sickly wrapped around the waist

It was still dark outside the window, Shen Linxian packed a few clothes into the suitcase, and dragged the luggage out.

Today is the day he goes abroad for treatment.

Yan Zhou's admission letter has come down, everything...he has arranged it, and it's time to make a travel bet.

After leaving the room, Shen Linxian stopped at the door of Yan Zhou's room, quietly looking at the door.

Inside was Yan Zhou who was sleeping soundly, the surrounding was very quiet, the lights in the corridor were dim and eerie, the housekeeper sighed and went upstairs softly. "Master, the car is ready, and the eldest lady is waiting outside the door. If there is any further delay, I'm afraid I will miss the boarding."

"Hush~ Keep your voice down." The bone-protruding fingers reminded her lips.

Shen Linxian has lost a lot of weight again. His originally strong figure is now thin, and his sick appearance makes people feel distressed, as if he is about to fall down in a second.

He spent his energy spending the last few days with Yan Zhou, and now his energy is exhausted, and even the courage to let go is also gone.

"Young Master..." Looking at the tottering Shen Linxian distressedly, the butler stepped forward to help him, but he waved his hand. "Take care of him."

"Don't worry, young master."

Shen Linxian left the villa, and her sister was waiting.After the two got into the car, the butler drove them to the airport, just in time, if they were later, they might really miss it.

On the plane, Shen Linxian held the elk toy that Yan Zhou gave him in his hand, and gently stroked it with his bony fingers. There was tenderness in his vicissitudes of life eyes, which belonged only to Yan Zhou.

"Xiaozhou seems to know that I'm leaving." Yan Zhou has been restless these days, Shen Linxian is just mentally ill, not a fool.He saw it, and my sister just hummed lightly.

Shen Linxian went on to say: "He doesn't seem to want me to go." This is what Shen Linxian felt, but he was confused.

Confused Yan Zhou's actions.

He obviously looks like he wants him to leave, but he reveals his reluctance in some small details, which are very subtle, and only he who focuses all his attention on Yan Zhou can find out.

My heart skipped a beat, and my sister comforted me heartbroken. "A Xian, this is your delusion. I talked to him, and he admitted that he hated you at first, but later... he was more grateful to you. You are so kind to him. If he harbors hatred again, he will just roll his eyes. You're a wolf. You'd better accept the treatment with peace of mind. When you recover, I won't interfere in whatever you want to do in the future. As for Xiao Zhou, that child will have a good life, so you don't have to worry too much."

Shen Linxian closed his mouth and did not speak.

The spirit is getting worse and worse, and because I got up early, now I feel drowsy when I close my eyes.

Shen Linxian left suddenly without saying goodbye, he was afraid of saying "goodbye", and he was even more afraid of hearing Yan Zhou's non-retaining words.

Maybe, after saying goodbye, he didn't even think about it.

When Shen Linxian went to the United States, Wei Xi arrived one day earlier, and after taking care of everything, her sister took Shen Linxian to go.

Shen Linxian's attending doctor is an American with blond hair and blue eyes. Those eyes seem to fill the entire ocean. They are deep and beautiful, as if they have the magic power to confuse people's hearts.

Greeting Shen Linxian, Shen Linxian just looked up, then bowed his head and said nothing.

He was always holding the elk toy that Yan Zhou gave him.

Yan Zhou also has one of these things.

Bought it on Christmas day.

It was Yan Zhou who gave him a gift for the first time, and he was really happy.

Thinking about it, the smile on the corner of Shen Linxian's mouth became more gentle, and Wei Xi shook his head as he watched.

Send Shen Linxian to the room to rest, and the two came out to communicate with the doctor.

This place is similar to a hotel, and Shen Linxian will stay here for treatment.

Wei Xi had described Shen Linxian's symptoms and treatment history in advance. After seeing the real person this time, the doctor said he was not very optimistic.

The three chatted for a long time.

Shen Linxian's room is not luxurious, but it has a lot of space. Lying on the bed, looking at the cold things in the room, he feels lost.

As if thinking of something, they got up and went out, and the three of them looked at Shen Linxian in unison.

Shen Linxian looked around. "Where is my surname Li?"

"Axian~" my sister called out.

"Here." Finding the suitcase in the corner, Shen Linxian carried it back to the room. "You talk, I'll go back to my room first."

The spirit is getting worse and worse, and it is obvious that after leaving Yan Zhou and that villa, Shen Linxian's condition is getting worse.

It can even be described as despondent.

My sister began to wonder whether it was right for him to do so.

But after hearing the doctor's treatment plan for Shen Linxian, her heart came alive again.He thought that the doctor must have a solution.

Shen Linxian didn't want to know what they talked about.

What can I talk about with the doctor, isn't it just talking about his condition?

There are only a few clothes in the suitcase, more photos.

A bunch of photos of Yan Zhou.

In each photo, Yan Zhou wears different clothes and positions, and some of them even look very young.

