Butterfly dream life

brother brother brother brother brother brother...

Countless "brothers" turned into a huge axe, and fell down unexpectedly, crashing——Yu Xiaoduo's heart instantly shattered into pieces.

It turned out to be just a brother...

just brother...

It's brother...

younger brother…

He heard footsteps outside the door, he immediately exited the app, locked the screen, put the phone back to its original position, Gu Haiya came in, and closed the door.

"Drink it, it's hot." Gu Haiya handed him the water glass.

Yu Xiaoduo took it, barely took a few sips, and put it on the bedside table. Gu Haiya picked up the cup and put it back on his side of the bedside table.

"Let me go." Gu Haiya said, "I'm afraid you'll spill the water on the bed again at night."

Yu Xiaoduo knew that he was teasing Bai Ya Island that night, but he was not in the mood to respond, pretending to check his mobile phone, his mind was already full of turmoil.

It was obvious that the girl was chasing after Gu Haiya, her ID was a couple outfit, and she was just looking for an excuse to date her friend who wanted to learn how to dive. Doesn't 57.31 mean "I like you"?Gu Haiya must understand, but judging from the content of the reply, he has no idea about that girl for the time being.

But what about the future?

If there are girls chasing him again in the future, will he still have no idea?

Yu Xiaoduo thought to himself.

At first he wondered whether Gu Haiya was a straight man, then he wondered whether the other party liked him, and now he wondered whether he should confess his love first, but from the beginning to the end he ignored the most important point, which was whether Gu Haiya could accept the love from society. criticism.

He knows that there are some closets in the circle. Except for the person he is dating, he will not confess that he is gay to anyone, including family members. When he is old, he will find a random girl to marry. As for the boyfriend, if the other party can accept it, he will continue to communicate in secret. If he cannot accept it, he will break up. , From then on, one is different from the other.

This kind of gay is relatively vicious, and those with a conscience will find lesbians, cooperate with each other, and complete the great cause of having children. They usually don't interfere with each other and play their own way.

Even real gays would do this, let alone Gu Haiya?

Even though Yu Xiaoduo was still not sure about Gu Haiya's orientation, he knew very well in his heart that no matter in terms of words, deeds, or past experience, Gu Haiya was definitely not a member of this circle!

Yu Xiaoduo suddenly figured it out.

No wonder he didn't confess his love in Xianben. He always thought it was because he didn't like it enough, or he was still trying to break himself. Now that he found the reason, Gu Haiya definitely couldn't pass the test of public opinion.

When two men live together, they are bound to be judged by the people around them, especially the pressure from their family members. Even he dare not come out to his parents. If it weren't for the diving accident, his parents would probably be in the closet by now. Still kept in the dark.

Not to mention Gu Haiya, would he be willing to say "I like men" to his father and sister?

maybe not...

So is there a future between them?Yu Xiaoduo was completely at a loss, he just felt that it was really difficult to like a straight man, a secret love would make people stupid, and he couldn't get his head around.

He wanted to discuss it with Jobs, but then dismissed the idea. Jobs can't access the Internet now, and he probably can't help much except provide various obscure theories.

Why don't you go to the gay forum and ask for help, maybe their opinions are more reliable. Yu Xiaoduo knows that this is a medical emergency, but what else can I do?He has nowhere to go.

"I'm going to the bathroom." Yu Xiaoduo lifted the quilt.

"Can I do it alone?" Gu Haiya asked.

"It's okay." Yu Xiaoduo got out of bed, "I'm not dizzy anymore."

Entering the bathroom, Yu Xiaoduo sat on the toilet and posted a post titled "Can I confess my love to a straight man", thinking that I have always been just diving, watching other people's love and hate, I didn't expect to be a host today .

After the post was posted, there was no reply, and it might have to wait until tomorrow, so Yu Xiaoduo had to go back to his room first, and couldn't watch his phone anymore, so he simply covered himself with a quilt, Gu Haiya thought he was going to sleep, so he raised his hand to turn off the light.

I do not know how long it has been.

Gu Haiya breathed evenly and seemed to have fallen asleep. Yu Xiaoduo tossed and turned without feeling sleepy. Finally, he couldn't help but picked up his phone, dimmed the screen, entered the forum to check the posts, and found that there were already dozens of replies.

Most of them are persuading him not to be stupid, and he doesn’t have to confess to his friends, they just treat you as a younger brother, some straight men like to flirt with their brothers, and a few who claim to be 1 ask if their younger brother is a milk zero?Send a photo to see, brother loves you, and attach a few explicit pictures, Lei Deyu Xiaoduo is tender on the outside and tender on the inside.

Is there no one willing to really help?Yu Xiaoduo turned down one by one, tears streaming from the bottom of his heart.

