The Blossom of Sweet Potato · Its Ye Qingqing

Chapter 7 Today I come to think, rain and snow are falling

I finally got married to Xinwei.

There were many twists and turns, his master did not approve of our marriage, Xinwei was a half-immortal body, because his mother was an immortal, and his father was a mortal, they met by chance, love each other and gave birth to Xinwei, But human beings have different paths, and mortals have a limited lifespan. After Xin Wei's father died, his mother had no reason to stay in the world, and left with a fairy friend who entrusted Xin Wei to him.

His master is not a pedantic person, he only said that we two have different personalities, even if we love each other for a while, the pain will be even greater in the future, so he resolutely opposes... Xin Wei quarreled with the master for the first time, and ran away in anger...

Now I am his only relative, and he is also my only reliance...

When I'm with him, sometimes it's very sweet, but it's not easy, on the contrary, it's a lot heavier...I live very tired.

Counting now, we have been married for 28 years...

His appearance has not changed, but I have aged little by little. Now my body is 47 years old.

Changqin still hasn’t disappeared. He seems to have evaporated in this world. His last footprint is the cave in Hengshan. I went to him and only saw some leftover bones. That was 27 years ago. thing.

Although I don't care about appearances, I'm an old woman who is about to die, and I always feel uncomfortable with a young man in his early twenties.

I sat under the thatched hut in the bamboo forest, watching the sunset gradually, his master was right, our personalities were not compatible, even though our life was very sweet at the beginning, over the years, I can always touch the invisible His bottom line caused us two to quarrel...

He is too kind, and many views are contrary to mine.

When traveling abroad, he always said that he asked me to do more good deeds to forgive the sins of the life I have sacrificed over the years. I find it ridiculous. People have to kill when they are alive. some good deeds, but what he does often does not meet the standard of good deeds in my heart

For example: We met a family where a disabled old couple adopted a boy. The boy was hard-working, smart and wise, and expanded the entire villa a hundred times and a thousand times. The old couple was very happy and decided to marry their daughter to her. On the night of the wedding, it was discovered that the boy was actually a wolf demon!The wolf demon is ferocious and terrifying. The villagers are afraid of the wolf demon. Please let us get rid of it...

I think this villager is not kind, no matter what, the wolf demon didn't hurt anyone, he just showed his true form, and he didn't want to leave this long-lost home... I don't want to help them, but Xinwei insists, The wolf demon has interfered with the life of this villager and is determined to drive him away.

Another example: we passed a town, and the Orion in the town was killed by a tiger monster. Xin Wei immediately decided to go to get rid of the monster.When we arrived, we found out that the reason why the tiger monster killed people was that the people in the town robbed them too much of their living area, causing the whole mountain to be almost barren.

I proposed to get rid of the tiger monsters, but Xinwei said that they also have difficulties, and they should not kill innocent people indiscriminately.

But I think that although people do make mistakes, no matter how wrong they are, they are unintentional, and they will not kill people. Of course, demons have their own difficulties, but human life does not need to be demons.

For this, we quarreled again...

And more and more after that... Now we live in seclusion and quarrel every day over the little things of habit...

I think this is simply torment, never-ending torment... We have tried, changed our way of getting along, cared more about each other, understood more, regressed more, but it still didn't work. Our basic point of view, They are worlds apart.

Now the two of us have very little to say every day, living under the same roof, living our own lives... I am in pain, and I can see that he is also in pain.

[Xin Wei. ] I was eating, so I called him.

【Um? ] He was silent for a moment, and did not raise his head to agree.

[My body is old and will die soon, I have to go to cross the soul. 】I said lightly, just like what I say every day.

I could clearly see that his hands were shaking, he slowly put down his chopsticks and looked up at me

I haven't looked into his eyes carefully for a long time. It's been 28 years, they are still so clear, but they are still tired.

