wall window

! "She was still staring at me.

"I've wanted to tell you for a long time, but I don't know how to say it."

"Go ahead." Her voice was trembling.

I could see her tender breasts rising and falling violently, and I could see her violent heart beating.I really want to stretch out my hand to caress it, let it calm down, and melt into its soft waves like before.

"My first love** is back."

"When?" Her voice was noticeably softer.

"It's been a month, but it's been two weeks since I got in touch."

"So what!" She paused for a moment and raised her voice again.

"She said she wanted to be with me."

"Haven't you been separated for more than ten years? Don't you no longer love her?" She said loudly excitedly.

"Her presence evokes everything from the past."

"You lied to me!" She yelled out after a long time, "You said, you love me."

"I loved her too."

"No, you're not like this." She shivered and hugged me tightly again, "You're not like this, you're not."

I felt her whole body trembling, my heart ached like it was shattering, I wanted to hold her tightly and tell her I was lying to her, I loved her, and only her, more than all.

Suddenly she let go of her hand, and this action made me feel cold all over.She said to me in a trembling voice, "Look into my eyes and tell me clearly."

I raised my head with difficulty, and looked directly at her beautiful and painful eyes, those eyes that I have kissed countless times, looking at me so touchingly, so urgently, so painfully, I tried my best to restrain myself kiss it.

"It's true, I'm sorry."

Two lines of tears quickly slid down from her eyes again, like two clear streams, flowing endlessly.She didn't speak any more, bit her trembling lips, and turned around.

After a long time, she turned back again, her eyes radiated a cold light, my heart was pierced at once, and I fell into the ice cellar.

"She was the one who asked you out for a drink that day, wasn't she? You said you were going to your brother's place, but you were actually with her, didn't you? You thought of me as her that night, didn't you?" She said trembling all over, her The cold eyes melted with each sentence, tears fell one by one, and the lips trembled.

"Pei Fei, I'm sorry."

She turned around abruptly and walked out of my house without looking back.

I stood there frozen, my whole body was cold, my mind was blank, and it took me a long time to regain consciousness. Finally, my tears were surging like a surging river and sea.

Pei Fei, I'm sorry.

Pei Fei, I love you, I love you, always just you.

I sent the same message to the principal and Pei Fei's father: I have completed your task.

In the next two days, my cell phone kept ringing. I expected it to ring, but I was very afraid that it would ring. There was Pei Fei all over the place.

I couldn't face her phone call, I was afraid that I would cry uncontrollably as soon as I opened my mouth, call her back, or run away from her.I also can't face her message, I'm afraid my reply is not "I'm sorry", but "I love you".I finally shut down.

I can no longer go to Ai Bing's place, I am at home, waiting to kill myself in pain.

That morning, the doorbell suddenly rang non-stop, making my heart jump out of my body.I lay limp on the bed and dared not move.

"Chen Yu, Chen Yu, Chen Yu, are you there?" It was Ai Bing's voice.

I trembled for a long time before I opened the door.

"Why did you turn off the phone? It scared me to death, you don't know how much I worry about you!" Ai Bing blamed angrily.

I shut the door silently.

"Oh, my God, how did you become like this! How could you become like this!" Ai Bing grabbed me, "No, you can't stay here alone anymore, pack your things and go to my house immediately!"

"No." I shook my head.

"It's only been two or three days, look how haggard you are! I'll show you a mirror... Chen Yu, you don't know how heartbroken I am, you don't look like a living person anymore!" Ai Bing couldn't bear it stop crying.

I didn't want to live at all, how could I live without Pei Fei.My tears are like a river breaking its embankment.

"No, I won't let you stay here, you have to go with me, if you don't move, I'll call the security to carry you away!" Ai Bing stopped her tears and said firmly.

"But she's here, she's here with me." I looked at my house.

"Have you ever thought about her suffering more than you? Have you ever thought about caring about her? Why do you only think about yourself? What kind of love are you!" Her ideal? If she knows that you are so depressed, how can she leave at ease! "

"I have walked out of her world, we have no future, it doesn't matter if I disappear."

"There's something wrong with you! If she disappears, would it matter to you?"