Finally he found a valuable reply, several hundred words in length, from a netizen with the ID "There are deer in the forest", who was also a zero, and told him about his experience.

[Once I also loved a straight man, he was my best friend. ]

[We have known each other for many years, he has always been very kind to me, I feel that he likes me, so I confessed, only to get an ambiguous reply two days later: He said that he would wait with me until someone he likes appears. ]

[I don't understand what he means, I know that the person I like is him, but since he said that he is willing to accompany me, I don't think this is a rejection, so I treat him as a boyfriend, but he starts to alienate me deliberately. ]

[Basically, I reply to his messages in seconds, but he replies to me in reincarnation. ]

[The ending can be imagined, I drifted away from him. During that time, I was in great pain and even wanted to die in the past. My friends advised me not to be obsessed with it, it would only hurt myself. ]

[Fortunately, I figured it out in time and decided to let go. Later, we never contacted again. I wasted two years, paid for the wrong relationship, and lost my best friend. ]

[I hope my story can help you. In addition, based on my personal experience, I think that a real straight man can’t bend. Being able to bend can only mean that he is a Bisexual (bisexual). Double means that if He doesn't want to come out, and he will probably still choose a girl for life. ]

[So I advise you not to confess your love, let him make his own decision, if he is willing to pay for you, he will naturally confess to you, on the contrary, if you pierce the window paper rashly, you will drive him to a dead end, and you will lose him soon , just like me. ]

After reading Youlu's reply in the forest, Yu Xiaoduo felt chills for a while, but he still had a little luck, thinking that his situation was different from this netizen, so he sent a private message to him.

[Maybe I didn’t explain clearly in the main building. He really treats me differently from others. He once held my hand and said some ambiguous words. When I was sick, he even came to visit me and bought me my favorite soy sauce chicken. We kept our fingers intertwined in KTV tonight, I think he really likes me. ]

It took a while to send the private message, but Youlu in the Forest didn't reply again, Yu Xiaoduo guessed that the other party probably had a rest, so he had to turn off the phone.

It was snowing heavily and the temperature plummeted. Yu Xiaoduo suddenly regretted it. He knew that he shouldn't have broken the electric blanket. Now that the retribution came, he was shivering from the cold.

"Is it cold?" Gu Haiya's voice sounded.

"A little bit." Yu Xiaoduo said in the dark.

Gu Haiya stretched out his arms and whispered: "Come here, I will hug you to sleep."

Yu Xiaoduo hesitated for a moment, and put his pillow on the pillow, Gu Haiya hugged him back into his arms, and said "Go to sleep", Yu Xiaoduo's eyes were sore, he quickly pinched himself, and finally stopped crying.

Outside the window, heavy snow was flying all over the sky, and the entire northeast plain was silent, except for the rustling sound of falling snow. Yu Xiaoduo buried his face in Gu Haiya's chest, closed his eyes, and fell asleep with infinite melancholy.

the next morning.

After waking up, the first thing Yu Xiaoduo did was to go to the forum. There were not many new replies, and the content was similar to last night. He opened the private message again and found that Youlu in the Forest had already replied.

[He is also very kind to me. He accompanied me out late at night to eat supper, and accompanied me to go shopping when it rained heavily. We used to hold hands on the road at night, and sat by the lake hand in hand. At that time, I also thought that he treated me differently from others . ]

It seems that in order to wake up Yu Xiaoduo, the other party also sent a photo, in which there are two hands with interlocking fingers, holding each other tightly, with a note next to it: [When we go to KTV to sing, he will always hold my hand. ]

It's over...all hits!Yu Xiaoduo's heart immediately turned cold.

He couldn't stand it anymore, silently deleted the post, and then cleared the private message of deer in the forest, as if all problems would disappear if he did this.

Yu's father and Yu's mother went away to relatives, and there were only two of them left at home. Gu Haiya warmed up the breakfast that Yu's father bought, and called Yu Xiaoduo to come over to eat. Yu Xiaoduo looked listless, and Gu Haiya asked him what's wrong , he just shook his head and said nothing.

"What are you doing today?" Gu Haiya asked.

Yu Xiaoduo gnawed on the steamed stuffed bun numbly, thought for a while, they will go back to Kuncheng tomorrow, work will start on the eighth day of the lunar new year, don't worry about it, and replied: "Let's go take the tram."

Gu Haiya hummed.

Small trams were called trams in the past, and they were built before liberation. It has been nearly a hundred years ago. When Yu Xiaoduo was a child, he undertook a large part of the city's transport capacity.

However, with the rapid development of the economy, the number of private cars has increased sharply, and fewer and fewer people use them. In the past few years, the country has carried out infrastructure construction. The city leaders wanted to remove this line, which was opposed by many citizens and was eventually retained. .

In recent years, the retro trend has risen, and people are keen on nostalgia, so the small tram Xianyu has turned around and become the most beautiful tourist attraction in the city, as well as a holy place for Internet celebrities to check in.

