How many weeks are you going to confess?

It was past nine o'clock after the New Year's Eve dinner, Zhou Sijie gave the two red envelopes, Lian Li accepted it calmly, Bian Jin refused for a long time.

Lian Li said: "Giving red envelopes during the Chinese New Year is just a way to get lucky. If you don't have much to give, just take it."

Zhou Sijie also pretended to be angry, "Could it be that you think it's too little and don't want to accept it?"

Bian Jin had no choice but to accept it, and even took care of all the cleaning work.

Zhou Sijie was lethargic, and went to bed as soon as ten o'clock arrived, and Lian Li and Bian Jin had just packed up.

There are very few rooms in Lian Li's house, and Lian Li has already made the floor, so Lian Li wants Bian Jin to sleep at Wang Po's house, as her house has extra rooms.

But Bian Jin said indifferently: "It's okay, I'll sleep on the floor too, and it won't matter if I sleep all night."

Lian Li was a little embarrassed: "The village is no better than the city, it's much colder at night, you'll catch a cold if you haven't slept in it?"

Bian Jin: "It's okay for you to sleep for so long, I think you should be much stronger than you."

Lian Li couldn't beat him, so he had no choice but to agree.Fortunately, there was still cotton batting in the cabinet, and the new cotton batting he bought last time was unused, so it happened to be laid out for Bian Jin together.

Lian Li crossed the bedroom with two beds of cotton wool in his arms, Bian Jin was taken aback for a moment, afraid of disturbing Zhou Sijie, he didn't dare to speak loudly, so he stretched out his hand to hold Lian Li, "Wait a minute, don't you want to make the floor in this room?"

Lian Li glanced at the sleeping Zhou Sijie, "It's not very good, is it?"

Bian Jin tilted his head, thinking about it, it seems to be true, but it is absolutely impossible for him to sleep alone!

"Can you come and accompany me?" He scratched the tip of his nose, embarrassed to look at Lian Li, his eyes wandering.

Lian Li remembered watching a movie with him on National Day, he seemed afraid of ghosts...

"Yes." All the halls in the village offer incense, and now they all use electronic candles, but the atmosphere at night is quite strange.Moreover, he also slept on the floor, so it was very convenient to move there.

Bian Jin was overjoyed, and helped to move Lianli's floor mat, rolled up the cotton wool and the quilt, hugged it with both hands, and came to the main room.

Lian Li has already laid out a layer of mattresses on Bian Jin's floor, and it is on the far left side, which is horizontal relative to the whole room, so you won't be able to see the candle flames if you sleep on it.

Bian Jin also spread the floor to the side, side by side with his own. There was still a gap when the floor was laid down, but he moved it again, and put the two floors together.

"I didn't sleep honestly. I turned over and turned the quilt out and it was dirty and not easy to wash." He said nonsense solemnly.

Lian Li didn't care so much, he just wanted to sleep closer and be warm, lest Bian Jindong really catch a cold.

Although there are plenty of bedding, there are no pillows.

Lian Li searched for a long time to find his own cotton-padded coat, went to the main room, closed the door between the two rooms, Bian Jin was sitting on his bed playing with his mobile phone.

Lian Li picked up the cotton coat and asked, "There are no extra pillows, do you want to use mine or use this cotton coat as a cushion?"

Bian Jin: "I'll wrap my bag in a cotton coat. I'm used to high pillows, but your pillow is a bit short."

"Okay." Lian Li took off his shoes and got into bed too, but he didn't lie down. Sitting, he was a little curious when he saw Bian Jin's bag.

"I remember that you only bought your clothes when you came here? But you carried your bag when you came here. What's in your bag?"

Bian Jin suddenly remembered something, and excitedly unwrapped the cotton coat he had just wrapped, opened his schoolbag, and unexpectedly took out a stack of papers.

"My final exam paper." Bian Jinte proudly handed it to Lian Li.

Lian Li chuckled, and took the paper in doubt. The top one was a math paper, with 135 written on the upper left corner.

Lian Li was surprised, and continued to scroll down, and was even more shocked. His total score was 603. Although he hadn't reached the level of the rocket class, it was far beyond the first line.

