spooky love

During those days in Beijing, someone wanted to propose marriage to De Ma, and the other party was a dumb girl from the next village.He originally thought that no matter how good-looking he is, he still can't find a partner if he can't speak. Now he has to put Dema where he can see it.

Ryoichiro realized his love for Tokuma when he was in middle school.Before that, even when he heard his precocious friends talk about the girls in the neighborhood, he would only contemptuously feel that "it's really indecent", and he would not be interested at all.

That winter, Ryoichiro caught a severe cold that had not been seen for many years.When he was a child, he was also seriously ill and dying. His father hurriedly invited a doctor from afar, but the fever still persisted, and he remained in a coma for three days.On the morning of the fourth day, Ryoichiro's fever finally subsided, and when he woke up, he saw Demal sleeping next to him, exhausted.

White wrists so transparent that blood vessels can be seen, pale eyelids with long eyelashes, thin and bright red lips.When he looked at Dema while thinking "It's so beautiful", he felt a slight pain in his waist like a tickle.Before that, although he also felt that Dema was fair and thin, he had never paid attention to the other person's appearance and posture; anyway, Dema was just Dema, and to put it bluntly, appearance was not important at all.

Ryoichiro trusted this smiling, speechless boy more than anyone else.No matter how impossible the problem is given to him, as long as it is feasible, he will accept it with a smile.Dema replaced the mother who left home when he was young... No, for Ryoichiro, Toma is the mother.

Seeing the boy sleeping soundly with a pale face, his mind and body were in turmoil, and he couldn't calm down for some reason. The question "Is this guy really a boy" arose spontaneously in his heart.Even though they had stood and urinated together as children, he couldn't help but want to make sure.He slid out of the bed and gently lifted the hem of Tokuma's kimono, but even if he saw the loincloth, he still felt that it was not enough... Just when he wanted to see even the inside of the loincloth, Ryoichiro got an erection.

Ryoichiro had no choice but to cover up the first sexual impulse by "doubting whether the other party is really a boy". However, after that, his shameful evil thoughts towards Dema did not disappear.He was depressed and troubled, "Is it crazy for me to think about men?" But he couldn't discuss this matter with others, and he couldn't stay away from Dema... He didn't know "male sex" until he came to Tokyo. the word.A friend in the city told him, "There are also men who don't love women but men. In Tokyo, you can buy not only women, but also children and men." Then he suddenly realized and opened his eyes.

"Dema."

The opponent stopped sweeping the courtyard and approached slowly.

"What a beautiful sunset."

The older man smiled and nodded.

"Are you going out to buy something?"

Dema tilted his head in thought, and took out the paper and pencil that Ryoichiro bought for him from the lapel of his kimono.

"If you want something, can I buy it? 』

He wrote it on paper and showed it to Ryoichiro.

"No, I didn't want to buy something... I just wanted to go out for a walk."

He rustled again.

"Are you going for a walk? 』

"yes……"

Ryoichiro stood up, went back to the Japanese room, took out the wallet from the purse, put it in his pocket, held the folded hat in his right hand, and came to the corridor.Dema stood along the corridor, his kimono sleeves still tied.

"What are you doing? Come with me too."

De Ma hurriedly untied his sleeves, put away his broom, and ran to the entrance.

Originally, I wanted to stroll along the river, but when I was going out, my mother-in-law asked Dema to do some shopping, so the two went to the shopping street.Dema first went to the egg store and seaweed store, and finally went to the silk thread store.While waiting in front of the store, two young girls who looked like schoolgirls with big bows on their heads walked into the store. They were chattering loudly before, but when they noticed Dema, their cheeks were flushed and they shut their mouths bow your head.

I don't know if it's because of his fair skin and slenderness. Even though he is 27 years old, Dema still looks younger than his actual age, and his temperament is like a student. I don't know when, Ryoichiro looks older.When taking Dema to university, people who meet him for the first time will definitely ask: "Is this a scholar following the teacher (Note 11)?"

After shopping, Ryoichiro set foot on the road along the river, looking at the hazy sunset while walking on the dusty road, and Dema followed about half a step away.Seeing the signboard of Qiaotou Tea Shop, Ryoichiro suddenly felt hungry, and then remembered that he had eaten less than half of the soba noodles for lunch.Although he knew that there would be dinner to eat when he got back, he still couldn't bear it, so he sat down on the bench under the eaves of the tea shop, and raised his hand to invite De Ma, who was standing beside him, to sit beside him.

