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Zhang Nisi looked at her watch, Ning Xi had just finished making a call, and she should be here soon.She got up and looked in the mirror. In the mirror, her makeup was exquisite and complete. There was nothing wrong with her. The dress was also brand new.

Looking around, she gave a wry smile, and now Ning Xi doesn't care what she wears anymore, in her eyes, she is just a shrew who lingers on her.

shrew?

Looking at herself in the mirror, Zhang Nisi felt that she was still a little older.

She is 36 years old.

She and Ning Xi have known each other for 20 years.

There are so many people on earth who get along with one person and love each other for many years, they are lucky.

It may also be unfortunate, if she hadn't met Ning Xi, she wouldn't fall in love with a girl, she might marry a man arranged by her family, she might have already given birth to a child, she might have more than one child, and she might be married soon Emotional discord, divorced.

Human beings are like this, always dissatisfied with the status quo, full of curiosity and longing for the road not chosen.

Or she is such a person, a perfectionist, and wants the person she likes to love herself in the way she likes, or she feels that the other person doesn't love her.

After quarreling with Ning Xi countless times, she also wanted to lower her own standards, so that both of them would be better off, but she has a character that cannot be wronged, and Ning Xi has a character that is too dull and blunt , the more she chases her, the more Ning Xi evades, she will get angry and make a scene uncontrollably, thinking that she has accommodated her enough, why can't she try harder for herself?

Maybe they are really not suitable, she has been embarrassing Ning Xi for so many years.

It's not that she never thought about breaking up, but she was always reluctant. Many times, she ran far, far away, but she could never forget Ning Xi.

Every time she talks about breaking up, it is out of anger. In fact, she is very happy that they will get back together every time they separate.

Especially if they can get back together after two years of separation, then continue.

But I didn't expect that this time it was Ning Xi who said the breakup. Zhang Nisi had been waiting for her to come to find her. Although she thought she would not, she was still looking forward to it.

As a result, my WeChat account was blocked.

Ning Xi never came to look for her again.She felt panic and angry, she waited and waited, but Ning Xi didn't come, even if she found the door herself, she would stay behind closed doors.

Yesterday she said she was sick.

Zhang Nisi felt annoyed and regretted for a moment.

When Ning Xi was sick, not only was he not by her side, but he was still blaming her.

But wouldn't it be enough for her to let herself in at that time?

She laughed at herself, it was such a vicious circle again.

She raised her hand to wipe her face, which was full of tears.Had to get up and do some remedial measures.

It is indeed too sad for a partner to do this.

Zhang Nisi knows what Ning Xi came to talk to her, so there is no hope between them?Is it the only way to completely separate from this path?

She looked at her watch again, it has been a long time, why hasn't Ning Xi come up yet?

She was restless, expectant and apprehensive, sad and terrified.

After waiting for too long, she called again, it rang three times, and Ning Xi picked it up.

"Where are you?"

"...at the door." Ning Xi's tone was calm.

Zhang Nisi's heart sank, and she walked out of the living room, facing the long corridor of the entrance, staring at the door, she choked up: "Why don't you come in, forgot the password?"

Ning Xi didn't say if she had forgotten, but she was silent for a moment and said, "Come and open the door for me."

It took several seconds for Zhang Nisi to restrain her tumbling emotions, and her nose became sore.

It's too intimate to enter the door without forgetting the password, just press the password, and don't ring the doorbell, it seems too outlandish, right?

Ning Xi was really bored and irritating as always.

She stared at the door, as if she was going to stare through it, and the phone didn't hang up.

The two sides held their breath, tensed, and held each other.

Zhang Nisi sneered coldly: "You won't come in until I open the door? Didn't you say you want to talk to me?" She tried her best to control her tone, and clenched her fingers unconsciously.

"……sorry."

Zhang Nisi was taken aback, and bit her lips tightly.

sorry for what?She didn't want to hear this sorry.

"What are you apologizing for?" She gasped.

"...I shouldn't have said it on WeChat." Suddenly, the door opened and Ning Xi stood at the door, "We should talk face to face."

……

Daylight creeps into the living room, lengthening the time of the entire space.

The two sat facing each other, Zhang Nisi looked at Ning Xi, who hadn't seen her for a while, and felt that she looked a little strange.

The one who was silent and tangled on the phone was her, and the one who opened the door and walked in after she said a few words... was also her, more like the one they just fell in love with.

Ning Xi at that time would also express her emotions, her dissatisfaction.

They Nisi couldn't do it.

In a subtle guilty conscience, she raised her voice to be preemptive and blamed Ning Xi: "As long as the two of us are together, why do you need to tell your family, I won't go to your house with you of."

"...I know that your family's situation is special, and I don't want to announce it to the public, just let the family know."

"You make me look like a bad guy? Why do you still say that? Persecute me?"

"I don't mean that. It's okay if you don't tell your family for the time being."

"I'll never tell!"

……

After the quarrel, Zhang Nisi broke up with her and left, and deliberately went on a date with a boy to anger her. Later, when she returned to their rented house, she found Ning Xi's face was swollen from crying.

Seeing Zhang Nisi came back and said, "Idiot is trying to make you angry", instead of blaming her, she rushed over and hugged her tightly.

Zhang Nisi likes the feeling of being cared about by the person she likes very much, so she will subconsciously adopt this method for a long time in the future. She doesn't think it's cheating, maybe it's because one or two of them get along with each other, there will be a little bit of ruthlessness. There seems to be no ambiguity, but Ning Xi is the most important in her heart.

