something wrong

Early the next morning, Rui'er knocked on Sangzi's door.Usually, Dr. Sangzi gets up very early, and when she comes, Dr. Sangzi has already packed herself up.But today is an exception, Doctor Sangzi is still lying on the bed.At that time, Rui'er was holding a basin in her hand to help Sangzi wash up, and felt something was wrong, so she turned her head and glanced at the person who came in with her.

Yan Qitong followed her quietly forward, Sangzi's eyes were open - but she didn't know whether she was awake or asleep now, thinking about it this way made her feel even more uncomfortable.

"Miss—" Rui'er called softly.

Sang Zi said "Mmm" on the bed, and sat up lazily: "I am very tired today, please help me get dressed."

Yan Qitong's eyes widened, the thin quilt on Sangzi's body slipped off, revealing a pair of thin shoulders.Turning his eyes again, he saw that Sangzi was only wearing a shallow crescent moon dress, with two thin straps hanging loosely around his neck; what was especially exaggerated was that a foot was exposed from the corner of the thin quilt, from below the knee, It was also naked.

Rui'er said yes and was about to go forward, Yan Qitong pulled her away, snatched the clothes from her hand, stretched out his fingers to shush, telling her not to disturb Sangzi.

Holding the jacket, Yan Qitong tried to breathe as calmly as possible, and approached Sangzi.

When Sangzi felt touched, he slightly raised his hand and let others get dressed.

Some people always have their own habits when doing things. The so-called habit means that when you do this thing, you don't feel anything special.For example, Yan Qitong, because she is left-handed, usually wears her clothes from the armhole of her left hand, and wears her right hand for Sangzi.When tying the knot of the belt, she also has her own usual method.Because she was afraid that Sangzi would find out that it was her, she tried to breathe lightly, and her hands and feet were as light as possible, so that her attention was all here.

Rui'er was waiting on the side, handing the trousers to Yan Qitong, not forgetting to say: "Miss, please sit out."

Sangzi supported the bed, took off the thin quilt, and swung her feet out of the edge of the bed. Yan Qitong hurriedly put on her trousers, helped her get out of the bed and helped her wear them up to her waist.With just her hands together, she knew how thin Sang Zi was now.This willow slender waist really looks like it would break if it was folded.Just thinking about these things in her heart, she forgot for a moment what else she was wearing on top of her bare calf.

After wearing it, Yan Qitong stood aside, only to realize that Sangzi's clothes were really thin.She used to wear a lot of clothes, but it may be because she took care of her illness, but she didn't have many clothes on her during the spring tide.Thinking about it for more than a year, it seems that I have only been sick once, I hope this in itself is a good sign, but looking at Sangzi's eyes, Yan Qitong dare not take chances in his heart.

The important thing now is how to make Sangzi use the Burning Grass.When this kind of grass was harvested, Zhu Banxian put a sealing talisman on it, but the talisman was prepared before Suming.After going down the mountain, Sangzi stuffed a grass into the pigeon's bamboo tube and flew to Zhuse Mountain in Yanguo. He heard that Fengcheng might have done some research on this, but he hasn't received a reply yet.

Last night, Sangzi’s waywardness also caused Yan Qitong a headache. Everyone went to Daxue Mountain because of themselves, and they didn’t have themselves in the process of telling Sangzi. This missing big mouth is the most important thing. Everyone feels that saying There is nothing that Sangzi can fully believe.Fortunately, Zhu Banxian felt that he asked Sangzi to guess, maybe it would go in a good direction.

In his wild thoughts, Yan Qitong didn't dare to have too much substantive contact with Sangzi, so Rui'er reached out to support her, brought her to the dressing table, and thought she had given the comb to Yan Qitong.

Sang Zi groped on the table and pulled out a hairpin from a small drawer on the table.As soon as she raised her hand, the hairpin made of jade slipped from her hand and fell to the ground with a crisp sound, causing Rui'er to exclaim.

