The Sensory Animals of Ston Hill

When the Earl asked him if William had discovered his secret, Grace dared to say "no" at first, not based on his confused memory of that night.

He relied on later reasoning.He felt that if his brother found out, no matter whether he felt disgusted at the time or not, he would definitely ask himself with concern afterwards.

But after that incident, William had not spoken a word to him, nor had he written a single letter to him.At this moment, Grace's optimism kicked in again, and he thought that his brother must have not found out, so he still had a chance-he would always remember William's fiery kiss and touch, that trembling longing, he felt it once I get it.

No one would have imagined how happy Grace was when he found out that his defective body could be "used"!

He is actively learning how to use his body to please men. He has always been a fast learner. The coldest man in the world is fascinated by his body, lying on his body, panting and sweating.

Grace thought then that he could wait for William to come home.

However, these were his thoughts before seeing those few lines.Now he knew he would never have a chance.

"My lord, is the Bible really the word of God?"

The Earl of Arundel was writing a letter and was interrupted by him. He raised his head and looked at him quietly without answering immediately.

But Grace couldn't hold back anymore, and he held the same page of the Bible tightly in his hand, "Will people accidentally copy some places wrong when copying? Will there be some Someone deliberately tampered with some places?"

"Why do people do this?"

Yeah, why do people do that?Grace fell into hopeless confusion again, "If the Bible is really full of God, then why does God make her suffer for the rest of her life while some people act strictly according to the teachings of the Bible? If someone punishes him, he can always get away with it and continue to enjoy the pleasure of crime?"

"Because God's promise to the good man is Paradise after death. The sinner thinks he is alive to enjoy himself, but when he dies he will go to a hell far more terrible than he can imagine."

"Then why not just send these bad guys to hell, why keep them doing evil in this world and let them cause pain to other good people?"

"Because if God judged the evil as soon as it happened, then everyone would have gone to hell."

It occurred to Grace that yes, he should thank God for his tolerance.His existence is evil, and his thoughts are also evil. If God punishes evil as soon as he sees it, then he should have gone to hell long ago.

But why is he a more sinful sinner than others?Why didn't God let him be born into a legitimate child, grow into a healthy man, and then fall in love with a girl smoothly?If his desires and desires are sinful, it is God who first tolerated them to take root in his heart!

"I don't understand! The ancestors of human beings had desires because of stealing the forbidden fruit, so all of us have original sin, but why doesn't God take away this desire? Isn't it omnipotent? Or does it not want to? But God doesn't most merciful?

"Grace." The Earl interrupted him, got up and walked around the table to Grace, took the Bible out of his hand, and browsed on the open page.

He read Latin much faster than Grace, and soon understood why Grace, who had been calm, was suddenly so agitated.

"The Bible tells people not to speculate on God's intentions, and to maintain awe is the greatest wisdom."

"Ha! I know that! 'Let us trust in God with all our hearts, and not in our own understanding.' So we have to believe what God says, that good people go to Paradise when they die, even though no one ever saw it with their own eyes. , we also have to regard that paradise as the most important goal in this life!"

Grace looked furious, he was more disappointed than doubtful and argumentative.He didn't expect the count to answer him only with words from the Bible.

"And that hell! Everyone is afraid of it, how terrible is it, will it be more terrible than our current world? Sophie has been a good person all her life, and she will definitely go to heaven after she dies, but Sophie's family Full of assholes and she has no friends, the only friend she has is long dead - my mum, who committed the same crime as Orisa, they are both going to hell. Sophie is alone in heaven Well, what's the point of that? Even I'm going to hell, I'm not afraid, after I go to hell, I'll go to my mother and Orisa—"

"Okay, Grace." The earl interrupted him even after he tolerated him saying so much, "Don't say that about yourself even if you're complaining, 'hell' is a terrible word after all."

