Qinghong

The warm mobile phone was pressed against my cheek, and I heard the sound of Zou Haiyang walking. After waiting for a while, Zou Haiyang whispered, "You pick it up, it's my brother."

"Hi, hello." A slightly cold female voice came.

"Hi, I'm Zou Lansheng, brother of Zou Haiyang." I said, "What's your surname?"

"Lin, Lin Jiaqi," she said.

"Hello, Ms. Lin." I lowered my voice, "How many weeks are you pregnant?"

"Ten weeks." Lin Jiaqi said.

"Are you 22 this year?" I asked.

"Yes." She replied impatiently, "Do you have any questions?"

"I gave birth to a child at the age of 22, do you plan to raise it alone or?" I asked.

"Raising alone, I can do it." She said, "If you are worried about child support, I don't need Zou Haiyang to pay."

"It's not about child support. The child belongs to Haiyang. If it is born, whether you want child support or not, Zou Haiyang will pay the money. This is his obligation." I said, "My point is, why did you Do you want to have this child? Do you love him? Or do you firmly believe that there will be no second person for whom you want to have a child?"

"I..." Lin Jiaqi hesitated for a while and said, "I love him now, but I'm not sure about the future."

"You want to tie him down with a child." My tone was so determined that I couldn't believe it myself, "You don't expect the birth of this child, you just want to exchange the child for Zou Haiyang's attention."

Lin Jiaqi didn't speak.

I asked, "Do you think this is fair to the child?"

Lin Jiaqi was silent, and I said: "You are only 22 years old, and you are fully capable of finding another mature and responsible man, who is much better than Zou Haiyang. I know my brother is a jerk. Ten girls chatting, you are a fish in his fish pond, it is not worth it. The child in your womb should not have an unreliable father."

"You're right, it's not fair to the child." Lin Jiaqi said, "But I want him to stay with me."

"Don't dream about people you can't get." I said, pinching a leaf of Chlorophytum chinensis with my fingers and breaking off a corner. I said this to Lin Jiaqi and I also said it to myself.

Don't dream of people you can't get.

"Forget Zou Haiyang, let yourself go, your future has infinite possibilities."

Forget Ning Qing, let me go.

"En." Lin Jiaqi said, her voice was small but firm, "I'll try."

The phone returned to Zou Haiyang: "Brother."

"I'll transfer 2 yuan to you, and you give it to Lin Jiaqi." I said, "It's hard for a girl to have an abortion. If you don't want to accompany her all the way, of course I suggest you not to accompany her with good intentions. You can clearly tell her your future plans. She must not be soft-hearted."

"Okay." Zou Haiyang said, "Thank you brother."

"Don't be in a hurry to thank me, this money is considered to be a loan to you." I said, "After you graduate, you will pay me back [-] yuan. You write a note by hand, sign it and send it to me. Zou Lansheng of Jinmen University will accept it."

"...Then thank you brother." Zou Haiyang said, "I thought I was going to be planted today."

"I'll help you because I don't want you to follow the old path of your parents." I said, my mother gave birth to me at the age of 23, and the family quarreled over trivial matters. I was fed up with two cucumber eggs raising children Chicken feathers all over the place.Zou Haiyang is my younger brother, and I should guide him to establish a correct view of marriage and family.

"Jiaqi agreed to the operation, and just finished signing." Zou Haiyang said in a relaxed tone, "I'll wait for her outside, bro, go do your work."

"Well, I'll transfer the money to you." I hung up the phone, opened Alipay and transferred [-] yuan to Zou Haiyang, and noted [borrowing].

After waiting for a while, Zou Haiyang replied [received].

I walked out of the balcony, and my mother looked at me eagerly: "What is Yangyang busy with?"

"Association matters." I made it up, "He and the project are too busy."

"Okay then, I'll call him tonight." My mother said.

"Yeah." I nodded and went to the entrance to change my shoes, "Don't wait for me at noon, I'll go out for a walk."

"Alone?" my mother asked, "Do you want me to call you..."

"No, no need." I resolutely refused, I really can't bear the nieces and nieces of my mother's group of little sisters, "I can do it myself." I stood up straight, opened the door, stepped over the threshold, closed the door, "Let's go .”

I took the elevator downstairs, took the bus to Hancheng Lake, took a walk on the Huilan Bridge, and sat down on a stone bench. All I could think about was the phone call that persuaded Lin Jiaqi.Human nature is self-interest. From Lin Jiaqi's point of view, I dissected useless emotions, spread the benefits in front of Lin Jiaqi, and easily persuaded her to give up this child who did more harm than good.But for me, I couldn't convince myself to forget Ning Qing.

