regardless of

Xi You entered the classroom, took his schoolbag and left.

After passing through the long corridor and out of the teaching building, Xi You saw Gu Chou walking tens of meters ahead, holding his mobile phone to his ear, talking on the phone.

He maintained his unhurried pace and followed behind Gu Chou.

There is a touch of orange red in the sky in the distance, like the sunset glow performing a half-hidden face.

There were many fallen flowers on the boulevard, and from time to time one or two leaves fell on the young man's shoulders, and then slid down quietly as he walked.

The reddish glow shines through the gaps in the leaves, shining on the young man walking in front like twinkling stars.

The light was not dazzling, but Xi You narrowed his eyes slightly.

Seeing that Gu Chou was about to reach the end of the boulevard, Xi You took out the mobile phone in his pocket, unlocked it, clicked on the camera, raised his hand, aimed the lens at the front, and pressed the shutter.

After the photo was frozen, Xi You glanced down.

When he looked up again, the boy in front had already walked away.

When Xi You returned home, the red sunset was slowly closing the curtain.

He stood in the entrance to change his shoes, the aroma of dinner wafted from the direction of the restaurant, and the sound of news on the TV came from the living room.

After changing his shoes, Xi You put down his schoolbag and went to the bathroom to wash his hands.After washing your hands, come out and go to the kitchen to get a bowl of rice.

When passing by the restaurant, Xi Shangyu turned his head and said to him: "Brother, Mom made our favorite shredded pork with Beijing sauce today."

Xi You took the bowl from the cupboard, opened the rice cooker, and planed out the rice grains inside. A six-inch shallow bowl was not even filled.

He took the chopsticks, went out of the kitchen, walked to the table and sat down.

Yang Zhaoyuan likes to sit at the side of the dining room and watch the TV in the living room while eating, when the trainee You You came over, glanced at him from watching TV, and said: "Rice is not enough today, your dad will buy it tomorrow. If you are not full, there are still noodles in the refrigerator to cook."

As if Xi You didn't hear it, he lowered his head and ate his own.

Xi Shangyu picked up a chopstick of shredded pork with Beijing sauce and sent it to Xi You's bowl. When it was about to reach the mouth of the bowl, Xi You said coolly, "Take it."

Because of his words, Xi Shangyu slapped his hands, and the shredded pork with Beijing sauce between the chopsticks dropped two petals on the table.

Xi Shangyu said: "Brother, there is not enough rice today, let's eat more food."

Xi You said without raising his head, "I see that you have a lot of rice in your bowl."

Xi Shangyu's expression changed slightly, and he said, "That's what my father and mother called me."

Yang Zhaoyuan said to him: "You can eat what you have. Your brother has hands and a mouth, and he will pick it up when he is hungry."

Xi You finished the rice in the bowl in two mouthfuls. After chewing and swallowing, he put down his chopsticks and stood up, but Yang Zhaoyuan stopped him: "The rice is finished, Xiaoyou, wash the bowl."

Xi You walked towards the balcony without looking back: "Whoever eats more will wash."

"Mom, let me wash it and let me read a little longer." Xi Shangyu looked at Xi You's back and said.

Yang Zhaoyuan: "Forget it, you eat yours, and Mom will wash it later."

The living room door rang, and Xi Cailin had just bought a pack of cigarettes from the canteen in the community. While changing his shoes, he said, "Huzi's store is really getting darker and darker. A Liqun will charge me 220 yuan."

Yang Zhaoyuan picked up a few empty plates on the table and walked to the kitchen, then said casually, "Has the price increased?"

"It hasn't risen. I bought it near my workplace last month. Liqun also has a soft red long mouth." Xi Cailin put the cigarettes at the entrance and followed them into the kitchen. "It's only 200."

"You really bought it for 220?"

"No, how can I suffer from such a dull loss? He insisted on asking for 200 yuan, and he didn't have the energy to compete with me for the 20 yuan."

"I'm afraid I'm guilty."

"That's not true." Standing by the sink, Xi Cailin graciously took Yang Zhaoyuan's frothed bowl, tilting his head, "Honey, I'm empty in my pocket this month, so I'll apply for another 500 yuan for petty expenses from the organization. Hope the organization approves."

