The taste of love is bitter

Back in the dormitory, Ruan Yuchen hadn't come back yet, I lay down on the bed, huddled myself into a ball, covered by the quilt, my heart was in a mess, I knew I broke the heart of the senior, but why didn't I feel sad?I took out the box he gave me. The wrapping paper was beautiful, and I opened it carefully. Inside was a notebook, the kind with a lock. The password was written on a small note. When I opened it according to the password, a handsome page appeared inside. handwriting.

"Wu Qiong:

Today is Christmas, I originally planned to give you a big bear, but when I thought that you are a boy, giving that thing would be too delicate and not suitable for you, so I chose a notebook, which is more practical.Actually, I have something to say to you all the time, but I am afraid of hurting your heart, because I know that I am too selfish, but if I don't say it, is it cruel to you?I don't have the courage to say it in person, so I can only tell you in this way and ask for your forgiveness.

Remember the day we met?In fact, I saw you a long time ago, and then I bought a watermelon to find you, forgive me, everything was arranged by me, it was not a coincidence.When I first saw you, I almost went crazy!Because you look so much like my girlfriend!It's just that your facial features are a little tougher than hers.But I still couldn't help thinking of her. For a moment, I thought she was back.

Her name is Zu Xiaoyu. We grew up together. We can be said to be childhood sweethearts. We played and made trouble together. Later, when we grew up, we went to school and went home together.She likes to laugh very much, she looks good when she smiles, I said I like to see her smile, and she said, I want to show her a smile first, and then she will show me a smile. Later, I developed a habit, as long as I am with her , always keep smiling, in fact, I just want to see her smile.

She has a very good personality and always cares about others, even those who hurt her. You are really similar to her, you have a similar smile, and your personality is also very similar. She was always bullied when she was a child. In order to protect her, I went to I learned taekwondo and trained myself to be strong, because in this way I can protect her.Later, when we both grew up and went to middle school, we officially established a romantic relationship. At that time, we were in love for the first time. We stuck together every day, and we were reluctant to part for a minute. The adults in the family also acquiesced in this relationship. I have ordered a doll.

Later, she fell ill, her mother took her to many hospitals, she took a lot of medicine, pain and chemotherapy tormented her, her hair fell out, and she was skinny and skinny, seeing her so uncomfortable every day, But I can't do anything, I hate myself, but no matter how painful she is, she still smiles at me, she said, if I don't smile now, I won't see her smile in the future, she wants me to remember her smile in my heart , if one day she leaves, her smiling face will stay with me.Every time she says that, it just rubs salt in my wounds, I tell her she'll be fine, she says she knows, she says she's going to marry me as a bride, she's going to wear a beautiful white wedding dress, she Said that she would give me many children, and she would watch them grow up, and then she would wait with me for all her teeth to fall out and her hair to turn gray.I said yes, I will.

But she didn't care what she said, and she left in the end, on the day I received the high school admission letter.Before she asked me to enter this high school for her, she said she would get better if I passed the exam, she said let me wait for her here, so I studied hard, I passed the exam, but she left, she In the end, nothing was left to me, only a photo and a cold urn.

After she left, I locked myself in the house. I tried to accompany her, but I was rescued. Her mother said that she told her before she left that I must get into a good university and find a good girl. She will bless me in heaven, she doesn't want to see me sad, she doesn't want me to do stupid things.She wants me to experience high school life and college life for her, and then to work, to see the future for her, to do for her what she wants to do, and to live well for her.

I agreed, and since then I don’t want to smile anymore. People say I have an iceberg face and a cold personality. I know it all, but the person who can make me smile is gone. She left, leaving her smiling face behind. But it took away my smiling face and my heart.I began to study hard, and I wrote a letter to her every day in the form of a diary, telling her interesting things that happened, and I knew she would see it in heaven.

until you show up, you know?The first time I saw you on the playground, I was so excited that I almost ran over to hug you, but reason overcame action. I knew it wasn't her, you were a boy, so obvious, wasn't it?Hehe, so I started to plan to get close to you, I thought, if I could see you every day, it would be a comfort to myself, I am very selfish, right?

When I saw that you didn't participate in the training, and saw you looking down, I couldn't help but feel a little distressed. At that time, I just wanted to comfort you, so I bought watermelon to eat with you.When I saw you smiling, it was like seeing her come back, and I couldn’t help reaching out to rub your head. She likes me pampering her head the most, but the moment you dodged, I suddenly woke up Come here, you are not her, I feel a little lost.

Later, I often went to see you, in fact, I just wanted to see you, and I also reminded myself not to go on like this, but I still couldn't help but want to see you, I would get inexplicably angry when I saw you with Xu Jingjing, isn't it ridiculous?I went to you on her birthday just to make up for her birthday, but then I drank too much without knowing it.In fact, I became a little sober after vomiting, and then I couldn't help kissing you. I also knew it, but I couldn't control myself. Why don't I let myself go by drunkenness. That day was her birthday, and it was also the first time I kissed her. anniversary.

Later, I didn't dare to go to you again, I was afraid you would hate me, but when Christmas came, I still decided to go to you, I tell you this, I hope you can forgive me, Wu Qiong, I really didn't mean to lie You, I really love you too much.I'm sorry, forgive my selfishness, if you don't forgive me, I won't appear in front of you in the future, if possible, I hope you can be my younger brother, even if it's an ordinary friend, as long as you agree to stay by my side, I can do whatever you want, I will wait for your answer. "