Yan Qitong's hands froze for a moment, she turned her head and glanced at Rui'er complainingly, hoping that Sangzi was tired and didn't realize that the voice came from the back side, not directly behind.Rui'er knew she was wrong, stuck out her tongue, leaned over to pick up the hairpin, luckily it was not broken or broken, she sent the hairpin to Yan Qitong's hand, and said to Sangzi: "I remember this hairpin is The most commonly used by Miss, it just scared me, and I am afraid it will break."

Instead, Sangzi turned around and smiled slightly: "It's okay if it breaks."

Yan Qitong looked down at the profile Sangzi gave her, and almost wanted to reach out to touch it, but she held back.He gave Sangzi a simple hairstyle and fixed it with the jade hairpin. Yan Qitongfang noticed that the jade color of the hairpin was transparent, but there were two or three plum blossoms carved on the head of the hairpin.The jade here is blood-colored, just like the natural red plum decoration, just like the red plum she pinned to Sangzi in the cloud hanging pan.

Yan Qitong's heart trembled for a moment, and he had to exert all his strength to tie the white cloth that Rui'er handed her over Sangzi's eyes.After absent-mindedly tying the knot, she stepped aside and stared blankly at the plum branch above her head from a distance.

Sang Zi stood up and checked her appearance.Naturally, she couldn't look at it directly from the mirror, so she could only use her hands to touch her forehead, sideburns, and the hairstyle at the back, as well as the knot.

It was still a bow tie, and Sangzi's hand stopped there, flying like a butterfly, falling and rising suddenly.She suddenly said to Rui'er: "The clinic is closed today."

Both Rui'er and Yan Qitong were stunned, especially Rui'er.Today is not a closed day, and Dr. Sangzi never leaves the clinic suddenly without reason.

Everyone was very surprised when they heard Ruier say that, but Sangzi didn't speak from waking up until after breakfast, and then said to Zhuer: "You guard the house, Ruier follows me to the back street temple."

Qiu Ying was shocked, she now knew that Yan Qitong was kidnapped in the temple behind the year before last.Qiu Ying looked at Yan Qitong, and saw that she just frowned slightly, didn't speak, but walked out the door and waited.

Zhu'er was a little worried, and said: "There are many people in the temple, and Rui'er is naughty, let me go with you."

Rui'er pouted, dissatisfied, but did not dare to say, before the madam left, she only ordered her to listen to Zhu'er in everything.Fortunately, Dr. Sangzi did not agree, and only let himself follow.

"I will take good care of Miss." Rui'er hastily expressed her opinion, and happily helped Sangzi away.

Qiu Ying and the others didn't follow, but Zhu Banxian just smiled, and then laughed three times, everyone asked curiously, but Zhu Banxian just said: "I didn't go into the peach forest yesterday, I have nothing to do, why don't we go and have a look. "

"Ah, I'll go too. I'm going to pick some peach blossoms. Miss Li told me the other day." Zhu'er hurriedly said.

Zhu Banxian agreed, and couldn't help but push the other two people away.

"What are you laughing at?" Qiu Ying couldn't help but asked on the road.

"Although I don't know what the reason is," Zhu Banxian said with a smile, "but I can feel that Sang Zi has already become suspicious, I'm afraid, the suspicion is not small."

It is better to have doubts in your own heart than to be frightened by others. Lieutenant Qi looked in the direction of the temple, and hoped that Zhu Banxian's "calculation" of "not counting" would be accurate.

In addition to the peach forest, this temple in this city is always full of people and incense.Yan Qitong never thought that he would step here again.The experience of last year is so unreal when I think about it now. After all, she still feels unreal all the time. Maybe it's because she hasn't recognized Sangzi so far.

After Sangzi entered the temple, she bluntly said that she wanted to find the abbot, but Rui'er dared not neglect, she asked the monks in the temple, explained her identity, and was led to the abbot's wing.

Of course Yan Qitong knew that there was such an abbot who was familiar with Sangzi, so he followed him in, only to see that the abbot had a dignified appearance, under a pair of gray and white long eyebrows, his eyes were bright and introverted and seemed to encompass everything.