"Don't stack the bowls first, and then pour water and drain them together." Yang Zhaoyuan reminded angrily, and said cheerfully, "The organization will give you a red envelope later."

"Long live organization, I love organization!"

"Xiao Yu's honey-smeared mouth really deserves your authenticity."

……

One space, like two worlds separated.

The dining room kitchen was full of laughter and laughter, and the living room was next to the balcony. Apart from the sound of the TV anchor reading the news, there was only the rustling of Xi You packing up.

Xi Shangyu came over from the kitchen with a bowl and saw Xi You was rolling up the folded clothes and stacking them in the suitcase, he was a little stunned: "Brother, what are you doing?"

Xi You picked it up by himself: "Pack up your luggage."

"Of course I know that you are packing your luggage." Xi Shangyu stared at Xi You with an indistinct expression, "But why are you packing your luggage?"

"Because I have to go out."

Xi You gave two nonsense answers in a row, and Xi Shangyu almost had nothing to say.

Holding the hem of his clothes, he stood by and watched Xi You roll up his clothes. After standing there for a while, he still couldn't help asking, "Are you planning to move out?"

After a pause, he added, "If you find it inconvenient to live on the balcony, you can share a room with me, or I can change it with you."

Xi You raised her eyes and glanced at him: "Would you like to live on this balcony?"

Xi Shangyu was taken aback by the question, and subconsciously looked at this corner.

Since he was conscious, their family has been living in this [-]-square-meter two-bedroom apartment. His parents live in the master bedroom, and he and Xi You live in the second bedroom.When he was young, he and Xi You slept in the same bed. In the third grade, Xi Cailin replaced the beds in their bedroom with upper and lower bunks. From then on, he lived in the lower bunk and Xi You lived in the upper bunk.

Until the first day of junior high school, a few students in the class came to play at home, and the classmate casually said, "Why don't you even have a separate room of your own", which hit the vanity of the young man's self-esteem, and the young man was so worried that he wanted a room of his own. own room.

He acted like a baby with Yang Zhaoyuan and lost his temper with Xi Cailin, hoping that they would buy a new house and move to a new house.But housing prices are high. They are just an ordinary working family. Buying a three-bedroom apartment that is convenient for the two children to go to school, even if they have a mortgage, is a drop in the bucket for their family.

During that time, Xi Shangyu was madly angry with his family, and even wanted to win Xi You into a united front with him, but Xi You didn't stand in line, didn't vote, and always acted as if he had nothing to do with himself.

Xi Shangyu felt that he was alone and helpless, so he protested and ran away from home once.

Once when he came home after going out to play on the weekend, when he walked to the door of his house, he found that the door was not closed, and the voice of Yang Zhaoyuan and Xi You talking clearly could be heard in the room.

Yang Zhaoyuan said: "The balcony of our house is not small. I thought about it with Mr. L and drew a thick curtain between the balcony and the living room to create a space for you, which is enough for a 1.2-meter single bed. , you can also put a small desk and a small cabinet, if you don’t have enough clothes, you can hang the big clothes in autumn and winter on the top of your head.

"It's all because your parents are incompetent and can't give you a good living environment. Your younger brother is more delicate. If you are an older brother, let him more."

Xi Shangyu froze outside the door, with complicated moods, a hint of secret joy in his heart, and an unspeakable self-loathing.On the one hand, he hoped that Xi You would agree, but on the other hand, he was worried that Xi You would really say "yes".

Just when he was thinking about Xi You's possible reaction, he heard Xi You ask calmly: "Why?"

I don't know why, at that moment, Xi Shangyu felt that he was inexplicably agitated, and he suddenly felt a trace of anger for no reason.

He had thought that Xi You would say "yes", and he also thought that Xi You would negotiate with his parents and bargain for a while, but he never thought that he would ask "Why" without hesitation.

Across a door, a non-existent confrontation blatantly fermented in the air, and Xi Shangyu felt that he was being provoked.

He clenched his fists, and the heels of his feet seemed to be glued.