[Don't go to cross the soul. 】The bitterness in his voice is obvious 【Crossing the soul... killing people... Don't go, I am willing to die with you. 】He pulled out a smile【Although we have spent these years in disagreement, I said that I will always be with you, Hua'er, don't go... okay? 】

【…】I don't know what to say, but I must go to cross the soul again, only in this way can I survive, my wish has not been fulfilled, I don't want to die like this【Xin Wei, I have to go. 】I raised my head and made him look at my old face 【I still have unfulfilled wishes, I must go! 】

【Hua Er! 】He was angry, and stood up suddenly【Hua'er, have you ever thought that the person whose soul you have transported will lose his life forever, and he will not be able to enter reincarnation! 】I saw his fingertips trembling 【They are all human lives, why do such things in order to survive?They are all fate, they are equal, they also have relatives... and people who love them...] His expression was extremely painful, and he sank, seeing that I was silent, he sighed and said [Besides, crossing the soul is too painful, I don't I am willing to see you suffer so much...]

I quietly sip my tea [Xin Wei, have you ever killed a demon? 】

He froze for a moment [Killed, countless... What's wrong? 】

【Have you ever killed someone? ] I asked lightly.

[Not killed. ] He answered honestly, not knowing what I was going to say.

[Being a human in this life, and a demon in the next life, once you enter the well of reincarnation, abandon the past, what is the difference between killing and killing demons? 】Seeing him, he seemed to be stunned【You have killed countless monsters, but you have never killed a human being. It can be seen that your punishment for mistakes made by humans and monsters is different. above equality. 】

[Beasts... the same is true, even if you kill all bad monsters, have you ever killed a beast?What was wrong with those beasts?They may become adults after entering reincarnation, isn't it no different from killing you! 】

I stood up slowly [Now I am crossing the soul, you can kill animals as me. ] I think the road between the two of us has come to an end, if we continue, it will only be more tormented [Xin Wei, thank you for taking care of me in the past 28 years, I am very grateful to you, you are the first person who has treated me so well . 】I took the initiative to hug him, and he froze. Over the years, I seldom took the initiative to hug him, especially in the following years, I hardly spoke much.

【You should be able to feel it, the way we get along now is just torturing each other, so... Let's all be relieved. 】I laughed, I felt that I laughed very easily, heartache is inevitable, but finally I was relieved.

[Xin Wei, I wish you a happy life in the future. 】My smile now must be pretty, a smile from the heart, I haven't found this feeling for a long time.

He just listened, but he didn't make a move to keep me. In other words, he didn't know whether or how to keep me. We both understand that this day will come sooner or later.

I let him go and turned to leave. He leaned against the threshold of the bamboo house, watching my figure gradually disappear into the depths of the bamboo forest...

Xin Wei, if you can do it again, this ending is inevitable, because I know that I forced it, your character and mine are not fellow travelers, I am too simple, but your relationship is very difficult. Don't care about my identity, sincerely, but you don't understand me, you can't understand my pain, you can't understand my thousands of years of persistence.For thousands of years, our hearts have already been damaged and riddled with holes. We have repeatedly experienced the feeling of struggling on the verge of death and the fate of being scorned and abandoned. If we were ordinary people, we would have gone crazy.But I still have to persist, I sometimes think, if the moment I fall into the world, what I need most is permanent destruction, then I won’t have to suffer so much, that would be a relief for me, but now... I won’t Peace of mind is destroyed.

Perhaps the future life will make you gradually understand what I said today. I believe that we will meet again, but at that time... we are already passers-by.

Xin Wei made me understand that my feelings for him were not based on love at all. When I first saw him, I thought of my long-dead brother, and I couldn't help but be patient with him and get closer to him. Later, he I was even more moved by not being afraid of me and not treating me as a different kind. He said he liked me, and I naturally felt that I liked him too. I was always ignorant about emotional matters.For so many years, I have never been able to see my emotions clearly.

Mistakes are often caused by a moment of stupefaction or hesitation, which turns into a catastrophe.