When the abbot saw Sangzi coming in, he was slightly taken aback, then recited the Buddha's name, and said, "Benefactor, it is really you."

Sangzi clasped his hands together and smiled slightly: "Since the year before last, I don't think I will meet the master so soon."

"Sometimes it's good to meet, sometimes it's not." Seeing her blindfolded eyes, the abbot couldn't help feeling compassionate. "I'd rather the almsgiver roam freely in another place."

"I'm not at ease, I can't feel at ease anywhere." Sang Zi slowly knelt down on the futon opposite the abbot, and said softly, "I've come here this time, I just have a confusion in my heart, and I hope Master will enlighten me."

"Sir, please speak."

Sangzi didn't speak for a while, she kept quiet, as if she was listening to the bells in the temple.

Yan Qitong couldn't stand the wait, so she couldn't help but took two steps forward, and knelt gently behind Sangzi's side. Seeing the abbot looking at her, she hurriedly made a gesture of sealing her mouth, and bowed a few more times.

While praying, Yan Qitong heard Sang Zi's voice, she asked: "Which is more important, the past or the future?"

"The past is the seed and the cause, and the future is the flower and the fruit. Without the past, there is no future. Every past was once the future, and every future will become the past," the abbot said leisurely, "Which one is more important? ?”

Sangzi hangs her neck and thinks deeply, but Yan Qitong behind her doesn't care to listen to the tongue-twisting words, just looks at the thin neck that seems to be unable to hold anything, and is stunned.

The abbot couldn't help but glanced at Yan Qitong, thinking that the desire/desire in this person's eyes was not concealed here, he turned his head and looked at Sangzi again, under the forbearance on his face, why wasn't hope being bred, think about it , he asked lightly: "What else does the benefactor want to ask?"

"Blind people, do they have a future?" Sangzi raised his head slowly and asked word by word.

"Could it be that if you are blind and can't see, this world doesn't exist?" The abbot shook his head, "The past and the future are all by your side."

These words suddenly woke up Yan Qitong who was in a daze, she blinked a few times, suddenly felt that the abbot's words had a lot of meaning, she was surprised for a moment.

Sangzi was stunned for a while, and said shyly, "The past refuses to appear in the future, why?"

The abbot asked back: "You may not have thought about why?"

"I'm afraid," Sangzi said slowly, "I'm afraid it means that the past means that it's better to forget and let it go." After finishing speaking, she lowered her head deeply again, even her back curled up .

"If you don't show up, it's not necessarily because you don't want to, but it's because the time hasn't come." The abbot persuaded, "If you are afraid, if you don't dare, you can't face it. If you ask if the future is here, maybe the future will tell you the answer .”

Sang Zi stayed there for a long time, then kowtowed deeply to the abbot, and helped Rui Er to stand up: "Thank you for your words, master." After saying that, he left the wing room.

When Yan Qitong was waiting for Sangzi to pass by, her skirt brushed against the futon under his knees, Yan Qitong's fingers moved slightly, almost wanting to hold her, but in the end he just turned his head and watched the figure disappear outside the door.Yan Qitong turned around and kowtowed deeply to the abbot, but the abbot just closed his eyes, recited the Buddha's name, and twisted the beads in his hand.

After going out, Yan Qitong saw Sang Zi from a distance entering the hall where she was taken away.Rui'er was looking back and staring at her, and when she saw her come out, she hurriedly waved her hand.

Sangzi turned her head and asked her, "What's wrong?"

Ruier hurriedly said, "It's nothing."

Sangzi stopped talking and stopped at the entrance of the main hall. Under Ruier's guidance, Fang raised his right leg and stepped over the high threshold.

Yan Qitong followed behind and stumbled towards Ruier's beckoning direction.

After Yan Qitong entered the main hall, he found that in the past and the future, as if going back to the past, the main hall was still full of people.She searched for a long time, and found Sangzi who was already kneeling on the futon in the middle.Seeing this, she rushed forward, just as the people around Sangzi got up and left, she rushed to kneel down.Then, he took a few long breaths.