And Lian Li remembered that Bian Jin only scored 423 points in the monthly exam in September, and his score increased by 180 points in just a few months, which is already a deed that can be posted on the Xiachuan High School Honor Roll.

"I've made great progress." Lian Li sorted out the papers and returned them to Bian Jin.

But Bian Jin said, "It's not enough, there is still a distance from you."

Lian Li was taken aback, "You want to go to a university with me?"

Bian Jin replied in seconds: "Of course."

Bian Jin told him with a smile, as if this was a normal thing that would make him very happy if he did it.

Lian Li fell silent suddenly.

He thinks that there is nothing about him that Bian Jin likes, and it can even be said that there are many things about him that Bian Jin should hate.

But Bian Jin always revolves around him, and everything he does is centered on him, takes him as the goal, and always pays for him with joy.

He felt it was not worth it.

Lian Limo said for a long time, "You should think more about yourself. Choosing a university is an important choice in life. Although it will not determine your future, it will affect you for a long time. Choose a university for yourself. The university of your choice is very important.”

Bian Jin said bluntly: "But being able to go to the same university as you is the favorite school I can think of."

Lian Li was stunned, his pupils shrank slightly, and his hands hidden under the quilt slowly curled up to hold his trouser legs.

He lowered his eyes and retracted his gaze, not daring to look directly at Bian Jin, and slowly slid into the bed, with his back to Bian Jin: "The light is on your wall, remember to turn it off when you are going to sleep, good night."

"Well, good night." Bian Jin reached out and turned off the light.

The room was plunged into darkness, the two of them were very quiet, there was no movement of turning over, and their breathing was very shallow, as if there were no two people in the room at all.

After an unknown amount of time, Bian Jin spoke first.

"Lian Li, are you asleep?"

"No." Lian Li asked, "What's wrong?"

"It's okay, I just remembered that I haven't told you Happy New Year alone." Probably because of being buried under the quilt, Bian Jin's voice was distorted and muffled, "Happy New Year."

Lian Li said, "Thank you, and I wish you a happy new year too."

It fell into silence again.

Bian Jin: "Actually, I not only want to tell you a happy New Year, I also want to say happy Lantern Festival, Dragon Boat Festival, happy Mid-Autumn Festival, happy birthday and so on."

"Lian Li, I think that no matter whether it is a big or a small festival, I can openly bless you."

There was movement from Lian Li's side, the sound of the bedding rubbing against each other, and he turned around.

No one can see clearly in the dark, but they can feel each other's breath, intertwined.

Lian Li said in a low voice, "Thank you, come on for the college entrance examination."

***

Bian Jin only stayed at Lian Li's house for 31 days, and left at noon on the first day of the new year. He had to go back to Xiachuan, and Jiang Lesheng's house was still waiting for him to eat.

Lian Li sent him to the station, and Jin told him before getting on the train.

"Next semester is the mock exam. I will come to see you with the transcript after the mock exam is over."

Lian Li handed him a large package of Yuancheng specialties, "Okay, I'm looking forward to it. Send me a message before you come, and I'll pick you up."

"Okay, it's a deal."

"Say hello to Jiang Lesheng and the others for me."

Bian Jin smiled, "Okay, I'll ask them to make a video for you when we get there, and wish you a happy new year."

Lian Li didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "I'm not their elder, what kind of New Year are you wishing me for?"

"Bye Xueba, get a good start, and get a good grade in the college entrance examination this year." Bian Jin said very seriously.

Lian Li knew he was joking, "Hurry up and get in the car, there will be no seats later."

Not long after Bian Jin got on the bus, the bus left. Lian Li watched the bus leave the station before leaving.

He has to return to his own life and prepare for every unknown tomorrow.

He only took a part-time job as a tutor, and he would go out at [-]:[-] in the morning and return at [-]:[-] in the afternoon. He was afraid that something might happen to Zhou Sijie again, so he asked his neighbor Wang Po to watch over her.

His high school in the village is tuition-free, and there are scholarships and grants, so there is no need to worry about tuition fees when he goes to school now.

However, they have no savings.

Zhou Sijie's savings for so many years have been spent because of hospitalization, and Lian Li's part-time salary is only enough to make ends meet, and he has no money left for him to go to college.