The anger in Grace's eyes quickly extinguished, and gradually turned into another light: "My lord, you, you..." He was a little afraid of this rebellious question, but he still couldn't help asking: "Do you believe in God?"

"If someone asks you that, you answer him 'yes'. If someone asks you the same questions as before, you answer him with what I just said. If he still wants to argue with you, you ask him to look up the Holy Spirit himself. Augustine's explanation of 'all good'. But I don't think most people would think so much about the questions you just asked, most people would never think about it for the rest of their lives."

"Remember also about the Bible that it is all our education: all priests depend on the Bible to educate their congregants, all parents depend on the Bible to educate their children, all teachers depend on the Bible to educate Their pupils, all manors rely chiefly on the Bible for the education of their servants, and all kings rely on the Bible for the education of their subjects."

"The vast majority of people in this world are afraid to make choices, or are unable to make choices. It is necessary for a small number of people to help them through this sacred book and help them find a path that can calm their hearts."

"But not everyone needs this book." The Earl put the unfolded Bible into Grace's hands, "If you think you can make your own choice, you can choose—"

His two hands completely wrapped around Grace's fingertips that were cold from excitement, and they lifted them up together.

Very slowly, the Bible closed before the eyes of both of them.

"—close it, and it's 'just' a book."

Grace's body trembled.

The Count took him by the hand and seated him in a chair.It wasn't until Grace sat down that she felt weak all over, and her knees had no strength.The heat of the whole body ran into the chest, but the hands and feet were cold from excitement, only the heart was beating extremely violently.

He had never heard such dangerous words, which made him fearful, but at the same time deeply fascinated, trembling, and couldn't help approaching, just like the feeling that Earl Allen brought to him.

The Earl of Arundel knew that he had been greatly shocked, and scratched his chin lovingly with his hand.He was standing, and Grace was sitting, as if to soothe a kitten.

Under his teasing, Grace involuntarily raised her head and looked up at him: "My lord, there is one more thing I don't understand."

"Say."

"If the Bible is all education, why can the Chinese in the Far East create the best society without reading the Bible?"

The Earl laughed, "Who did you hear that the Chinese created the best society?"

Grace was so unconfident by his smile, her cheeks that were slightly pale from the shock just now gradually turned red, "Isn't it... I heard that China has the most moral people, the most enlightened monarch, and the most fair selection of officials system……"

The earl understood that this was actually an obvious answer, it was William Ston.

When he was young, he read the culprits of the French riots for the purpose of "knowing the enemy", and he still had an impression of some of Voltaire's remarks.Apart from those unrealistic political ideas, the enthusiasm of this great philosopher to fight against the church also left a deep impression on him.

The Earl of Arundel thought it was absurd that a young man who admired Voltaire would read the Bible repeatedly and take the initiative to burn his spirit and thoughts on the fire.

He was standing in this study right now, and he could easily imagine the scene: William Ston had sat where Grace was sitting now countless times, punishing his desires with thorns like those ancient ascetics.It's just that those ascetic monks whipped their own bodies, while William Ston whipped their own souls.

His suspicion of William Ston was actually much earlier than today, because of the young man's good reputation for being brave in the army, he was worried that this brother would be a hindrance.But now he doesn't have to worry, because his elder brother, like his younger brother, is just a coward who dare not face his inner desires.

"What's the matter, my lord..." Grace couldn't help feeling flustered when she saw that Earl Arundel had been silent, "It's because of what I just said..."

The earl's finger was still resting on his chin, and when he spoke, the finger moved slightly, stroking his face.

Grace is such a beautiful child, with white and small cheeks, Earl of Arundel spread his fingers and covered his entire cheek.

"Grace, I think you might be getting something wrong."

Those cat-like green eyes opened wide, "What's the matter?"

"Although I do not despise your affection for William, I do not think that it is love. You confuse love with adoration."

Grace was a little angry at this moment, but the Earl's hand was so warm on his face, calming the anger in his heart.

