, she thought that the two of them would hate each other.

Fortunately, she was the one who worried too much.

Song Jingxi is very kind, and An Xiaoxiao is also very tolerant. Now that Song Jingxi is back, she will never abandon him again...

"...Let go of me first."

An Xiaoxiao's room is full of pink decorations, and it really looks like a princess' room from a glance.

At that moment, Song Jingxi really felt strong powerlessness and jealousy for a second, but that mood quickly disappeared. No matter what, he was just an ordinary person, longing for all the ordinary people he should have.

But none of this is important, "Can you tell me now? How do you know about that novel? I have searched all the bookstores, and I have searched the search information on my phone tens of thousands of times, but a little No idea."

That's right, before An Xiaoxiao said those words, Song Jingxi once thought that those memories after wearing a book were all her own illusions, including the book she read before wearing a book.

Now that An Xiaoxiao said that she knew this book, Song Jingxi was going crazy with joy.

At least it wasn't his own hallucination, at least those memories in the book were real.

"Actually, I'm also quite surprised." An Xiaoxiao walked to the back of her desk and sat down, slowly took out some papers from the drawer and organized them.

"Brother Jingxi was reading this novel before he was sent to the hospital, right?" An Xiaoxiao took out the novel from the drawer and shook it, and there seemed to be a flash of excitement in her eyes, "Right?"

"Correct."

"How did you get it?" Seeing the familiar cover, Song Jingxi's hanging heart was finally let go.

He stepped forward to get the book back, but An Xiaoxiao hid him.

When the girl was asked this question, she blushed and hesitated for a long time. After a long time, she managed to gather her strength and said in a low voice, "This is mine, brother Jingxi's is stuck together because of being wet with water." , so I took it back and dried it for you on my own initiative, and this new one is also given to you."

An Xiaoxiao took out the crumpled and yellowed book from the drawer, and handed it to Song Jingxi together with the brand new one.

"Brother...do you also like crispy duck literature?"

Song Jingxi's hand flipping through the book paused for a moment amidst An Xiaoxiao's questioning, he pursed his lips, recalling Gao She's face, he blushed uncomfortably and said, "I'll read it in my spare time, and besides, I'm gay .”

Song Jingxi's eyes lit up when he saw An Xiaoxiao.

In order to prevent An Xiaoxiao from saying something outrageous, Song Jingxi hurriedly said, "I want to ask you, that is... there are books, why can't the browser find them?"

"Ah? Because it's off the shelf." An Xiaoxiao thought for a while, and then sorted out the papers she took out from the drawer just now, "Because of some unspeakable things, the whole network has been rectified. My brother and I hand in hand." These two books are out of print."

"..."

Song Jingxi was in a very disturbed mood now. He got the book but couldn't do anything at all. He asked, "I haven't read this book carefully. Can you tell me what the ending is?"

Song Jingxi put a glimmer of hope in this book, if the ending in the book followed her, it would prove that her guess was completely correct.

If it's not...that's okay, as long as you find a way to wear it back, it's fine.

"Of course the ending is that the male protagonist and the male protagonist are together."

"Male main attacker, who is it?"

"Of course it's Xing Wenkang," An Xiaoxiao said, "Brother, what's the matter? Didn't you read it, why are you still asking this question?"

"What about Gao She?"

"Gao She? That super invincible and handsome uncle?" When talking about Gao She, An Xiaoxiao obviously became much more excited. "Of course Uncle Wenli is going smoothly. He is uniquely beautiful. A man like this kind of quality feels like no matter what he arranges. It’s a pity that such a person is with him, the author said so.”

"Gao She is indeed handsome and high-quality." Thinking of Gao She, Song Jingxi showed a slack expression on his face, "Although he is not a perfect man, and sometimes he is very bad...but he is really gentle and handsome. "

"Bad?" An Xiaoxiao asked, "Isn't it? I think Gao She is quite gentle, but although there are not many sentences describing him, in the sentences that are briefly mentioned, I feel that Gao She is indeed a bit dark."

"Brother Jingxi, how do you sound like you've gotten along with him? The words and sentences describing him are...very sincere."

"Ah, no." Song Jingxi didn't want to reveal that she was wearing a book and married Gao She and had a child, although An Xiaoxiao probably wouldn't believe it even if he told her, "I simply like this character, this character is very good. "

"That's right, that's right, I like Gao She the most in this book." An Xiaoxiao was so excited that she finally met a like-minded person, so she didn't ask too much about Song Jingxi's secrets from her. It's over.

