On how to break up peacefully with 419 subjects

1.

The two-hour party came to an end, the crowd poured out of the auditorium like a stream, and the noisy atmosphere gradually quieted down.

Li Yingying, who arrived late, looked at the back of the departing person with great satisfaction, until the person disappeared behind the auditorium door, then turned her face to face Kai Guanyu.

"It's not bad. You told me before that you couldn't find him. Can't you find him? I think he's not bad. Which class is he in? It looks strange, is he a kidnapped freshman?"

When Kui Guanyu heard this, he didn't recover for a long time: "Didn't you find it?"

"No? I ran back and forth for the sponsorship today, so I don't have time to care about this."

Kui Guanyu twitched the corners of his mouth, and there seemed to be residual warmth that did not belong to him on the copybook in his hand, "But he said that you called him here."

"I didn't call anyone?"

"Ah? It wasn't you who yelled, who yelled that?"

Li Yingying: "..."

Kui Guanyu: "..."

After a strange silence, Li Yingying's eyes gradually widened: "I heard that the design institute also lacks someone, it can't be..."

Kui Guanyu shrugged: "Who made this building a mirror image, there is an auditorium on the left and right."

Yan Shen was sitting on a chair where light and shade met, clutching a bottle of chilled mineral water.

He looked at the two people with big eyes and small eyes under the dim light, and after a long time, he suddenly laughed softly.

"So, the little host just now went to the wrong door?"

Co-authoring, he no longer remembered that the culprit who made this freshman go to the wrong door was his roommate Douzi who was standing beside him at that time.

2.

"Thanks for your hard work."

"Hard."

"It's still early, let's have a barbecue together?"

Yan Shen picked up the camera equipment that Dou Zi left behind, and rejected Li Yingying's invitation: "You guys go, I have something to do tonight."

"You are a busy person." Li Yingying took no surprise, and patted the back of Kai Guanyu's head with her foot, "Then let's go first, bye."

After saying goodbye to the two, Yan Shen walked back to the dormitory alone.

He doesn't like the smoky place very much, but at the beginning of school, there are indeed many trivial things that need to be arranged, and it's not like he deliberately used an excuse to refuse people.

The vicinity of the university town is always lively, even at this point, there are many small stalls piled up at the entrance.

Chinese delicacies are always hidden in roadside stalls in small streets and alleys, rather than in the plates of noble restaurants. I am afraid that young people can understand this truth best.

Energetic romps came one after another, and the hot air mixed with the summer temperature hit people's faces. Instead of making the group of freshmen daunted, they mingled together with sweat profusely. Talking and laughing happily.

For some reason, Yan Shen remembered the smiling face of that little host before he left.

Knowing that he came to the wrong place, he still insisted on going to the end, and ended up smiling so happily.

He walked around the booth and passed a few students holding plastic cups, but he caught a glimpse of a figure standing beside the cart out of the corner of his eye.

He was in a hurry at first, but at this moment his pace involuntarily slowed down until he came to a complete stop.

3.

Yan Shen forgot the name of this little host, after all, he didn't listen carefully to the opening remarks of the party.

He only remembered that there was an oolong incident tonight, and the process made people laugh a little bit, which made people feel good.

When people came and went, he saw the little host holding a bamboo stick, standing next to the cart with the fewest people around, chatting with the half-white-haired stall owner, baring his teeth.

The distance is a little far away, and the lights are a little dim—the lights at the back door of the school should be repaired again.

The little host was so hot that he grabbed the stick with his mouth, and then took off his heavy suit jacket, revealing the white shirt inside.

The cuffs were slowly rolled up, and the scene made Yan Shen somewhat unforgettable.

He originally thought that this boy should be a frizzy and nervous person, who would not pick up details on trivial matters.

But he clearly saw clearly in such a dark environment, the other party's sleeves were arranged very neatly, and the wrist was so thin that it seemed that he could break it with just a strong grip.

He should obviously continue walking, taking advantage of the fact that the light on the road is green.

But he stood there numbly, like a photographer who has found the scenery, unable to leave for a long time.

4.

The little host bent down, and the trousers that were originally hanging on the ankles were slowly folded upwards by those slender hands, revealing two calves little by little.This man stood carelessly on the side of the road, casually biting a bamboo stick in the smoke, and stepped on a pair of shiny leather shoes, but he didn't appear to be nondescript.