Moreover, there was another real problem that he didn't want to think about but had to face, Zhou Sijie's funeral.

So during the winter vacation, he also opened a remedial class in the village, which was supported by the village head, and he also provided the venue.

Lian Li paid very cheaply, only ten yuan an hour, from 03:30 to 05:30 in the afternoon.

Fortunately, there are quite a lot of people, 23 students, and they are in the village, so it is convenient to take care of Zhou Sijie.

Everyone in the village knows that Lian Li, the grandson of Mrs. Lian, is a student with particularly good grades, and the first batch of students in the remedial class responded well, so the scale of the remedial class gradually expanded, from a few dozen at the beginning to 47 students. From first grade to high school.

By the end of the winter vacation, Lian Li had earned nearly 5000 yuan, which was sufficient for the tuition and living expenses of the first year of college.

***

The high school in the village also had mock exams, but the quality of the papers was not very good. Lian Li even got a perfect score of 750 in the exam, and the school specially customized a banner for him to hang at the door.

The banner is very long. Those who didn't know it thought that their school had won the first prize after the college entrance examination.

Lian Lite was embarrassed, so he hurried away when he passed by after school, and he didn't have the face to look at it.

Bian Jin took the mock exam at the same time. He arrived on the weekend as scheduled and bought a lot of things.

Lian Li picked him up at the station and saw that he was carrying two big bags of things in his hand, "Are you moving here?"

The things looked heavy, and Bian Jin still weighed them, "Most of them were given to you by Jiang Lesheng and others, such as Xiachuan plum cakes, golden cakes and other specialties. It's normal to send specialties, but you grew up in Xiachuan alone. Could it be that you haven’t eaten these? Jiang Lesheng said, it’s because you ate a lot growing up in Xiachuan, and now you’ll think about it when you come here.”

Bian Jin was speechless and helpless, "When I think about it, it seems to be the reason."

Lian Li: "And then?"

Bian Jin: "And then, I bought it too..."

Lian Li: I guessed it.

Lian Li originally wanted Bian Jin to go back by car and ride a bicycle by himself, but Bian Jin was not happy.

"I locked my bike and went there." Bian Jin said, "You don't know, our physical education class was directly occupied this semester, and there was no teacher to attend the class, so it was changed to self-study. I have never had the opportunity to exercise. Make me move, I feel like I'm suffocating."

"Okay." Lian Li put one of the big bags on the back seat of his car and tied them with elastic bands. "Do you have anything else to buy?"

Bian Jin patted the backpack, "The toiletries and a change of clothes are all inside."

Lian Li: "I'm well prepared."

Bian Jin smiled: "Once born, second time familiar."

This is how the word co-author is used...

Bian Jin had to pass the village high school to go home. Bian Jin had good eyesight and could see the banner from a distance, but the words on it were not very clear, so he read every single word.

"Warmly congratulate Lian Li, a student from Class 750, Senior Three, who scored a perfect score of [-] in this exam." Bian Jin was taken aback, "Full score?!"

Lian Li turned his eyes away from the banner, "It's because the test paper is too simple."

"No matter how simple it is, it's amazing to get full marks in the exam!"

Lian Li sighed, "Teachers are easy to correct papers." After all, no matter how you say it, it is impossible to get full marks in the subject of Chinese.

Today's weather is fine, the wind is sunny at the end of March, and it hasn't rained in the past few days, so the dirt road is also dry, and the two rode very fast.

At the school gate, Bian Jin stopped, "Wait, I'll take a photo and show it to Jiang Lesheng and the others."

Lian Li was really embarrassed, "There is really no gold content."

After Bian Jin parked the car, Lian Li Ye dragged him to stand in front of the banner, "Smile."

Lian Li couldn't help but scratch his toes in embarrassment, like a child caught by his elders to perform in front of his relatives during Chinese New Year.

Oh, Zhou Sijie really did this.

It should be the Spring Festival of the winter vacation when he just entered high school. Zhou Siyi brought Lu Xu and Lu Shiyun to visit for New Year greetings. Zhou Sijie asked him to perform an endorsement, classical Chinese for three years in high school.

He remembered that Lu Xu said blankly: "Wow, my cousin is really amazing, he actually endorsed the book in advance."