No one around knows that she is a rotten girl, and she can't find anyone who feels pity for her in real life.

Now that he finally found it, this person is still her brother, she almost wants to go online right now, and anonymously tell all her corrupt netizens the great news.

I have a reasonable brother who has exactly the same preferences as me.

When I went to see Song Jingxi with An Zhi, she saw the book next to Song Jingxi. She didn't believe it at first, but after confirming it, she secretly helped Song Jing hide it. After all, this society is not so tolerant of homosexuality.

If An Zhi found out that Song Jingxi was reading this kind of book, the consequences would definitely be disastrous.

In addition, Song Jingxi's book got wet, so An Xiaoxiao helped to fix it.

When she found out that Song Jingxi was her own brother, An Xiaoxiao's first reaction was that she couldn't believe it, but this is an adult's business, she is not yet financially independent, so she doesn't interrupt, even if she has complaints in her heart, it won't help, the fact is In front of her, how could she resist anything?

It's all about eating by looking at people's faces.

So after An Zhi told herself about this, An Xiaoxiao just nodded calmly despite being surprised, without saying anything.

Hearing that other uncles had many illegitimate children, An Xiaoxiao thought that having a brother shouldn't be such a big deal, instead of having trouble with her parents about "running away from home", she might as well accept it with peace of mind.

But I didn't expect that my elder brother had the same hobbies as me, which was a surprise.

An Xiaoxiao is looking forward to Song Jingxi waking up and discussing the plot with her every day. She really wants Song Jingxi to wake up sooner than anyone else!

So there is a lot of expectation for this biological brother who only exists in other people's mouths.

An Xiaoxiao didn't get any answers here, and the more Song Jingxi thought about it, the more headaches he had.

Uncle Wenli lives alone, so what should I do?

That's right, the novel in the real world has already ended, how could it be possible to change with the changes that happened to me.

It would be terrible if it really changed.

I was too flustered, so I was a little whimsical.

"Thank you for telling me," Song Jingxi wanted to go back and be alone for a while, so he said to An Xiaoxiao, "Then I'll go first."

"Ah... I still want to talk to my brother again," An Xiaoxiao was a little bit reluctant, she stood up to see him off, then sat back, looked at the paper full of words in her hand and read to pieces, "Actually, I I feel that a person like Gao She should have someone to accompany him, otherwise it will be too depressing."

She said, "I think the original cannon fodder is good, but he is not bad. If the person you like is Gao She, it will definitely not end up like that in the end. It is best if Gao She and that cannon fodder are both good, I I think the ending will be better, instead of everyone becoming a stepping stone for the hero, I don't like that, ah..."

An Xiaoxiao suddenly thought of something and blushed, "By the way, the name of that cannon fodder and my brother's name... seem to be the same. I was so excited that I didn't think of it before. This is too coincidental."

An Xiaoxiao saw that Song Jingxi seemed to slow down after hearing her thoughts. The next second, she saw Song Jingxi turn around and said to herself, "That's right, Gao She and Song Jingxi are really a perfect match in the world. In another world, the two of them fell in love and got married a long time ago."

Seeing Song Jingxi talking to herself so excitedly, the excitement and shame on An Xiaoxiao's face gradually melted into surprise, and she said a little embarrassedly, "You think exactly the same as I do, brother Jingxi, so I wrote A little bit of Gao She and Cannon Fodder Song... well, it's their fanfiction, do you want to read it?"

"what?"

"Although they may all be OOC."

Song Jingxi didn't know how he took the manuscript from An Xiaoxiao's hand, and how he took it back to his room to read.

Song Jingxi just wants to quickly finish all the things he has collected now, but the more he looks at it, the more he feels something is wrong.

Why is An Xiaoxiao's fanfiction... so similar to her own experience after transmigrating into the book.

Turning to the end, An Xiaoxiao's last line was interrupted a second before the original owner, Song Jingxi, had a car accident.

Song Jingxi really felt like going crazy.

He needs to calm down now before he can continue to think about the next thing.

Song Jingxi thought, his consciousness in the book is definitely not controlled by outsiders, what he thinks must be based on his true feelings, and Gao She clearly loves himself very much.

How could the love between them be described in a few words?

But now, An Xiaoxiao's fanfiction overlaps almost everything in her memory after transmigrating the book, but Gao She's character design is not the same as the Gao She in her impression.

There are also some discrepancies in the various interactions between myself and Gao She, but the big event remains the same, especially the car accident.

