Disciplinary Guidelines

During the last period before coming out, the atmosphere in Ji Yao's house reached a freezing point.

Even when Ji Yao lived back home, he couldn't dispel the doubts of Ji's father and mother. They were like victims of delusional patients. While suspecting that Ji Yao was gay, they didn't want to accept this fact.

This kind of contradictory emotional conflict catalyzed fear and anger, so that as long as Ji Yao stayed alone in the room for half an hour with the door closed, Ji's father and mother would definitely find a chance to open the door and come in to have a look.

Father Ji didn't allow him to lock the door. When he was in a good mood, he would find a reason to give him some fruit. When he was in a bad mood, he would simply kick the door in to see what he was doing.

After Ji Yao's aura of "good boy" faltered, Ji's father completely lost his trust in him, and he could only feel at ease by taking his life into his own hands even more.

At that time, Ji's father and mother were keen on arranging blind dates for him. On the worst day, he met four girls from morning to night. Ji Yao himself didn't know why there were so many single young women of the right age in his parents' network. , it seems that no matter how many times he sees in one day, there are always new ones waiting for him the next day.

For a while, he even felt that he was a commodity, being exhibited everywhere by his parents and mother, so that he could talk about the price with various people.

The memory of that time was repeated mechanically, and Ji Yao couldn't remember the specific details clearly. He only remembered the suffocating and heavy feeling, as if he was slowly pushed into a pool of water, and he would not drown immediately. , but die of dull hopelessness.

From childhood to adulthood, Ji Yao never left home.In order to live a "stable" life, Father Ji chose for him the path of continuous undergraduate, master, and doctoral studies. This path is smooth and open, without setbacks, and without intertwined and rugged branches.

So in the past twenty years of his life, Ji Yao has developed a fixed logic of thinking under the influence of the environment and life experience.

For him at that time, there were only two paths before him. One was to break up with Jiang Heng, obediently stay at home from then on, obey his parents, stretch the front, and re-cultivate trust; the other was to solve the problem. Let them completely believe that everything is just a misunderstanding.

At that time, Ji Yao was shaken and panicked about his intimate relationship with Jiang Heng, but he didn't want to break up anyway, so he subconsciously chose the second option.

Ji Yao knew that he was a born gay, no matter from the psychological or physical point of view, he would not have the slightest sympathy for the opposite sex, so he didn't intend to harm the girl from a good family.

But for Ji's father and Ji's mother, if they want to prove his sexual orientation in a short time, it seems that this is the only extreme way to go.

So Ji Yao tossed and turned at home with insomnia for three whole days, and finally came up with a "genius" solution.

——He anonymously posted a solicitation post on the campus forum.

He wrote vaguely in his post, but the general idea was that he wanted to recruit Les couples in the school, and prepared to "override each other's difficulties".

Ji Yao has been gay for so many years, and has a lot of friends in the gay circle, but he has never met les friends.So I can only treat the dead horse as a living horse doctor, and go to the omnipotent campus forum to find a way.

He didn't report any hope at first, but three days later, Liu Mianmian became the dead mouse that the blind cat ran into, and took the initiative to add Ji Yao's WeChat.

"When she first added me, she thought I was also les." Ji Yao said softly: "It turned out that I was a man, and she misunderstood that I was here to fish and enforce the law. Later, I explained for a long time before she believed that I was Nice guy."

Coincidentally, Liu Mianmian was also in trouble at that time—she was not in danger of her sexual orientation being discovered, but her parents were a pair of very conservative rural parents who believed in the belief that "no one will want a girl after 25." ", so they are frantically urging her to go on a blind date and get married.

Liu Mianmian's father had a history of high blood pressure. She didn't dare to come out to stimulate her family, and she didn't want to give up her girlfriend who had been together for many years, so she happened to be a pair of difficult brothers and sisters with Ji Yao.

"So later, I showed her to my parents, saying that I actually already had a girlfriend, but the family conditions were not good, and I was afraid they would disagree, so I kept silent." Ji Yao said: "I told Liu Mianmian has made a deal, when the time comes, get married first, and then you can leave home as a matter of course. After graduation, as long as you have your own life, then you can get a divorce. But I regretted the marriage directly, and she took this by the way Chance cried, made trouble, and hanged herself, saying that she would commit suicide after losing confidence in men, and her parents believed her, so they never dared to urge her again."

"The reason for the divorce." Jiang Heng asked lightly: "You don't think it's as simple as a certificate, do you?"