The green light on the road turned red, and many students who needed to go back to Area A like him waited side by side with their shoulders crossed, complaining in a low voice that the timing was not good.

The light of the private car was on, illuminating the slightly potholed road surface, and also casting a flash of light on the window in front of the boy.

Yan Shen was dumbfounded.

He watched the boy suddenly turn his face, raised his hand in the flickering lights, tilted his body and smiled brightly.

It seems that the dim yellow lamp placed on the cart has also become the second round of moon above the head at this time.

He also moved his wrist and raised it subconsciously.

However, three unknown people brushed past him, bringing a gust of wind whether it was hot or not.

The little host waved in his direction, but the person who greeted was not him.

The traffic light changed color again, and the passing car lights also stopped here, illuminating the chatting and laughing appearance of the four big boys in front of the cart more clearly.

Yan Shen's fingertips slowly folded together and twisted gently.Then he turned around and lifted his feet, and stepped onto the zebra crossing that had been waiting for him for a long time without saying a word.

It wasn't until the roots of his ears gradually became clear and the light from the street lamps turned cold and white that he felt bewildered by the series of actions he had just done.

What's even more inexplicable is that in that environment, he aimed at the supposed stranger at a glance.

5.

"The courtyard forum is very lively tonight."

As soon as he arrived at the dormitory, Dou Zi leaned over to pick up his baby: "Hey, did I accidentally do something good for our hospital?"

Yan Shen pressed the computer's power button, and commented nonchalantly: "I'm afraid you have to pray that the little host won't stab you out, otherwise the group of girls from the Student Union of the Design Institute will have to come directly to Area A and arrest you on the spot." It's done."

After hearing this, Douzi froze, and went back to the bathroom to brush his teeth. Halfway through brushing, half of his head popped out, and he said optimistically, "Thinking about it, it doesn't seem like a bad idea?"

"What was said in the forum?"

Yan Shen suddenly asked such a question without beginning or end.

Unlike Douzi, he is not a gossip guy.Although most people like to socialize online, Yan Shen doesn't play with those things much - the reason is that once he logs in to his account, he will receive many messy private messages.Over time, I don't pay much attention to these.

Dou Zi refused to confess with toothpaste in his mouth: "If you really want to know, just go online and look it up yourself. The computer is already turned on. It's not easy to enter a URL at random."

Yan Shen glanced at the two empty beds: "Where are they? Haven't come back yet?"

"Let's get out of school and go online. Tonight, the two of them signed up for the game competition. They probably have to stay up all night."

After Douzi finished speaking, he withdrew his head and began to gargle.

Yan Shen didn't speak again, and opened the word document to start editing and revising.

After a few minutes, he minimized the document and opened the newly received folder casually.

After a while, he took out his mobile phone and opened the tutor's WeChat account, but he still didn't know what to report.

He always felt a little impetuous, and he didn't want to implement the planned things—at least not now.

After fumbling through the news on the front page, Yan Shen still pursed his lips and clicked into the forum.

He saw a dozen new hot posts, one of which had the most eye-catching title.

Or rather, it caught his attention the most.

[Gu Tianxing, the deputy host of the welcome party, is not a freshman in the School of Finance! ? 】

Yan Shen sat on the chair and relaxed almost at the same time.

He thought, so that boy's name is Gu Tianxing.

6.

Sometimes extra attention is always generated inadvertently.

Gradually, the forums of the School of Finance could not satisfy Yan Shen, and he began to sneak into the Design Institute across districts, searching bit by bit for information related to the boy named Gu Tianxing.

He watched blankly as others discussed the boy's clothing, grades, and several seniors or students at the same level who had a close relationship with him.

He kept the class schedule of Class 2 of the Design Institute, and compared his free time, looking for opportunities to "coincidentally" pass by again and again.

He looked over and over at the photos that had been swung from the party, and slowly rubbed his fingertips across the face, and then rubbed the center of his brows with a headache.

He said to himself in his heart, Yan Shen, you are hopelessly hopeless.

It's literally peeping into someone else's life.

Knowing this, but also committing crimes.

He is like a dead plant buried under the corner of the wall, 20 years of drought and shade have not allowed it to wither and rot, and it is barely growing upwards.But just at this time, a ray of light appeared not far away, and just one glance made him feel full of energy, wanting to pull up his roots embedded in the soil, and walk towards that splendid place.

7.

A year later, Yan Shen was a junior and Gu Tianxing was a sophomore.

In September, the club recruits new students.