Therefore, it should be that An Xiaoxiao's thinking is similar to her own, so what she wrote is also similar to what she has experienced.

Song Jingxi took out the physical book he read before wearing the book again, because the pages of the book became wrinkled and yellow after being soaked in water, and the whole book was almost swollen, and the pages could not be seen at all.

It was only when Song Jingxi turned to the last page that he realized that the book he was reading had broken page numbers, and the ending was different from the new one An Xiaoxiao gave him.

It's strange that the page was broken at the time when Xing Wenkang and Feng Xiangyuan were most in love. He didn't see the back before so he didn't notice it.

Why?The one I bought was only one page missing, or did it mean that Xing Wenkang and Feng Xiangyuan had no good results in the end?

But it's not right, other books have endings, and Xing Wenkang and Feng Xiangyuan lived happily together.

Why is it that the book I wear is...

Thinking about it now, it seems that everything happened on purpose, as if I deliberately let myself rewrite the ending.

Song Jingxi put the manuscript written by An Xiaoxiao at the back of the book, and flipped through the book again. He was thinking, if he fell asleep after reading it again, would he be able to wear it back into the book in the same way? Woolen cloth?

There is a 50.00% chance that he wants to try it.

That night, Song Jingxi honestly read the parts she didn't like to skip, word by word.

Occasionally seeing Song Ying getting along with the original owner, he would think again, how could Song Ying, who was so passionate about him, turn a blind eye to the original owner's real pain.

Song Ying was so kind to the original owner, and would help Song Jingxi teach those people behind his back, but he did not protect Song Jingxi in front of Song Jingxi, making people mistakenly think that Song Jingxi had no one to rely on in the Song family.

Seeing Gao She appear, Song Jingxi was laughing at Gao She's ability to pretend again. When he said a certain sentence, he must have had a bad idea in his heart. Others couldn't hear it. He was still counting the money for him after being sold by Gao She.

After reading these things carefully now, there are obvious differences from the places I hurriedly took when I read them for the first time.

I just don't know if the baby in my womb is okay, are Gao She, Jiang Yunsheng and the others okay now?

Are you always worried because you had an accident?

The night at Anjia was very quiet, and occasionally a dog barked outside, making the night even more peaceful.

Song Jing was lying on the bed on the west side, the scene in front of him gradually became blurred, his head became dizzy, and drowsiness gradually struck.

This was a night when Song Jingxi slept fairly well after he came back. With books by his side, he felt more at ease.

Calmness gradually healed the sadness brought about in recent days, and finally fell asleep with the quiet and peaceful evening breeze outside the window.

"Didn't you say there's nothing serious? Why can't you wake up?"

Jiang Yunsheng sat outside the ward, and in just one day, his whole body was quite haggard.

Song Ying leaned against the hospital corridor and looked into the ward through the glass on the door panel. Song Jingxi was still lying quietly on the hospital bed with no blood on his face.

If he didn't know, he might think that he has no vital signs now.

There is still a child in his stomach, if he doesn't wake up soon, even if he is in good health, it won't last long if he wears it like this.

After the Song family found out about the situation, they were almost as anxious as ants on a hot pot, especially Song Chang'an, who was so worried that he fainted several times.

The old man is getting old, and after all, he can't stand this kind of torment. He stayed here for a long time yesterday and was finally persuaded to leave because he was exhausted.

Jiang Yunsheng didn't want to say anything frustrating to make it even more difficult for Song Ying. The corridor became quiet after he finished speaking, and the atmosphere became even more chaotic.

Not long after, footsteps sounded in the corridor again.

The two looked over there and saw that Gao She seemed to be on the phone with someone, he talked as he walked, and finally just said goodbye and hung up the phone.

Today's Gao She wore a black windbreaker, which made his tall body a lot thinner.

Gao She was taciturn, and his expression became more melancholy, his eye sockets were slightly sunken, the blue color in his eyes spread, and the clear eyes behind the lenses also became a little cloudy.

"How is it?" Gao She asked, "Has Xiaoxi woke up?"

Gao She asked the question knowingly, and seemed to use this sentence as his life-saving straw.

If Song Jingxi didn't wake up again, he felt that he couldn't hold on any longer.

Song Ying shook his head and asked, "Do you want to go in and see Xiaoxi? The doctor and nurse said they can visit for half an hour. Go and accompany Xiaoxi, maybe he will wake up when he hears your voice."

Gao She nodded, and Song Ying stepped aside from his seat and opened the door for him.

The ward was quieter than the corridor, so Gao She's footsteps were lighter.

