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In the future, whoever forgets whoever is the grandson!

A pair of huge and blood-veined hands strangled the neck, unable to breathe, powerless.

He wanted to break free, open his eyes, and feel the brightness.But the sense of oppression is like a difficult choice, an inseparable nightmare that has been entangled and pulled him.

Xu Ziqin opened his eyes, and it was still a familiar environment.

The window was bright and clean, the air was filled with the scent of air freshener, his pajamas had been changed, and he was struggling to drink a glass of water from the table while stepping on his slippers.

Voices from outside the room drifted in intermittently.

Qin Yang's crying sound was particularly harsh in the quiet environment, and Xu Ziqin's hand that pushed the door froze in the void, unable to land.

"Why didn't he tell me, why didn't he tell me?"

Qin Yang sobbed, "I'm his mother. He kept this matter a secret for 10 years. Since I took him to Osaka, that scum... After returning to China, Xiaoqin has been depressed. I didn't think about it so much at the time." , I thought it was because he just got off the plane and was not used to it. He is still a child, how could that beast do it! He is a scum!"

"I've already called the police. Falsifying accounts to transfer funds abroad is enough for him to spend time in prison." Fu Annan said coldly.

"I'm incompetent!" Qin Yang was still annoyed, "I thought he could receive the best protection in the Qin family, at least he could have a father and a mother like an ordinary child. Why didn't he tell me! Why? ?”

"Don't get excited." Fu Annan said, "Xiaoqin is kind-hearted and doesn't want you to worry about him."

"But I'm his mother, so I don't worry about him. Who worries about him? I never knew about it for so many years, so he told Xiaojiang alone, Lian Zijie never said anything about it."

Qin Yang wiped away his tears, "I always thought he was ignorant. He played against me. He didn't like Japanese food. I dragged him to eat. I asked that bastard to bring him food so that they could get along well. In the end, it was I pushed him into the fire pit."

Qin Yang took a deep breath: "I promised, the Qin family has broken up, aren't you and your dad rushing to raise him? I agreed."

Xu Ziqin was taken aback.

"I didn't do it on a whim." Qin Yang said, "I won't let him live in that room any longer. As long as I think about that night... I will have lingering fears. You are a good person. I believe you will treat Xiaoqin well."

The autumn wind was rustling that day, with bursts of coolness.

After putting Xu Ziqin's luggage into the trunk, Uncle Fu reluctantly squeezed Xu Ziqin's shoulder: "Let's go."

Xu Ziqin stood there for 5 minutes without waiting for Qin Yang to appear. When the old man downstairs in the neighborhood walked by him with three corgis, a larger corgi rubbed against his leg. Crap, he glanced down.

Big-eyed Corgi looked at him with his tongue out, Xu Ziqin touched the dog's head affectionately, and hugged him: "Are you reluctant to part with me?"

Xu Ziqin sat in the back row, and the tall buildings fell backwards. He leaned peacefully on the seat, and on his phone was the WeChat message Qin Yang left during dinner yesterday.

【Mom: Xiaoqin, mom loves you. 】

Ever since Li Xun was imprisoned, Qin Yang has been very careful with Xu Ziqin. She even found someone to take care of her in the coffee shop. nanny.

The night before leaving, Qin Yang held Xu Ziqin's hand in his sleep, tears in his eyes: "Mom doesn't want you too, but mother can't take care of you anymore. When you go to Uncle Fu's house, he will give everything to you and make up for the past." What I owe you for 18 years. If you want to go home in the future, come back and see your mother."

When the car slowly drove into the villa area, Xu Ziqin kept holding his mobile phone, waiting for Qin Yang's text message, even if he said to take care of himself, he could feel at ease.

Xu Ziqin understood that if he and Qin Yang lived together again, she would think of that pervert Li Xun whenever she saw herself, and then blamed herself for all the faults, and she would live in regret and self-blame forever.

Only by leaving temporarily and giving her the space to live alone, will she come out slowly.

The car door was opened, and a middle-aged nanny lifted the luggage from the trunk, and said respectfully: "The young master is back."

The sound caught Xu Ziqin off guard, and he just stood in the yard in a daze for a while.

Fu Annan gave the key to the driver to park the car, then put his arm around his shoulder, winked at the nanny, and let her go in first.

