Phoenix Nirvana

Is it worth it?I asked again and again in my heart.Is it worth it?I pulled out a smile and sat down on the stone steps at the door.

Afterwards, Li Yi came out, closed the door softly, and asked, "Why don't you leave?"

I looked up at her, hesitated for a while, and then said softly: "I can't walk anymore."

Li Yi froze for a moment, and I saw sympathy and pity in her eyes.

He lowered his head and smiled, and waved his hands: "You go first, I will go back after sitting for a while, and I won't run away."

Li Yi nodded and left slowly.

Seeing that the clothes were gone, I couldn't help but shed tears.The so-called men don't flick their tears lightly, but it's really sad, so sad.

Burying his face in his arms, he suppressed his crying.Why do I feel like a puppet, being manipulated by others?So powerless, so powerless, nothing can be done, nothing can be changed.

Just like when Hyacinth fed the female blood lotus to me when I was a child, everything was doomed.Maybe I should blame him. The intricate grievances and grievances between the previous generation and this generation all started from his "Phoenix Nirvana".

The so-called desire, greed, hatred and ignorance, indeed, the worldly people are still deluded by these.Without these things, maybe I would still be that rotten Si Jing?What about Feng Yi?Life may be more comfortable than it is now.

I was really tired, and suddenly I was inexplicably forced to accept too many things, and I just felt out of breath.Tell yourself to sit for a while, and then get up after sitting for a while.Get up no matter how tired you are.

Before I knew it, I sat until the sun set.

The evening wind was blowing hard, and the wind was getting stronger and stronger. Looking up at the sky, maybe it was going to rain.

He propped himself up and stood up, straightened his hair that was blown by the wind, looked back at the door deeply, sighed, and turned around.

"Boom—" There was a sound of metal clashing from inside the door.Startled, I opened the door and rushed in.

When I saw the person lying on the ground, my heart ached.I can't believe that such a strong person will fall to the ground even holding a basin of water.Is it lack of strength?

I hurried over to help him up, his face was still pale, and the body leaning against me was soft and boneless.

Serving him to lie down, I was a little angry: "If you want to wash your hands, you can ask the servants to take care of you. If you are not well, just lie down."

With a cold face, Feng Yi pushed me weakly: "What are you doing here? I don't need you to care about me."

Feng Yi's face is still so beautiful, but why are the words so unpleasant?Thinking about it carefully, it should be because of his illness, and it's only because his head is not clear.

She walked over to sit on the edge of the bed and reached out to pat his face.Feng Yi frowned and knocked off my hand.

I chuckled and raised his chin: "Sick beauty, come and kiss me." After that, I leaned over to steal a sweet kiss from his mouth.

Feng Yi was taken aback, her cheeks flushed slightly: "Si Jing, why are you so thick-skinned?"

I stretched out my hand to touch my face, and said dissatisfiedly: "It must be because you always pinch my face, look, you are thick-skinned."

Feng Yi glared at me and ignored me.

I knew I was making fun of myself, but I pushed him unwillingly: "Do you want to eat something?"

Feng Yi shook her head.

My heart aches so badly, his face is so pale, maybe he can't eat it?

"Go and eat something, then leave, you are not welcome here." Feng Yi's cold voice came from under the quilt.

I snorted softly, took off only my fur coat and trousers, walked over and lifted the quilt.Before Feng Yi could recover, I got into his bed and hugged him tightly.

Feng Yi was really angry this time, and scolded: "Go away, don't come near me."

With red eyes, she tapped his Ya acupuncture point angrily, regardless of his struggle, hugged him tightly to sleep.

After all, Feng Yi's physical strength was not as good as before, after struggling for a while, she lost her strength, and her breath gradually stabilized.I was afraid that if I hugged him too tightly, he would not be able to breathe, so I let go.

At this time, the sun had completely set, and there was no thready clothes for them to come to see Feng Yi.The room was not lit, the moon came up, and by the moonlight, I saw Feng Yi's beautiful eyes widen.

She leaned over to kiss him, put her hands on his waist, and tried her best to make a very gentle voice: "Sleep, I'm here."

Feng Yi didn't respond, she still stared at me.I smiled, and sneaked my hand into his pants, provoking the huge monster that was about to move.Feng Yi blushed and reached out to push me.

She leaned over and whispered threats in his ear: "What's the matter? Don't sleep well, do you want it once?" By the way, she bit his ear.

Feng Yi trembled, gave me a unwilling look, and then closed her eyes.

I showed a triumphant smile, pulled out my arms and hugged him, and fell asleep with him.