There was a table between the two of them, and Yan Shen sat there quietly, listening to Gu Tianxing grinning and lamenting how time passed with others, and then the boys passing by just kept their eyes on each other, fanning the wind and walking away from him further and further.

In October, the Design Institute collectively sketched.

Their paintings were displayed in the exhibition room, their classes and names were marked, and invitations were sent out to the whole school.

When Yan Shen was going, he happened to meet the man pinching his waist and turning his back to him, standing in front of a water scene and talking with his friend.

Fourteen days of going out did not leave any marks on his body, and the exposed arms and neck were still dazzlingly white, making it difficult to look away.

In November, the autumn sports meeting.

The heads of the student unions of each college did not have any free time on this day, and were arranged to sit on the main podium to preside over and maintain order together, and Yan Shen was one of them.

When Douzi came to him to play, it was the time when Gu Tianxing was wearing a short-sleeved shirt, sweating and running towards him from the runway.

People from the Academy of Art cheered and cheered. The boys on the runway heard it and waved their hands towards the podium with a smile.

Yan Shen stared in that direction for a moment in a daze, then snatched the camera from his friend's hand, and froze the scene forever without any skill at all.

In December, Double Dan Party.

Yan Shen arranged everything a few days in advance, and stood in the corridor of Zhenhai Building that night.

Just like Gu Tianxing walked in the wrong direction more than a year ago, he also turned around and walked towards the wrong auditorium.

He was standing at the back, without even a seat, and he was hiding in the darkness. He watched the people on the stage holding the microphone to control the overall situation, and suddenly he had an idea.

Gu Tianxing was so good, but he himself was lackluster.

8.

Exams are over and winter vacation is approaching.

Year-end dinner in Bedroom 203, Area A, four of them sat around the small stove, canned beer was scattered beside them, and the alcohol made the young man's cheeks flush.

Lao Han held up his cup: "Douzi's photography work won an award last week, right?"

"Wow, I've told you three times bro! Why do you still ask!" Douzi glared unhappily, and with a little drunkenness, he turned to look at Yan Shen: "When it comes to photography, I think of the time at the sports meeting." Boy, this guy stole my camera to take pictures of his little lover."

When Lao Han heard this, he immediately got excited: "Little lover?! What little lover!"

Yan Shen: "..."

Douzi exclaimed: "You don't know, he's so funny, the photo I took was so blurry that I couldn't feel comfortable, and he imported it into my computer as a baby, and I didn't even let me save the negatives... But I really do. Not willing to save."

"Tell me, what kind of lover!" Lao Han hurriedly moved a seat, and sat down next to the person. During the jolt, a few drops of wine inevitably fell, and a few dark colors smudged on his trousers: "You've got a lot of skills!" , are you talking about a secret love affair?"

Yan Shen: "...No, he doesn't know me."

Douzi squatted aside to fan the flames, snatched his phone, and directly showed the lock screen interface in front of the eyes of the other two curious people: "The computer desktop has the same lock screen, old Han Dafei, you two tasted it, didn't it look terrible?"

Old Han raised his head and looked: "Isn't this the kid from the Art Academy?"

Douzi's eyes widened, and he gave a thumbs up after a while: "Niu, you can recognize it when it's so mushy."

"It looks familiar, the BenQ Internet cafe in the alley, this person often goes." Lao Han returned the phone, and said in amazement: "I didn't expect it, I didn't expect it, our fourth child is so good... OK, next time I go online. See him, I'll help you make a match."

Yan Shen refused almost without hesitation: "No, I don't want to right now."

"Why? He is quite famous, and many people have such a little bit of interest. If you don't make a move, you will chase after others."

Yan Shen still shook his head and did not speak.

He was afraid that he would move towards the light with difficulty to shorten the distance between the two of them, but in the end he would lose to the momentary panic.

9.

It's not that Yan Shen has never been to an Internet cafe, he is not the kind of well-behaved baby with strict family education.

But after staying in such a place for a long time, he would get dizzy and feel sick, so this was the first time he went online with Da Fei and the others.

The four of them sat in a row for the first time, and Lao Han came over with some drinks from the bar, and put a bottle of green tea in front of Yan Shen: "I've checked for you, he will come on Friday night."

Douzi laughed at the side: "The girls in the class went out for a trip before the holiday, but we ran out to surf the Internet together... It's quite novel."