The Earl bent down, held Grace's cheek with one hand, and supported the table with the other hand, covering Grace completely in his breath.

"My boy, you didn't think of going over and kissing William until you heard the news that he was moving away, did you? You were just afraid of losing him, like a child is afraid of losing his parents, a schoolboy is afraid of losing his teacher , a child is afraid of losing his only friend—and that's exactly what William has done in your life before."

"Have you ever wondered if you were 'a boy' and 'not' a girl, would you still be the same as the day you heard he was getting married and moving to the capital?"

Grace froze.If he had been an upright boy, he would never have kissed William Ston on the lips.

"I think you will join the army with him and work hard to get into the Capital Guard. Even if William is married, you can still be the best brothers. You will spend more time in the army than his wife."

He was so cruel that Grace collapsed in an instant.When he told the earl about that incident, his eyes were only slightly red, but now he cried out in pain and couldn't breathe.

While crying bitterly, he begged for help intermittently: "My lord... did I choose wrong?" Should he be a boy?He has grown up, and no one can easily take his life away.At this moment, he had completely forgotten that the earl had used the case of Jerry the peddler to threaten him euphemistically. He could only think that because of one of his mistakes, William Ston would never go home again.

"Do you regret Grace? Regret making yourself a girl?"

Grace looked at him pitifully with the tip of her red nose, and two more tears came out of her eyes. Grace hurriedly lowered her head and wiped it with her hands. The earl grabbed his wrist and took out a clean white handkerchief from his pocket. , Gently wiped twice on Grace's face.

Sadly, Grace touched the back of the earl's hand with her forehead, which was the only skin on his face that was not wet, and rubbed against the back of the earl's hand, "My lord, if I choose to turn back into a boy now, do I still have a chance?" ?”

The Earl's voice sounded a little surprised, "You don't want to be a girl anymore?"

"I hate being a girl."

"why?"

"I hate wearing petticoats and socks. I hate women's clothes that always have to be tied with so many belts. I hate women's skirts that can't wear pants. I always have to worry about being lifted up the skirt!"

"I hate that people use two standards to judge men and women. A man is brave if he wants to fight someone because he feels offended. A woman is violent because she is lifted up her skirt and hit the man's head with a shovel..."

"Wait, Grace, what's going on?"

Grace sniffed, "Anna in the backyard told me. She accidentally revealed in front of the sheriff that I was stronger than other maids, and the sheriff asked me if I had violent tendencies—but you Don't worry, Anna just doesn't look smart, she didn't tell the gentleman I hit the groom's head with the shovel, and the sheriff didn't suspect it at all. Men always think that the woman across the way is stupider than him, which makes him Make yourself the biggest fool."

The Earl couldn't help laughing, "Grace, you really—"

He stopped talking halfway through, Grace was a little shy and asked, "What do you want to say about me?"

The count scratched his chin again, Grace felt itchy, her shoulders went up, her neck shrunk, and he heard the count say, "Roses with thorns."

The count held his chin and made him look up at himself: "Grace, haven't you discovered it yourself? In fact, you already know the benefits of being a girl."

The Earl couldn't help but feel the firmness of his nature.Almost everything that Grace once had was given to him by William Stone, but fortunately, Grace was not turned into a stupid idealist like him by William Stone.

But Grace didn't get it yet.

"What was that Mr. Raymond gave you this afternoon?"

Grace hurriedly explained that it was not a gift, but just a business card.

"That business card represents a promise, the best gift that only a woman can get from a man. You are right when you say that people use two standards for men and women, but you only Understand half of what it means."

Grace was confused, the night was too long for him.

The count did not force him, but said to him: "Grace, you are so smart, so ambitious, and so beautiful, it would be a pity if you were only an illegitimate child. What can a man at the bottom of society do? Money will not accomplish much, unless you marry a woman with a noble title. Even the least visible military, from the moment you enroll in a military academy, you will be rejected by your identity. "

Grace felt ashamed, he understood these truths, but just ignored them on purpose.

