You are a surprise in my heart

The night in Shanghai is the most charming, it can be romantic and sentimental, or it can be erosive.

The liquid was poured into the mouth, and the mouthfeel was bitter and slightly strong, but it was fascinating.

Lu Licheng sat alone in front of the bar. In the dark bar, only the bar was the brightest.

But even more psychedelic.Slowly drinking the cocktail, his chest was burning hot.surrounded by rich

Rhythmic electronic music, everyone is swaying to the rhythm, shoulder to shoulder ambiguously, sometimes challenging

Funny eyes stared at him, and more than one pair.But he drank his wine slowly as if there was no one else around.

The crystal skull by the bar opened its mouth as if mocking.He took one bite after another, okay

Like this endless black hole, sucking his soul.Normally, he would not order such a bitter and

Strong wine, but he wants to try it now.Surprisingly, it turns out that besides the taste, wine can also express people

The state of mind is the desolate beauty of art.

The deafening music made him a little unbearable.Suddenly, a person passing by the bar next to him,

Consciously or unintentionally, he swept his hands on his buttocks, and left immediately with the wine.Lu Licheng looked back coldly

The man glanced at him, and the other party blinked at him, but he was not interested in paying attention.

Although he usually likes clubbing, he never comes to this type of club.He likes to be quiet, or to go

Relax where a group of men are watching a football game, and make an appointment with a few good friends.This bar is his first time

Come.The biggest difference between it and other bars is not the noisy environment and dim erosion, but the

The guests treated are a bit special - this is a GayBar.He drank another sip of wine, his burning chest could not vent his depression at the moment.

That rainy night, he didn't dare to face it but he couldn't lie to himself, his feelings for Zhong Haotian changed qualitatively.

I thought that he, like Ian, could be a heart-to-heart friend.But when Zhong Haotian collapsed,

She couldn't help but hugged him.The moment he leaned into his arms, Lu Licheng knew, what

Everything has changed, he has become impure, and he has become distraught.What kind of feeling is that, when he

I understand.He is not an ignorant teenager, he clearly knows what kind of emotion it is, and it has never been so strong.

However, that shouldn't happen. The word "comrade" used to mean a lot to him.

The two words that he would never pay attention to face up to in his life, now actually happened to him.how he

I can't even believe that I will have such strong feelings for a man and burn his body.

When exactly did this change happen?Was it when he was pouring out his thoughts in the car that day, or was it during the outing in the countryside, or maybe when Zhong Haotian took care of him when he fell ill that day?He couldn't think about the past, and he was rarely so upset.After a drink, he called again

The cup is the same.He didn't know why he came here, just like he didn't know how he fell in love with Zhong Haotian.

He has never doubted his sexual orientation, but now he wants to see, these people have the same relationship with him

What's the difference?What is it like to fall in love with a man?

"Margaret, the bitter taste of sadness." Suddenly a man sitting next to him said to Lu Licheng,

"Click it, are you broken in love?"

Lu Licheng turned sideways, and saw that the man was about the same age as him, with a curvy face and dark green eyes

With a little gray, it looks like a non-Asian, but she speaks Chinese quite fluently.

"Without love, how can you lose it?" Lu Licheng raised the corners of his mouth, and the man was also looking at her with his eyes

With oneself.

"Alva." The man put his chin on one hand and stretched out his other hand in front of Lu Licheng to introduce himself.

"D**id." Lu Licheng casually gave a name. No one would use a real name in this kind of place.

Name, he believed Alva as well.

"Why don't you go play?" Alva pointed to the center of the dance floor.

Lu Licheng shrugged, but said nothing.

Alva didn't leave just then, but ordered a cup of "Long Island Iced Tea" and drank it beside him.while drinking

Scanning Lu Licheng with his eyes from time to time, he slowly approached Lu Licheng until he touched his arm.from the back

Looking back, they seemed like a same-sex couple, intimate.

"I come here almost every day, seeing you for the first time." Alva turned to Lu Licheng and said.

"It's the first time here." Lu Licheng nodded, he did not refuse Alva's vague touch.

"Isn't it boring to be alone?" Alva rubbed his lips with his thumb and whispered.

"Your Chinese is very good." Lu Licheng knew that this man was seducing him, and he exuded a vague

The smell of male hormones, the other party's hands are always irregularly drawn on his waist, buttocks and even thighs

Pass.He didn't refuse, at this moment he was like an adventurer probing a mysterious region.

"My mother is Chinese." Alva leaned closer to Lu Licheng, almost touching his face.

"No wonder." Lu Licheng felt that the hands that were wandering around the base of his thighs came to his crotch and rubbed them.

