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rabbit with heart.I love the beauty of nature, especially the bright moonlight.Every night, I will come to the meadow in the forest, play carefree and enjoy the moon while enjoying myself.I am an expert in admiring the moon, in my eyes, the moon's ups and downs have their own charm..." She leaned against my back and shook gently, adapting Zhou Guoping's "White Rabbit and the Moon".

"Hahaha, you plagiarized!" I laughed unconsciously.

"It's a reference, okay?" She smiled softly, "You know? When I was a child, I raised a little white rabbit, and it was always carefree, so nice."

She sat down while talking, sitting on the small flat stone behind me, with her arms around my waist from behind.

"Tell me, how did you raise the little rabbit."

"I took it to run on the grass. It ran so fast that sometimes I couldn't catch it. I also thought, maybe I ran so fast now because I was chasing rabbits!"

"How big did you raise the rabbit?"

"It's very big, and it could have been raised even bigger."

"What happened?"

"Later, my grandma killed her to entertain guests, and lied to me that the rabbit was lost."

"Oh?"

"I'm surprised, the rabbit has been raised for so long, and is so smart and sensible, how could it get lost?"

"Suspect your grandma, and then ask her to settle the score?"

"No, I was so stupid back then, how could I understand?"

"Actually, your family is very nice and let you raise rabbits to play with. How many children in the family have been deprived of the right to raise small animals. Most adults think animals are dirty."

"Where, they asked me to raise rabbits to get rid of me."

"How do you say that?"

"That's right. My parents divorced when I was less than two years old. I gave the sentence to my father. My father went to this city to work again, and he always went to sea. My grandparents asked me to raise them in order not to pester me. Rabbit."

I put my hands on hers, what a pair of warm soft hands, and I held her tightly.I felt her trembling slightly, and when I turned around, she still looked at me with a smile, although she couldn't hide the loneliness in her eyes.Lily in the wind.I looked into her eyes, which were as pure as Hepburn's, but she was more free and easy, more determined, with the depth of a child who does not belong to this age.

"You've grown so well, you're great!" I said seriously.She lowered her head shyly. For the first time, I discovered that the moon will be warm.

[-]. The great tragedy

Another Friday, a few students from the third year of high school I just taught before school came back to see me. They have obviously grown up, and they have completely lost the stupidity and innocence of middle school students, and the sunshine and smiles on their faces have increased a lot. .We gathered together in the gazebo of the school, talking about the news and interesting things after the farewell. We have always been more like friends than teachers and students. It is rare to get together today. The more we talked, the more excited we became. Later, we almost started to fight. The entire gazebo Full of laughter.

"Is that student looking for you?" Shan said suddenly.

I followed her gaze, and saw Pei Fei standing not far from the gazebo, not walking away or coming, circling there, looking very disappointed and contradictory.

"Pei Fei, what's the matter?" I yelled at her.

She turned her head, hesitated to speak.

"Just say something!"

"Didn't you ask me to correct my homework and discuss composition after school?" She looked at me blankly.

"Oh, I forgot! I have something to do now, let's talk about it later!"

"Honey, is she your new student?" Shan asked.

"My department representative." I smiled at her.Looking back, she found that Pei Fei had turned around and left with her head down.

We had a lot of fun that night. After we got together on campus, we went to eat and sang songs for two hours.It's been a long time since I've been "***" like this. When we were together, we were like a family, but now we're separated like old friends. This feeling is really good.

On Monday, I realized that something was wrong. There was no smile on Pei Fei's face, and she didn't come before or after class, and she looked depressed all day long.When seeing me coming, I deliberately pretended not to see it, or played with my classmates too lively.I was very puzzled, I don't know what I did wrong, if it was the missed appointment on Friday, then it's fine, she should know and understand the special situation, she is not a stingy child.

It just so happened that this week I was going to be on Zweig's "The Great Tragedy". She read this article when she released her new book, and told me that in the whole book, her favorite is this article article.But in class, she was uncharacteristically, and no longer expressed her opinions as before.

"Why is this tragedy great? Do you think tragedy is great? Why? For "greatness", should we pursue tragedy?" After finishing the text, I typed these questions on the computer screen for students to discuss.

"The reason why this tragedy is great is because Kuwait has a great spirit, not that the tragedy itself is great." The active Tian Kun stood up first.