Various roses were planted in the small yard of the villa, and the soil had been refurbished. This batch of roses should have just been planted to welcome him.

Xu Ziqin folded a white rose playfully, played with it in his hand, and forcibly inserted a memory without any warning.

That night, he and Bai Jiang leaned on the lawn full of rose bushes, looking up at the summer starry sky.

"I did it on purpose. I rode the motorcycle on purpose just to be with you alone. When I came here, I passed by this piece of grass and thought, if we two were here to feel the tranquility of summer, it would be great. I didn't come out with you today Picnic, but being able to lie here with you all night is a pleasure."

"You, you said, you have something to do with me at night, what's the matter?"

"Do you want to know? Then I'll tell you!"

The unexpected kiss landed on the corner of his lips, Xu Ziqin suddenly withdrew his hand, and was pricked by Rose.

He bowed and sat down on a small stone bench in the rose bush, looking at the bright moon in the sky, thoughtful.

Taking advantage of the watery moonlight, Fu Annan brought two glasses of wine, one of which dangled in front of him.

Xu Ziqin pinched the stem of the cup and looked at him with big round eyes.

"It's okay to be an adult, drink some wine." After that, Uncle Fu drank the wine, watched Xu Ziqin take a sip, and smiled so hard that his teeth could not see his eyes, "Is it your mother who didn't send you? Have the heart, I'm afraid I won't be able to bear you after sending you off."

"Uncle Fu." Xu Ziqin shook the goblet, and the red wine hanging on the glass worked well, "You found me that night. Have you met him? Did he tell you?"

"Yeah." Fu Annan nodded heavily, "He said that before he went to Changsha, he asked Zijie to bring you a message. Your cousin should be angry that he didn't bring it, so let me bring it to you."

The moonlight became dignified, black clouds shrouded the moonlight, and the autumn wind was blowing, bringing a sense of coolness.

The nanny who was just carrying Xu Ziqin's luggage in the lobby of the villa was always watching every move of the two in the courtyard.

Seeing Xu Ziqin shrunk, he rubbed his hands, and hurriedly found a woolen blanket from the sofa to cover him.

"Thank you." Xu Ziqin nodded in greeting.

The nanny was flattered, bowed and left with a smile.

Xu Ziqin felt that he hadn't smiled so sincerely for a long time, maybe his mentality had changed, and he was not as lively, cheerful and confident as before.

In the first and second grades of high school, before entering the examination room, he was able to tell everyone with confidence: "It is safe to be the first in the school."

In the third year of high school, he never said a word of nonsense.

In the past, there was Wang Zijie and his elder brother, Xu Ziqin could put his arms around their shoulders affectionately, and said with a smile: "I got the first place in the exam, what's the reward?"

The cousin would applaud, and then caught off guard and yelled on his head: "I reward you with a slap! I'm counting down in the class, so you're trying to get mad at me, right?"

And his brother would hold his wrist and run on the school path, the jingle ring ringing, the two of them hid behind the small black room on the school playground, and Bai Jiang lightly smacked his face: "Reward!" A kiss from my lovely boyfriend."

Now the only one around him who can talk is Fei Jin.

The two occasionally chatted in and out of class, and more often they were talking about topics.Xu Ziqin even felt that there seemed to be no difference between the first and the last in the exam.

He failed the exam, Qin Yang treated him well as always, and didn't scold him.But Da Ya sighed helplessly when he had no choice but to pass the exam.

"I respect your opinion." Uncle Fu looked at Xu Ziqin, "If you want to hear it, I'll tell you."

Xu Ziqin couldn't make up his mind.

He is suspicious, curious, even timid.

He didn't know what Bai Jiang had said to him, was there something unspeakable behind his brother's decisive words at the milk tea shop?I couldn't say it at the time, so I have to wait until now?

Is he just so distrustful of himself, not firm, not decisive?

"I love you, so you go forward, I will always protect you from behind, if you like someone else, I will bless you."

The moment Bai Jiang's familiar voice came from Uncle Fu's cell phone, his eye sockets were unbelievably red.

It was the voice he had been dreaming of for half a year, even if he said "I'm sorry" or "Forgive me", Xu Ziqin would eagerly tell Uncle Fu that he wanted to see him, even if he hugged him.

