Xijian

13

"Ka! No, it's still not right, Xiao Zong, come here, and I'll talk to you again."

Zong Yingchi was also exhausted after using the N machine more than a dozen times in a row. He got off the prop bed, his face was covered with sweat, and the makeup artist immediately came up to touch up his makeup.

The director pointed to a part of the script and said to him: "Look at this passage again, what do you think Zhang Chi is thinking at this moment?"

Zong Yingchi remained silent, he didn't know what he was thinking until now.

The director showed him the replay just now: "Did you see it? What is this state? He died heroically? No, Xiao Zong, how could he have such a reaction?"

"Zhang Chi is talented? He is only 17 years old this year. Does he have such great willpower? He doesn't know what happened. Isn't he afraid? His family is so rich, and his parents doted on him since he was a child. Isn't he afraid of being sent to the correctional facility?"

"It's right to struggle, it's right to resist, but you acted too strong. Did you think he was very strong after seeing his interaction with Wen Shao before? Forcibly kissing in the toilet, is this a sign of strength? No! This is precisely a sign of insecurity."

"The root of Zhang Chi's persistence until now is Wen Shao. He feels that Wen Shao is waiting for him. He can go back to find Wen Shao after he survives. But what about Wen Shao? Does Wen Shao really like him?"

Zong Yingchi raised his head abruptly.

"Think about it, Zhang Chi. In this relationship, Wen Shao has never taken the initiative. What kind of mentality did he get together with you? Has he ever talked about why he likes you? Has he talked to you about the future? Was he nervous when the head teacher said he was going to adjust the seats?"

"Wen Shao is about to take the college entrance examination, and his grades can impact Qingbei. When it is so important, he still cares about you?"

"Wen Shao has no shortage of suitors, so what if you don't have Zhang Chi? As long as he wants to, he can find another boyfriend the next day. What are you Zhang Chi?"

Zong Yingchi became anxious, he accidentally wiped off the makeup on his face with his hand, and the makeup artist hurried up to touch it up again.

"But did you give up just like that? No, at least not at this time. Wen Shao is your only spiritual pillar now. You still have to persevere. You will not let go of your life and death. While desperate and afraid, you will grit your teeth and persevere until you are corrected. So 'treatment' into a 'normal person'."

The director closed the script and asked Zong Yingchi, "Do you understand now?"

14

In a very old building in the correctional facility, Zhang Chi was lying on a hospital bed. He saw the ceiling wall crack like a cobweb, as if it was about to fall off at any time.

The light above his head suddenly dimmed, and six faces that could not be seen clearly pressed down his slack limbs, and another person covered his mouth with a cloth.

A sharp stabbing pain came from his temple suddenly, Zhang Chi's whole body convulsed, his scream was trapped in Buri, soundless pain.

A devilish voice sounded overhead.

"Do you still like men?"

Zhang Chi's mouth was temporarily free, and his temples were still twitching and aching, but he still stubbornly said: "I like it!"

"Well!!!"

It was as if ten thousand needles had been pierced into the brain from the temples, and the wide-open eyes almost jumped out of their sockets, and the veins on the forehead and neck suddenly burst out.

"Give you another chance, do you like men or women?"

"Wen Shao, Wen Shao!"

"Is Wen Shao a man or a woman?"

"Man... ah———————————————————————————!"

Zhang Chi's eyes went dark, and for a moment, he thought his mind was broken, but in the next moment, he had another thought: Why did he still remember Wen Shao's name even though his mind was broken?

"Do you know what's wrong?"

"Wen Shao... um——!"

The crack in the ceiling seemed to be getting bigger, and the roof was about to crack and fall down.

"Do you still like men?"

"Wen... ahhh!!!"

Why hasn't the roof collapsed yet.

15

Zong Yingchi has suffered from insomnia for several days, his condition is not very good, and he has no experience, the progress of the filming is very slow, Ye Shaohuai can still lead him to act, now he can only rely on himself.

And the slower the progress, the more Zong Yingchi can't get out of the show, the worse the state is, and the next day he continues to NG, which has become a vicious circle.

Zong Yingchi lay on the bed until 02:30 in the morning, unable to fall asleep. He turned on his phone and searched for Ye Shaohuai habitually.

Ye Shaohuai had been away from the film crew for almost a week, and some media released an interview with him, and Zong Yingchi couldn't wait to join in.

In the interview, Ye Shaohuai was wearing a formal white shirt and black suit pants, but because the collar was unbuttoned and the sleeves were rolled up to the elbows, he looked very casual.In fact, as long as he sits there, he will give people a sense of peace of mind.

Reporter: "May I ask why Mr. Ye chose "Xijian"? After all, it is a homosexual movie, and the scale is relatively large. It seems that it can't be released in China?"