This sleep was very deep and peaceful.When she woke up, Feng Yi was still asleep.

It was already dawn, and he sat up in a daze, feeling a faint pain in his body.I hastened to check carefully, only to find that the fur coat was opened at some point, and the two nipples on the chest were swollen badly, and the pain came from here.

Shamed and angry, he lifted the man's quilt, pointed to his chest and asked angrily, "Here? Did you bite it?"

Feng Yi closed her eyes, as if she was sleeping soundly.Just as he was about to rush over to kill the man who pretended to be sleeping, he suddenly changed his mind and smiled.He stretched out his hand to Feng Yi, held his excited bad guy through his trousers, and teased: "Yo, you're quite energetic."

Feng Yi was forced to open her eyes, a cunning flashed in her eyes, she suddenly stood up and threw me down.

The hard object on my lower body was against me, I was stunned for a while, and asked in disbelief: "You don't want to do it now, do you?"

Feng Yi held back suggestively, and I blushed: "Is your body okay?"

The clothes have been taken off, Feng Yi said lightly: "You can move by yourself."

"You don't hate me anymore?"

Feng Yi was busy with the work in hand, and said unhurriedly: "Whether you hate it or not, it has nothing to do with doing such things." As I spoke, my pants were taken off and my legs were separated.

"You—" wanted to push him away angrily, "Ah—" the next moment, something hard was forced in, and I couldn't help crying out.

Feng Yi is very good at controlling the strength, not long after, under his rhythm, I have turned into a puddle of mud, let him fiddle with it.

I don't know how long it took, but I remember my stomach screaming for a long time before Feng Yi withdrew from my body.

He propped himself up weakly and sat up, and angrily hammered him on the back: "Aren't you so sick that you can't even hold water? Why are you so energetic now?"

Feng Yi ignored me, and continued to sleep pale under the quilt.

"Hey! You—" I was so angry that I had nothing to say, I got dressed and went to take a shower.Just showered and dressed.Threaded clothes' voice came from outside the door: "Si Jing, what are you doing? It's time to go."

"Oh—" I glanced at Feng Yi and walked slowly towards the door.

He coughed twice, and said coldly: "I have nothing to do with you, you don't have to lose your life for me, it's not worth it."

With a bitter smile, he turned his head and grimaced: "What I do is my business, you can't control it."

"Si Jing—" Feng Yi was slightly annoyed.

I didn't intend to pay attention to him, I picked up the small cup on the table and threw it over, hitting his dizziness point.

"Si Jing, no—" Before she could finish speaking, Feng Yi fell on the bed.

I sighed, rubbed my eyes, clenched my fists, and walked out the door resolutely.

Outside the door, the carriage has been prepared, and no one came to see us off. Just the two of us, it seemed deserted.

Sitting in the car, looking at the house that was getting farther and farther away from me, I let out a long breath, feeling very complicated.

Feng Yi, are we going to separate completely?

"Si Jing, do you want to tell your brother? After all, the Northern Cold Land is too far away, and if you go there, it may be bad luck."

I shook my head: "No need, lest he be sad."

Ji Yi chuckled and poked my head: "You really are biased, you can die for the sake of the leader, but you don't tell your brother about it."

I scratched my head, I rarely chat with women on weekdays, and suddenly I didn't know what to say.

Ji Yi patted my head and sighed a little: "Si Jing became so big in a blink of an eye, but I watched you grow up. Si Jing was much cuter when he was a child, and he said whatever he thought, not like now , I keep everything in my heart."

After listening to Su Yi's words, I leaned helplessly on the car and asked her, "Did Feng Yi have thoughts of dying a long time ago?"

Ji Yi was a little surprised, she obviously didn't expect my topic to change so quickly, then she nodded and sighed softly: "Yes, the leader doesn't have the heart to hurt you, he would rather die by himself, that's why he drives you away again and again."

I shook my head, thinking that Feng Yi is too stupid.If he dies, I won't live long either.

"Si Jing, do you hate the leader?"

"Don't hate."

Thread clothes puzzled: "Why?"

I smiled: "Because both love and hatred are painful, but I would rather choose to love. Over the years, he has hidden all his thoughts, but in fact he has worked very hard."

Li Yi patted me: "Xiao Jing has really grown up!"

"Woo—" The carriage stopped suddenly.

The coachman's voice came from outside: "Guest officer, your place has arrived."

"So fast?" I looked at Ji Yi suspiciously.

She shook her head and explained: "Rest at the inn for a while, take a nap, and walk by water at night."

