The male god became my bird

"It must have had a great impact on Teacher Xie, and it must be a very bad memory...otherwise you wouldn't be like this." Xia Yu picked up Xie Chenyan's hand that was rubbing his arm, and stroked him little by little. The trembling of the fingertips: "Forget it, let's not mention the things that make Teacher Xie unhappy. No matter who made you wronged before, I will accompany you now and make up for the happy things for you."

Xia Yu didn't want Xie Chenyan to immerse himself in the unhappiness of the past, not every painful thing had to be faced.

"Xia Yu..."

Xie Chenyan violently pulled Xia Yulou into his arms, and he hugged Xia Yu tightly, like a traveler who found an oasis in the desert, absorbing strength from him.

Xie Chenyan feels that he is very lucky now, because with Xia Yu by his side, he is no longer alone.

Xie Chenyan's mood gradually calmed down, he let out a breath slowly, leaned into Xia Yu's ear and whispered: "Some things once made me very painful, I collapsed, despaired, and doubted, but I think I It should have been told to you, because I don't want these things to affect me anymore."

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After all, it was inconvenient to talk on set. After returning to the hotel at night, the two of them took a shower and lay on the bed. Xie Chenyan talked about the past to Xia Yu.

"Many people think that my father is a famous director, but most people don't know that my mother is the daughter of the chairman of Shenghua Entertainment, a well-known domestic entertainment company..."

With the relationship between his parents and under their guidance, Xie Chenyan became interested in acting at a very young age. Since he was 2 years old, he has played some roles in his father's movies and Shenghua Entertainment's TV series and commercials.

This is the avenue of stars that Xie Chenyan's strong parents have arranged for him since he was not born.

Fortunately, unlike other children who were forced by their parents to study specialty and interest classes, Xie Chenyan himself liked acting and expressing himself, so he was very happy to obey his parents' arrangements when he was a child.

With enviable parents and resources, as well as excellent personal conditions, it can be predicted that Xie Chenyan will have a promising future.

For Xie Chenyan himself, although his parents are very strict with him, he is very happy to be able to do what he likes when other children are suffering from reading, writing and doing homework.

But there is one thing that makes Xie Chenyan more sad, that is, his parents rarely accompany him.

He often heard other people praise his parents, saying they were amazing.

The young Xie Chenyan thought, his parents are very powerful, so he is very busy at work. He likes and worships his parents, so he has to be more sensible and not let his parents accompany him willfully.

Compared with many people, he is already a very happy child.

But on the day of Xie Chenyan's 9th birthday, all these beautiful cognitions disappeared, and his world collapsed.

That day, his father told him that he had prepared a surprise gift for him. After finally receiving his father's gift, Xie Chenyan, who couldn't wait to receive the gift when he cut the cake at night, sneaked into the father's special lounge in the crew, wanting to see his father What did you give yourself.

While he was rummaging through the cabinet for gifts, his father and another person walked into the lounge, Xie Chenyan didn't want his father to know that he ran in here, so he hid quietly in the cabinet.

However, Xie Chenyan, who was expecting his father to give him a birthday surprise, saw through the gap in the cabinet a scene he would never forget. His father cheated on an actress.

Although the young Xie Chenyan didn't understand what two people were doing rolling together without clothes on, he knew that kissing and hugging can only be done to the person he loves the most.

Dad loves mom, doesn't he?Why are you hugging another woman?And... this woman is still the elder sister that I adore...

That sister is obviously very gentle!She often played with him, and taught him a lot of acting skills. Originally, he liked this sister very much.

But why, why is that sister doing such intimate things with her father?

Didn't she say to be her best friend?Didn't she say that she has worked hard for a long time to be able to act in her father's play?

Turns out, is this how she works hard?

Xie Chenyan instinctively felt disgusted, instinctively felt fear and fear, he gritted his teeth and shrank in the cabinet, even though the cabinet was dark, even if the air was so thin that it was difficult to breathe, he didn't dare to make a sound.

He was afraid that his voice would wake up the two people in the lounge, and he would have to accept that what he saw was not a nightmare, but a cruel reality.

The feeling of being betrayed by someone he admired and his relatives stung Xie Chenyan's heart. This kind of blow was extremely huge for a child, like the truth dissected from a fairy tale, naked/naked/naked in front of him.

"... No wonder Paji felt so uncomfortable when he was in the cabinet." Xia Yu recalled the appearance of Paji when he opened the cabinet, and couldn't help clenching his fists, "So this is what Teacher Xie said. Bad memories my father had..."

Xia Yu never expected that he would hear such a story.

He himself had been kidnapped before and knew the feeling of being afraid of a place, paji, no, Xie Chenyan must have been very scared at that time.