A ten-year-old girl came to order and stared at Ryoichiro wantonly.The child had an accent and a vulgar accent, making one feel that he had just come from the countryside. After all, Western-style clothing such as shirts, suits, and trousers were not so uncommon in modern cities.Ryoichiro didn't like kimonos, and he lost everything except the family crest, and he wore Western-style pajamas when he slept.The kimono was extremely inconvenient, and the sense of restraint made him feel like the embers of an old era.

Ryoichiro also put on Western clothes for Toma, but he didn't seem to like it very much, so he immediately went back to wearing kimonos and hakamas.But he wore a shirt instead of an undergarment (Note 12), and it was okay to wear a remnant of Western-style clothing, and it seemed childish to force him, so Ryoichiro let him go.

Not long after, tea and glutinous rice dumplings were served.He asked De Ma to eat dumplings, but De Ma refused at first, but the second time he persuaded him, he nodded slightly and picked up the bamboo skewers.

As the sun sets to the west, the shadows of people passing by also become longer.Rickshaws passing by the bridge made a loud rattling sound, and people wearing bamboo hats and selling flowers, plants, saplings or fish boards made their voices pass by.

Ryoichiro looked casually at the passers-by.Seeing a young man and woman crossing the bridge together, cuddling each other like husband and wife, he couldn't help sneaking a peek at the next door, and saw De Ma looking at the boat going down the river.Ryoichiro's personality is that he can't bear it anytime he thinks about it, so he pretends to be nonchalant and asks straightforwardly:

"Do you have a girl you like?"

Dema turned his head and blinked several times as if frightened.

"I'm asking if you have a girl you like."

He repeated it quickly, as if annoyed.Dema first showed a look as if he was lost in thought, and then took Ryoichiro's hand.The wrist was grabbed, and the touch of cool fingers touching the palm made Ryoichiro's spine tremble, but everything was only an instant.Ryoichiro was shaken when he noticed the words written on his hand.

"I have someone I like. 』

Looking at Dema, Ryoichiro felt that those eyes were still shining brightly and beautifully.

"What kind of woman?"

Dema smiled ambiguously.

"Have you confessed?"

The opponent shook his head.

"Why didn't you confess?"

The other party smiled ambiguously again.I don't know if it is too troublesome to take out paper and pencil?Dema wrote directly on Ryoichiro's hand like this, "Because I think even if I confess, it will bother the other party." Maybe he was concerned about his inability to speak, or the other party's status was noble, but he seemed to have no intention of expressing his feelings.Ryoichiro only replied "Is that so" before falling into silence, and pulled his cold fingers away.He couldn't help but care about the woman Dema liked, and wanted to ask in detail what kind of person she was, but felt that for this man who claimed he would not confess, such inquiries seemed to be playing tricks on him.Beside the gloomy Ryoichiro, the cared person had the same expression as usual, sipping the cold tea.

Dema has a good temperament, even if he can't speak, Ryoichiro can vouch for his character.Even if he is different from the other party in status, since he has already asked him to express his heart, Ryoichiro feels that he should lead him in this regard.But noble status is second, Ryoichiro doesn't think the other party will fall in love with a dumb man.

Is it because of conscience or other factors to connect with Dema?Ryoichiro thought it was a question.Even if it was for De Ma's sake and he planned to make connections for him, he also thought that the other party would not actually be interested in De Ma.Knowing that Dema will be injured, but still helping him, is there any point?Ryoichiro kicked the small stone at his feet towards the river.

He stood up from the bench in the tea shop, paid the bill and walked out of the shop, with Dema still following behind.Ryoichiro thought along the way, saying that conscience is a lie. In fact, he expected that after Dema confessed to the other party, the other party would ruthlessly reject him. In this way, the shadow of that woman would disappear from Dema's heart... Yes, I can't bear it Dema "likes" someone else.

If you suggest "I'll help you tell that girl" at this time, it's okay if it doesn't work after you say it. If the other party also likes Dema, you will regret it for the rest of your life.However, no matter whether you say it or not, you will regret it. If you knew it would happen, it would be better not to ask "Is there a girl you like" in the first place, but you have already asked, and there is no way.

After returning home, Ryoichiro, who was still confused, opened the lattice door, stood in front of the sliding door of the entrance, and then turned his head.I don't know whether to take the things I bought to my mother-in-law first, but I saw De Ma was going around to the convenient door at the back.

"Dema."

The man stopped and turned around.

"That incident just now..."

He tilted his head slightly.

"That... is the woman you like. Do you want me to talk to you? If it's something to express your heart, it's not like I can't help you."

Dema stared straight at Ryoichiro, then shook his head with a smile, his face illuminated by the setting sun looked very lonely.He bowed his head as if to thank Ryoichiro for conveying his message, and then disappeared through the door.Looking at the back of Dema's disappearance, Ryoichiro felt that he did not treat himself.