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You don't want me anymore, do you?

The high-speed train passed through the tunnel, and the light through the glass window suddenly dimmed.

Blocks D and F in a certain row held hands, and the built-in lights of the high-speed rail were not turned on. The boy in block F pecked lightly on the corner of the boy's mouth in block D, making up for the regret on the escalator.

Huang Dan and Fei Jin sat in A and C, and they had to chat with the cold-faced old lady in seat B, and they had to be on guard against her fury at any time.

So before the middle one got mad, Fei Jin bought a fruit platter for 35 and changed seats with the old lady.

Huang Dan ignored Fei Jinai on the surface, but due to the boring journey and the extremely poor internet speed, he didn't have time to cache the TV series the night before getting in the car, so he had to chat with him with a smile on his face.

In fact, Huang Dan made the first-hand preparations. Xu Ziqin sits in F, and she sits in A. Both belong to the popular seats by the window of the high-speed rail. When the time comes to get on the train, as long as you discuss with the person in D seat, you can be with Xu Ziqin. Listen to music and enjoy the great rivers and mountains of the motherland outside the window.

Unexpectedly, the plan couldn't keep up with the changes. Xu Ziqin and his brother sat in seat D. She really couldn't muster up the courage to talk about changing seats, so she had to replace the original arrangement of one person listening to love songs with one earphone and holding hands with Fei Jin. , of course just hold hands.

Fortunately, Fei Jin is also not cold-hearted, and occasionally teases her by pointing out the window: "See, that's a watermelon shed with yellow flesh."

Xu Ziqin put dried guava in his bag, and Qin Yang said that it was Wang Zijie who specially asked Aunt Sun to put it in his suitcase before he went abroad.

The suitcase was too big and had to be put on the luggage rack, so when he was in the waiting room, he moved the snacks into his backpack.

Bai Jiang helped him tear open the package, and said, "I'll feed you."

"What are you doing?" Xu Ziqin snatched the packaging bag from his hand, "I'll eat it myself."

"Is that how your cousin fed you before?" Bai Jiang glanced at the passing scene outside the window, "During the Chinese New Year, you also fed me like this, and you even hugged my neck. Do you have any impression?"

Xu Ziqin froze for a moment, chewing the dried guava.

"Your cousin, your cousin will leave you one day, go abroad, go to college, do what they want to do. The ultimate mission of everyone who came to this world is to say goodbye.

Saying goodbye to classmates means stepping into society.Saying goodbye to parents means growing up and becoming mature.Everyone has this phase. " Bai Jiang said lightly.

"What... what do you want to say?" Xu Ziqin only felt that he meant something.

"You have to learn to say goodbye to anyone, but I... will always be by your side." Bai Jiang held his hand, "Also, don't kiss others or be kissed by others, including relatives."

Xu Ziqin remembered Qin Yang kissed him on the forehead before going out, turned his head and said coldly: "That's my mother."

"Chinese people don't have the etiquette of touching hands and touching faces. You are already eighteen, and kissing the face is not suitable for you. It's not that I take care of it too much, I'm protecting you."

Bai Jiang sighed, "There may be nothing between relatives, but some unpopular relatives have other intentions, usually acquaintances commit crimes, just like..."

Xu Ziqin frowned: "Like Li Xun?"

"Yeah." Bai Jiang breathed out, turned around and held his hand tightly, "Xu Ziqin, you are kept spotless, but you are easily taken advantage of by others, and you may not even notice it yourself. It's like someone is hugging you, dear." You, whether intentionally or unintentionally.

These intimate actions will arouse other people's emotions. You don't know what other people are thinking, they will only think that you are so close. Even if you hug and kiss you, you can express care and love to prevaricate and package it. "

The young master hummed blankly, and shook his hand back.

"I don't want you to be hurt any more." Bai Jiang's words came to the end of the conversation between the two.

The guava that was being fed stopped at some point. He didn't sleep all night last night. Xu Ziqin was so sleepy that he only bitten half of the guava in his hand and left half in his mouth. Bai Jiang had no choice but to Lovingly took the other half from the corner of his mouth, put it into a clean cleaning bag, and handed it to the passing cleaning staff.

Arriving at Suzhou North Station at [-]:[-] p.m., the high-speed train stopped and stopped on the way, and a group of students wearing travel agency hats came up, making the carriage noisy.Bai Jiang took two new earplugs from his pocket and stuffed them into Xu Ziqin's ears.