Xie Chenyan didn't want Xia Yu to worry too much, "Actually, I'm much better now. If it hadn't happened suddenly at that time, I probably wouldn't... I mean, Paji shouldn't be dizzy."

Although Xie Chenyan's words were as calm as possible, Xia Yu still felt the torture and pain from him.

In the future, he would never let Teacher Xie go to that kind of place again. Xia Yu made up his mind that whether it was Teacher Xie or Paji, he would definitely protect him.

"In any case, it's your father and the sister you said was wrong. They are the ones who should be punished and suffer, not you, Mr. Xie." Xia Yu leaned on Xie Chenyan's shoulder and said angrily. In the middle of speaking, he suddenly paused, "The sister Mr. Xie was talking about...could it be Zuo Tongwen?"

"Well, Zuo Tongwen was only 19 years old at that time, and my father was 18 years older than her. Before this incident, she often came to play with me. I didn't have many friends when I was filming, so I regarded her as a Best friend." Xie Chenyan said, showing a self-deprecating smile, "Isn't it ridiculous, in fact, she only treats me well because she wants to get close to my father."

How could a young girl be so vicious in her heart that she used a child to get close to her father?And how could the child's father accept this temptation calmly?

They didn't realize at all that what they did made the 9-year-old birthday Xie Chenyan's worst nightmare. From then on, Xie Chenyan never dared to accept gifts from his parents and relatives. He was afraid that there would be some "surprise" waiting for him , he was afraid of being hurt again.

Xia Yu was both angry and uncomfortable. He was angry with those who ignored the feelings of young Xie Chenyan, and he also felt sorry for Xie Chenyan who had suffered all this, because from that day on, Xie Chenyan's childlike world was destroyed, and only the cruel adult society left behind. his pain.

But things were far from as simple as Xie Chenyan saw.

Just when he was struggling whether to tell his mother about his father's cheating, he heard his mother and father quarreling.

During the quarrel, he found out that his mother had discovered early on that his father had cheated on some other actors and stars, and she just turned a blind eye to these things.

Because she and her father didn't come together because of love.

The father said: "If you hadn't had an unexpected pregnancy and was photographed by reporters, do you think I would marry you?"

The mother said: "Shenghua didn't spend much money on you when I was with me. If it weren't for your title of famous director, do you think I would marry you?"

His parents said a lot of hurtful things, and even more hurtful words for Xie Chenyan. At this moment, he realized that he was not loved, and even his own birth was not expected.

The parents just take what they need, and perhaps even training him to act is for the greater benefit.

After all, a director, the daughter of an entertainment company owner's daughter, can't waste such a good resource...

No wonder, no matter how good he is, his father always treats him indifferently. He originally thought that his father's character was like this, that he was not good enough, but he didn't expect that his father just didn't love him.

"Later, I didn't like being in contact with people very much, and I didn't communicate much with my parents, and for a long time, it was difficult for me to trust other people's feelings."

The young Xie Chenyan avoided everything. In his eyes, even the relationship between husband and wife is so fragile, and the family relationship is so weak, let alone friendship or love.

"Mr. Xie..." Xia Yu hugged Xie Chenyan, "It's okay, Mr. Xie, even if you don't believe in love, I will..."

"Don't be nervous, Xia Yu." Xie Chenyan interrupted Xia Yu's words: "Although this is indeed a very painful memory for me, and it made me unable to communicate with the people around me normally, but after so many years In the past, I have worked hard to come out, now I believe in you, and I also believe in the love between us."

"Then how did Teacher Xie come here all these years?" Xia Yu knew that although Xie Chenyan said it easily now, it must be very difficult for a child to get out of that psychological shadow.

Xie Chenyan's gaze fell out of the window, and Xia Yu noticed that a warm feeling gradually appeared in his eyes: "Actually, apart from seeing a psychiatrist, I also need to thank an angel."

"Angel?"

Xia Yu thought that the angel Xie Chenyan mentioned was just an adjective, but he didn't expect Xie Chenyan to say: "Yes, angel, the angel who gave me a rose under the moonlight."

The few years after his 9th birthday were the most bewildered period for Xie Chenyan. During that time, he who was originally confident and lively became taciturn, often lowered his head and did not speak, and stopped talking with others.

He also stopped acting, no matter how his parents persuaded him or beat him, it was useless.

Xiao Xie Chenyan felt that if he became an actor according to his parents' wishes, he would completely become a pawn in their hands.

He doesn't want his parents to control his life, even if he likes acting so much, even if he really desires to act.

When this situation became more and more serious, Xie Chenyan's parents finally found out that something was wrong, and took Xie Chenyan to see a psychiatrist, who told them that Xie Chenyan had a contact psychological disorder.

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Xiaoyu: I hope some people will consciously stay away from old sayings.