Song Jingxi's eyes were closed tightly on the hospital bed, and a few traces of paleness appeared on her delicate face.

At that time, Song Jingxi was sitting in the back seat, and there was no serious problem because of his posture, but his forehead hit the glass of the car window, and he had a slight concussion. He was wearing thick clothes, and there were no other abrasions.

Song Siyuan, who was sitting in the front of the car, was hit badly, and died when he was sent to the hospital. Feng Xiangyuan was taken away, and he was still out of reach for the time being.

Gao She just came back from the police station, looking at Song Jingxi on the hospital bed, his heartbeat slowed down.

Gao She is a person who never regrets, but if he knew earlier, he would never let Song Jingxi leave his side for half a step.

"Xiaoxi." Gao She gently held his hand, leaned over and rested his forehead on the back of his hand, "Wake up quickly, okay, I won't let you suffer any more grievances."

"The baby is telling you to wake up quickly, okay? Xiaoxi is the most obedient and smartest child in the world. If you don't wake up, I will..."

Gao She whispered beside his ear, spreading from his ear to Kailai.

Song Jingxi slowly opened his eyes, and the chandelier on the ceiling above his head made him dazed for a moment.

Still at home.

Was that just a dream?

But everything in the dream was so real, he even felt the wetness of Gao She's breath gently falling on the back of his hand.

It's so weird, I really want to go back.

Everyone seems to be very worried.

Song Jingxi saw the manuscript written by An Xiaoxiao in his hand, then put the manuscript in the book and went downstairs.

At about seven o'clock in the morning, everyone has already got up at the dining table to prepare breakfast.

When Song Jingxi went downstairs, he saw An Xiaoxiao's family enjoying themselves, and there was an empty chair on the dining table, maybe it was reserved for him.

Song Jingxi didn't want to go over to destroy the harmonious atmosphere, but saw a servant passing by, and said to himself, "Master, you're up, go and have breakfast", which attracted the attention of other people at the table. Awkward.

Maybe it was because they were relatives who were really blood related to him, so when their eyes looked towards him, Song Jingxi rarely felt uncomfortable.

"Xiaoxi, get up, come here quickly."

An Zhi said this to herself, with enthusiasm and a little alienation.

Song Jingxi was still holding the manuscript in his hand. When An Xiaoxiao saw it, an unnatural blush appeared on her face, so she waved to Song Jingxi, and pulled away the chair beside her, "Brother Jingxi, sit next to me."

Song Jingxi nodded and sat beside An Xiaoxiao with a smile.

"Did you sleep well last night? How about going home today to pack your luggage and move in with your parents and sister?" An Liquan asked him softly, as if he was afraid that Song Jingxi would disagree, and he was still light She patted Song Jingxi's hand, "Now that you've come home, your mother owes you something in her heart, as does our An family, just ask for whatever you want."

Song Jingxi paused for a moment with the hand holding the milk, and put it down before drinking it.

He shook his head, "I don't want anything. I can support myself now, so I don't need anything. You don't need to be careful because of my existence. How you lived before is how you live now."

Song Jingxi originally thought that if he blindly wanted to go back to the book to live the life he wanted, to be loved and favored by others, was it a kind of evasion and selfishness.

Everyone worked very hard to make their existence not so obtrusive. When An Liquan said such words, Song Jingxi could probably understand that he might never be able to integrate into this family.

What a debt, it sounds weird, like sending a beggar out of face.

Perhaps no one would have thought that Song Jingxi would say such a thing, so when Song Jingxi finished saying this, the dining table immediately fell into a strange atmosphere.

Zhao Yingyuan said softly, "Dad, he just wants you to come home. There is no other meaning. Of course we know that you are an adult, Jingxi, but it is everyone's wish to let you go home. Don't refuse in such a hurry."

Although Zhao Yingyuan said that, he didn't ease the atmosphere just now. An Xiaoxiao was caught in the middle, feeling that she was not a human being.

What nonsense everyone is talking about, he must be unwilling to let Song Jingxi come back in such a hurry.

And the explanation is not good, even she feels panicked in her heart. After being abandoned for more than 20 years, when she comes back, the family only has a steady stream of overt and covert pressure, which is really uncomfortable.

If he wanted to be Song Jingxi, he would have to get angry on the spot.

An Xiaoxiao glanced at Song Jingxi secretly, and immediately interrupted the conversation of the few people, "Let's eat first, let's talk about something after eating, brother must be hungry."

But it is estimated that I am full of gas, and I am not in the mood to eat.

