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Ning Xi dislikes the hospital very much, except for the annual physical examination, she hardly ever goes to the hospital.

There is nothing major in the physical examination every year, but it was my turn to have an accident this year. The B-ultrasound showed nodules over 2cm, and the boundaries were not clear.

The doctor asked if there was any family history of genetic disease.

Ning Xi remembered that her mother once said that she had a cousin or a cousin who had breast and adenocarcinoma.

The doctor added an extra mammography examination, saying don't panic first, a specific examination is needed.

At this moment, she was sitting blankly in a chair in the corridor of the department, with the inspection report in her bag, and a little bit of cold sweat in her palms.

BI-RADS4A, the possibility of malignancy is 2%-10%. Considering that she also has a certain probability of family genetic disease history, the doctor would mind doing a biopsy before making a judgment.

"A very small operation can be done in the outpatient clinic today. It doesn't need to be hospitalized. It will take more than half an hour. You go and pay the fee first, and I will arrange a time for you later..."

The doctor's tone was calm and gentle.

People come and go.Everything around her seems to be moving, the time on her mobile phone and watch is flowing little by little, Ning Xi feels that cement is spreading from the bottom of her feet, and it is turbulent, sealing her upper body, neck, and rushing towards her nose and mouth...

She blinked, and mechanically slumped up. After a while, she took out her mobile phone from her bag and opened WeChat.

Her long eyelashes barely moved as a series of names flashed across the field of vision: mother, cousin, friend, and...

Finally her eyes fell on a name.

She clicked on the dialog box.

The latest information is three days ago.

She said: "Okay, I will disappear for a few days, and I will come back when your anger subsides."

It is now March 3th, and the last message was in February, not long after the new year.

Her fingers slid down, no, not just one, but several long voices.

She: "Are you finished? How long are you going to lose your temper? Every time I put my hot face on your cold ass! Ning Xi! We've been here for so many years and you haven't changed a bit, so I'll be tired too, okay?"

She: "If you have any questions, just tell me? Didn't I just go out for a drink or two with someone? That's because you hide at home all day writing your things, and you always don't accompany me! I say you old problem How many times have you passed it, why can't you change it?"

She: "I'm really mad at you. It was like after we got back together, we both said we should cherish it. I also know that I didn't do well before, but you..."

Ning Xi did not return.

Like so many times before, whenever Zhang Nisi accused her, she was silent.

As long as she keeps silent, this kind of endless accusation, this kind of emotional discourse will stop, because once Zhang Nisi's temper comes up, she often can't stop, can't listen to anything, just vents blindly, waiting for her Just let it out.

After venting, she will say:

"Forget it, it's my bad attitude, I'll calm down first, don't be angry."

Over and over again.

Since when did the two start to communicate in such a heart-consuming way?

Ning Xi closed her eyes, sighed silently, and put away her phone.

Ning Xi couldn't figure out what mood she should be in right now. This corridor seemed white and endless. Her consciousness was suspended, and she walked to the toll office to pay the fee, and then walked away in a daze. come out.

She needs a little fresh air.

She walked towards a quiet place by instinct.

As soon as I went out, my field of vision was full of mist, and when I went out again, a few wisps of wind mixed with the breath of rain blew over.

She took a deep breath.

Why is this happening?

We all know that this year is her third birth year, but she hasn't celebrated her birthday yet,

Years ago she couldn't write anything.

She hasn't published a new book for two years. The last one was three years ago. At that time, she just finished writing the last book of suspense series. She wanted to try a book with non-suspense themes, and then she wrote a book about grandparents and grandchildren. As for the family-oriented novel, her new attempt cannot be said to be a failure, because it is her work, so the book still sells very well, because most of the responses from her are positive, and her attempt is affirmed, but compared to The previous series has received rave reviews, and this book has indeed received a lot less.

Ning Xi remembered that she was very nervous after the listing, and it took a while before she dared to look at Douban's ratings—it was a little lower than she imagined.

After a while, she read some comments, from the industry, related industry personnel, and ordinary readers. She accepted them better than she imagined.

At this time, Zhang Nisi came back, and she wanted to get back together.

They had been separated for more than two years at that time.

She said: "Ning Xi, in fact, I never got married after I got engaged. I held on and didn't listen to my parents."

"I persisted because of you, but I couldn't bear the shame to come to you. We ended up ugly last time..."

It's pretty ugly.

They quarreled violently.

Zhang Nisi couldn't resist the pressure from her family. Her father told her that if she didn't marry, her name would not be on the inheritance, and she would even lose her trust fund.

Zhang Nisi's father is a well-known wealthy businessman in West City. He has been married three times and has six children. Each child's share is enough for them to live a prosperous life without requiring them to work.