All of them were secretly photographed by Shen Linxian.

From the moment he knew Yan Zhou, his eyes were on Yan Zhou.He has secretly taken a lot of photos, and he knows it's crazy to do so, but he can't control it.He wanted to record Yan Zhou's funny and beautiful moments.

Seeing that the photos were not lost, Shen Linxian smiled contentedly.

Tuck the suitcase under the bed for fear of losing it.Later, my sister came in with food and woke up the drowsy Shen Linxian. "Ah Xian, it's time to eat."

Opening his eyes, a trace of disappointment flashed in Shen Linxian's eyes after seeing the person beside the bed, he ate silently, and stopped after a few mouthfuls.

My sister was nagging. "Axian, you will be receiving treatment starting tomorrow. You have to cooperate with the doctor. I will take you back to China when you recover."

"understood."

"Give me your mobile phone. From today onwards, I will keep your mobile phone. Don't worry, if there is a need to let you know, I will pass it on to you."

"No." Grasping the phone tightly, Shen Linxian didn't want to give it, he was still looking forward to it.

In the end it was taken away.

Not only mobile phones, but even bank cards and ID cards were taken away.Fearing that Shen Linxian would run away halfway, he had no choice but to do so.

After taking away the mobile phone, my sister received a call from the management.The housekeeper said that Yan Zhou was not in a good mood, so he had no choice but to ask the housekeeper to take good care of Yan Zhou in his heartache.

Shen Linxian received treatment.

Taking medicine every day, he... tasted the feeling of being controlled by others.

The taste of being controlled by a psychiatrist, the taste of being controlled by people around you.When he gets up, what to eat every day is clearly arranged, because of the nervous system, many foods cannot be eaten.

In fact, these are nothing.

The important thing is that when Shen Linxian woke up one day, his expression was in a trance, and he sat on the bed for a long time before slowly coming back.

After sleeping all afternoon, it was dusk when I woke up.The setting sun came in through the window, just barely getting lost in the sky.

Shen Linxian vaguely felt that there seemed to be something in his mind that was going to be obliterated like the same.

After sitting on the bed for a long time, he inadvertently caught a glimpse of a little elk protruding from under his head. Suddenly, certain memories rushed out of the cage like a beast that had been imprisoned for several days without food or drink.

That is, the memory that belongs to Yan Zhou, the memory that belongs to the mother.

Breathing harder, Shen Linxian grabbed the elk, fell off the bed in a hurry, and took out photos from under the bed to recall one by one.

Almost...he forgot about Yan Zhou.

Holding the photo tightly on the phone, Shen Linxian's body was shaking, angry, angry, and fearful.If he had forgotten him... no, he couldn't imagine that day at all.

Empty, boring, and unbelief-free days are like a piece of empty heart for no reason. It doesn't hurt, but the empty feeling makes people crazy.

At this time, my sister heard the sound of the room coming in.

I saw Shen Linxian sitting on the ground.

"Ah Xian, why are you sitting on the ground, get up quickly." He put down the things in his hands and supported them.

Shen Linxian stood up by himself, his legs were thin and long, they were abnormally thin. "Why are you hypnotizing me?"

"Axian, what are you talking about, I don't quite understand." My sister looked away, feeling uneasy.

Shen Linxian's face was pale and cold, his jawline was so thin that his jawline protruded, and his tone was cold. "Don't pretend, I'm just sick, I'm not stupid. You want me to forget Xiaozhou? It's not enough to lock me up here, I'm enough to cooperate with you."

This made my sister panic when she heard it. "Ah Xian, I'm sorry, I didn't consider your feelings, but you... think about him every day, your illness hasn't improved at all after a few days, we are too impatient, so we can only use this method. "

The doctor said that only by letting Shen Linxian forget those obsessions and pains can his condition get better and the treatment will be more convenient.

But Shen Linxian's willpower is too strong, and he can't completely hypnotize him at one time, so he can only cooperate with drug hypnosis.

I thought the hypnosis was almost done, but I didn't expect that when I woke up, not only did it not have the expected effect, but it also made him discover this matter.

Probably too much obsession.

When he came here, all Shen Linxian thought about was Yan Zhou, as long as he was awake, Yan Zhou never disappeared from his mind.

He was worried whether Yan Zhou would look for him when he knew he was gone.

And afraid, Yan Zhou didn't care about his existence and disappearance at all.

He was afraid of what he would do if he was bullied in the future, he was afraid of what he would do if he didn't adapt to the new school, he was afraid that he would feel abandoned again, and the knot in his heart would never be untied.

Yan Zhou knew why Shen Linxian disappeared.

All he can do is to wait and live with the memories shared by him and Shen Linxian, not daring to disturb, not forgetting.

Shen Linxian knew that she was going to be hypnotized, and she might not be willing to cooperate with the treatment in the future. This was what my sister was really worried about.