There were so many people in the hall, thinking that he could disappear in the crowd, Yan Qitong relaxed a little, and turned to look at Sangzi.

Sangzi doesn't offer incense, and doesn't prostrate, but just sits like that.

Yan Qitong sat with her like this, the hall was not quiet, but her heart was very peaceful at this moment, she felt that Sangzi was the same.

The people around her changed again and again, but she was the only one sitting there.

After a long time, Yan Qitong heard Sangzi speak, and she asked in a low voice, "Are you there?"

Among thousands of people, Yan Qitong heard the phrase "Are you there?" The past was asking about the future, and Sangzi was asking who.Yan Qitong suddenly covered her face, tears dripped from between her fingers, she choked up and said, "I'm here."

Among thousands of people, Sangzi heard the answer, I am here.

(Finish)

The author has something to say: After writing this, I suddenly felt that it was very suitable for the conclusion, so I ended decisively.Of course, you can assume that the word "End" does not exist, because it is not over yet, and the following content is nominally placed in the episode, please continue to see you at [-] pm. Before the real conclusion, I must not give you any sugar.

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After enjoying the ten-mile peach grove, Zhu Banxian and his party returned to their hometown.

When he entered the hall, he saw Sangzi and Yan Qitong sitting in two chairs, holding hands together.

Lieutenant Qi was shocked, Qiu Ying was overjoyed, and Zhu Banxian was greatly comforted.

Yan Qitong's eyes were red, obviously he had cried a lot, when he saw them coming in, he said weakly, "Where are you going?" At this important moment, no one was there.

When she was in the main hall of the temple, she immediately woke up after saying those two words.Looking over, Sangzi was still standing there, neither turning in her direction nor asking anything.But she knew that Sangzi knew that she was by her side, and she even suspected that what the abbot said just now told her Sangzi, as if there was a secret signal.

Seeing that Sangzi didn't respond, Yan Qitong panicked instead, she hurriedly moved the futon to Sangzi's side, and whispered: "Sangzi, talk to me, don't scare me." She still remembered what Zhuer said, Sangzi couldn't bear it. Stimulation, just now is it considered stimulation? Although she felt that she was more stimulated.She stretched out her hand to support Sangzi's arm, fearing that if she fell down without a sound, she would regret it to death.

"Why did I scare you." Sang Zi finally spoke, his voice was as soft as entering a secret cave, empty, "Obviously...you were the one who scared me."

"I know, that's why I dare not recognize you for so long," Yan Qitong said anxiously, seeing Sangzi's body swaying, he panicked even more, "Don't faint, please don't faint."

"How could I faint?" Sangzi turned his face sideways, as if he could see Yan Qitong, and watched for a long time.She raised her hand slowly and grabbed Yan Qitong's hand, it was actually colder than her own, it was obvious that she was really scared, "Since you are here, why am I willing to faint?"

Yan Qitong didn't care about the blush on his face, and only repeated confirmation repeatedly: "Are you sure, I heard that you can't stand stimulation, I really... dare not take this risk."

Sangzi let go of her hand again, and gradually touched Yan Qitong's face, but when her fingers covered her face, she was stunned, put it down, and climbed up again: "Last year...you came here? Is that you who coughed?"

"Well," Yan Qitong replied, "I just had a serious illness at that time."

"I didn't recognize you." Sangzi said melancholy, lowered her hands, and turned to face the front.There is a Buddha there.

Yan Qitong felt that he couldn't explain the whole reason in one sentence, but Sangzi's reaction so far was calm, so calm that she felt—somewhat abnormal.

Sangzi just ignored her, and she asked blankly: "What are you thinking?" She felt a little sad in her heart.Sangzi cut her wrists and bled because she was blind, no matter who said it, he obviously had a great influence on her.But at this moment, she was a little unconfident.Is such a peaceful Sangzi still the Sangzi with the fire in his heart, or the fire has been burned out, and there is only a layer of ashes left on it.

There is no agreement, no bondage, and everything that should be between lovers. Is such a relationship true?