If he wore a coat and trousers that buttoned up a lot, he would be the thinnest of men.Without a good background and no systematic education, he couldn't even find a serious job, let alone a woman who would fall in love with him.

"Please continue the topic just now, what else do you hate?"

Grace was still ashamed, and she tightened her legs under the skirt, as if it made him forget the flaws between his legs, "I also hate... panniers, it's very uncomfortable to sit on."

The count laughed loudly, "It's still a bit childish!"

He actually turned Grace over so that his back was facing him, and then untied all the knots at the back of his waist, one by one, outer skirt, petticoat, petticoat, and a petticoat.

"It's really troublesome." The count peeled off Grace layer by layer.Now he only looks decently dressed on the surface, but he still cuts corners on the inside.The count peeled off the last outer layer, and Grace's lower body was only left with a birdcage that almost reached her knees and a shirt hem that just covered her buttocks.And his upper body was still neatly dressed.

Grace felt very ashamed, maybe this study was too solemn, which made him feel that his appearance at this time was very lewd.He tried to cover that part of himself with his hands, but was blocked by the bird cage, so he had to clamp his legs tightly.

"Relax, Grace, and spread your legs," ordered the Count. "Your body is beautiful."

Grace closed her eyes and spread her legs slightly tremblingly.

He was suddenly picked up!Grace hurriedly opened her eyes in fright, and the Earl actually carried him out of the "birdcage" and put him on the desk to sit!

"I..." He was so frightened that he wanted to jump off the table, but the earl held his thighs with both hands, and then slowly separated them. The soft petticoat was lifted up, and the secret between his legs was exposed.

He was hard, but only a small one. He covered his face with his hands in shame, his eyes that had already cried once were especially easy to get wet for the second time, and some tears overflowed from his fingers.

The earl kissed him reassuringly across his hand, "Grace, don't you understand? You are the best. Beautiful but not fragile, ignorant but not boring, slutty but not vulgar, smart but not Feeling threatened. Why are you crying when the best of men and women is in you?"

Grace lowered her hand quietly, revealing some pure green eyes, and looked at Earl of Arundel moistly.

The count moved very close to him, and asked him, "Want me to kiss your lips?"

Grace's face became hot, and she slowly lowered the hands covering her face. His eyes rolled around, and when he saw the Bible on the table, he screamed softly in fright.

The Earl flicked the Bible to the ground, and the hard cover hit the ground with a muffled sound, Grace trembled in shock.The count pulled off his hand covering half of his face, and took his lips into his mouth.

Grace suddenly remembered that he had had a similar dream.He dreamed that William Ston put him on the little dining table, finishing what he hadn't done that night.

In the dream, William Ston untied the straps of his jacket, and separated his skirt to the two sides just like now.He didn't like to wear shirts at that time, so there was no extra step. After taking off his shirt, his upper body was naked, and then William Ston kissed his chest passionately like he used to do through the clothes.

He also dreamed of William Ston spreading his legs like this, pressing his lower body tightly against his lower body.But at that time, he didn't know what the hard thing was holding him. He just followed his instinct and let the William Ston in his dream push against his legs one after another through his underwear.

That night, Grace woke up in a dream and felt something wet between her legs.

This is where William Stone couldn't forgive himself.

Even though Grace kissed him first, he taught Grace everything, and if Grace made a mistake, it was his fault.And his biggest mistake was to have lust for Grace. He actually kissed his own sister like that, touching his sister's body in the most lewd way.

Just as he was worried, he opened a Pandora's box in Grace's heart, and it was he who brought the devil of lust to Grace.

But he got one thing wrong, he thought he was the devil in that box, that as long as he stayed away from Grace, Grace would be safe.But in fact he is the key to that box.

Because he didn't know these things, he didn't know the deals Grace made with the devil, and he couldn't know that in those longing dreams, the one who could kiss Grace gradually became another man.