She had to negotiate terms. "Axian, you can return to China sooner only when you get better. You can do it without hypnosis, but you must cooperate with the doctor's treatment. You must never think about Yan Zhou. It's okay to think about him, but it can't become a deeper obsession. The obsession is too deep, and no one can save you except you. Your body has improved a little these days. If you drag on, you may have other mental disorders. If you want to return to China to see him completely, just be obedient OK."

Only I can save myself?

It's not that Shen Linxian doesn't understand this truth.

The elder sister looked at the dazed Shen Linxian, her eyes were red, as if she had cried just now.

Sighing, she didn't feel heartbroken.

Presumably, he almost forgot about Yan Zhou just now, Shen Linxian lost control of his emotions for a while, frantically looking for photos to retrieve his memory, and cried in fear.

Forget Yan Zhou, this is probably harder than death.

Shen Linxian would rather choose to die.

If you know that this person should not forget, but your brain still erases the memory bit by bit uncontrollably, that is the greatest cruelty to Shen Linxian.

"Can I still see him?" Shen Linxian asked himself blankly.

"I promise you, as long as you are well, I will take you back to China, and you can still see him."

Shen Linxian later agreed.

This is the last concession.

Later, Shen Linxian forced himself to put down Yan Zhou.

Not forgetting, not wanting to, just trying to let go gradually.

However, receiving light hypnosis and various treatment methods every day made him temporarily less obsessed with Yan Zhou during the day.

But this plan is like taking an anesthetic. At night, the anesthetic wakes up, and the thoughts are like madness, which cannot be stopped.

The photos were scattered all over the bed, holding the photos, Shen Linxian felt that Yan Zhou was lying under the quilt, lying in his arms.

There are not many good memories between him and Yan Zhou.

But he clearly remembered Yan Zhou's smile to him, it was a very pure smile.

This smile made Shen Linxian suspect that Yan Zhou also loved him, that's why he remembered it so deeply.

If Xiao Zhou is really by my side...

No, I can't hurt him anymore, he is not happy staying with me.

I am not a normal person in the first place, and I must have brought a lot of trouble to Xiao Zhou.

Shen Linxian was imprisoned here for treatment, and he couldn't do anything according to his own wishes. Why didn't Yan Zhou feel this way when he was tied by his side at the beginning.

He seemed to understand why Yan Zhou tried so hard to leave him.

Just like sand in your hand, the tighter you hold it, the easier it will be lost.

In a daze, when I moved my body, I realized that the side...was empty.

Yan Zhou is not by his side.

I opened my eyes in shock, and there were only photos next to me.In the dark night, Shen Linxian lay flat on the bed, staring at the ceiling with his eyes open. In fact, he couldn't see anything.

If there is a light, you must be able to see his red eye sockets.

At this time, Yan Zhou was also in the new house prepared for him by Shen Linxian, his eyes were red from crying.

Xiaozhou, wait for me.

Shen Linxian, no matter how long, I will wait.

At this moment, no one knew that they were in each other's hearts.

It was like this every day, and with the continuous efforts of the psychiatrist, Shen Linxian gradually improved.

He still loves Yan Zhou, still misses Yan Zhou, and he still wants to go back to China to meet him, to end his longing.However, it is already so persistent, deep, but not obsession; superficial, but deeply rooted and unshakable.

Three years later, Shen Linxian recovered.

He is just the gentle and smiling Shen Linxian.

He stayed in that house for three years. After he was cured, his sister asked him where he wanted to go to play, and he was finally able to go out.Shen Linxian stood in front of the window, looking into the distance, without speaking.

Probably because she felt that the time was right, the elder sister called the family first, saying that they were going to return to China, and then... told Shen Linxian about Yan Zhou in detail.

Running on the airport, Shen Linxian was indescribably excited and incredible.

Xiaozhou, I actually love you very much.

He has been waiting for you these three years. It's not that there are people who like him around him, but he only wants you.

You bought him that house, but he never took anyone there.

I'm sorry, my sister lied to you, Axian, Xiao Zhou knew that you were going abroad for treatment, so he studied hard so that you could go abroad with peace of mind.

Learning is not to get rid of you, but to let you go and receive treatment.

You're right that he doesn't want you to leave, but that kid is sensible enough to know you should.

You love each other, and you haven't let go of each other. My sister is very relieved, love is not hurt, Ah Xian, treat him better in the future.

After returning to China, don't scare the child. In fact, Dad feels ashamed of you, so go home after returning to China.

The sister's words echoed in his ears. For three years, Shen Linxian thought that Yan Zhou might have forgotten him, started another beautiful life, or had another lover.

These words pulled him from the cold reality into a dream. Shen Linxian couldn't even believe it.

I'm even afraid that this is just a dream, and when I wake up from the dream, there will be nothing left.

Shen Linxian returned to China first, and her sister returned after finishing the following matters, so Shen Linxian returned to the airport alone.

He wants to go back to the country and meet the person who has been waiting for him for three years.