Qinghong

We stayed at Lichang Villa. At nine o'clock in the evening, the sun slanted to the west, and the rays of the sun painted the outline of the mountains in deep colors. The breeze gradually picked up, which was quite cool.Wearing long-sleeved trousers, I leaned on the railing with both hands, looking at the vast grassland in the distance.

Ning Hong came over with a plate of barbecue: "It's super delicious, try it."

I picked up a bunch and asked, "Where did it come from?"

"The boss roasted it." Ning Hong took a bite of the meat, his cheeks puffed up, and he chewed like a hamster. "There is also horse meat Nash, I didn't take it, do you want it?"

"Horse Nash?" I looked down at the roast, "What's that?"

"It's a snack made of horse meat." Ning Hong said, "It looks pretty good."

"Go, go and have a look." I put the iron sign back on the plate that Ning Hong was carrying, followed Ning Hong down the wooden stairs, and headed for the square in front of the hotel.

The concrete floor of the square has a bonfire in the middle, speakers are placed at the four corners, and small colored flags are decorated above the square.The two of us walked in, and the simple and honest Kazakh boss greeted us: "Good evening!" He said in non-standard Mandarin.

"Good evening." Ning Hong and I responded.

"Sit wherever you want, fruit barbecue is enough." The boss said.

"Okay." I nodded.

This is a dinner bonfire activity launched by the hotel. It costs 100 yuan per person, and you can eat whatever you want, similar to a buffet.

"When the music starts, we can dance." Ning Hong's eyes sparkled, "Can Teacher Zou know how to dance?"

"...No." I said.

"I'll teach you!" Ning Hong raised his voice, his eyes curved, "I'm very good at Tai Chi."

"..." I thought for a while calmly, and asked, "Is there any connection between Tai Chi and dancing?"

"Body coordination." Ning Hong coaxed me confidently, "The connection is universal."

"Marx's philosophy is quite good." I said, "It would be better if you don't take me for a fool." I am a mathematician with a doctorate in mathematics. Does it look easy to be fooled?

Ning Hong pouted, sat beside me, and offered me a bite of watermelon: "Eat melon, eat melon."

"Thank you." I held the watermelon and buried my head in eating. Ning Hong brought barbecue meat, tomatoes mixed with sugar, cantaloupe, pepper chicken, cold beer, marzipan and horsemeat nash, and the plates were full on the table.

Ning Hong sat down cross-legged contentedly, picked up chopsticks and concentrated on eating.

Adhering to the rule of not talking about food, I quietly ate [-]% full, let out a breath, and looked at Ning Hong.

Seeing me stop, Ning Hong asked, "Are you full?"

"Well, almost." I said, feeling sleepy after eating, I rested my chin with one hand, lazily relaxed and leaned back, stretching my waist.

Ning Hong took out a pack of napkins, handed me one, and opened one to wipe his mouth: "I'm full too."

I took care of myself, took out two mints from my pocket, put one in my mouth, and gave one to Ning Hong.The feeling of fullness after the meal, the coolness of the mints, and the majestic fire clouds in the evening made it rare for me to have some happy emotions.

Ning Hong turned his head to look at me, against the light, I couldn't see his expression clearly, but I vaguely felt that his eyes were gentle, as if he was smiling.

Zou Lansheng was smiling like a cat.

Ning Hong's gaze rested on the broken hair raised from the forehead of the other party, and the disobedient fluff was dyed in the afterglow of the setting sun, floating on it like pieces of gold.The beating of the heart suddenly became louder. Ning Hong hoped that time would slow down and stop at this moment, and hope that time would fly away so that Zou Lansheng could forget Ning Qing soon.

Ning Hong remembered four months ago, when he was standing downstairs in the dormitory, Zou Lansheng and Xiao Ke were sitting side by side on the roof, and the sun was rising vigorously. Perhaps from that moment, he longed for Zou Lansheng.

I want to hug him, kiss him, live by his side, and be an enviable couple with him.

Ning Hong flew the plane, flew over countless countries, crossed dozens of time zones, and shuttled through the sea of ​​clouds and fog. He wanted someone on the ground waiting for him to return home.He understood Ning Qing's approach. Ning Qing was an anti-narcotics policeman.

Ning Hong was very envious, but he was not as lucky as Ning Qing.

After eating and drinking enough, I let go of my vigilance and started chatting about things: "You said you moved often, so where is your hometown?"