Wearing headphones to listen to Kunshan dialect.

When he was in Huangbeizixiang, he would wear earplugs before going to bed at night. He slept outside the living room. Before dawn in the morning, workers rushed to work after four or five o'clock.

Cranes, concrete mixer trucks, and excavators were working in turns, making him unable to sleep at all due to the noise.It's easy to be irritable when you lack sleep or are woken up midway.

There was a male student sitting in the front row of them in the travel agency. He was not tall and wore a pair of black-rimmed glasses. There were freckles on his cheeks.

When classmate Freckles got up to buy water, he happened to catch a glimpse of Xu Ziqin, and suddenly became interested, pointing at Xu Ziqin and chattering.

Bai Jiang put on his earphones and looked at the golden rice fields outside the window, when he suddenly felt the young master's fingers move.

He turned his head and saw that classmate with freckles was shaking Xu Ziqin's arm. Although he was not awake, his brows were slightly wrinkled and his face was full of displeasure. It was likely that he would wake up if he shook for a while.

Bai Jiang leaned his index finger to his lips and pulled off the earphones: "Is there something wrong?"

I have no eyesight, haven't I seen people sleeping so comfortably?Still shaking there.

Bai Jiang patiently swept over to the side row, Fei Jin and Huang Dan slept in a row.

The freckles glanced at Xu Ziqin, then at Bai Jiang, and said with a smile, "You know him? I thought you weren't familiar with him."

Before finding out the identity of the other party, Bai Jiang intentionally concealed his brother Xu Ziqin's identity: "Well, a classmate."

"My name is Yang Ruyi. I participated in the national mathematics and physics competitions with him before, and the school closed the management of my dormitory with him." Yang Ruyi is also an acquaintance. Seeing Bai Jiang's suspicious expression on his face, he said, "Don't you Looking at me like this, I really know him, why don't you wake him up and ask?"

As he said that, the mentally handicapped student wanted to shake Xu Ziqin's arm again, but Bai Jiang slapped him down.

Are you insane?Why does Xu Ziqin provoke everyone?

Only then did Yang Ruyi say: "He's the master of the training camp. He has good grades and good looks. He likes to eat brown sugar plums. I share a dormitory with him, and I often receive snacks from girls in other classes."

Xu Ziqin's habit of eating brown sugar and plums is really characteristic, Bai Jiang let his guard down on this person.

"It's just weird." After Yang Ruyi took a seat in the front row, she turned her head to chat with Bai Jiang, "The training camp is full of top students from all over the world, and there is a girl from the high school attached to Beijing Normal University who chased him for a training camp.

I ran into her again when I went to Beijing to participate in a high school student forum last month. I said that I had chatted with her on WeChat for almost a year. Every time I came to confess my love, Xu Ziqin would turn to calculus to change the topic. So far, I have not succeeded in solving the problem. "

There was a commotion all around telling cold jokes, Bai Jiang looked at Xu Ziqin thoughtfully, and said leisurely: "Normal, he doesn't like women."

As soon as these words came out, the opponent's jaw almost dropped.

Bai Jiang felt that it was inappropriate to say this, so he hurriedly and embarrassingly added: "It's thanks to such a good seedling to fall in love with a girl early."

Yang Ruyi replied a few times, but she didn't understand the implication of his words at all. She only felt that non-humans with high IQs like Xu Ziqin had a good skin and didn't have much human touch.

Just after five o'clock, the smell of mixed instant noodles wafted from the car. Laotan sauerkraut is unique, and the taste is especially outstanding.

Fei Jin felt his stomach growling and wanted to eat instant noodles, but Huang Dan felt that it was unhealthy to go to the dining car to eat, so Fei Jin had no choice but to obey her.

Xu Ziqin slept soundly, and when Fei Jin and Huang Dan called Bai Jiang to eat, Bai Jiang was worried about letting him sleep alone, and he couldn't bear to wake him up, so he asked them to help bring the meal.

As far as Xu Ziqin's sleep ability is stolen, most of them applaud in a daze.

"Are you really his classmate?" Yang Ruyi watched Fei Jin and Huang Dan leave the carriage, and then glanced at Bai Jiang who had been taking care of Xu Ziqin closely, showing suspicion.

He was indeed too close to Xu Ziqin, and he couldn't hide it even after thinking about it, so Bai Jiang could only change his tone: "I am his brother."