"Xiaoxiao is right, let's eat first." There is no way, An Zhi can only smooth things over by the side, she really owes Song Jingxi, and it is true that she wants him to come back to her, but if Song Jingxi refuses, she will not force her he.

One is because maybe Song Jingxi didn't grow up beside her, so his love for him was not that deep.

Song Jingxi really didn't have any ideas about "recognizing the ancestors and returning to the clan" in An Liquan's mouth. He didn't want to compete with An Xiaoxiao for any property, and he didn't want to exchange his Song for An.

As for their emotions, I don't know how to accept them all. It's strange that he can accept all of the Song family, but when facing An Zhi and them, his inner fluctuations and ups and downs go through several twists and turns.

Maybe it's because their love for themselves is not obvious enough, so Song Jingxi's heart to move forward is struggling.

He has always been just a "child" who wants to be pampered and loved. Even though he has passed the age of acting like a baby, at least he has experienced the feeling of being loved by others. Being left out can be painful and unsettling.

After the meal, Song Jingxi found An Xiaoxiao. Because An Xiaoxiao was still in school, Song Jingxi happened to leave with her.

When the two reached the school gate, Song Jingxi put down his guard and said to An Xiaoxiao, "I read your manuscript last night."

When An Xiaoxiao heard it, an excited expression immediately appeared on her face, "Really? Really? What do you think, brother?"

"It's pretty good, it fits very well..." Song Jingxi stopped talking at this point, "How did you come up with such an idea?"

"I just wrote it because I thought it was interesting. It's really great that my brother likes it."

Song Jingxi asked seemingly unintentionally, "Why didn't I write about the car accident? I think this is the key point."

"Ah...Because I'm nervous about my studies recently, I was afraid of being discovered by my parents when I was writing at home, but I didn't plan to continue writing. Although I wrote this to change the tragic fate of cannon fodder, but after thinking about it, cannon fodder It’s just cannon fodder, no matter how I write it, the author’s ending has already been decided, I just wrote this to satisfy myself because I want to satisfy my own selfishness.”

Song Jingxi was left silent after listening. He still didn't understand whether the reason why he wore a book had anything to do with An Xiaoxiao's article.

Song Jingxi pondered for a while, and under An Xiaoxiao's gaze, he still said, "I have an unfeeling request, and it's quite embarrassing to say it."

An Xiaoxiao was generous, and waved her hands boldly, "What's the matter, my brother said, as long as I can do it, I will do it."

"Can you lend me this manuscript to read for a few more days? I think the details are very good. I want to read it a few more times."

"I thought it was a big deal, of course it's okay." An Xiaoxiao smiled, "It's as long as my brother likes it, and you can ask me if there is anything you don't understand."

After leaving An Xiaoxiao's school, Song Jingxi returned to her residence.

Hearing that he woke up, the boss also called to greet him. Song Jingxi said that he would not be able to go to work in two days, and the boss also expressed his understanding.

Song Jingxi didn't necessarily think he could go back. If he couldn't, he still had to live a good life.

He also didn't want to live with the An's family. All in all, he had to leave a way out for himself.

Song Jingxi sat on the table in front of the window sill for a long time, staring at the yellowed paper pages soaked in water, he took a pen to draw on the paper. .

When he saw the word Gao She, he remembered the dream he had last night.

Song Jingxi really felt that she was going crazy, she couldn't tell what was reality and what was a dream.

When he came back to his senses, he realized that he had written something like "Gao She...wake up" on the page.

The wood is done.

He couldn't do anything.

Song Jingxi wanted to cross out what he had written, but seeing Gao She's name, he couldn't bear to cross it out, so he just wrote his own name next to Gao She's name.

When she woke up the next day, she was still lying on her own bed, but Song Jingxi was a little more energetic.

He went to a flower shop to buy a bouquet of flowers and sent them to the orphanage where he grew up. Perhaps thanks to Anzhi, when he was living in the orphanage, Anzhi probably invested a lot of money here to make this The seemingly dilapidated orphanage survived.

Although Song Jingxi also donated some after working, it was only rare and obviously not enough.

The dean said that seven or eight children would come in a month ago, but now it is better and the number has decreased a lot, but there will still be.

They are poor children.

The dean said that Song Jingxi has grown up a lot, and it is rare that there are children who will come back after leaving here. Maybe it is because they don’t want to face the pain of being abandoned before, or because they are too busy to come back, but as long as The kids grow up just fine.

This is also Song Jingxi's first time back.

