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The next day, Gu Chou woke up at dawn.

He gently turned his lower body slightly, and Xi You, who was sitting on the edge of the bed and sleeping with arms folded, opened his eyes.

The daylight in the ward was very faint, and the remaining night had not completely faded.

The two pairs of eyes met in the dark, and neither of them spoke immediately.

After a moment of silence, Xi You asked, "Is your body still feeling uncomfortable? Do you want some water?"

Gu Qiu nodded.

Xi You got up, helped him raise the head of the bed, took the thermos cup filled with hot water from the bedside table, unscrewed it, and brought the mouth of the cup close to Gu Chou's mouth.

Gu Qiu drank more than half of the glass from the rim.

It's inconvenient to drink water like this, and the corners of the mouth tend to get wet. When taking back the thermos, Xi You even wiped Gu Chou's lips with his thumb.

Gu Qiu chuckled lightly.

Xi You screwed on the lid again and asked, "What are you laughing at?"

"Take care of a three-year-old child."

"You are 30 years old," Xi You sat back on the chair, "I can take care of you like this."

These words are answered naturally, but also deliberately.

Deliberately because the speaker deliberately wants to rivet the topic to this fixed point.

It has happened, and there is no reason to avoid it.

Gu Chou asked: "Yesterday afternoon, were you scared?"

Xi You didn't say a word, meaning by default.

"I wanted to end what I told you about the team building, but now I feel," he laughed jokingly, "I seem to owe you a lot."

Xi You's tone was light: "If you owe it, you will pay it back."

Gu Chou was stunned for a moment, then smiled: "Fuck, you're not being polite."

"Do you want to say something earthy next, 'pay it yourself'?"

"..."

Xi You's facial expression was a little paralyzed.

In this way, the two stared at each other for a while, until the relaxed atmosphere just now was gone.

The atmosphere fell like this.

Gu Chou said, "Let's talk about it, Brother Xi."

Xi You said "hmm".

Gu Chou said directly: "I have a heart disease, which was passed down from the older generation. I didn't find it out innately, but when I was eight years old, I suddenly got a corpse in my body."

Xi You said, "I know."

Gu Qiu was stunned.

Xi You told him what he heard Qiu Qingping said yesterday.

After listening, Gu Chou said: "It's quite complete, so I won't bother to talk about it."

Then asked: "So, do you have any reflections on this?"

Xi You said, "You speak first."

"I?"

"Ah."

"which aspect?"

"What do you say?"

Both are smart people, and both of them naturally know what the other wants to hear.

The matter of being sick is already a fact, and what they want to hear is whether the other party's emotional attitude has changed based on this known fact.

Since Xi You had pushed this to his side first, Gu Chou did not push it back.

He called out, "Brother Xi."

Then he spoke quite unexpectedly.

"I'm pretty selfish," he said.

Xi You looked at him.

Gu Chou continued: "For things that interest me, I will try my best to own them, and once I have them, I won't want to let them go. I won't think so much about other things."

"Maybe it's because of my illness. I'm an out-and-out hedonist in time. I'm afraid that if I don't have it when I want it, I won't have the chance to get it."

"Brother Xi, you are very unfortunate." He said, "You have become the one I am interested in."

Xi You's face was serious, but he spoke with a smile: "Something?"

"..."

Gu Chou was stunned for a moment by his retort question, which avoided the important ones, and gave Xi You a look, and then the words just now were a little unsteady.

He looked at Xi You, the sickness on his face was still there, but there was a bit of evil in his eyes: "So even though I have a dark personality and a dark body, I still feel that I have to keep you as my boyfriend."

Xi You just stared at him without saying a word.

Gu Chou asked: "I'm so selfish, why are you afraid, Brother Xi?"

Xi You still didn't speak.

After waiting like this for a while, seeing that he hadn't responded, Gu Chou's temper grew a little bit, and he kicked his feet out of the quilt, trying to kick him out of his reaction.

Xi You quickly pinched Gu Chou's ankle, and Gu Chou stopped moving immediately.

Xi You lowered his eyes, and his eyes fell on his thin white ankle.

Gu Chou clicked his tongue, and was about to say "Do you have that habit", Xi You pinched his ankle and put it back under the quilt, then his eyes fell: "You are in good spirits?"

"?"

Gu Chou made a "hmm" sound.

Xi You: "A one-minute kiss is okay?"

This topic is really jumping.

Gu Qiu raised his eyebrows: "Why only 1 minute?"

"That's fine."

After finishing speaking, Xi You got up, put one hand on the wall at the head of the bed, leaned over and kissed her.

This kiss is lingering and lingering, and every time I trace my lips, it is extraordinarily gentle, showing the ultimate depth of penetration.

After the kiss, Xi You backed away a little, and looked at Gu Chou at a short distance away.

Only then did Xi You begin to answer his question in the form of a rhetorical question.

He said, "Do you think I'm afraid?"

Gu Chou looked at him with unclear meaning.

Xi You didn't sit back on the chair, she just sat down on the edge of the bed.

"So?" Gu Chou swallowed dryly.

"So," Xi You said seriously, "Master Gu, please hold on to the thing you are interested in in front of you, and don't let it go."

Perhaps because of the word "catch" in the words, Gu Chou subconsciously grabbed Xi You's clothes with his fingertips.

But it was just a light grasp, and just as he was about to let go, Xi You pinched his fingertips.

Like the protagonist in a TV series who has cancer, no matter how much he gags at the beginning to make fun, he still has to face the cruel reality in the end.

Gu Chou looked at the touching fingers of the two, and after a while, he said in a low voice: "I might," after a brief pause, continued with a hoarse voice, "One day, I will leave you without saying goodbye."