It was only after blowing out the ashes that his true face began to show. Facing the image of the Buddha for a long time, Sang Zi finally opened his lips and said softly, "I am thanking the Buddha, you are still by my side."

Yan Qitong burst into tears instantly, she thought, she would never catch up with Sangzi's love for her.

After coming out of the temple, Rui'er was still in the fog.When she entered the main hall, Dr. Sangzi sent her to burn a pair of incense sticks in front of the hall. When she came back after burning, she saw Yan Qitong and Dr. Sangzi kowtowing to the Buddha in the hall.With that uniform rhythm, she never believed that Yan Qitong was just a shadow.

Sure enough, after the two got up, Yan Qitong reached out to support Dr. Sangzi.

Rui'er stepped forward and said to Sangzi: "Miss..." She didn't know what to say for a moment.

"Forget it, I know you are worried about me." Sang Zi said, "Go back."

After Zhu Banxian and the others came back, they naturally had doubts, but Qiu Ying couldn't help but asked, "Doctor Sangzi, how did you find out?"

Sang Zi thought for a while: "Feeling... At first, it was just a feeling. Later," she reached out and touched the bow tie on the back of her head, showing a dreamy expression, "Among the people I know, she is the only one. , will tie such a knot."

Yan Qitong stretched his neck to look, and bit his lower lip involuntarily.That's right, she is used to tying this kind of bow tie, and she is very familiar with it, except for Sangzi, who has been with her day and night, of course she is no one else, he thought.Unexpectedly, it was this that became a flaw.

"Because of this, I suddenly figured out a lot of things." Sang Zi sighed.

She finally figured out why this feeling appeared at the same time with Lieutenant Qi and the three of them, and why they went to Daxue Mountain to find the Flaming Grass - she already knew from Yan Qitong that although she hadn't left, she had been going all the way. The reason is not by my side anymore.

She even figured out one thing, that is, after that midnight that year, she woke up after being in a coma for four full days. After waking up, her eyes suddenly went blind again, and after she was able to see, she never saw Yan Qitong again. ——Or, to see the body that has left the soul.

At that time, she was blind for a short time. In order not to worry them, she didn't say it. After waking up, she just stayed in bed and rested.At that time, she didn't want to think about anything, her eyes couldn't see, so she just let the darkness cover her. Anyway, she also felt that there was nothing worse in her life.

Later, it was Su Ming who took the initiative to mention that Yan Qitong's body was taken back to Hongguo by Chen Dayong's ice coffin with amulets on it. This matter must always be explained to the Yan family.

But, she didn't care anymore.After a few months of recuperation in Yundiaopan, she went down the mountain. Until now, until the moment when her hand touched the bowknot, she had never thought about this issue.

Now, unexpectedly got the answer.It turned out that it was because Yan Qitong didn't leave.

This thought suddenly moved Sangzi's heart, she stretched out her hand and pulled off the cloth strip covering her face, trying so hard to take a look at the person in front of her.

She stayed up all night last night because she was holding on to the hope of this possibility, but when she heard those two words from Yan Qitong, her mind went blank.

Seeing this, Yan Qitong patted her hand comfortingly: "Don't worry, don't worry, we will use the burning grass to cure your cold disease, and see if the eye disease will also be cured."

This cold disease is beyond the scope of his understanding, and Sangzi doesn't know if the eye disease will change accordingly. I knew that Yan Qitong hadn't gone back. When she was blinded, she would take some measures to prevent it from getting worse, but ——Sang Zi suddenly felt relieved.There is no need to talk about the things I knew earlier, Yan Qitong is still by her side, even if I can't see her, I can feel her, that's all.That's fine.After thinking about it, she loosened the bow tie between her fingers, and tied it on her eyes again: "I really haven't had an illness for a long time, don't you think I've gained weight." She twisted her body , tried hard to show his good side, and smiled.

Yan Qitong said everything, but before he told Sangzi that he had used the transfer talisman, he pulled the corner of his mouth and smiled, "Since I got it back, you should try to use it."