Of course Ji Yao had thought about this reason, he and Liu Mianmian used the seriousness comparable to graduation in order to fool their parents.They took out the rigor of writing a thesis to ponder the feasibility of this matter, and wrote a false "memorandum of love", silently recited all the situations and coping methods that might be asked by the parents of both parties.

Physical marriage is a last resort, but divorce is obviously a more important part.Liu Mianmian was here to help Ji Yao, so Ji Yao took the initiative to get this bad reputation.

"I've thought about it." Ji Yao gritted his teeth and said frankly, "Just say I can't do it."

Jiang Heng: "..."

It's quite an open mind, Jiang Heng thought.

According to Ji Yao's prediction, his predicament can be solved simply by getting married - if they are lucky and their parents are not strict, then maybe they don't even need to get a marriage certificate, and just hold a wedding banquet to hide the truth.

At that time, he and Liu Mianmian will separate and do their own things. As long as they cover each other regularly, they will divorce when the time comes. It's no big deal.

"And I have signed an agreement with her." Ji Yao said softly, "Even if the certificate is obtained, it will take up to one year for our divorce agreement to take effect."

"Really." Jiang Heng hooked the corners of his lips slightly, and stabbed him half-heartedly: "I said, how can a person like you suddenly be willing to wear a collar around your neck? You are obviously unwilling to take responsibility. An evasive personality, and the courage to touch any kind of marriage—"

"Jiang Heng." Ji Yao interrupted him, he fixedly looked into Jiang Heng's eyes, and asked seriously, "Are you jealous?"

Jiang Heng choked for a moment, a bit of pierced anger appeared on his face, his eyes flickered for a moment, and he avoided the question.

"Fake marriage, do you know how many legal hidden dangers there are in it." Jiang Heng said: "If you meet someone who can play, you will die after divorce."

Looking at his blunt character, Ji Yao was both funny and distressed, so he didn't fight with him, and he didn't talk about his "careful" plan at that time.

Because he suddenly discovered that those were not what Jiang Heng wanted to hear.

Perhaps growing up is a process of constantly overthrowing oneself, Ji Yao suddenly thought.

The same thing looks completely different in the eyes of 25-year-old Ji Yao and 29-year-old Ji Yao.

Just like when he didn't have the concept of "leaving home" in his mind at all, but after he really took that step, he would find that independence is not that difficult.

In the three years since he left his hometown, he has reborn from the stupid simplicity of the ivory tower, and has been honed by the society to understand more about the world.

At that time, Ji Yao thought he had a genius idea, but when he mentioned it now, he himself felt extremely naive.

Perhaps because of family reasons, he has no respect for marriage. For him, it is just the most efficient way to solve his predicament.

But marriage is not a procedure, a means, but a responsibility and a symbol.

Ji Yao didn't understand this matter before, until he heard Jiang Heng confide his heart on the terrace of Zhou Qingbai's bar last time, he realized that this matter had a completely different nature to Jiang Heng.

Even if he knew that he hadn't really been betrayed, he still cared about the meaning of marriage itself—but thinking about it, in life, all the beautiful words themselves are actually given by "meaning".

It was also from then on that Ji Yao truly and clearly felt regret.

"I'm sorry." Ji Yao said.

He really wanted to apologize, after all, no matter how ugly the trouble was back then, it was his first mistake after all.

Jiang Heng's eyelashes trembled very slightly, and his gaze shifted a little subconsciously, and landed on a dead creeper outside the car window.

"...It's all over." After a while, Jiang Heng sighed, the frost on his face melted a little, and finally he had a little freshness: "When you are young, no one is mature. You did something wrong , My way of handling it is also ill-considered, so don't bring up old scores."

Ji Yao hummed, but he pursed his lips, and still couldn't help but want to ask: "If I told you at that time that she and I were only married by form, would you still break up with me?"

"If we get married, we will." Jiang Heng said quickly.

Ji Yao is not surprised by this answer. For Jiang Heng, he can tolerate many things, but once the bottom line is touched, he will not back down even a single step.

Ji Yao couldn't tell whether he was lost or what, he nodded, and could only say palely and weakly: "It won't happen in the future, I promise."

Jiang Heng finally turned his eyes back, he looked at Ji Yao who was close at hand, and reached out to touch his face.

"I believe in you." Jiang Heng seemed to have adjusted his mood. He hooked the corners of his lips, and his tone rose slightly: "If I don't have confidence in you in this matter, then we won't sit down." Talk here."