Ning Hong tilted his head and thought for a while: "If I have to have a hometown, I was born in Hangzhou." He snapped his fingers, "My family is in the furniture business. I moved to Nanjing when I was eight years old, and then to Wuxi. Then my dad got into a car accident. , my mother committed suicide, my brother was admitted to Beijing, and I was admitted to Tianjin."

"I dare say you are a pure southerner." I said, "Then why don't you have any southern accent?"

"Southern accent? They have different accents from village to village. I moved so many places when I was a child, and I didn't learn a single dialect." Ning Hong said, "Just speak Mandarin, and everyone in the world can understand it."

"That's right." I nodded, "The first time I saw Ning Qing, I thought he was from Beijing."

This was the first time I mentioned Ning Qing so frankly. Ning Hong looked at me probingly for a while and said, "He has a heavy heart and doesn't like to talk about the past."

I'm a little curious about the relationship between the two brothers: "Do you have a good relationship with your brother?"

"It's good, it's good, it's not good." Ning Hong said, "He found the body of my mother who committed suicide. Later, he was admitted to the Public Security University. We didn't have much contact with each other. We each depend on our ability."

Ning Qing has a heavy heart?When I recalled the scene with Ning Qing, I didn't think that Ning Qing was a thoughtful person, at least not as clever as Ning Hong. On the contrary, Ning Qing was a down-to-earth and sincere person, a bit straightforward, like a German shepherd.

"Then did your brother fall in love when he was in college?" I asked.

"No." Ning Hong said, "If a girl chases him, he will give them my WeChat."

"..." This is such a wicked operation, I cursed in my heart, "Then what?"

"What can I do, I don't dare to talk nonsense." Ning Hong's voice became smaller and smaller, "I can't beat him."

I laughed and pictured Ning Qing chasing Ning Hong to fight in my mind: "You two are really good."

"Let's not talk about him anymore." Ning Hong said, just as he finished speaking, the speakers at the four corners of the square started playing music.

The sun had completely set, the boss lit a bonfire, and girls and boys in national costumes poured into the venue. The cheers and music continued to stir up the atmosphere to the peak. Even the tourists like us from other places stopped being lazy and sat up and watched. .

The lyrics are in a foreign language that I don't understand, the rhythm is bright, the young man beats the tambourine, the girls shake their shoulders and circle around, the red skirt and blue pattern are very happy.Ning Hong stood up and grabbed my hand: "Let's go, let's dance."

"I won't." I said.

"Let's dance along." Ning Hong was in high spirits, "Jump twice and you'll be done."

I couldn't resist him, so I stood up and was dragged into the crowd by him. With the strong music, people rubbed shoulders.Ning Qing held my hand tightly, going up and down for a while, and the crowd pushed the two of us around the campfire.

The blazing bonfire made everyone's cheeks red, and Ning Hong's eyes were blazing. It was unknown whether it was the reflection of the bonfire or the persistence in his heart.People suddenly clapped their hands in unison, and I looked at Ning Hong in confusion. His palms were full of sweat, and he came to me through the chaotic crowd and whispered: "Mr. Zou, are you happy?"

Happy, how can you not be happy?The vast grasslands, high mountains, delicious food and dancing, throwing away all the troubles seems to be in a paradise. I feel that the life in front of me has returned to colorful colors. I nodded: "Happy."

Ning Hong clenched my hand, then let go, and said with a smile, "That's good."

I stared at him, a thin barrier separated me from the crowd, my heart stopped for a moment and beat violently, I was hit by Ning Hong's smile and my heart swelled.

For Ning Hong, is it good that I am happy?

In the far Northwest, I made a decision that I thought about and tossed and turned for countless days and nights, and I took the initiative to hold Ning Hong, and looked up at the bonfire. A piece of music had come to an end, and Ning Hong turned around in surprise. look at me.

My hands and feet were stiff and I didn't know what to do next. Ning Hong reacted very quickly and pulled me out of the crowd.The next piece of music sounded, and the crowd became commotion again. Ning Hong walked faster and faster, and left the square to find a secluded forest belt to stop.

The two of us stood under the coniferous forest, and I was embarrassed to find a reason to explain my behavior just now: "I..." At the beginning, Ning Hong leaned over to kiss me, he was short of breath, and bumped into my cheek recklessly Lips hit my head in a daze.

My hands rested on his waist, neither pushing nor pulling. After all, I took the initiative to hold his hand just now. It seemed too unreasonable to push it away at this time, but pulling it into my arms... I hesitated for a while, my arms She wrapped her arms around his waist loosely and patted his back soothingly.