After waiting for so long, did you only get a few words like this?

The Fu family villa is much bigger than Bishuiwan. Maybe Uncle Fu designed the room carefully in order to provide him with a high-quality environment. At night, the lighting on the ground can project the stars of the universe on the ceiling. I saw a clear, sparkling lake.

The nanny who delivered meals to him every day was surnamed Liu, and the menu was completely different. Everyone in the Fu family tried their best to please him.

"Aunt Liu, you can call me Xiaoqin from now on." Xu Ziqin raised his eyelids after eating a piece of steak, Aunt Liu thoughtfully handed him the juice, wishing he could feed him with his own hands.

"This... is against the rules." Aunt Liu said in a low voice, "Master has ordered that the family members are not allowed to bark indiscriminately."

Xu Ziqin took a sip of juice: "You can call in private, I won't make things difficult for you."

Xu Ziqin's attitude was very firm. Aunt Liu was obviously embarrassed and in a dilemma, but in order to please him, the nanny nodded and called him Xiaoqin awkwardly.

After living in Fu's house, except for Uncle Fu and Grandpa Fu occasionally calling him this name, Xu Ziqin felt that the word "Xiaoqin" was getting farther and farther away from him, so far away that it seemed to be something in his previous life.

"Can you talk to me?" Xu Ziqin wiped his mouth, sat on the window sill, and looked at the roses all over the yard.

Aunt Liu sat on the ground respectfully, not daring to sit on a stool. Xu Ziqin moved one for her, fearing that his legs would get cold, but she didn't resist, and sat down fearfully.

"Before, I lived in Bishuiwan and had an aunt who took care of me since I was in elementary school, and then she returned to her hometown.

Aunt Sun is very similar to you. When we first met, she was so reserved.Later, after staying with me for a long time and getting acquainted, she took care of me.

Leave the first delicious one to me every time.My cousin always said she was eccentric.When I saw you, I couldn't help but think of her. I'm sorry. "

"Xiao Shao..." Aunt Liu blurted out, and immediately changed her name, "Xiao...Xiaoqin, I will come to deliver dinner in the future. If you are bored, just talk to me. I'm afraid you will be suffocated by yourself."

"Do you discriminate against homosexuals?" Aunt Liu was taken aback by Xu Ziqin's sudden words.

"I am." Xu Ziqin smiled, "Do you think this is a disease? I thought it was when I was a child."

"But at the age of 17, there was a man who pulled me down this abyss, but he ran away halfway."

Xu Ziqin looked at the rose bushes that were blowing in the wind, "We used to like each other when we were brothers, but when we are not brothers, he will be scared instead."

After the second semester of the third year of high school begins, it is a busy countdown.

There is no holiday, no hilarity, and the classroom is dead silent.When you are tired, lie down and rest for a while, and when you have enough energy, you will get up confidently and fight again. The college entrance examination is like this.

Xu Ziqin didn't fall asleep at three o'clock last night, and started to doze off early in the morning. After being woken up by Big Tooth, he listened to several lectures in a daze, his mind wandering the whole time.

"Xu Ziqin!" When Fei Jin slapped him on the back, he got up and swept back.

Seeing that Fei Jin was winking at him intently, he felt a chill from his side, and raised his eyelids to see that the goatee was staring at him with wide eyes, as if he wanted to kill someone.

The bell rang for the end of get out of class, and Xu Ziqin was taken to the office by Mediterranean Sea. The director pointed to the math test paper for the weekly exam.

The huge 95 points on the top is shocking, and there are several big questions behind without a single word, as if you didn’t see it.

Mediterranean took the test paper: "Okay, you've grown your skills. You can fall from the first place in the school to just pass in mathematics. You don't think studying is important. If you love learning, you can learn, and if you don't like learning, just throw it away, right?"

Xu Ziqin stared blankly at the bonsai and succulents on the Mediterranean table, motionless.

"Speak!" Mediterranean was furious, "I know something is wrong with your family. There are still more than two months left before the college entrance examination. Fei Jin can get more than 630 points in the exam. You taught it by yourself, but you are wandering around with 550 points. Do you want to rebel?"

"I want to go abroad." When Xu Ziqin was eating, his words shocked both Uncle Fu and Grandpa Fu.