He stayed where he was, and heard Xi You continue calmly: "Didn't Xi Shangyu want a separate room? You two are so eager to love your son, so why not give him your room. The master bedroom is big, and he lives in it." Comfortable, I'm afraid I will be happier."

Yang Zhaoyuan was dumb for a moment, and said angrily when she spoke, "Is this what your son told his mother?

"For so many years to provide you with food and clothing, and to provide you with schooling, and I have raised a white-eyed wolf?

"The bedroom of yours wasn't that big at all. You and Xiao Yu shared half of each other and it wasn't as big as this balcony. It didn't hurt you to let you live on the balcony. Fortunately, your father and I said that we would choose a more expensive one for you." The bed, I see you like this, I'm afraid you won't be happy to accept this favor."

There was a moment of silence in the air.

Xi You asked, "Have you chosen all the beds?"

Yang Zhaoyuan: "I saw a few good ones with your dad, and I'm going to talk to you before the workers send them over."

"So you came to inform me, not to ask for my opinion."

"Xiao Yu, he..."

Xi You interrupted: "I'll make an application."

"what?"

"Give me 1000 yuan a month, and I will go out to live."

Yang Zhaoyuan's tone was startled and angry: "What?"

She hesitated a bit, and calculated the bill: "You don't need to spend money to live at home. The food is shared by each person in the family. It costs 500 yuan a month for one person. You need [-] yuan a month. When your parents are India Money."

Xi You sneered: "It's unreasonable for you to share it equally."

Yang Zhaoyuan was no longer willing to listen to Xi You's words, and her attitude became tough: "One thousand is nothing, and the house is only this big. Your brother is very popular, and his classmates often come to the house to play. You should leave him a private and comfortable space."

"Mom, you seem to have forgotten something."

"what's up?"

"I'm only one year and five months older than your second son."

"..."

Xi You didn't like to explain things thoroughly, but he didn't speak ambiguously. As long as people didn't pretend to be stupid, they could understand what he meant.

What a well-known double standard.

The real Nima is three-way and four-way.

After Xi You finished speaking, she looked at Yang Zhaoyuan and watched her reaction, but she always looked innocent, and she was not disturbed by his words, let alone ashamed.

Xi You smiled mockingly, turned and left.

Standing outside the door, Xi Shangyu didn't expect him to come out suddenly, he was taken aback for a moment, and shivered.But Xi You just glanced at him expressionlessly, walked past him and went downstairs.

Yang Zhaoyuan and Xi Cailin took advantage of a weekend to complete the renovation of the balcony.

The so-called renovation is nothing more than relocating the washing machine and green plants that were previously placed on the balcony, putting the chair in the master bedroom, adding a 1.2-meter bed, adding a small desk, and tidying up the closet where the sundries were piled up before. Come out, wipe and leave the clothes for Xi You.

Xi You is gone and went to grandma's house.

Xi Shangyu looked at his parents who were busy back and forth, and said, "Mom and Dad, I've already thought it through. It's okay to live in the same room with my brother. He doesn't have many things and doesn't take up any space. You should not move."

Xi Cailin said: "The beds are all bought, it's too late for you to say now."

Yang Zhaoyuan said: "He doesn't have many things, and the balcony is enough for him to live in. Besides, look at the environment, what's wrong? Children in mountainous areas are content with a roof tile that can keep out the wind and rain. What else is your brother not satisfied with?" "

"But I don't seem to be happy."

"Xiaoyou's temperament is just like that. Nothing can make him happy, and nothing can make him sad."

"Let's do this," Xi Shangyu walked to them, pinched a corner of the quilt cover, and joined the ranks of making the bed. "If my brother's things are really not enough in the future, he can also put them in my room. He can come in and out at any time."

Xi Cailin reached out and patted his head: "My son is sensible!"

It was already night when Xi You came back the next day, the three of them had already finished dinner, and they were sitting on the sofa in the living room watching TV.On the side of the living room close to the balcony, the heavy curtains that almost reached the floor were half drawn, revealing half of the end of the bed.

Without saying a word, Xi You walked over, turned on the light on the balcony, went to the bathroom to take a shower after digging through the closet for a change of clothes.

