spooky love

"If my father in the country heard about this, he would probably be shocked and say, 'What kind of world is this, to actually eat beef'."

After drinking a glass of sake, Ryoichiro picked up a sweet bun.

"Hey, do you know the name of this sweet bun?"

Dema shook his head.

"It's called breast milk (note 18), but even if you eat it, flowers and plants won't come out of it."

Hearing the clumsy joke, Dema narrowed his eyes and smiled, and Ryoichiro was very happy to see it, so he laughed too.He originally bought the sweet bun because he wanted to see the smiling face of the other party after hearing the joke.Seeing the other party smiling slightly drunk put him in a good mood.

Ryoichiro turned over and lay on the tatami, so lazy that it seemed that his soul would fly to the ceiling.Hearing the rustling of the tatami, he opened his eyes and saw Dema kneeling beside him.

Dema covered his eyes with his palms, and then pointed to the right, making a gesture of pressing down, which meant that "the bed has been laid, and you can go to sleep there if you want to sleep."

"I'll drink some more."

Dema immediately shook his head slowly from side to side, repeating the same movement.

"No, I want to drink."

Ryoichiro got up, poured himself three cups, and suddenly put his head on Dema's lap again.Dema neither refused nor moved, and Ryoichiro pretended to sleep on the other's lap as if it was a man who agreed.

Speaking of which, when Ryoichiro was a child, his missing biological mother often let his father sleep on her lap.He suddenly thought, "I don't know if my father is doing well?" Since Dema went back to the country last month, Ryoichiro wanted to ask him, but he procrastinated, and the days passed, and he didn't ask about it until now. He always felt a little silly, so he didn't want to ask.Although Dema often goes back to the countryside, Ryoichiro only returns to his hometown during the New Year. The superficial reason is that he has a job, but in fact he doesn't want to go back.

Ryoichiro was the eldest son of a wine brewery in the country, and he was supposed to inherit the family business. He was not qualified to stay in the university and study plants leisurely. It was because his father married Tsuzuru who gave birth to a son, so he was allowed to do so.

When his father married Suxian, 12-year-old Ryoichiro was in middle school. At that time, six years had passed since his mother, Ami, disappeared. The new mother was the daughter of the village chief, only nineteen years old, very young.Ryoichiro couldn't let go of his mother's memory and couldn't adapt to a new mother. During this period, his younger brother was born.From then on, Ryoichiro felt as if he was gradually alienated from this family, and felt that he was the only one "fake".This feeling of unnaturalness increased year by year, and became even more pronounced when he went to college because he only went home twice a year.

Rather than staying in his hometown, it would be more comfortable to stay here with Dema.Even when he returned to his hometown, he just felt lonely because he felt unnatural, and this kind of nostalgia still remained in his heart.

Opening his eyelids, he saw Dema's slender eyes looking down at him.I don't know if it's because of being slightly drunk, but the slightly half-open corners of his mouth look very attractive.Ryoichiro's whole body was rushing with the delusion of wanting to kiss the other person, but the man didn't know his impulse, and stroked Ryoichiro's forehead as if comforting a child.

"When I came back today, I passed the main entrance."

Damon opened his eyes wide.

"Although you want me to go home through the back door, I still feel that I am the only one who escaped, which is a bit despicable."

He raised his gaze upwards, and the corners of his mouth twisted into an ambiguous shape.

"Has disaster attached to me?"

Seeing Tokuma slowly shaking his head, Ryoichiro whispered "Really?" and smiled.

"I'm lucky."

Whispering, he turned over on the thigh of the man he was pillowing on, pretending to be coquettish, buried his face in the waistband of the man's lower abdomen, took a deep breath, and at the same time, "whether he will smell the man The smell of the lower body".

At the beginning of June, the associate professor, assistants and several students went to Yanose Mountain, five miles away, to collect plants.Ryoichiro felt that he would collect a lot of plants, so he asked Dema to help him with the things.

Ryoichiro walks around with a collection tube (Note 19) on his shoulders, and Dema follows behind him with a collection folder (Note 20) and a lunch box.Since childhood, Ryoichiro often took Dema to collect plants and asked him to help organize the specimens, so Dema even knew the names of plants better than the students.While collecting, Ryoichiro told Dema what this is and what that is.Students who don't know that Dama can't talk often misunderstand that "Ms. Satake always likes to talk to himself".