This is another inferiority of human beings, always eager to get what you can't get, I have never expressed my liking directly and purely.If I tried and was rejected by Ning Qing, at least I worked hard, and now I won't be entangled in groping repeatedly, but I didn't.I kept imagining, if I confessed bravely, would it lead to another story line, Ning Qing and I strolled on Huilan Bridge together.

"jingle."

The message notification sounded, and I looked down at my phone [Ning Hong: Where are you? 】

[Zou Lansheng: Seoul Lake Park. 】

[Ning Hong: Just stand there and don't move, I'll be right there. 】

[Zou Lansheng:? 】

[Zou Lansheng: Aren't you in Tianjin? 】

[Ning Hong: I was in Tianjin before eight o'clock in the morning, and now I just landed in Xi'an, wait for me for half an hour. 】

It's really reckless because I have resources, I helplessly reply to the message [Zou Lansheng: Yes. 】

I sat on a stone bench and waited for Ning Hong. Looking into the distance, weeping willows on both sides of the clear river were like shades, and the soft and graceful willow branches set off the ancient city wall with a bit of elegance.The white waterfowl flitted across the river, making crisp calls. I took out a pack of cigarettes from my pocket, opened it, and lit one. The lighter clicked, and the blue flame licked the tail of the cigarette.

I don't smoke very often. I smoke one when I'm bored, and I smoke a few more when I'm upset.The nicotine clears my head and, by the way, suppresses useless sentimentality.

After smoking one, I turned on my phone to play match [-] games, and when I got bored, I would smoke another one.I thought to myself, if Ning Hong doesn't arrive after I smoke this stick, I won't wait for him.

"Hey master, pull over here." Ning Hong unbuckled his seat belt with one hand and opened the car door, "Thank you."

"You're welcome," said the taxi driver.

Ning Hong got out of the car and closed the door, walked towards the gate of Hancheng Lake Park, bowed his head and fiddled with his mobile phone to type [Ning Hong: I've arrived at Hancheng Lake, where are you? 】

[Zou Lansheng: Huilan Bridge. 】

Ning Hong has been to Xi'an several times, but he has never been to Hancheng Lake. He asked the security guard for directions: "Hello, how can I get to Huilan Bridge?"

"Over there." The security guard pointed in the direction.

"Thank you." Ning Hong trotted along the river, and saw a single-hole arch bridge standing on the water from a distance. He ran up the bridge, looked left and right, his eyes stopped, and his pace slowed down. He saw that Zou Lan was born.

The gentle and refined professor in the past was sitting on a long stone bench with a cigarette between his fingertips, and the broken hair on his forehead was blown a little messy by the mischievous wind.Zou Lansheng didn't see Ning Hong, he still smoked himself, immersed in his own world.

In Ning Hong's eyes, Zou Lansheng is a free and easy portrait silhouette sketch, with a full forehead, a high nose bridge, and a delicate chin. He is wearing a dark blue shirt with the cuffs rolled up, revealing a graceful arm.

Ning Hong walked down the bridge slowly, carefully imprinted the beautiful scenery in front of him, and stood in front of Zou Lansheng: "Hi."

Zou Lansheng came back to his senses, his eyes were focused, and they slid across the metal frame. He flicked the cigarette ash and said softly, "Hi."

"You run over, what about the cat?" I asked.

Ning Hong walked up to me and sat down, with a relaxed tone: "I bought an automatic feeding machine, set the time, and the food will be released at the right time." He turned on the mobile phone display software and handed it to me, "Look, I have set all the settings. alright."

I looked closely, and the time points were neatly listed on the software interface, twelve o'clock at noon, four o'clock in the afternoon, and ten o'clock in the evening. I said, "Got it, thank you."

"Make good use of high technology, Mr. Zou." Ning Hong triumphantly put away the phone, reached out to take the cigarette that was burning to the end between my fingers, put it in his mouth and smoked the last puff, exhaled the smoke, and squinted his eyes. say.

"I have cigarettes here." I picked up the cigarette case, "Do you want it?"

"No, one bite is enough." Ning Hong snuffed out the cigarette butt and threw it into the trash can not far from the stone bench, "What are you doing here?"

"Annoying, look at the scenery." I said.

"Did something happen?" Ning Hong asked.

"Well." I said.

"What's the matter?" Ning Hong asked.

"Persuading people to have an abortion." I said.

Ning Hong's eyes widened, unable to hold back a word for a long time.

I laughed shortly: "Yes, the little girl agreed."

"What scum." Ning Hong said, "I like it."