He raised his head and looked into Alva's eyes.He had to admit that Alva had a special charm, he

Her eyes are very seductive, not coquettish and pretentious, but inherently seductive.That sexy thin lip, not a woman

Human-like soft, but sharp-edged lips, very masculine fortitude and beauty without being rough.he believes

Alva is the star of this bar.Now he is not only seducing himself, but also wants to do something more with him.

"It's too noisy here, I'll take you to a quieter place." Alva saw that Lu Licheng not only did not refuse,

Seeing that there was still lust in her eyes, she leaned close to his ear and said.

"Where are you going?" Lu Licheng asked, putting his arms around Alva's waist.

"There's a lounge in the back, we can go there. Don't worry, only I have the key. This wine

Well, I have a stake. "It can be seen that Alva likes Lu Licheng very much. In fact, he hardly knows how to drink with himself.

Let's find someone - too familiar, not fun.However, Lu Licheng was an exception.he's new here, listen

Yin is not a local, besides, he is very handsome, which is his favorite type.

"I thought I would go to the bathroom." Lu Licheng whispered in Alva's ear, spraying hot air on the other's earlobe.

"It's too cold there, I don't like it." Alva lowered his voice and tapped Lu Licheng's ear

a kiss.

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Night, as Alva's body stretched out.Lu Licheng stripped off Alve's clothes and found his figure

very good.It can be seen that she often goes to the gym and her abdominal muscles are almost perfect.

Alva's hand touched Lu Licheng's crotch, and he untied his belt.He hasn't come across such extremes for a long time.

The product is finished, the skin is healthy and shiny, the body is slender and even the fingers are beautiful. Alva was fascinated, outside

The music came in faintly, and the strong rhythm made this upcoming event a perfect start.

I don't know if it was Lu Licheng's occasional tenderness that moved Alva, he looked at the girl lying beside him obsessively.

Lu Licheng said on the Internet: "Your eyes are very beautiful, they are light brown."

Suddenly for no reason, Zhong Haotian flashed in front of Lu Licheng's eyes that day, wearing a white shirt and bowing his head to seriously draw

Show your own eyes.His heart ached like being hit by a blunt object in an instant. "What's wrong with you?" Noticing Lu Licheng's strangeness,

Alva saw that he didn't enter for a long time and asked herself.

"I..." Lu Licheng's eyes became a little flustered, and he didn't look directly at Alva.

What the hell is he doing?Come to this bar and have sex with strange men.sober

Lu Licheng felt inexplicably empty and helpless.For the first time in his life, he hesitated, he fell in love with Zhong Haotian,

Love is deeper than I imagined.So much so that he is here, wanting to prove that he is not in deep trouble, he wants to

Lie to yourself, desire and emotion can be equal.He just lost his mind for a while, he wanted to convince himself

For himself, this thrill-seeking feeling is the same as the feeling for Zhong Haotian, it's just an accidental confusion.

"Are you okay?" Alva got up and asked concerned.

"I'm sorry." Lu Licheng lost all interest.

This absurd ordeal made him feel like he was taking time out, not only did he not feel any better, but it made him feel even worse.

emptiness.He suddenly missed Zhong Haotian very much, and remembered the uncontrollable hug a few days ago, so warm,

So cherish it.Leaning on his shoulder, he couldn't suppress the grievance in his heart that he had never told anyone.

Low sobbing.The child is not his, but he gave everything for the child.Zhong Haotian was the one he had seen, the most

The person he can't understand is also the person he can't let go of the most.That kind of emotion trapped him in a maze.

Seeing Lu Licheng's appearance, Alva also knew that tonight was a mess.He wanted to get angry, but he has always been sympathetic,

For handsome and good-looking men, I have never been able to resist.If Lu Licheng didn't suit his taste too much, he wouldn't let Lu Licheng fall in love with him easily.

Now, I can only admit that I am unlucky.

"When you come here from now on, you can always find me at night." Looking at Lu Licheng who was already fully dressed,

Alva said lazily while lying on the sofa.

Lu Licheng didn't answer, and left the room without looking back.Ben is the object of sex, and has no feelings at all,

Now it is even more impossible to have any care in words.

He was driving a black jeep and was running on the streets of Shanghai. The wind in his ears raised his collar, and the wind whistled past.

He didn't know what was going on with him, and he missed the person who confused him for several days.Stepped on the accelerator, and quickly drove towards the hospital...

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"Dad, I can't eat anymore." An An pushed the spoon in Zhong Haotian's hand and said.

Zhong Haotian nodded, put down the apples left in his hands, and told An An to lie down and sleep.

After a day and a night of escorting, An An finally got rid of her fever.The doctor was afraid that he would repeat himself, so he observed it again.

God, it's completely fine now, my hanging heart finally let go.He thanked God for blessing An An,

The child has suffered so much and shouldn't be allowed to have another accident.

Turning around, he took a basin of water and wiped An An's face to make him more comfortable.The doctor said, observe a few more

You can leave the hospital in an hour.He planned to stay at home for a few more days, so that An An could recover well before going to kindergarten.