Ning Hong smiled suddenly: "Mr. Zou, are you trying to coax the children?"

"Otherwise what are you going to do?" I said.

"Do you like me a little bit?" Ning Hong asked.

I do not speak.

Ning Hong then asked: "Do you still like my brother?"

I opened my mouth and found that I didn't know what to say, so I closed my mouth and refused to answer.

Ning Hong understood, bowed his head and kissed my chin: "Let's take our time."

I hugged him, with a heavy stone in my heart, and I personally walked my emotional path into a mess.I have been secretly in love with Ning Qing for two years, and I remember Ning Qing's hobbies and little habits. These details invaded my life and became a part of my life.As for Ning Hong, I can't figure out what I think, whether I regard him as another Ning Qing, or an emotional sustenance, I don't know.

I study mathematics, study mathematics in depth, rationality is my principle of doing things, but this time, I completely ignore rationality and let emotions grow wildly and dominate my every move.

The cheerful songs in the square in the distance became our background sound. Ning Hong put his arms around my neck, pressed his chin against my shoulder, and said sullenly: "Mr. Zou, I have thought about the scene you promised me many times."

"And then?" I asked.

"I didn't expect it to be so fast." Ning Hong said, "But it's also very good, no matter what the reason is, I'm very happy."

The more generous he behaved, the more tormented I felt.My purpose is not pure, I agreed to him just to satisfy my selfish thoughts, I want to be happy, I can't give Ning Hong what he wants.

I want to be happy.

I only care about my own happiness.

"No matter what the reason..." I said, "What if it's because of Ning Qing? I take you as Ning Qing." I almost masochistically took revenge on him and myself. From the beginning to the end, this was a ridiculous joke. I never resisted From acceptance to complete fall.I thought maliciously, why am I in such pain, but Ning Hong can get what he wants, it's not fair.

"That's okay." Ning Hong said, he hugged my arm tightly, his voice gradually became softer, "I want to kiss you."

I grabbed Ning Hong by the collar, pulled him off my shoulders, and lowered my head to kiss him.Soft and dry lips pressed against each other, and Ning Hong gave a helpless "huh" and opened his mouth obediently to let me ask for it. His eyelashes trembled like butterfly wings.After a moment, I let him go, he exhaled softly, opened his eyes and looked at me, the eyes were filled with a tiny light.

I looked away in embarrassment: "It's time to go back."

"Okay." Ning Hong secretly took my hand and interlocked his fingers, "Let's go."

The tambourine is accompanied by music, and there is a grand carnival. The crowd in front of the bonfire is indistinct, forming a sea of ​​laughter.Ning Hong looked at Zou Lansheng, his usual gentle face was infected by emotions, and his eyes were full of light. Ning Hong's mood fluctuated with Zou Lansheng's. ,Are you happy?"

"Happy." Zou Lansheng nodded.

A firework exploded in Ning Hong's heart, and he said, "That's good."

After a while, about 1 minute, Zou Lansheng stretched out his hand to hold Ning Hong, and Ning Hong turned his head. He saw Zou Lansheng's panicked eyes, and he could hardly control the corners of his lips.

Like a fisherman who has been fishing by the river for a long time and finally caught a big fish, Ning Hong grabbed Zou Lansheng's hand that he wanted to take back, left the square and walked towards the woods at the foot of the mountain.

Kissing Zou Lansheng was as sweet as he imagined, and the affection he showed was ten times stronger than in his heart. He thought that guilt would make Zou Lansheng come out quickly.Ning Hong is not a little white rabbit who has no regrets, he has a plan in his heart, and he will definitely not suffer.

Zou Lan cares more about life, equal feelings, mutual respect, Ning Hong cares less, and will never let go of what he gets.

Zou Lansheng said, "What if it's because of Ning Qing? I take you as Ning Qing."

As Ning Qing?Ning Hong sneered in his heart, if Ning Qing was alive, it would not be Ning Hong's turn to reach out his hand, but Ning Qing was dead, a dead person, just take it as a convenience, Ning Qing refused to accept that he had the ability to crawl out to find him.He stared at Zou Lansheng's lips, recalling the softness just now in his heart, and said tenderly: "That's okay, I want to kiss you."

Sure enough, Zou Lansheng approached him softly and kissed him, happiness filled his heart.

Enough, Ning Hong thought, this is enough.