"... There is something wrong with your designation." I looked at him speechlessly, "It's not my seed, my brother messed up." Mentioning this, I felt depressed, took out the last cigarette in the cigarette case and lit it, "He didn't bring any Come on, I asked, the girl is three months pregnant."

"Hey, that's really difficult." Ning Hong agreed.

I took a puff and exhaled a long puff of smoke: "Yeah, I'm trying to persuade her to give up, you silly girl." I sighed, "My brother is nothing, I don't know what she likes about my brother."

"There is no reason to like it." Ning Hong said, he took the cigarette from my hand, and said while smoking, "Smoking less, it is not good for the lungs."

"If you don't smoke when I give you cigarettes, what are you doing stealing from me?" I said dissatisfied.

Ning Hong glanced at me provocatively: "You don't care about me." After smoking this one, he stood up, went to the trash can and threw away the butt, "Let's go, take a stroll."

"Yeah." I was also tired of sitting, so I stood up and moved around, walking along the river with Ning Hong.

The breeze brushed against my face, dispelling the smell of smoke, I took a deep breath, trying to wash away the stale air in my lungs.

Ning Hong handed me a piece of chewing gum: "Do you want it?"

"Thank you." I peeled off the paper coat of the gum, threw the piece of sugar into my mouth, chewed it, and the mint flavor filled my mouth.

Ning Hong also chewed a piece of gum, put his hands in his pockets and raised his chin to look at the sparkling river in the distance.

"You pilots fly here and there every day, why didn't you find a beautiful stewardess to be your girlfriend?" I had nothing to say.

"How do you know I'm single?" Ning Hong asked back.

"It won't be so free if you have a girlfriend." I said, "Could it be that you have a partner?"

"No, I have been single since I graduated from college." Ning Hong said.

I deliberately looked for his language loopholes: "meaning, did you talk about it in college?"

"Talked a few times to pass the time." Ning Hong said, "Could it be that you haven't talked in college?"

"Of course we did," I said. "Talk about one, and almost got married."

"Oh, why didn't it work?" Ning Hong asked.

"She went abroad to study." I said, "I studied in China, and it's strange to be able to become a talent in a foreign country. What about you? Why didn't you talk to someone after graduation?"

"I didn't meet anyone special." Ning Hong said, "I'm very picky."

"I didn't see it being picky, but I could see my thick skin." I said teasingly.

"Mr. Zou, don't you feel uncomfortable if you don't stab me?" Ning Hong said, changing the subject, "I'm so similar to my brother, you like me too."

"There are two kinds of strawberries in the fruit shop, one is cream strawberry and the other is red-faced strawberry. The price is about the same, both are 25 yuan per catty." I said, "They look almost exactly the same, I only like to buy red-faced strawberries."

"What if the beautiful strawberries are sold out?" Ning Hong asked.

"Then I'll buy peaches, mangosteens, mangoes, and watermelons." I said.

"Try strawberry cream, how will you know if you don't like it if you don't try it?" Ning Hong said.

I was silent for a while and said, "If you try it, you won't be able to go back."

Ning Hong looked at me, his bright eyes were full of mischievous luster, full of confidence that he must win: "Where are you going to go back? You have not passed."

What Ning Hong said is the truth, no matter how much I miss him, Ning Qing has already disappeared into a pile of dust, I can't do anything, I have to force myself to move forward.The problem is, even if I am determined to go out and embrace life again, I still cannot find someone who is so similar to Ning Qing to fall in love. That would be a blasphemy to Ning Qing and disrespect for love.

I lowered my head to pick up a flat stone, and threw it sideways. The stone crossed a parabola, jumped four times like a flying saucer on the water surface, and fell into the river with a "plop".I clapped my hands and turned to Ning Hong, "Can you do it?"

"No, I'll try." Ning Hong squatted down by the river bank, rummaging back and forth.

Seeing his inexperienced and clumsy appearance, I found three stones of suitable shape and handed them to him: "You try."

Ning Hong was like a child who got a new toy, imitating the way I just threw the stone. Instead of jumping forward, the stone fell straight into the water and made a big splash.

I couldn't help laughing, and stood aside to guide: "Leave the stone flat, push your wrist hard, and push it forward."

Ning Hong threw the second one, and the stone jumped twice on the surface of the water and sank to the bottom. I applauded: "Yes, there is progress."

Ning Hong followed Le, with the corners of his lips raised high: "It's fun, what's the name of this game?"

I said, "It's a waste of time."

The name is quite ironic. My love and my life, with Ning Qing's departure, were all in vain.