After taking a shower, Xi You passed the living room, brushed his hair and walked to the balcony. Xi Cailin looked up from the gap of watching TV and asked him, "Have you had dinner yet?"

"Eat." Xi You replied, and he entered the balcony, and drew the curtain all over the place.

Yang Zhaoyuan raised a slender eyebrow at Xi Shangyu who was sitting beside her, and said in a low voice, "If I say it, I won't have any objections."

Although the curtains are heavy, the small lights on the balcony are full of light, which can cast silhouettes of people inside.

Xi Shangyu looked at the silhouette and sat down at the desk, as if picking up a book and reading it.

He stared at the silhouette for a long time, so long that he couldn't help thinking about a question.

Is this person hiding his emotions too much, or does he really not feel sad?

He has been pondering over this question for many years, but has never been able to solve it.

Xi You's attitude towards him has always been indifferent, neither close nor distant, making it impossible for him to distinguish.

A few years have passed, and I don't know whether it's because they have grown up or because the things piled up in the house have increased. Looking at this corner of the balcony, he always feels that this place has become old, smaller, and cramped.

Back then he wouldn't want to live there, and of course he wouldn't now.

But facing a brother who might be leaving, Xi Shangyu didn't really want to tell the truth, he looked at Xi You with a clear intention to keep him: "I want to live, you can live, there is nothing I can't live with. "

Xi's worry was like a mirror, but he didn't expose it. He just said: "Three years ago, if you said you wanted to live, I would definitely be humble. It's too late to say it now?"

Xi Shangyu bypassed this question: "But this is your home, where do you want to move? You have to spend money to live outside, and your parents won't give you money."

"You don't have to worry about that."

"Brother, you will be in your third year of high school next semester. It's a critical period. It's better not to make any changes. If you go out, you won't be able to take care of you at home."

"Don't move out, live here?" Xi You nodded his chin and pointed to the balcony, "Wet clothes can't be dried outside in rainy days, and they haven't been shaken. If you hang them here, the end of the bed will be half wet."

He pointed to the washing machine: "That thing is less than one meter away from the desk. Half of my reading time at home is spent with the noise. It's really a good place to exercise concentration."

He sneered, raised his eyes and glanced at Xi Shangyu: "You are almost sixteen, you should know that boys of our age should have a private place to do things by themselves."

No matter whether he is at home or outside, Xi You always gives people the impression of being cool, dignified and stable. Xi Shangyu didn't expect him to say such words suddenly, slightly surprised: "But...you can go to the bathroom."

Xi You let out a faint smile again.

After he finished rolling the clothes, he began to roll the towels, and put them in a clean transparent plastic storage bag one by one.

Xi Shangyu stood still for a while, bit his teeth on the wall of his mouth, and said, "Brother, you can move back to the room, I can make room for you now."

However, Xi You was completely unmoved and took care of cleaning up on his own.

Xi Shangyu twisted his fingers, wanting to step forward to do something to stop him from continuing, but he was afraid that Xi Youzhen would occupy the magpie's nest and live in his room.

After a while, Xi You finished packing, closed the suitcase, and fastened the combination lock.With the sound of "click", Xi Shangyu suddenly raised his voice and shouted: "Mom."

The sound is not particularly loud, but it is not small, and the ending is very long.

It's like when a little soldier on the battlefield is forced to retreat by the enemy, he panics and panic calls his general to come to support him.

After fastening the lock, he messed up the combination dial on the lock, and straightened the upside-down suitcase, Xi You stood up.

There is a sink next to the balcony, Xi You walked two steps over to wash his hands.

At this time, Yang Zhaoyuan, who heard Xi Shangyu's shout, walked over quickly: "What's the matter, Xiao Yu?"

Xi You turned on the faucet, and the water gushed down.

Apart from the sound of water, Xi Shangyu's voice sounded anxious and aggrieved: "Mom, help me persuade brother, he wants to move out."

Yang Zhaoyuan's originally sick face eased a little, first glanced at the suitcase standing by the bed, and then at Xi You who was squeezing the hand sanitizer: "What's going on?"

Xi You pointed at the foam on her hand, but didn't answer.

Yang Zhaoyuan said, "Why didn't you tell your parents beforehand if you planned to move out?"