Sangzi sat down again and nodded: "Since you want it, then so be it." After finishing speaking, she stood up on the chair and whispered to her, "Come back to the room with me."

Yan Qitong's heart trembled, and he walked back to the room while supporting Sang Zi in full view.

The rest of the people folded their arms and watched from behind. After the door was closed, Lieutenant Qi wondered: "Is there any whisper that we can't say in front of our faces?"

Qiu Ying pushed him and said angrily, "Idiot."

The copper bell jingled, and stopped abruptly as soon as the door was closed.

The light in the room was dim, and there were only two people left in the whole world.

When I was in the temple, there were people coming and going in the hall, and there were several eyes outside this door, but here, finally, it was like a closed clam shell, with a sense of safety and stability.

Sangzi finally reached out his hand to Yan Qitong.Instead of asking Yan Qitong to help her, but raising his hands to form a half circle, Yan Qitong's eyes were sore, he stepped forward, entered the semicircle and rubbed Sangzi into his arms.

Sangzi instantly softened her waist, only to be hugged tightly, as if returning to the flower house in Fengcheng, how much she was reluctant to part with, how much she never said.Tears gradually flowed out, wet the cloth strips of the blindfold, although it was cold, but the heart was as warm as ever.

Yan Qitong kissed Sangzi's earlobe, then kissed her temples, kissed her forehead, rolled over the wet cloth, and then moved to her lips.Ever since she came back to see Sangzi, she had been wanting to do this all the time. Her breaths got close and blended together, and the two souls who had been alone for a long time finally joined together.

"I only have you." Yan Qitong murmured, refusing to leave her lips, the indistinct utterance seemed to be covered with honey, so sticky that they couldn't be separated.

Sangzi raised her hand to hold Yan Qitong's face. She groped and hugged the man's waist again.Even if she said she was there, even if she held her hand, even if everyone said so, Sangzi knew, but in his heart he still thought it was a dream.She couldn't believe that this person really didn't go back, but stayed for herself.

But now, this is really not a dream.The Yan Qitong in the dream would not say such things, would not be so intimate with her, but like that big fire merchant star, hanging in the sky after she fell forever, so that she would never be able to see it.

She is really full of joy in this kind of touch now, to prove that you are here, to prove that I am still alive.

Sang Zi was chased by her for a long time, and finally panted and leaned her head on Yan Qitong's shoulder, she also murmured: "Do you know, I didn't dare to keep you back then, I wanted to keep you so much, but this kind of selfish But I dare not move my thoughts. I am not afraid that you will leave, but I expect you to stay, I am afraid that because of me you will sway even more, heart-piercing, how painful it is."

Yan Qitong gently stroked Sangzi's trembling back, the struggle at that time was still vivid in her memory, she closed her eyes, and told herself that she couldn't regret the choice she had made.

Sangzi felt Yan Qitong's heartbeat suddenly quickened a few times, and then gradually stabilized, she slowly opened the distance between each other, and asked softly: "Will you regret it? One day, you will become unhappy?"

"After all, this is not my home." At this moment, Yan Qitong didn't choose to avoid this topic, she had avoided it for long enough, that's why both of them suffered. "Maybe I will be unhappy occasionally, but because of you, I will be happier." After Yan Qitong said, he bowed his head and kissed her again.

Sang Zi pursed her lips, and then asked slowly: "Then...do you still want to go back?"

How could Yan Qitong not know that she was worrying about gains and losses, so he said leisurely: "Maybe, but if you treat me better, I don't have time to think about it."

After a long silence, Sangzi's hands hugged Yan Qitong's waist again, and she said softly, "I will treat you better."

In an instant, time returned to the cliff in the medicine garden, which was their starting point.The former Sangzi also said that, the stars have changed, but the meaning in those words has completely changed.But Yan Qitong thought, just right, she doesn't need any vows to go up the mountain of swords and down into the sea of ​​fire, as long as this is enough.

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Sangzi finally began to treat her cold disease.