"I would like to add that the title of this article should be understood as 'As long as people have a great spirit, even tragedies are beautiful'." Liang Hua said.

"Tragedy is not great, we should not pursue tragedy." Hui Ling stood up.

"My opinion is different." Suddenly Pei Fei stood up, "Tragedy is great, because tragedy can create great people, and great people often have the color of tragedy. Just like tragedy created Qu Yuan, created Gou Jian, created Sima Qian created Napoleon. Tragedy has greater charm than comedy. Tragedy can inspire people more, just like Beethoven and Van Gogh, their own fate is tragic, but they do not succumb to fate and the spirit of persistence in art It can inspire and motivate people. So I think the pursuit of tragedy is also a kind of bravery, and it is better to die tragically than to live mediocrely." She said a long paragraph in one breath.I was surprised by her "tragedy theory", which seems to be the complete coldness caused by complete sadness, which is what she calls the so-called tragic and brave.

"The tragedies of Beethoven and Van Gogh were not what they pursued, they were forced by society, and they had no way to end." Tian Kun retorted.

"But if there is no tragedy, they would not be able to achieve such achievements. The times make heroes, and troubled times make talents." Pei Fei did not show weakness.

"If they could choose happiness, would they look for pain? That's not abnormal!" Tian Kun raised his voice.

"Yes, if Kuwait and the others had the conditions to succeed, would they choose to fail? What's more, many outstanding people lived in adversity all their lives." Pei Fei's good friend ** Dan was also unwilling to stand by her side.

"Everyone wants to pursue a happy life, but is it possible for everyone to be happy? If someone gets it, someone must lose it. If someone is in good times, someone will be in adversity. If the unhappy person can't pursue happiness, she will pursue it Pain is also an expression of generosity." Pei Fei still insisted on her theory of tragedy.

"Teacher, you often teach us to be active in life. Tell me, is Pei Fei going to extremes today?"

"That's right, you can't pursue tragedy..."

Many students discussed it.

"Today's debate is very good. I didn't expect everyone to discuss the issue so deeply, and it is a profound life issue. I think everyone should pursue happiness. Even if you can't pursue it, you can't pursue pain. We came into this world It is for enjoying happiness, pain is inevitable, but we must try our best to minimize it in the process of pursuing happiness. Pei Fei’s point of view has some truth, but we cannot pursue this kind of life.” I stared at Pei Fei’s Looking at her face, she really wanted to see her eyes, but she just kept pursing her lips and looking at the table, with a dazed and stubborn look.

After that class, I really wanted to talk to Pei Fei, but she kept avoiding me, and I didn't know how to talk to her.I was surprised to find that I have been greatly influenced by her, I will be very happy when she is happy, and I will be depressed all day long when she is sad, and it is even more sad to see her indifferent appearance.All the happy moments with her in the past flooded into my mind. Her pure face, bright eyes, and sunny smiles are always swaying in front of my eyes. Facing the green magnolia trees outside my window, I even shed tears up.

This is May, and the magnolias are blooming well, and the sweet and elegant fragrance blows in with the breeze, which makes me very sad.This girl with a mature mind and a pure personality completely occupied my heart and made me lose my peace.

I spent a lot of time between classes in this trance.

In the reading class on Friday of that week, the students read quietly in the soothing background music, and I sat on the podium to correct homework.Half of the time passed, I put down my pen, moved my slightly numb hands, and was led to the back door of the classroom by the sunlight.

Pei Fei was sitting in front of the window and behind the door, and she was concentrating on the book in her hand.The eyes that used to light up and smile at me are gone, and the face that was once bright as a flower has been tightened.Pei Fei, you can't do this, I don't want you to be sad, I want you to be happy, you used to be my happy angel.

I couldn't help but pick up a pen and wrote her a text message:

I missed my appointment last Friday, it was my fault, sorry!They are my students who have graduated for almost a year, and we met for the first time.I thought you would understand, but I didn't expect to make you so sad.I miss your smile very much, and I hope you are happy.Optimism, positivity, and sunshine are your characteristics. I like Pei Fei like this, and I like to see Pei Fei like this.

She came to my office after school, and I reached out and patted her head and said, "What a fool."

"Yeah." She said sheepishly.