The other party's mouth almost spit out the instant noodles, but Bai Jiang took a magazine to cover Xu Ziqin's face.

Bai Jiang raised his hand: "Listen to me first, half-brother, don't ask the reason, I don't want to say it."

"I understand." The other party finished the instant noodles in one breath, took a sip of soup, and put the instant noodle bucket on the shelf, "Every family has hard-to-read scriptures, and I don't inquire about privacy. Brother Mei, then I have to ask you something."

Yang Ruyi stood up calmly, and the moment Bai Jiang stretched, Yang Ruyi suddenly picked up the magazine in the seat pocket and yelled at his face.

"Snapped!"

Bai Jiangmen was stunned, and with his personality, he almost kicked him in the chest, and yelled, "What the hell are you doing?"

The reality is that this is a public space, it's not good to behave wildly, and it's easy to be detained.

Bai Jiang grabbed his chest and twisted the fabric into a ball: "You'd better explain clearly, otherwise, where do you stop, even if you stop for 5 minutes, I can beat you to the ground, and then I can beat you to the ground before the door closes." Get in the car in seconds."

"You really don't know and still pretend?" Yang Ruyi asked, "What do your parents think? This year's Qingbei summer camp, with his aptitude, casually got an excellent one, ranked first in the grade in the monthly exam, and was sent to Qingbei smoothly. north.

The summer camp teacher had high hopes for him, how could he withdraw temporarily?

I was puzzled, your family is not short of money, right? Qingbei summer camp is where so many top students would dream of getting in, and he said he would quit. Does it mean that we are not strong enough?I still want to compete with him at the summer camp..."

Yang Ruyi clarified the benefits of the summer camp. Most likely, Bai Jiang didn't look like a good student because of his appearance, and he probably didn't even know what the Qingbei summer camp was.

Bai Jiang kept a cold face the whole time, clenched his fists, remained silent, and ignored anyone who approached him halfway.

Suzhou North Railway Station.

Xu Ziqin was awakened by Bai Jiang's shaking, and he ate a boxed lunch after being dizzy from sleep. He didn't remember Yang Ruyi or Wang Jixiang, so he heard him say in a daze, "I'm getting off at Hongqiao North, and I will contact you often in the future."

This is the first time he has come to Suzhou, an ancient cultural city known as "paradise on earth".

Xu Ziqin has been to Hangzhou before, and he and Xu Shangwan went to meet silk customers. The most impressive thing about Hangzhou is the local specialty snack, Erchuan.

It's not that the taste is good, it's just that the name makes him feel strange.A simple bowl is called Pickled Pork Noodles in the local area, but it has to be renamed Pianerchuan, making it mysterious.

The painting and calligraphy competition was held at Soochow University. In order to facilitate the competition and play, the four discussed renting an express hotel near the Suda East Ring Road Station. As the host, Fei Jin was not happy with life and death, and held Xu Ziqin's suitcase and did not let go.

In front of everyone, he joked: "It's all in Suzhou. My cousin's house is half an hour away by subway. Let me do my best as a landlord and live with me. If you don't like to take the subway , at worst, let my cousin send you off for the competition."

It's not that they don't like to take the subway, it's just that there are so many of them, if Fei Jin's parents are better off in Suzhou, it's a little bit inappropriate because of the relationship between cousin and aunt.

Bai Jiang's eyes flashed, he stared at Fei Jin, and in the next second, the shrunken-necked quail resentfully returned the young master's suitcase to its original owner.

Fei Jin mustered up his courage and fought for it one last time. After all, he just accidentally caught Xu Ziqin's eyes full of longing: "Xu Ziqin, you can go live with me. Don't worry, don't bother me. I have a three-bedroom apartment under my name."

Bai Jiang: ...

One minute later, Fei Jin saw Bai Jiang enter the hotel with Xu Ziqin in his arms, without even turning his head, ignoring him at all.

Fei Jin: ...

Bai Jiang: "Don't look at him! It's not that he's longing, it's that he hasn't woken up."

Fei Jin: ...

So poor Fei Jin had no choice but to turn his begging eyes to Huang Dan.

The two stared at each other.

Five minutes later, the four opened three rooms.

In order to live and die with the organization, Fei Jin actually gritted his teeth and stayed in a hotel with them when he arrived at his house, which was unbelievable.