The pupils of the two suddenly dilated, which was unbelievable.

"Give me a reason." Fu Annan put down his chopsticks and looked at the motionless Xu Ziqin, feeling distressed.

He knew that Xu Ziqin was not having a good time these days.He eats well, dresses well, and looks like the carefree young master in Bishuiwan, but his mentality has changed.

Become indifferent, become less talkative, and less fond of laughing.

He heard from Aunt Liu that Xu Ziqin had been in a bad state, and he was very depressed. When he had nothing to do, he looked at the rose flowers outside the window, and his mind seemed to be covered with a layer of haze, which could not be dispelled.Aunt Liu has expressed her concerns more than once.

She was afraid that Xu Ziqin would jump off the window sill one day.

Xu Ziqin stopped the chopsticks in his hand: "I want to go abroad for a while, by myself, find a brand new school, and have a brand new start."

Fu Sheng's complexion was not right, and he suppressed his emotions. From before the meal until Xu Ziqin spoke just now, he vented his inner unwillingness and anger.

He has been working hard in the mall for so many years, and the people he has met are like crucian carp crossing the river.Fu Sheng's methods were vigorous and resolute, but he had nothing to do with Xu Ziqin.

Xu Ziqin is his own grandson, he can't sit idly by, and he can't have any resentment, he only blames himself for making a wrong decision to give his grandson to the Qin family, which made him become so lifeless now.

"If it wasn't for the Qin family, how could a good-looking child become like this!"

Fu Sheng sighed, and after looking at each other with Fu Annan, the two finally made up their minds, "It's okay to go abroad, I'll find you a psychiatrist in New York to take care of you personally. If you have any problems in the future, he will report them as soon as possible. Can you accept your situation?"

Xu Ziqin raised his head, Fu Sheng's eyes were full of arrogance and indifference, and he was not given a choice.

Find a psychiatrist, one can take care of his diet and daily life in a foreign country, and the other can help him get out of the shadows as soon as possible.Maybe after returning from abroad, people will change.

The psychiatrist is the youngest son of Fu Sheng's partner, Chinese-American, and half of them are of American descent.After dinner, Uncle Fu pushed the psychiatrist's WeChat account to him.

However, what surprised Xu Ziqin even more was that in addition to WeChat, he also pushed a photo.

Big eyes, sapphire blue pupils, high nose bridge, well-proportioned figure, he is a very typical mixed-race handsome guy, with a gentle nobility and well-read elegance in his brows.

Xu Ziqin also made a rough guess about the operation of pushing WeChat with photos.Fu Sheng and Fu Annan knew about Xu Ziqin's sexual orientation, so they specially found someone who was eye-catching.

Moreover, this person is the son of Fu Sheng's cooperative enterprise, and the family business and power behind it can be imagined.

It feels like pairing him up in advance.

Qin Yang took Xu Ziqin through the procedures for dropping out of school. Fei Jin and Liu Shen held him and cried for a long time: "You don't even take the college entrance examination, what kind of brother are you!"

In order to leave him a memory, a few good friends hosted a farewell party for him. A group of people drank so drunk that Xu Ziqin was also drunk and vomited several times while holding the toilet.

"Our fraternity will be brothers all our lives!" Fei Jin raised his glass, "Come on! Whoever forgets whoever will be the grandson!"

Cheers!

That night, talking and laughing, crying and making noise.

The best brother group in Class Two, Grade Two, broke up completely with Xu Ziqin's departure.

Some people went to the UK, some went to the United States, some went to Changsha, some were repeated and went to the art class, and some stayed in the second class to defend their positions.

In the final analysis, it was all for the sake of the other party's loved one lingering on.

At the age of 18, we also yearned for tomorrow and the future, looking forward to the infinite possibilities in the future, and also longing for unknown encounters and turning points.

That night, Xu Ziqin also received a WeChat message from a Chinese-American psychologist.

[M: My name is Michael, you can call me Mike. 】

Xu Ziqin replied in a daze.

【Scutellaria: My name is... Xu Ziqin, you call me...】

[M: Xiaoqin, I know you like men, and I like them too. You look so cute. When you come to New York, take care of me. 】

Xu Ziqin suddenly became sober like a thunderclap.

What?