Before, the money came and the people didn't arrive.

The dean was right. He was unwilling to face the fact that he had been abandoned before. He was sensitive and always depressed.

Sometimes Song Jingxi couldn't figure it out and went to get drunk, but he had a good capacity for alcohol, and every time he got drunk, it would last all night.

"Xiaoxi, have you... found your family?"

Before parting, the dean sent him off and asked him this question.

Song Jingxi was not surprised, but just nodded, "It probably won't be a happy reunion, but it's okay."

Song Jingxi smiled, "I've already experienced the warmth of a family, so it doesn't matter."

The dean thought that Song Jingxi was married and had children, and felt the warmth of the family he formed, so he didn't ask any more questions.

"From now on, let's live well. People always have to look forward, Xiaoxi," the dean hugged him, "You are the bravest child I have ever seen."

The dean's gray hair and face gradually occupied by wrinkles are somewhat different from the gentle woman in his memory.

Time has left indelible marks on everyone, and Song Jingxi, who had been clinging to her heart of wanting her parents to take her away from here, quietly gave up.

The An family recognized themselves, but they didn't seem to recognize themselves. To their biological parents, they might still be the child who was still sitting in the orphanage waiting for others to claim them.

After leaving the gate of the orphanage, Song Jingxi sat back in his car, the blue sky outside the window was as blue as he had seen when he was a child, the birds flitted across the branches and swayed the leaves lightly, freely.

The unknown big rock in Song Jingxi's heart was finally let go.

He let out a long breath, as if he had let out all the stagnation accumulated in his heart.

On the way away from the orphanage, Song Jingxi received a call from An Zhi.

This time, when he saw An Zhi's call, he didn't hesitate anymore, but picked it up easily, and his tone softened a lot.

"Hey?"

"Xiaoxi," Ann knew, "do you want to come home for dinner today?"

Plain greeting, a little nervous about doing tasks in it.

Even so, Song Jingxi also let go of An Zhi, and his "father" of the cheating scumbag that An Zhi said.

Nothing is impossible, just like life always needs setbacks.

"No," Song Jingxi said, "I won't go back. If you don't have anything to do in the future, you don't need to call me. I won't resent you."

"Don't put too much pressure on yourself, call me when you feel you have reconciled with the past."

Song Jingxi smiled at An Zhi on the other end of the phone with a relaxed and gentle tone.

The air outside the car window poured into the car through the crack of the car window, Song Jingxi finally called her, "Mom."

There was a long silence on the phone. Song Jingxi didn't hang up the phone, nor did he rush the person on the other side of the phone, but just waited for An Zhi to speak to him again.

"Mom knows."

After about a minute, An Zhi's relieved voice came from the phone.

There was a trace of self-deprecating smile in the woman's clear voice, without the heaviness, "Actually, mom made the sweet and sour pork ribs you like, but she didn't make it well, and even ruined a pot. When I finish my practice next time, Xiaoxi will definitely Come and taste it."

Song Jingxi nodded, and felt that his current ease made people laugh, but An Zhi couldn't see his movements, "Okay, I will definitely do it next time."

Song Jingxi has never felt so relaxed. Before, he always felt that something was wrong, but now he finally knows.

He just still longed for his mother's love and attention, but forcibly suppressed this longing.

If you don't think about it, you don't want it.

But it caused his own rebellious psychology.

He had been waiting for someone to hug him. When An Zhi appeared, he couldn't hold back the longing in his heart, but he didn't get a response from the other party.

Seeing my mother forming a new family and having a new child, I feel like an outsider stepping in, out of place.

The pain in his heart was magnified infinitely.

But he is already an adult, and he won't be unable to break free because he is deeply troubled. An Zhi said that he made himself his favorite sweet and sour pork ribs.

Song Jingxi suddenly remembered that when he was in the orphanage, his favorite dish was sweet and sour pork ribs, but ribs were rarer than chicken legs, and they were not often eaten.

If it wasn't for An Zhi's reminder just now, Song Jingxi thought, he might have forgotten it too.

What I have long forgotten, my mother still remembers.

It's not that she doesn't love herself, it's just that she dared not face that painful memory just like she dared not go back to the orphanage.

"Mom, let's do this for today. I won't say much when I'm driving."

"Okay, let's take you and Xiaoxiao to the amusement park tomorrow. I heard that there is a new project that you young people like very much. Do you want to go..."

An Zhi's voice gradually became quieter. Song Jingxi couldn't hear what she said in the second half. He turned on the phone screen and looked at the phone.