In the twin room, Bai Jiang closed and locked the door, turned on the air conditioner, put the suitcase in the corner, and wiped the desktop and window cabinet inside and out with wet wipes, all in one go.

Xu Ziqin lay down on the bed, and twisted around comfortably on the bed. He was still lazy, so he took off his clothes and planned to take a shower, recharge his batteries, and prepare for the game tomorrow.

"Xu Ziqin..." Bai Jiang knelt down and opened the suitcase, "I didn't bring any clothes, I'll wear yours."

Xu Ziqin took off his shirt, revealing his smooth and firm skin. The light was shining warmly under the overhead light, soft like a kind of polished white jade. Bai Jiang couldn't hold back his saliva, and stared blankly for a long time.

"Don't tell me, it's not like you haven't worn them." Xu Ziqin found a pair of disposable slippers and changed them, "I don't dislike you."

Bai Jiang smiled coldly, picked out two sets of clothes, and hung one on a hanger so that Xu Ziqin could change after taking a shower.

"Brother." Xu Ziqin lay on Bai Jiang's back, rubbing his skin against Bai Jiang's body.

Bai Jiang's temperature rose, and his face was flushed. Xu Ziqin pinched his face mischievously again, "I've made up my mind. I will compete tomorrow morning. If I have time in the afternoon, I can visit Soochow University, experience university life in advance, and eat in the cafeteria together. Going to the playground. It’s like warming up before going to Beijing for university.”

Bai Jiang embraced him, kissed him on the forehead, suddenly hugged him tightly in his arms without warning, and asked decisively: "You...are you not tired living like this?"

"What..." Xu Ziqin was a little confused.

"I read a magazine on the high-speed rail. Merle Sain said that love is not who sacrifices for whom, who does what for whom. Once love becomes like this, it is not love." Bai Jiang hugged he.

"Brother, what's wrong with you?" Xu Ziqin stroked him gently, "That kind of book is not suitable for you, what do you want to read next time, let me recommend it to you."

"Qingbei Summer Camp, you are leaving." Bai Jiang said coldly.

"You know?" Xu Ziqin nodded, "You..."

He was pushed away by a strong brute force, and he staggered and fell on the bed.

Bai Jiang scolded with a cold face: "Xu Ziqin, if I hadn't met Yang Ruyi on the high-speed rail, you would have been planning to keep it from me? Anyway, you think I'm a bastard who can't even pass the second exam. The fuck don't you know anything?"

Bai Jiang smiled as if mocking himself: "I know my grades are poor, but I don't want you to be timid about making any decision because of me. You are younger than me, you are my younger brother, and I am your older brother. I deserve to take care of you, protect you, let you do whatever you want, not let you gamble with your future!

do you understand?Destiny changes at a certain node, and all future choices will change accordingly.

It's not the same as your aunt's stone betting!Changing one stone and getting another one is nothing more than spending money to learn a lesson.I've dragged you down and I'll have a bad conscience for the rest of my life! "

Xu Ziqin rushed over recklessly and hugged him: "Brother."

"Xu Ziqin!" Bai Jiang broke down in tears, "I warn you, don't make fun of your future! This is not a joke."

"Brother." Xu Ziqin wanted to comfort him, "I think..."

Bai Jiang cried hysterically: "I don't want your help. I traded your bright future for the rest of my life of doing nothing. I would rather spend my whole life in the ground! Be a mouse, a cockroach, a bedbug that everyone wants to beat!" !Did you hear that?"

Xu Ziqin held back his tears and didn't speak.

I want to give him a hand, I want to help him.

Senior three, Shen Tiandong, and his cousin were going to study in the UK. If he was escorted, no one would drag his brother forward.

He wanted to work hard with his brother, and didn't want to leave him behind.

Bai Jiang was furious, shaking his chest: "Speak!"

Xu Ziqin closed her eyes, unable to pry her mouth open.

"Did you hear that?" Bai Jiang shook him, as if begging.He had never begged someone so humbly in his life, but he could give up everything for Xu Ziqin. "Speak up! Talk! You, you can't be so stupid in the future."

Bai Jiang pressed firmly on his chest, as if he hated iron but not steel.

He wanted to wake up Xu Ziqin, the stubborn donkey, but when his fists landed on his face many times, he couldn't do it. He had no choice but to shout and growl: "Okay! Since you are so willing to stay No. [-] Middle School, I will transfer to Yucai when school starts, not any school in No. [-] Middle School. Without such a burden like me, you will know what kind of path you should take! What kind of life you should live."