Yan Shen didn't play games very much, and when the three people beside him entered their game accounts, he was searching for movies.

Before watching it for 10 minutes, several people walked side by side from the entrance, and sat down on the opposite side with ease.

Yan Shen felt that he seemed to have mastered a skill that could spot Gu Tianxing in any crowd at a glance.

"Quick, quick." Old Han patted him secretly, covered his mouth and said in a low voice, "We changed seats, and he sat across from me!"

Turning their heads, Dafei and Douzi looked over at the same time, their eyes seemed to be full of excitement.

Yan Shen: "..."

Obviously he fell in love with someone, but these three guys were more worried than him.

It seems that LOL is not fragrant anymore.

The two changed seats, and when he stood up, he could clearly see half of Gu Tianxing's downcast eyes from the corner of his eye.

The light from the screen shone on his face, and those eyes shone brightly, making him instantly think of the other party's name.

Indeed like a star.

It seemed that it was the first time for him to be so close to Gu Tianxing, with two large computer screens in between, breathing the air in the same small space.

At this time, a foot under the table kicked the sole of his shoe.

"Ah, I'm sorry." Gu Tianxing apologized, wearing a headset and raising his head.

Yan Shen was covered, only the top of his jet-black hair was exposed.

"It's ok."

His voice was not loud, and it was mixed with the background sound and the crackling of the keyboard, and he didn't know if he heard it from the other side.

The central air conditioner was doing its best to dissipate the heat, but his palms began to sweat.

He pursed his lips and put on the earphones, intending to continue watching the unfinished movie just now.

The soft fiber blocked part of the sound, and the heartbeat that made him stuffy in his chest was also transmitted to his ears.

This was the first conversation between the two since he had liked Gu Tianxing for so long.

10.

At eleven o'clock, Gu Tianxing and his friends got off the plane and left the Internet cafe.

Five minutes later, the four people in dormitory 5 also embarked on their way back to the dormitory.

From seven o'clock to eleven o'clock, a total of four hours, longer than all parties, but there was no progress between the two of them.

Douzi said: You already have the guts to like a man, but you haven't the guts to confess!Impressed!

Lao Han said: You are my elder brother, I am so anxious, you can at least be a friend first!

Dafei said: ...

Dafei has nothing to say.

Lao Han: "Just tell him, 'Hey classmate, you look familiar, have we met somewhere?'"

Dafei: "Tacky."

Douzi: "Go and buy five bottles of drinks, and hand over the extra bottle, and tell him in a cool and authentic way, 'I bought too much, if I can't finish it, I will give it to you.'"

Dafei: "Too stupid."

Old Han: "When he kicked you back then, why did you hide! You should show him your face! You let him see your face!!! You're on base once you're born, you're familiar with it, you're familiar with it three times !"

Da Fei: "Stop reading Huang Wen."

Douzi: "I should just take the student card off him casually, and then wait for him to leave a call to collect the lost items and let Yan Shen add him as a friend, so we can chat to the sky!"

Da Fei: "This is stealing."

Old Han screamed strangely: "Why don't you play a hero to save the beauty? Isn't it written like this in the novels!"

Da Fei: "Maybe he can beat up to ten like in the novel."

Douzi came up with an idea and became addicted: "Well, I'll buy you medicine, and you're going to obsess him!"

Da Fei finally couldn't bear it any longer: "You've never been in a relationship before, so what's your idea here? Who's obsessed? It's also said in the novel that drinking the wrong drink will result in your own consequences. Why don't you mention it?"

Dou Zi & Lao Han: "..."

In the end, Yan Shen smiled, and he didn't say anything, just thanked him.

"Thank you for tossing with me today."

Dafei glanced at him, finally pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose, shook his head and sighed: "It's not that you underestimate yourself, but that you value him too much."

11.

According to Douzi and Lao Han, they didn't feel that Yan Shen was not worthy of Gu Tianxing at all.

The cabbage raised at home is juicy no matter how you look at it.

Yan Shen said what he was most afraid of at the moment: "I don't know if he likes boys too."

From the beginning of his freshman year to the present, Gu Tianxing's surroundings are very clean.Now he is neither sure whether the other party likes girls, nor whether he will fall in love with boys like himself.

He didn't want to make friends with him with ulterior motives.

Once this friend is made, and Gu Tianxing cannot accept him, then he is likely to be extreme.

Because he has been a person with goals since he was a child.He will work hard to achieve his goals, and talking about this spirit in his feelings is the so-called all-or-nothing.