After Mo'er rinsed it off, Xi You turned on the faucet, walked to the living room, and wiped her hands with a paper towel on the coffee table.

Yang Zhaoyuan and Xi Shangyu turned around as he walked.

Although Xi You didn't answer a single word, Yang Zhaoyuan was not attached to the previous answer, and continued to ask: "Where are you going to live? You have to go to school, and you can't live with your grandma in your hometown. Are you Do you want to live in a classmate’s house, or plan to rent a house by yourself?”

This time, she didn't wait for Xi You's response, she got to the point, and the speed of her speech picked up almost without a pause: "The family is not very good, and you have enough food, clothing and housing." She glanced at the curtain as she spoke. Half-drawn balcony soft partition, "You are grown up now, and the family environment here is not good, but you only have a little more than a year left in high school, and you will go to college after that, and you won't live here for long. Hold on and it's over."

In the end, it is her own son, who has lived under the same roof for more than ten years. Yang Zhaoyuan still knows Xiyou's weak interpersonal relationship. If she thinks about it, she is not likely to live with her classmates or friends. The only possibility is to rent a house outside.

It costs money to rent a house. In Yang Zhaoyuan's view, this is a completely unnecessary expense.

She said slowly: "It's not that you don't know that your dad and I get such a dead salary every month. Living in a city like Beidu, every penny is worth two cents. If you go out to live, mom will give you money." You can't spare any extra money."

Xi You said sarcastically: "Xi Shangyu paid so much money for studying painting, I think it's easy for you to pay for it."

Xi Shangyu, who was standing on the sidelines and listening all the time, changed slightly when he heard the words, sometimes red and sometimes white.

Yang Zhaoyuan's complexion remained the same, nothing changed.

Xi You walked back to the balcony again, picked up the pajamas on the head of the bed, and was about to go to the bathroom to take a shower. When he passed by Yang Zhaoyuan, he said, "The money for renting the house will not be fixed. You don't need to worry about it. You just need to fulfill what you wanted to do when I was an adult." I have to ask you to help me to pay the child support obligations, tuition and miscellaneous fees.”

When he said this, it seemed that there was nothing wrong with it, but in fact it was thorny. Yang Zhaoyuan's expression was a little ugly at the moment.Just as she was about to say something, Xi You turned her head and said again: "Oh, three years ago you told me that our food expenses were divided into four or five hundred per person. Increase, plus inflation, I need [-] a month, isn't it too much?"

Yang Zhaoyuan's teeth were about to bark, but Xi You hadn't finished speaking: "You offered me a place to live, but I don't want to live. If you eat this one, don't bargain for me. Your son is 1.8 meters seven, no matter how small will starve to death."

After speaking, he left without stopping and entered the bathroom.

As soon as Xi You left, the figure of Xi Cailin who was standing at the door of the master bedroom, who had been blocked by him, appeared.

Yang Zhaoyuan's complexion was already quite ugly, she clenched her upper and lower teeth tightly, grinding a line in her mouth, her lips were drawn into a twisted line.

She glanced at Xi Cailin, who had his upper body arched and his eyebrows twisted into pimples, and rushed over to beat him fiercely on the chest twice: "It's all your fault! I said I don't want his, I don't want his, you are soft-hearted What, you shouldn't have been soft-hearted to me back then."

The author has something to say:

When I wrote this chapter, I felt sorry for Brother Xi.

Let me tell you in advance that Brother Xi is the biological son of Ms. Yang. As for why he is not popular at home, there are also reasons, which will be discussed later.

But compared to this mother who is obviously biased, having a younger brother Bailian is the most unbearable.

Furthermore, for the sake of Xiaopang today, I will take a leave of absence tomorrow, and then I will try my best to save the manuscript to ensure that it will be updated every day this month, and I will try my best to make the fate of next month come later.

What’s more, I chose the label of “relaxed” at the beginning of this article, but the reality seems to be that it is not so easy. There are relatively high-energy places in the back, and there will even be a big turn in the tone... Then I found that the background was not allowed to change, Fortunately, it doesn't affect anything, so let's make do with it.

Love all the treasures who are chasing updates, mua~