And his cold also eased a little.

Lu Licheng walked to the door of the ward, saw Zhong Haotian was wiping the child's body, his agitated heart unexpectedly

Calmed down.Obviously it was this person who made me almost delay my work.But, also this person,

It made him feel calmer than ever.

"Haotian." Lu Licheng said softly.

Zhong Haotian was surprised and delighted when he heard Lu Licheng's voice behind him.It's so late, he doesn't know

Why did Lu Licheng come here, but he was very happy to see him.

A few days ago, because of An An's critical illness, his world almost collapsed.Thanks to this friend

Supporting him, if it weren't for Lu Licheng, he might either collapse or fall completely.Lu Licheng

But patiently persuading himself and taking care of him, this is the warmth that Zhong Haotian has not felt for a long time.

"How's An'an?" Lu Licheng sat down beside Zhong Haotian, and deliberately moved a little away.

'Should be able to leave the hospital tomorrow. ' Zhong Haotian wrote on the paper.

"That's good." Lu Licheng nodded.

Zhong Haotian took out an orange and slowly peeled it.Lu Licheng looked at him sideways, his hair was thicker than when he first met him

His age is longer, and his bangs block half of his face.He was originally handsome, with thick eyebrows and big eyes

Very good-looking, a typical look that pleases girls.If there is no accident, if there is no child

Son, Zhong Haotian is always the focus of vision wherever he goes.Young and promising, handsome yet gentle, I don't know how many women he will fascinate.

Now, he can only take care of the child here day and night, his eyes are red.

"Are you feeling better?" Lu Licheng asked with a frown, seeing that the whites of his eyes were still bloodshot.

'Still a little uncomfortable, but getting better. Zhong Haotian confessed honestly.He became more and more frank with Lu Licheng. Since Lu Licheng took care of him meticulously when An'an was critically ill, he has regarded Lu Licheng as his best friend.

"You go home and take a few more days off to rest and recuperate. You have taken care of An'an for so long, don't neglect your health.

Otherwise, An An has no one to take care of. "It may be a change in mood, Lu Licheng's tone is distressed.

He began to complain that Zhong Haotian didn't take good care of himself, he always thought of his children and others, but he never thought of it for himself.

Zhong Haotian nodded with a wry smile, he finally knew that Lu Licheng also had a mother-in-law side.But he knows,

Lu Licheng was caring about himself, his heart was like seeing the warm sunshine in the severe winter, very warm.Give the peeled oranges to Lu Licheng,

When Lu Licheng took the hand, his fingers touched Zhong Haotian's hand, and he dodged like lightning.

He is very afraid of physical contact with Zhong Haotian now, probably because he has realized that the qualitative change in feelings may be an instinctive reaction of the body.

He was afraid that he would not be able to control something and destroy the present tranquility.

'Why are you here so late today? ' Zhong Haotian still couldn't help asking curiously.

"It just so happens that the meeting is over here." Lu Licheng casually gave a reason.

Zhong Haotian nodded, holding his cheek to look at An An's sleeping face.The child slept soundly, it seems

has recovered.The eyelids were panting, and finally couldn't hold it anymore, lay down on the side of the bed and fell asleep.

"Haotian, Haotian?" Lu Licheng saw Zhong Haotian lying on the bedside and closed his eyes and fell asleep, and pushed him

Still did not wake up.In the past few days, he had exhausted too much physical strength, so he didn't collapse immediately, thank God.

Lu Licheng found the blanket at the end of An An's bed and put it on Zhong Haotian.

Quietly looking at Zhong Haotian in his sleep, Lu Licheng was a little fascinated.The hidden feelings in my heart slowly grow,

Carefully caressing Zhong Haotian's hair with his hands, his hair is very soft and thin just like him,

So supple yet tough.Like a thief, he was afraid that others would find out and moved his finger to Zhong Haotian's cheek greedily,

Gently and carefully stroked back and forth.Afraid of waking him up, I just touched it intermittently with my fingertips.

Zhong Haotian looked haggard.The things about the child these days have tortured him until his eye sockets are sunken.

He has no way of recalling what went wrong, that he fell so strongly in love with someone of the same sex without his knowing it.

Suddenly he let go of his hand, he should understand that Zhong Haotian is not a comrade.What he needs now is not a gay man he thought was a friend,

Use emotion to disturb his peaceful life.And he himself doesn't want to be led by the nose by such feelings that he can't control the direction of.

He is used to holding his own life and being a person with a plan, but what he wants is definitely not the current life where he can't see the future clearly.

He should let himself and Zhong Haotian go back to the starting point, at least he needs some time so that he can calm down

Facing Zhong Haotian on the ground, maybe they can continue to be friends.Although he knows that this time may be

very long……