Yun Diaopan's carrier pigeon finally arrived, and there was a letter written by Su Ming in it, as well as a prescription from Fengcheng.It's a prescription, but it's better to say that she used the method of refining poison to extract the essence of the burning grass. It is said that it is a great tonic, far better than the common antler and ginseng.However, Fengcheng suggested that it should be taken for a long time and not overdose.Naturally, Sangzi was more proficient than her in terms of medicinal materials, but she was blind and inconvenient, so she went to Homing Pigeon to recruit the couple from the medicine garden down the mountain to make medicines with her.

However, Su Ming's handwritten letter made Yan Qitong sit in a daze for a long time after reading it.

Sang Zi sniffed the few drops of the Flame Grass liquid refined by Fengcheng, carefully distinguishing the smell, while thinking about how to prescribe the medicine.She knew that Su Ming had brought a letter to Yan Qitong, but she only heard the sound of her flipping the letter, but could not hear anything else, so she put down the jade bottle in her hand and turned her head.

"what happened?"

Yan Qitong was startled, hesitated for a moment, and didn't hide it from Sangzi: "Suming asked me if I should entrust my dream."

Suming's suggestion at the beginning, because she witnessed Sangzi losing blood and fainting at that time, she never thought of it in her heart.Now everything is calm, but this is the only knot in her heart, and she has never shown her face in the bottom of her heart.

After hearing this, Sangzi stretched out his hand to touch Yan Qitong's arm, and slowly moved it down to cover the back of her hand.The first time she let her go, she was willing, but after more than a year, she knew that if history repeated itself, she would never give up like that.In this world, there is no medicine to regret, but God was merciful and did not send this person away. If the word "if" became true, she would really not let Yan Qitong go.

That being the case, Yan Qitong is considered to have left her parents forever.She doesn't know her biological parents, if she can feel Yan Qitong's struggle, she will feel even more uncomfortable.Sangzi didn't want to say anything to comfort her, she felt that she had no position at the moment, after all, she was the one who held her back.

Yan Qitong sighed.At that time, the two were sitting in the courtyard.The room is a bit damp, but the courtyard is refreshing.Looking up at the blue sky, she couldn't help feeling confused.

"If my parents know that I'm still living well under the blue sky and white clouds, it should... be a comfort." Yan Qitong lowered his head and gently rubbed Su Ming's letter.In the letter, Su Ming told her that she had done many experiments, and that she had to choose the right time, to correspond to a certain celestial phenomenon, in short, the right time, place and people were needed, so that this dream that crossed space could be successful.

Sangzi leaned her head on Yan Xitong's shoulder lightly, and finally couldn't help but whispered: "Did you know that silkworms have been eating mulberry leaves all their lives, which is called cannibalism and whale swallowing. I think I also have a silkworm in my heart." , One mouth is also a bottomless pit, I will keep wanting to eat, and never want to stop. The best way to stop me is not to let me open my mouth, don’t let me eat.”

Yan Qitong couldn't bear to hear her talk so pitifully and wagging her tail, so she cheered up and smiled, stretched out her hand to pinch Sangzi's chin, and kissed her lips again and again: "To be honest, you are actually transformed from a silkworm demon." Right. I’ve already started feeding, and I can’t stop, so don’t forget to wrap me in when you finally cocoon yourself, it’s good to live in a coffin.”

"Bah, bah, bah!" Rui'er brought out a basin of water, poured it into the distance, and glared at Yan Qitong, "What about the coffin, Ms. Yan can't have some good things in her mouth."

It's obviously just a love story, but Rui'er was too young to understand, so her akimbo glaring look was serious.Yan Qitong was a little embarrassed, but Sangzi smiled openly and happily.Being disturbed by Ruier, Yan Qitong's heart was not so heavy anymore, she made up her mind and said: "I will write a letter to Suming at night, and ask her to help me entrust my dream back." Now that I have decided to stay, I can't Think about it too much.Hesitation hurts people, she has already hurt Sangzi once and failed her once.