Bai Jiang shook off him and turned around.

Xu Ziqin panicked, didn't even put on his shoes, rushed over from behind and hugged him like a life-saving straw: "Don't! Brother! Don't!"

"Send a message now to re-enroll in the summer camp." Bai Jiang closed his eyes.

Xu Ziqin's hand holding him twitched slightly, but he couldn't do it.

A fist landed on Xu Ziqin's face with a "bang".

Dazed, dizzy.

He knocked over the table, and the teacup rolled to the floor, crackling and shattering into pieces, mixed with the sound of arguing and knocking on the door.

Fei Jin knocked and shouted, "Xu Ziqin! Bai Jiang! Open the door!"

I don't know how long it took, Huang Dan also joined the camp of knocking on the door: "Please explain clearly the grievances and grievances between you brothers, don't fight!"

Bai Jiang sat on Xu Ziqin's body, grabbed his chest, and lifted him up directly, his gaze was like a knife: "I can forgive you for being capricious in normal times! You must listen to me this time!"

He picked up Xu Ziqin's cell phone and approached him: "Send a message!"

"Brother!" Xu Ziqin roared.

Xu Ziqin kicked him away violently and threw the phone on the ground.

The screen is torn apart.

"I won't send it!" roared out a hoarse throat.

"Xu Ziqin!" Bai Jiang's eyes were red and bloodshot, "I tried my best to treat you well, and I gave you all the things I can give you, and I want you to have a smooth life and be happier than me.

It's not for you to humiliate yourself!I asked you to teach me to take the exam well, because I wanted to make myself better and better, so that I would be qualified to stand with you in the future.

Let others know, let others agree that I am your brother Xu Ziqin, not a notorious gangster.I put my words here, but I don't send any news. From today on, I'm not your brother!You are not my brother either! "

Not an older brother, nor a younger brother.

These words seemed to have penetrated into his heart, Xu Ziqin stood there in a daze.

"Not elder brother, not younger brother." Xu Ziqin curled up, "You don't want me anymore, do you?"

Bai Jiang closed his eyes, and there was a loud knock on the door outside.

"Bai Jiang!" Fei Jin yelled, "Xu Ziqin may have just woken up, don't yell at him, did you hear that?"

Bai Jiang was furious, he opened the door and shouted, "I know if he's awake or not!"

After calming down for a moment, he took a breath: "Let's go!"

When he slammed the door shut, Xu Ziqin hugged Bai Jiang's thigh like an abandoned kitten, and said in a very weak but powerless voice, "Brother... don't want me , don't leave me, okay?"

At that moment, Bai Jiang completely collapsed, tears poured out, he knelt down and comforted in a low voice: "I am here, I am here."

He said something serious and regretted it too late, but he didn't know what to do?

Xu Ziqin gave up a recommended spot for him. He was afraid that he would do more irrational things in the future. By then, it would be too late.

"You're right, my cousin is going abroad, and my cousin is going to college, so I'm the only one left."

Xu Ziqin sucked his nose, "Brother, I only have you, don't leave, okay? I was wrong, I don't dare anymore, I will listen to you, as long as you stay, you want you to be my brother. "

Bai Jiang stroked his head: "Can't you sign up?"

After he got angry and Xu Ziqin gritted his teeth and refused to respond, he guessed that he was indifferent even when he said something serious, and he could only show that it was really late.

"Yeah." Xu Ziqin rubbed his head against his chest and put his arms around his neck, "After the time has passed, I can't report."

He was afraid that Bai Jiang would get angry, so he added almost immediately: "Brother, you believe in me, even if I don't have a recommended spot, I can pass the exam. I want to be with you, don't leave, okay?"

Ok……

The light outside the window was dim, Bai Jiang hugged Xu Ziqin to the bed, and the two figures cuddled together under the light.

Breathing evenly and gently, Xu Ziqin's eyes slowly closed under the soothing back and forth.

Bai Jiang let out a long breath, with tears in the corners of his eyes, and kept whispering in his ear.

sorry……

Merle Sain said: Love is not who sacrifices for whom, who does what for whom, once love becomes like this, it is not love.

Brother, do you know?For you, I can sacrifice anything, and I can give up anything, as long as you are my brother.