These words, obviously without an extreme word, are connected into a complete sentence, expressing a kind of extreme cruelty.

At this premature age, I will give you a preview of a long and unpredictable ending.

Xi You trembled uncontrollably.

His first reaction was to say "it's too much", but he also felt that these words were a bit of a deliberate understatement, which seemed to be a pretentious one instead.

So he said "Oh" and said without emotion: "I see."

After speaking, he fell into silence.

It's not that he can't say "it's okay, I will always be with you" and "I will always love you" until death, and it's not that he can't dismiss Gu Chou's bad words with a scolding tone, and then With earnestness and earnestness, he exported to Gu Chou those universal outlook on life and values ​​full of optimism and hope.

Obviously this is more in line with what you can ask for in an intimate relationship.

But Xi You didn't say that.

The love at the age of 17 can be very violent, but it should not be too heavy.In a shallow age, speaking too much, the incident itself vaguely covered a sign of contradiction, as if it foreshadowed some kind of unhappy ending.

So the subconscious led him to break out of this traditional circle, as if in this way, he would not be trapped by the general development laws of the world, and he would be able to have a consummation beyond the rules and blessed by luck.

Gu Chou was a little surprised by Xi You's reaction, but not surprised.

That's what he was.

Receive the message, then accept the message.

Don't express emotion, don't convey emotion.

This is very good, so that the two parties will not be plunged into great sorrow and grief and the topic cannot be continued.

Gu Chou asked, "What if there is a day?"

Gu Qiu got to the bottom of it.

Xi You didn't evade: "If that day comes, I won't forgive you."

Gu Qiu was startled.

"Don't forgive?" Gu Chou muttered, "You are so intolerant to me."

Xi You was silent for a while.

Then he repeated the title again: "If there is such a day," he said, "it means that God has treated me too unfairly. I probably will bear this grudge, but I don't know who to justify. There is no one to justify, Then I hate you, I can only hate you."

"So Gu Chou," he said at last, "don't make me hate you."

Gu Chou didn't stay in this hospital for long, this afternoon, Gu Yayun transferred him to Beidu Municipal Hospital.

Naturally, Dr. Xiong admitted him.

The examination results from the hospital over there were also synchronized.

After learning about it, Dr. Xiong told them that the situation is not serious, but it has changed from mitral valve regurgitation to multiple valve regurgitation in a short period of time. It is definitely not a good symptom, and there are already certain pathological characteristics, which require hospitalization Observation and treatment. "

Gu Chou asked how long he would stay.

Dr. Xiong said that it depends on the situation, as long as one or two months, and as small as half a month.

Gu Chou had no choice, what else could he do in the face of the surveillance eyes all around him, so let's stay.

But this hospitalization experience was different from before.

When they were hospitalized before, both Qiu Qingping and Gu Yayun would be there, but they usually staggered and seldom shared the same frequency. Even if they did, the atmosphere was frozen.

At that time, they were not yet divorced, but their relationship had faded.They hardly quarreled, but they had nothing to talk about.

Even speaking, it is very formulaic.

Gu Chou had just entered adolescence at that time, and it was a sensitive time, coupled with the root cause of his illness, it was easy to attribute the bad situation around him to himself.

Therefore, every time he was hospitalized in the past, for him, he not only had to endure the double suffering of body and mind, but also doubled his sense of self-loathing.

But this time, although he still hated being hospitalized, it was undeniable that because of the existence of Xi You and Li Pei, he would not sink indefinitely in the low depression of emotion.

Li Pei would come over every now and then, relying on his own efforts to turn a single ward into a gala effect.

In the name of taking care of his roommates, Xi You received a special commuting order from Lao Xue. He went to class as usual during the day and came and went freely for self-study at night.Whether to come to school or not, and what time to come, all depend on his own arrangements.

Of course, even if it wasn't for the reason of "taking care of roommates", Lao Xue felt at ease with him if he put it in another reasonable way.

In addition, Xiyou also pushed back the part-time job, leaving only weekend tutoring and periodic cleaning of the school's functional classrooms.

So apart from attending classes, Xi You stayed with Gu Chou in the hospital most of the time.

In the evening, he would give Gu Chou the key points of each subject in class during the day, and when he went to school the next day, Gu Chou would study by himself in the ward according to the key points planned by Xi You.

Gu Chou had already learned the new content of high school in the attached high school before, and the so-called key points now are all new types of questions, and the amount is not large.

For Gu Chou, learning was effortless.

He even had a conversation with Xi You, this semester he had to break the landscape of the second year of high school liberal arts ranking.

Xi You said, "That's easy to do, first practice your dog crawling", and Gu Chou used his well-trained "Adam's apple" skill on the spot to rub Xi You's Adam's apple red , His own price has also come.

The two young men, taking advantage of the small number of people on this floor, locked the door and drew the curtains tightly, and did a lot of messy things.

Once the nurse came in to check on the situation, glanced at the clumps of tissues in the trash, and asked casually, "Did you catch a cold?"

They have been paying attention to Gu Chou's physical condition, so they naturally understand it, so it is only natural that this question is for Xi You.

Facing Gu Chou's watching eyes, Xi You cleared his throat and said, "It's a bit of rhinitis due to the change of seasons."

The nurse kindly suggested: "It's not okay to blow your nose all the time. If you feel so uncomfortable, go to the ENT department and ask the doctor to prescribe a spray. It can relieve some."

Xi You replied "Thank you", and saw Gu Chouxiao lying on the bed, looking at him as if he was aloof.

After the nurse left, Xi You locked the door and pulled the curtains, then walked to the bed, looked at a certain young man whose smile was gradually froze, and slowly threw out three words: "Ow-collect-collect."

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