Ye Shaohuai: "I want to try more new roles. I have acted until now, and the roles I have received are all positive, with no personality flaws, but I really want to play some different roles, such as "Xijian" Yes, or some villains, minor characters in the market or something. Also, due to some personal reasons, I owe a favor to the director of "Xijian", so..."

The reporter laughed: "This is the real reason in the end, Mr. Ye?"

Ye Shaohuai also laughed, and rolled down and up the sleeve of his left hand: "Hey, don't say it."

Zong Yingchi frowned when he saw this.

Ye Shaohuai is such a person with a good temper and no airs. He will be shy when joking with him, and will blush when he is shy. Zong Yingchi has been with him on the set for more than two months, and he already knows him very well.

Reporter: "I heard that the new idol Zong Yingchi will play opposite you this time. What do you think of him?"

Zong Yingchi sat up nervously.

Ye Shaohuai hardly thought about it, and quickly replied: "He is very good, very good, he can perform so well for the first time in acting, I appreciate him very much."

Zong Yingchi's face turned hot, feeling a little embarrassed.In fact, his ability to enter the role of Zhang Chi so quickly has nothing to do with his acting skills. He and Zhang Chi have the same personality, so he is not acting at all, but just experiencing another life under the camera.

The reporter asked again: "Please allow me to gossip secretly, does your lover have no objection to your filming this kind of theme?"

Zong Yingchi froze.

"Her." A strange expression appeared on Ye Shaohuai's face.

At this time, the interview cut into a video, the picture resolution is a bit low, and it looks like it was shot with a mobile phone.

At the beginning of the camera, Ye Shaohuai's lover Chu Qiu is lying on the sofa, covering his face and screaming excitedly.

Then came Ye Shaohuai's voice: "What are you doing?"

Chu Qiu didn't put on makeup, but she still looked good without makeup. She covered her mouth and laughed non-stop: "I've got it, I've got it..."

"What knocked? What are you looking at?"

Chu Qiu turned the phone to the camera. It was a still photo of "Xi Jian", a photo of Zhang Chi and Wen Shao kissing for the first time in the corridor.

"Tsk." Ye Shaohuai's voice was full of helplessness, "Please, I'm your husband, okay, your first reaction when you saw me kissing someone was to bump into it?"

Chu Qiu didn't care, and laughed even louder: "I can't help it, it's too high hahaha..."

I don't know what expression Ye Shaohuai made on the camera, Chu Qiu's smile subsided a lot, and she seemed to reach out to touch Ye Shaohuai's head.

"Are you angry? Why are you still angry? Okay, okay, touch your head, don't be angry, in fact, I'm jealous, I'm so jealous..."

Zong Yingchi clicked exit before the end of the video. He sat quietly on the bed with his head down for a while, then rushed to the safe, took out the little brown bear stuffed inside, and took out the card in the little bear's pocket with shaking hands. sticky note.

[I wish Xiaochi: everything goes well and work smoothly——Ye Shaohuai]

Fourteen short and cold words, alienated and polite, accurately summed up the entire relationship between him and Ye Shaohuai.

Zong Yingchi suddenly thought of the first time they met on the set.

"Brother Shao." Zong Yingchi shook hands with Ye Shaohuai, his heart beating fast.

Ye Shaohuai asked him: "Zong Yingchi, right, have you ever been in love?"

Zong Yingchi shook his head in embarrassment: "No."

"Is that your first love?" Ye Shaohuai blinked at him with a playful and cute expression, "It's okay, brother will teach you how to fall in love."

……

Zong Yingchi couldn't stand anymore.

He held the pink sticky note tightly in his palm, and fell to his knees bit by bit. The little bear doll was still smiling at him. Zong Yingchi stared at it for a while, then suddenly burst into tears.

16

One month later, Zhang Jun and Wang Qinglan came to the correctional center to visit Zhang Chi.

All the children in the correctional center wore camouflage uniforms from military training, and so did Zhang Chi.He was brought into the meeting room by two men called "counselors". He was thin, his expression was in a trance, and his eyes were numb. The moment he saw Zhang Jun and Wang Qinglan, he suddenly rushed towards them like crazy, and shouted: " Dad! Mom! Help me! They abused me! I'm dying, I'm dying! Let me out! Please, Dad—Mom—”

However, the "counselor" in front of him stopped him.

Zhang Jun and Wang Qinglan were taken aback and stood up from their chairs, but then a middle-aged man in a white coat who looked like a doctor beside them waved his hands at them: "Don't panic, the child will go to bed after suffering a little bit." It's normal to go home, you guys sit down first, Zhang Chi also sits down, let's have a good chat together."

"Dad...Mom...help me..." Zhang Chi's arms were twisted, he looked up at his parents in front of him, tears streaming down his face.

But Zhang Jun and Wang Qinglan just looked at him in panic.

The "counselor" guided Zhang Chi to sit opposite Zhang Jun and Wang Qinglan.

The middle-aged man asked Zhang Chi gently: "Come on, tell your parents, do you still like men?"