Ning Xi never cried again. She changed from being angry, sad, refuting, and accusing bit by bit to silent, indifferent, and indifferent.

In the quarrels again and again, the two drifted away, and when Zhang Nisi realized it, it was impossible to turn back.

The two sat withered in the living room, feeling desolate in their hearts, but no one spoke, only the sunlight was still bustling on its own, skipping between them and jumping to the paintings on the wall.

A landscape painting.

Dawn dawned in the countryside.

Everything between heaven and earth is shrouded in a faint blue mist, with a faint ray of sunlight.

Hazy, brisk, and full of vitality.

Ning Xi's gaze stayed on the painting for a long time, gradually moistening the eye sockets.

"Is this Zhong Silan's painting?"

"Yes."

Zhang Nisi was a little surprised, but Ning Xi spoke first, and followed her words: "You still remember that we went to the exhibition of the new generation of paintings that year. She was not famous at that time, and she was the only one in the exhibition. A painting."

She paused and said: "You liked it very much when you saw it. It's very similar to your 'Xi'. We wanted to buy it, but Zhong Silan didn't agree, saying that this painting was for her. It's important, she's not going to sell."

"Well, I remember." Ning Xi said softly.

"Some time ago, my gallery represented a few of her works, and I got to know her a little better, so I asked about that one——Has Dan Xiao been sold? She said not yet, she sold my favor, She sold it to me." Zhang Nisi said while observing her expression.

Ning Xi lowered her gaze, and her chest rose and fell slightly, which was touched.

"She is very famous now, so she must be expensive?"

"No, the price is very reasonable."

Having said that, both of them stopped.

Ning Xi wanted to ask if this was bought for me?The answer is self-evident.

Zhang Ni wanted to give it to you, but Ning Xi might not accept it.

In the long silence, the silence becomes tangled, stagnant and sad.

"Are you hungry?" Zhang Nisi wiped her eyes imperceptibly.

"Well, a little." Ning Xi said softly.

"Can I order something to eat?" Zhang Nisi went to check the phone.

Ning Xi shook her head: "Let me do it." As she spoke, she walked towards the kitchen.

Zhang Nisi looked at her figure in a daze, and opened her mouth: "But there may be nothing in the refrigerator..."

"Let me take a look first." Ning Xi quickly walked to the kitchen, her voice was a little far away.

Zhang Nisi doesn't know how to cook, but the refrigerator is quite full, which must have been bought by the housekeeper.

Ning Xi tied up her hair, put on her apron, and started cooking.

Zhang Nisi leaned against the kitchen door, watching her busy and orderly figure, occasionally lowering her glasses, her silhouette was slender yet feminine.

For a moment, they realized that in the first few years when they were together, they rented a house outside, and the house had a nice kitchen.

Zhang Nisi is not used to the food in the university cafeteria. She often eats out or orders takeaway. She wants to keep fit and eat very little. For a while, she lacks carbohydrates, her menstrual period is disordered, and she even suffers from nutritional deficiencies.

Later, Ning Xi went to learn cooking, and cooked for her in different ways. Sometimes she was picky and refused to eat, but Ning Xi was not angry, and would coax her to eat more.

Zhang Ni thought about it, and she couldn't help crying.She sniffed and went to help.

Ning Xi was very surprised to see her coming, because Zhang Nisi never helped in the kitchen.

"What can I do?" A trace of uneasiness flashed across Zhang Nisi's face, trying to ignore Ning Xi's expression.

Ning Xi bit her lower lip lightly, and said, "Just wash the vegetables."

"Ah."

The two got busy in the kitchen. Zhang Nisi didn't touch the spring water with her ten fingers, and she was in a hurry to wash the vegetables. Ning Xi whispered a few words to her from time to time. Before, Zhang Nisi was already impatient, but today she Not a single complaint.

Maybe just once.

They all thought so.

After Zhang Nisi washed the vegetables and cut some simple things that she could cut, there was nothing she could do to help, so she didn't leave, she just stood there and watched Ning Xi cook.

Ning Xi's eyelashes trembled slightly, but she didn't raise her head, and concentrated on cooking.

Zhang Nisi never knew that it took so much time to cook. Ning Xi spent almost two hours and made four dishes. She hurried forward to help serve the dishes.

Vegetable and fruit salad, Longjing shrimp, braised pork, garlic choy sum.

It's all her favorite food.

It's not that she doesn't know the love hidden in the details, but she is too contemptuous and takes everything for granted.

Zhang Nisi looked at it, her eyes were slightly red, and said with a smile: "Is this the last meal?"

Ning Xi pursed her lips tightly.

"This is unlucky, it should be said that this is the last meal for the two of us." Zhang Nisi said again.

Ning Xi raised her head, her lips twitched, "I'm sorry."

Zhang Nisi smiled self-deprecatingly: "I was watching you cooking just now, and I was thinking, if I said, Ning Xi, we will not break up, let's try again, the last time, will you agree?"

Ning Xi paused, wanting to say something, but didn't say it.

"I've said this before, and this time, when the thought surfaced, I felt a bit of fear in my heart. I suddenly understood that even if we reconcile again, the end result is that we tortured each other to the point of death. Exhausted, lovers turned enemies, hating each other."

Tears flickered in Ning Xi's eyes: "We are 36 years old."

Zhang Nisi nodded, her eyes were red: "Yes, I am 36 years old."

The two sat opposite each other, looking at each other silently.

Those steaming dishes were placed among them, and gradually lost their temperature.

All good things have their deadlines.There is always a time for everything.

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