He likes Gu Tianxing, he has no way out.

So being friends is not what he wants, as long as Gu Tianxing likes him, or the two of them just miss each other.

Old Han was anxious to death: "You are not sure whether he likes boys or not, then you can just go and break him!"

Yan Shen still shook his head and refused: "This road is not easy to walk, I can't give him any protection now...I can't break him recklessly because of my selfish desires."

He couldn't grab Gu Tianxing into his claws before his wings were full, so that when the storm was coming, he couldn't even protect himself, so how could he take care of his beloved boy.

He is like a person walking on a muddy road, looking up at the free deer in the forest, holding all kinds of picked fruits and wanting to offer them, but when he is about to meet his eyes, he silently hides his hands behind his back .

He knew that he had the capital to let the deer approach him, but he was afraid that his recklessness would make the deer step into the trap of the hunter and eventually get scars all over his body.

He is ready to pamper the other party, but he has not yet been able to create an armor that is impenetrable to thousands of swords.

Therefore he cannot.

12.

I like things that are always contradictory and tangled, let a person think over and over again, and grow overnight.

Some people need a little stimulation to fuel the flames on the road of youth, perhaps Gu Tianxing is the best nourishment for Yan Shen.

During college, he devoted all his love to the same person, but did not leave any name.

He was still huddled in the corner, pulling out the branches and leaves from the shriveled buds, and the roots went straight into the ground, gradually gaining a foothold.

He polished himself, and also polished the guardrail that no one else could see.

After leaving school for many years, these three friends of his often called to ask if he was still persevering.

"exist."

he answered.

When he replied, he was leaning on the sofa in the bar, watching the lively crowd not far away.

The eye-catching figure in the middle of the crowd is the person he has loved in silence for a long time.

On the phone, Lao Han said: "It's almost time for the Anti-Japanese War. Don't you say that he is also gay? Then when... hey, well, I won't ask you."

"next week."

"Huh? What?"

Yan Shen said it again: "Next week."

13.

Friday, exactly six o'clock in the afternoon.

The employees of the company have been busy for five full days, and they relax and clock in and leave work one after another, and make an appointment to have a dinner elsewhere in the evening.

Yan Shen went directly to the underground garage, and drove straight to the hotel that was mentioned in the information.

After turning off the engine, he lit a cigarette, and the window next to the driver's seat was only opened a crack, barely allowing the smoke to escape.

The text message is from the owner of the design company, with the location and time, additional information and the contact information of the responsible team leader.

——Gu Tianxing, 189XXXXXXXX

He saw the young man outside the car window with a familiar smile, standing tall and eye-catching among a group of teenagers.

It wasn't until Yan Shen watched the person disappear at the door of the shop that Yan Shen looked away and tapped the name on the screen with his fingertips.

He squinted his eyes and leaned back on the chair, reaching out for the fifth time to straighten his neckline.

He remembered the welcome party in his sophomore year, when the boy who had gone to the wrong place casually pulled his tie after stepping off the stage, and let out a long sigh of relief with his neck raised.

Yan Shen asked himself: How can I remember it for so long?

It was just an unintentional glance that made him willing to be a trapped beast for so many years.

The sapling growing against the wall was blocked from retreating on one side, and could only continue to grow toward sunny places.

He got out of the car and walked on the road that Gu Tianxing had just walked on.

Step by step, steady and neat.

He knew that at the end of the road there was someone he had guarded for seven years.

He pushed open the door, only the smiling face of his sweetheart remained in his sight.

"Hello, Boss Yan." The fully grown young man stretched out his hand towards him, tilted his head and asked, "Why do I feel...you look familiar?"

Yan Shen laughed when he heard that.

He knew that he had not been in love for so long in vain.

And the person who can say this sentence is by no means unfeeling.

He borrowed the clichéd line that was judged by Dafei: "Jiangdu is so big in total, maybe we have seen it somewhere."

"Hahaha." Gu Tianxing rolled his eyes, "I'm Gu Tianxing."

Yan Shen nodded, and shook that warm hand: "My name is Yan Shen."

The green leaves in his heart finally touched the sunshine.

Then it grew wildly.

The author has something to say:

When Yan Shen likes people, he is so cautious, long-winded, not 100% sure, he is afraid that one wrong step will ruin the whole thing. ┓(?′?`?)┏ Don't be disgusted, just be considerate and considerate of him.