Zhang Chi shook his head slowly.

"Do you still like Wen Shao?"

Zhang Chi struggled unconsciously, then continued to shake his head.

"That's right." The middle-aged man sighed in relief, turned to Zhang Jun and Wang Qinglan and said, "Are you still worried? This is only a month's effect, but you have also seen it. I’m still a little unconvinced, and after another six months of treatment here, there should be no problem.”

There were tears in Zhang Chi's eyes, he stared at Zhang Jun and Wang Qinglan, watched them smile in relief, bowed gratefully to the man, and closed his eyes in despair.

After Zhang Jun and Wang Qinglan left, Zhang Chi was sent to the electric shock treatment room again, and then thrown into the confinement room like a pile of garbage.

The confinement room was small and cramped, with no lights, only a skylight the size of a head, tightly sealed by iron railings, where the children locked up ate, drank and slopped, and the whole room was filled with a stench.

The "counselor" threw Zhang Chi into the confinement room, kicked him twice before leaving, and called him a perverted homosexual.

Zhang Chi lay motionless on the ground, as if dead.

At dinner, the "counselor" gave him a bowl of mushy vegetable porridge through the small opening under the door.

Zhang Chi didn't eat, he poured out the rice, broke a small piece of the plastic bowl with force, and scratched his wrist with the not-so-sharp sharp corner.

A quarter of an hour later, the "counselor" who collected the bowl found something abnormal, and they called the "doctor" to check Zhang Chi's injury. Stretching and poking the main artery in the neck, what are you doing? Painting tattoos? This little injury won’t kill you, bandage it up, and finish the confinement tonight first.”

The confinement room was quiet again, Zhang Chi lay quietly on the dirty floor, feeling the dull pain in his wrist.

Through the skylight, he saw the stars in the night, and remembered the scene of going home with Wen Shaofang after studying in the evening.

However, when the word "Wen Shao" appeared in his mind, there was a sudden sharp pain in his temple, and Zhang Chi curled up and felt like retching.

That terrible voice rang in my ears again.

Do you still like men?

Zhang Chi shrank into a small ball and shivered: "I don't like it anymore."

Do you still like Wen Shao?

"I don't like it anymore."

17

Zong Yingchi had a fever and was hospitalized.

There is a scene in "Xijian" that Zhang Chi was bullied by other children in the correctional center. They locked him in the men's room and beat him, and poured cold water on him. Zong Yingchi, wearing thin short-sleeves, endured for two hours in the late autumn weather.

After the drip, Zong Yingchi fell asleep in a daze, and in his dream he returned to the days when he and Ye Shaohuai were filming the campus drama.

In the past, Ying Chi was the first to rush out with a basketball in his physical education class, but after getting together with Ye Shaohuai, the two of them often disappeared together. The classmates in the class arranged for a basketball game and wanted to ask them to hold the field, but no one was there. less than one.

In the empty equipment room, Zong Yingchi pressed Ye Shaohuai against the corner and kissed him forcefully.

Ye Shaohuai's light-colored eyes were wet, like a deer, Zong Yingchi couldn't help kissing his eyes, deliberately bullied him and said, "Why do you look at me like this, do you like me?"

Ye Shaohuai blushed and nodded frankly: "I like..."

Zong Yingchi was going crazy.

However, when he wanted to go further, the scene in front of him suddenly became distorted.

Zong Yingchi suddenly woke up from the dream, sweating all over.

Wen Shao disappeared, surrounded only by the pale walls of the hospital and the pungent smell of disinfectant.

Zong Yingchi finally remembered that Wen Shao did not exist at all.

But why?

Why is Wenshao fake, Xijian fake, first love fake, but pain is real?

A huge sense of emptiness spread from the heart, devouring the internal organs, Zong Yingchi breathed heavily like drowning.

Ye Shaohuai.

Ye Shaohuai.

Zong Yingchi lay on the hospital bed, letting himself miss Ye Shaohuai.

Thinking about the feeling of holding him in your arms, thinking about the touch of kissing his lips...

He really missed Ye Shaohuai so much that his whole body ached. If he couldn't see him, it would be good to hear his voice.

So Zong Yingchi took out his mobile phone and dialed the number that had been lying in the communication for two months.

"beep--"

pass!

Zong Yingchi waited nervously and expectantly, he began to sweat again, the sweat on his palm even wet the phone.

After a few seconds.

"Hello?" A woman's voice.

Zong Yingchi said "Brother Shao" stuck in his throat.

The woman heard no sound from the other side, and asked again: "Hello? Who is it?"

Zong Yingchi was about to speak when he suddenly heard a familiar voice from the opposite background asking, "Who is it?"

"I don't know. There's no sound. It's an unfamiliar number. I must have dialed it wrong." The woman hung up the phone.

Zong Yingchi held the phone, his vision began to blur, and warm liquid flowed down the corner of his eyes.