Zhang Nisi was reluctant to part with such a large sum of money. She originally wanted to get married in a fake way. She even planned everything until she got the inheritance. She even planned everything. She wanted to find a gay and marry in person, so she didn't have to live together, and she would show her father in front of her father during the holidays. Just show your face, it won't affect the two of them.

But Ning Xi disagreed, her attitude was very firm, she didn't like this sneaky way.

They met when they were 16, and fell in love when they were 20. They have been together for ten years, and it was Ning Xi who tolerated her. That was the first time Ning Xi broke up with her.

Zhang Nisi was so angry that she went abroad, and she went there for more than two years.

When she appeared in front of Ning Xi again, they felt as if they were separated from each other.

She promised Zhang Nisi to get back together with her.

In the next two years, there were not many quiet days, but endless quarrels, repeating everything in the private message.

Ning Xi was exhausted physically and mentally, and became more and more silent.

I don't know when it started, her whole body seemed to be stuck, and she couldn't write a single word.

Gradually, she wanted to be alone more, thinking about nothing, all her thoughts were like solidified cement, sealing her inch by inch, sealing her stiffly, she couldn't breathe at all.

Even now, it never occurred to her to inform Zhang Nisi.

Not only did he not want to, but he never even thought about talking to her.

If your partner does this, there is no need to continue, right?

Ning Xi's eyes gradually lost focus, as if her vision was covered by the cold spring rain and fog outside, she slightly closed her eyelids.

Tired, really don't want to continue.

When she reacted, that line of words had already appeared in the WeChat dialog box——

let's break up.

She thought she would hesitate, but who knew that the send button slipped out easily.

The memories of the past ten years tended to surge up in an instant, but they quickly faded away.

The memories were too heavy, and her body couldn't carry them anymore.

She let out a breath slowly, thinking about herself first.

In case it is really vicious...

Rationally, Ning Xi felt that she should notify someone, in case something happened.

But that private message seemed to have exhausted all her energy, and she couldn't move anymore.

The light rain became heavier and heavier, pattering, and soon water accumulated on the steps, soaking her trousers.

The sky was getting darker and lower, and it was getting closer and closer.

The raindrops fell and landed in small puddles on the road, causing thin ripples.

Ning Xi stared and watched silently, her glasses gradually became blurred, she was fascinated and lost her soul.

There should be a notification to her to go for the minor surgery of the biopsy. Only after doing it can I know if it is malignant...

2-10% chance of...

Procrastination is not the answer, she has to move and walk over to know the result.

But what if it is really vicious?

The rain was dripping, and the trees in the distance looked more green, shrouded in misty water vapor,

Do you still have to admit that you are afraid?

Ning Xi was stunned, and after an unknown period of time, she took off her glasses, and at the end of her eyes, she saw a shadow nearby, standing quietly beside her at some point.

The long, straight black hair was pinned behind one ear, revealing a golden Chanel ear clip in the shape of a wheat ear, with a small double C shape inlaid with diamonds hanging underneath.

Ning Xi will notice it because she has the same wheat ear brooch.

I didn't see the front face, but the side face was clean and elegant, the clothes were simple and elegant, the figure was thin, and the eyes were fixed in one place.

Ning Xi looked down and saw that the other party was holding the phone very hard, and the back of the slender hand was slightly stretched with blue veins.

Have you encountered any difficulties?

She quickly looked back, who hasn't had a sad thing in life?What's more, I can't protect myself.

Ning Xi lost her mind again, she knew that a long moment passed by the sound of rain, she knew that she should go back to the clinic, but she couldn't move her feet.

There are many, many consequences flashing through my mind. The worst outcome is nothing more than malignant, needing to be cut off, or chemotherapy, hair loss, bald head...

These are all laymen can think of. I don't know if it is accurate or not, but it should be similar, right?

Ning Xi thought, if you first predict the worst outcome and build up your mental preparations, will it be easier to accept it later?

Just thinking of the worst outcome, her heart still trembled, and her palms trembled slightly.

After an unknown amount of time, a gust of cool wind mixed with the chill of the spring rain came over, she was still standing there, the woman who was not far from her just now had left at some point, and she was the only one left.

Zhang Nisi always said that she was procrastinating, not doing things quickly, and that her sticky and slow temper was very annoying.

may be?

So when the two of them have problems, she always doesn't want to face them directly, and Zhang Nisi has an irritable personality, so she doesn't want to confront them head-on?So it's always cold?

Ning Xi suddenly let out a soft "chick".

In fact, they are still making excuses for themselves. This relationship has become like this. In fact, both of them are responsible.

Really separate this time, regardless of her biopsy results, it was the right decision.

We've already talked about breaking up, so there's nothing more difficult, right?

She would rather be a dream, but this is reality, a reality that must be faced.

Many unknown emotions were stuck in her heart, mixed with the wetness of the rain, making her eyes sore.

Ning Xi let out a breath slowly, dried the glasses on her clothes, put them on, and finally turned around and walked in.

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