In the woods, Ryoichiro found Trillium (Note 21) of the Liliaceae family. Its petals are green on the outside, and although it is not conspicuous, the flowers are in full bloom.Although he had been to Mount Tanise many times, this was the first time he had found this plant.Because the roots were thick and deep, he bent down to scrape the soil away, but at this moment he heard the voices of the students beside him.

"Sensei Fukushima can't come today."

There was a student named Itami who was very talkative for a man, but his temperament was a bit soft.I only heard him say this to Hara, who was also a student.

"His stomach doesn't feel right..."

Itami shrugged and chuckled:

"It's really that good. Fukushima-sensei's complicated relationship between men and women is very famous recently, and the popular gossip is 'he is addicted to Yoshiwara's whore'."

"Don't talk nonsense!"

Even though Hara was angry, Itami only backed away a little mischievously.

"Am I talking nonsense? That's what everyone says! Although it's not a bad thing to have fun and relax, you should know how to measure it. If it hinders learning, it's putting the cart before the horse."

Seeing that Hara didn't refute, Itami left with an expression on his face that his goal had been achieved.After that, Hara went somewhere, and Ryoichiro still had a bad feeling in his heart.

Recently, Fukushima often took leave of absence from the university, and it was said that he was not feeling well—that was all Ryoichiro knew, and he didn't want to know more.

In the past, he played with prostitutes a few times... No, maybe it should be said that "being played by the other party" is more correct.

The woman's arms were soft and warm, but Ryoichiro never indulged in them.Even when the affair is at its climax, his head is still extremely calm, the more excited he is, the clearer his thoughts will be, and then he will always miss Dama inexplicably.

Although Ryoichiro had no intention of expressing his feelings for the older servant to anyone else, under the influence of "having had skin-to-skin contact" and "knowing nothing except physical contact", he couldn't help saying "I There is someone I like", pouring out all my thoughts.

As a result, the prostitute simply blurted out the words "If it's a servant, it's fine. Since you are a loving person like you, the woman will definitely fall in love with you."

Ryoichiro didn't think so.If the order to "serve the bed" was given, Tokuma might agree to his request more easily than Ryoichiro imagined.After all, I am the employer of Dama, and the current relationship between the two is established by relying on the monthly salary.Even if Dema was in bed, Ryoichiro felt that the other party seemed to put this matter within the scope of salary.Although he believes that the relationship between himself and Dema is not based on money alone, he cannot think about deducting the money factor.

"If you hate the love built with money, why don't you just tell the other party that you like her?"

Indeed, the prostitute is right, telling the other party "I like you" is actually enough.Ryoichiro bowed his head and remained silent.Even if he expressed his heart to Dema, he didn't think that Dema, who is the same sex, would like him with love, so he might be rejected.

After being rejected, can he still touch Dema as easily as he is now?Can you pretend to be drunk and occupy his thigh?Ryoichiro thinks it can't be done, Dema and himself will definitely go bad.Besides, it is impossible for him to give up on Dema... He fell silent with a serious expression on his face, and the prostitute pointed at him and said with a smile:

"The master is afraid that the woman will be cold, right? But if you keep silent, someone will snatch her away one day."

Ryoichiro carefully removed the soil from the roots of the grass, wrapped it in newspaper, and then opened the collection tube—the inside was already full of flowers and plants, without any gaps. Seeing this, Dema spread the collection folder on the grass.Ryoichiro took the flowers and plants out of the tube, sorted the shape on the splint, and arranged them in order, then spread another newspaper on the flowers and plants side by side, and then closed the collection folder. Dema tied the collection folder with a leather rope so as not to open it. .Looking at Toma's fingertips on the leather strap, Ryoichiro asked him:

"Do you intend to marry a wife?"

Dema raised his head, seemed confused by the randomness of the question, and tilted his head to one side.

"It's not right now, but I want to ask you about your future plans."

Dema took out a pencil and paper from his pocket and wrote:

"Will Master Ryoichiro marry a wife?" 』

Instead of answering Ryoichiro's question, Dema asked him back.

"Me? I won't marry a wife."

"why? 』

The other party continued to ask why.

"If you need someone to cook, a mother-in-law is enough, and I am very busy studying."

Dema smiled.But after laughing, he didn't respond to Ryoichiro's question.

They took the flowers and plants collected that day back to the university and quickly pressed them.As for the wax leaf specimens that had been collected and sorted before, they were still clamped in newspapers. They tied the newspapers with specimens in them with ropes and moved them into the herbarium.Because of the large number, even with the help of Dema, the group of people still moved back and forth between the assistant classroom and the specimen room three times before completing the moving work.

After moving, Ryoichiro said to Dema, "The sun is going down soon.