Inside the small tram there are benches facing each other. Yu Xiaoduo and Gu Haiya are sitting on the same side. Gu Haiya is slightly sideways, with his hands on the back of the chair behind him, and he turns his head to look at the scenery outside the window.

Last night, the new snow covered the old snow, and the sky and the earth were all boundless.

The snow was clear and the weather was clear. The winter sun shone in through the clean glass windows. It was warm and bright. The trolley car was moving slowly, making an ancient sound of "besides". Stuck in the compartment.

The two girls on the opposite side were holding selfie sticks. They seemed to be broadcasting live, and they kept secretly taking pictures of Yu Xiaoduo and Gu Haiya. The two handsome guys sat together intimately, which was really eye-catching.

When the terminal arrived, the two got off the car and wandered aimlessly on the bustling street. Yu Xiaoduo suddenly felt a chill on his face, and when he looked up, he saw snowflakes floating in the sky, while the sun was still dazzling.

Many people stopped and took pictures of this rare scene with their mobile phones. Gu Haiya looked up at the sky with a surprised expression on his face.

"It's Sun Snow." Yu Xiaoduo took a few snowflakes with his hands and said, "High clouds and cold air, I haven't seen it for many years."

"It's beautiful." Gu Haiya said.

"This kind of snow doesn't last long." Yu Xiaoduo said sadly, "Although it's beautiful, it will stop soon."

There is a coffee shop in front, the decoration is very unique, Yu Xiaoduo suggested to go in and have a meeting, Gu Haiya readily agreed, there is a grand piano in the hall, Yu Xiaoduo couldn't help but look at it a few more times, thinking it was a waste, Such an expensive violin shop.

The two sat down by the window and each ordered a cup of coffee. Gu Haiya got up suddenly and said "wait for me". Yu Xiaoduo thought he was going to the bathroom, so he didn't ask any further questions. Ya is back.

"Xiao Duo, I asked the front desk." Gu Haiya said, "Guests can also play their piano, do you want to go?"

"To what?" Yu Xiaoduo asked blankly.

Gu Haiya raised his eyebrows: "What you said yesterday, did you forget?"

Yu Xiaoduo remembered. After a short hesitation, he got up and walked towards the piano. When he passed the front desk, he nodded slightly, and several waiters smiled politely at him.

Sitting in front of the piano, Yu Xiaoduo lifted the cover of the piano, and the black and white keys glowed warmly. He glanced out the window, and then put his hands on it.

The sound of the piano suddenly sounded, and the guests in the coffee shop looked up one after another. Seeing a handsome guy sitting in front of the piano, they were all curious about what he was going to play. After the prelude ended, the main melody came out.

"It's so cold, the snow has accumulated so deep, MerryX'mastoyou, my beloved..."

Yu Xiaoduo did not play "I Do" for Gu Haiya as promised, but played Mavis Fan's "Snowman". At this time, snowflakes were flying outside the window, echoing this song.

This is a soft piece, which requires weak playing and slow rhythm, but Yu Xiaoduo improvised, without a score, it all depends on the mood, follow the feeling.

When he played the chorus, his heart was full of his unresolved love, and the possibility of the bamboo basket fetching water in vain, he suddenly became sad, and unknowingly increased the pressure of the keys.

"Piece by piece, the snow spells out the fate between you and me, my love is born of you, and your hand touches my heartache."

He flicked the keys quickly and vigorously, and the sound of the piano was full of anxiety and sadness, as if asking that person from a distance: Do you like me or not?will you choose meI really can't hold on anymore.

"Snow piece by piece, quietly colorful in the sky, spring is coming, and I will no longer live..."

At the end of the song, there was applause, and someone shouted "one more", Yu Xiaoduo closed the piano cover, stood up and put his palms together towards everyone, and returned to his seat.

Gu Haiya didn't ask him why he didn't play "I Do", nor did he ask what he was playing, he just looked at him quietly, the two looked at each other briefly, for some reason, Yu Xiaoduo felt strongly—— Ya understood.

The sun and snow had stopped, the sky was blue, and the sunlight came in from the floor-to-ceiling windows, caressing every corner gently, Yu Xiaoduo drank the last sip of coffee, and looked out for a while.

"The snow has stopped," he said. "Go home."

"Okay." Gu Haiya said.

They walked out of the coffee shop side by side, Gu Haiya naturally embraced Yu Xiaoduo, and boarded the tram home with him.

Today is Lichun, although the cold wind is still biting, but compared to the previous days, the days have become significantly longer, Yu Xiaoduo leaned on Gu Haiya's shoulder, squinting his eyes due to the light from the car window.

He said to himself in his heart:

There is no winter that will not pass.

There is no spring that will not come.