"What's wrong with you! How can she disappear!" I suddenly yelled in rage.

"Yeah, you all can't disappear, so you all have to cheer up!" Ai Bing came over and took my hand, "Hey, go to my house, huh? I'll help you pack your things."

"Mr. Mu, I'm sorry to bother you again. After Pei Fei came back from you that day, she refused to eat or sleep well. We were all worried and didn't know what to do. She said that you lied to her and that we cooperated Get up to lie to her, she won't go anywhere, unless we show her your heart and know that you really don't love her anymore. Teacher Mu, what do you think? We didn't want to look for you again, but we were anxious There is no other way!"

After arriving at Ai Bing's house, Pei Fei's father called.

"I'll get back to you later." My heart was in turmoil.

"Tonight at eight o'clock, you can find a way to take her past No. 18 Rongli Road." I replied to him 10 minutes later.

"Ai Bing, please do one thing." After lunch, Ai Bing and I stayed at the dining table.

"Go ahead." She looked at me sincerely.

"No! I can't promise you!" Ai Bing reacted strongly after hearing what I said.

"This is the only way." I also looked at her.

"I feel like an executioner like this, it's too cruel, I can't do it."

"I have nowhere to go, shall we help her out together?" My tears welled up.

In the evening, the lights on Rongli Road were turned on one by one, and the golden lights scattered on the trees, like stars in the dark green.

When the lights came on, Ai Bing and I sat under the window where Pei Fei and I sat.

"It's the best place for a date, the best location for a date."

"Well. I'm going to make it a holiday."

"festival?"

"My birthday is in spring, your birthday is in autumn, Christmas is in winter, and there is a summer festival missing."

"What holiday are you going to make it for?"

"My mother's day for both of us. July 7st, we come once a year."

We asked for two cups of coffee, not Italian coffee, can't have Italian coffee.

Today happened to be the fifth anniversary of the opening of this coffee shop, and it was full of customers, very lively.The piano piece "Romance De Amor" is playing in the shop.

Ai Bing and I stared at the coffee in our hands respectively, without speaking to each other.

"Here she is, the girl in your photo is coming." Ai Bing whispered a little nervously.

I put down the glass, grabbed her hands, and buried my face deep in her palms.I held her trembling hands, and I lowered my head to drop my kisses and tears onto her hands.Ai Bing has been watching me, I can feel her red eyes, feel her trembling lips.

One second, two seconds, one minute, two minutes, one year, two years, one century, two centuries... The time is frozen under that window: there is a romantic reunion of a long-lost couple, and a sad girl comes from afar. Walking outside the window, her heart was cracked, her heart was bleeding, her whole body was cold, that was Pei Fei whom I loved with my whole life and soul.

Long ago, Tagore wrote us a poem like this:

The longest distance in the world

Not the distance between life and death

but i stand in front of you

You don't know i love you

The longest distance in the world

not me standing in front of you

You don't know i love you

but love to obsession

I can't say I love you

The longest distance in the world

no i can't say i love you

But thinking of you hurts

But only buried deep in my heart

The longest distance in the world

no i can't say i miss you

but love each other

can't be together

The longest distance in the world

not loving each other

can't be together

But obviously can't resist this breath

But still have to pretend not to care

The longest distance in the world

It's not that I can't resist this breath

But still have to pretend not to care

but with an indifferent heart

between you and those who love you

dug an impassable ditch

[-]. Eternal Stars

I stayed at Ai Bing's house for a week, putting my fragile life in her hands.

Pei Fei never called or sent a message. I dare not contact her, her father, anyone, or know anything about her.

A week later, I went home, because school was about to start, Ai Bing was going to work, and I was thinking about writing my resignation report.

On the second day when I got home, I received a text message from Pei Fei's father:

Teacher Mu, thank you!Pei Fei has agreed to study abroad.

That day, I watched the stars all night on the balcony.

A few days later, Pei Fei was about to fly to a country next to the Atlantic Ocean. I asked Pei Fei's father to let me see her off the plane quietly.

I arrived at the airport very early and waited for her to appear from afar.when she caught my eye