After nightfall, Sang Zi insisted on grinding ink for Yan Qitong himself, scrapped one sheet after another, and rewrote it again and again, Yan Qitong wrote down the words he wanted to say to his parents in another world one by one on the paper. I just want to burn it to that woman named Jinyuan, and maybe it will be passed on.

After picking up the pen, the golden sand hourglass was turned upside down many times. From the time when the sun set to the west mountain, and until the dusk was deep, Sang Zi didn’t say a word, but kept adding water and rubbing the ink. In the end, his ten fingers were stained black and his clothes were splashed. Standing numb and almost staggering, he didn't care.

The person who is more selfish than Yan Qitong is himself, and Sangzi even thinks that his blindness is in exchange for Yan Qitong staying, and that is worth it.She can't see, she can only hear with her ears.She heard Yan Qitong's breathing slow and sometimes fast, she heard her put down her pen, sometimes she sat down for a long time, and sometimes she wrote vigorously, she didn't know what Yan Qitong wrote on the paper, and she didn't intend to let Yan Qitong read it to her.What this world means to Yan Qitong, she knows very well in her heart that what she can keep is herself, but she may not stay on those papers.It's one thing to report peace, but if you say you have a relationship with a woman of the same sex, even if the letter goes there, it will disturb her parents.

Even here, the relationship between them is not a relationship that can be announced to the world. A bold banquet like Yin Gu's can only be done in the name of Mid-Autumn Festival, and there are few people who can really understand it.

But those are not important, since Yan Qitong stayed behind, what's the importance of those minor details? Back then, I was laughing at homosexuality, but now, as long as everyone gets what they want, what kind of feelings are important? Whoever understands or doesn't understand, there is no need to force it.

Yan Qitong finally stopped writing. She cleared and folded the papers one by one, and then leaned back in the seat wearily.

I don't know where to start, Yan Qitong is afraid that this kind of Arabian Nights story will enter the dreams of his parents, and he just treats it as a dream that he thinks about every day.

After finishing writing, her heart was naturally still heavy, she raised her head slightly, and saw Sangzi standing at the corner of the table, holding the ink in her hands, listening to her movements with breathless breath.Yan Qitong's eyes were sour, and he quickly got up to remove the ink from her hand. Seeing that her fingers were all black, she couldn't help but feel distressed: "After grinding for so long, are you tired?"

Sang Zi smiled slightly: "Not tired."

Not tired, but didn't dare to move, Yan Qitong turned to her and helped her to the seat, but seeing her stumbling, he knew in her heart that she had been standing for a long time.After Sangzi sat down, Yan Qitong squatted in front of her, lifted one of her feet and placed it on his lap, took off her cloth boots, rubbed her ankle gently, and complained, "I don't know how to find a chair to sit down on." What?" She was indeed concentrating on preparing the letter just now, and didn't pay so much attention.

"Don't worry about me," Sangzi just retracted her feet, "I'm not as weak as you think."

"Yes, but not as strong as I thought." Yan Qitong insisted on loosening her feet before moving forward, holding her knees with both hands, "Also, I'm not as weak as you think."

"Your last sentence, I will return it to you." Sang Zi smiled, wanting to touch Yan Qitong's head, but her hands must be dirty, so she could only fold them in front of her body.

"I have only dreamed about my mother once since I came here," Yan Qitong said suddenly, because she was constantly recovering her memories at that time, "I don't know if they have dreamed about me before. Well, I dream about me every day."

"But there must be no such dream." Sangzi said softly, "Because it is real, you are living for real."

"I hope so," Yan Qitong closed his eyes and murmured, "It would be great if they were willing to enter my dream."

It was night, Yan Qitong and Sangzi shared the same bed.

It should be said that they have been living together in the night since Yan Qitong answered Sangzi "she is".

Yan Qitong carefully washed off the ink on Sang Zi's hands, and changed her clothes.In the damp house, Yan Qitong found quicklime and put it in a jar to absorb moisture and dehumidify.With a body like Sangzi's body, the cold air in her body is heavy, and this kind of weather is not good for her joints.Sangzi didn't pay much attention to it before, Zhuer Ruier and the others didn't notice either.