I responded, and got out of the car with my clothes.

Compared with other inns, this inn is a bit crude, but it's okay.Just after being taken to the guest room by Xiao Er, I lay down on the bed, preferring to lie there forever and never get up.

With a soft sigh, Li Yi closed the door for me and quietly exited.I took off my shoes and tossed and turned on the bed.

Childhood memories came back to my mind, the first time I saw Feng Yi, it wasn't at Feng's house, nor at Si's house.

It was on the street, a group of boys were bullying a thin and weak boy, saying that he was a little girl and that he could only be a wife for men in the future.

At that time, I hid behind the wall and saw the thing called toughness in the eyes of that beautiful boy. At that moment, my heart was captured.

It's just that I was too young at that time, and I only liked this brother, so in order to attract his attention, I did a lot of bad things.For example, I killed my sister, sued him in front of my father, and pushed his sister into the water.

Just... reach out and rub your temples.

It's just that the bad things I did when I was a child can't seem to be excused because of my young age.Sigh, turn over.Close your eyes and try not to let yourself think about these things. This time you go to the North Cold Land, you don't know if you can come back alive, why do you still think about those things?

Just when I was about to fall asleep, a familiar conversation came from my ear:

"Xiao Jing, if you choose a place to stay for a long time, where do you want to go?"

"Hey, can I choose? Then I'm going to the north. I heard that the snow is very beautiful."

"Okay, we'll go there later."

I think I'm crying again, Feng Yi's promise to me is probably impossible to fulfill.In recent months, when I fall asleep, I will gently say his name, hoping to dream of him and have some good dreams...

When I opened my eyes, the room was a little dark.When I came to the window, I saw that the sun had already set on the mountainside, and the number of pedestrians on the street was also decreasing.Go back to the bed and pack up your things, then go out to find Jiyi.

When I came to the door of the thread room, I knocked lightly on the door, but no one answered.Knocked a few more times, still no one.

what happened?With some force, the door was pushed open.Isn't the door locked?I wonder.I walked into the room quietly, the room was very dark, I went to the table to find the oil lamp.Suddenly, he was taken aback, how could there be a smell of blood in this room.

Taking two steps back, he raised his vigilance.

"Boom—" the door was closed, I turned around abruptly, and pulled out the twin jade swords in my hand.

When the visitor saw me, he hurriedly said, "Si Jing, come with me."

I walked over and looked at her bleeding arm, surprised: "Are you injured? What happened?"

"Don't talk nonsense, come with me." Li Yi glanced at me, turned and went out.

After running along the sparsely populated path for a while, Li Yi pointed to the small boat leaning on the bank and said, "Someone on board will take you to Jiangzhou. Young master, he will take you to the northern cold land."

I was worried: "Huiyi, what's wrong?"

She grabbed me, handed me a bag of silver, and said solemnly: "I don't know who leaked the secret of the sect leader's power loss, and now the martial arts people have gathered to attack Jueshan. Si Jing, I can't accompany you." , it’s too dangerous for you to follow me. The Nirvana Sect depends on you, Si Jing, go and come back quickly.”

Hearing this news, my heart suddenly became heavy.I nodded and ran quickly to the boat.

When he came to the shore, he looked back at Ji Yi, but she had disappeared.Looking up at the crude wooden boat in front of him, the corners of his mouth twitched, this boat won't leak halfway through, right?I can't water!In case Feng Yi is not rescued and I drown, this is truly a tragedy in the world.

After hesitating for a while, he jumped into the boat.Look around, why is there no one here?

"Is it Mr. Si?"

Suddenly an old male voice came from behind, and I was shocked.Pointing at the white-haired old man in front of him, he took a step back and asked, "Where did you come from?"

He pointed to the crude cabin, then ignored me, walked to the bow and sailed.

The river is full of mist, the moon is hanging in the sky, and the deserted light is scattered on the boat and on the river.A light breeze blew by, and the lanterns on the bow of the boat creaked and creaked.

I was a little hungry, so I sat on the boat and took out the pancakes in my bag and gnawed on them.This cake was picked up while eating at the inn. It has been too long, and now it is cold and hard to bite, which makes my tooth hurt.

If he couldn't eat, he didn't eat at all, put away his things, and lay on the cold board, the cool wind blew by, causing a chill.My heart feels tight, what kind of crime am I here to suffer.

Night Breeze was cold, cold and hungry, and the only way to solve this problem now was to sleep.

He tightened his clothes, shrank his body, and closed his eyes.

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