Full of ridicule.

Lian Li shyly avoided Bian Jin's camera, "I've been out for a long time, and I'm a little worried about my mother."

But Bian Jin called him suddenly, with an urgent tone, "Lian Li!"

Lian Li looked over subconsciously, and Bian Jin just pressed the camera button, and Lian Li was stunned on the screen, showing nervousness and worry all over his body.

Behind him is a huge camphor tree, the sun shines through the leaves, mottled and flickering.

Bian Jin saved the photos and put away the phone, very satisfied.

"walk home."

"Did you take a picture?" Lian Li was very helpless.

"Yes, and I regret it."

Lian Li: "?"

"Don't show it to Jiang Lesheng and the others." No one will show it.

On the contrary, Lian Li breathed a sigh of relief, "That's fine." He was sure just now that his expression was ugly, so he didn't want to send it to others.

***

After the cold winter passed, Zhou Sijie's complexion improved a lot, and her appetite was also good. In the past month, she gained two or three catties. This is probably the most gratifying thing for Lian Li this year.

When Lian Li went out in the morning, she told Zhou Sijie that she knew that Bian Jin would come today, and she specially asked Lian Li to go to the village to buy a catty of meat, and she would cook the braised pork.

It was already noon when the two arrived home, Zhou Sijie had just prepared lunch, Lian Li didn't let her touch the cold water, he had washed all the dishes in advance.

"Mom, we're back." Lian Li helped carry a big bag into the main room.

Zhou Sijie just moved the third chair, "Here we come."

"Auntie." A table was set up in the middle of the main room, with three stools on it. There were already dishes on the table, three dishes and one soup, very fragrant.

Bian Jin sat on the earliest high-speed train at [-] o'clock in the morning, and before he had time to eat breakfast, the smell of the food made his mouth water.

"Auntie, did you make these all by yourself?" Bian Jin and Lian Li put the things on the small table in the corner of the main room and asked impatiently.

"Lian Li helped wash the dishes." Zhou Sijie said.

Bian Jin never hesitated to praise, "It looks delicious!"

In the village, rice is also cooked on the stove, a very large iron pot, the cooked rice is very fragrant, and there will be crispy rice.

"I'll serve the rice." Lian Li said holding three sets of bowls and chopsticks.

"I'll go with you." Bian Jin followed, "Wash your hands by the way."

Zhou Sijie's cooking skills are very good. After Bian Jin ate two big bowls, he almost ate up all three dishes.

Bian Jin slumped back in the chair, rubbed his stomach, and said, "Auntie, your skill in opening a restaurant business is definitely very good! I have a friend whose mother used to be a chef, and you are on the same level as hers."

Zhou Sijie smiled, "It's not that exaggerated, it's just ordinary home cooking."

"It's really delicious!" Bian Jin gave a wild thumbs up, seeing Lian Li packed up the dishes and going to the kitchen, he hurriedly got up, "Auntie, sit down, I'll help Lian Li wash the dishes, you can't eat and drink for free."

"Wait a minute." Zhou Sijie gathered up the knitted jacket, looked at Bian Jin and said.

Both Bian Jin and Lian Li were taken aback, Zhou Sijie said to Lian Li, "Go and do your work first."

Lian Li looked at Bian Jin, paused for a moment, "OK."

Just as Lian Li walked into the bedroom, Zhou Sijie said again: "Close the door."

Bian Jin became even more silent, with his back to Zhou Sijie not daring to turn around, Kuang Kuang and Lian Li winked.

Lian Li looked at him calmly, and Bian Jin only read four words - ask for blessings.

Lian Li left and closed the door.

Zhou Sijie said flatly, "Come and sit down."

Classmate Xiaobian was caught by Teacher Zhou again. Classmate Xiaobian chose to close his eyes and sit upright, waiting to die.

Zhou Sijie was overjoyed, "Why do you have such an expression of resignation to death?"

Bian Jin shook his head wildly, "No, no!"

He sat very upright, just like an interview, looking at Zhou Sijie without blinking.

"Don't be nervous, I really don't eat people." Zhou Sijie drank his saliva and said lightly, "You like Lian Li, don't you?"

Bian Jin: ...?

He now feels that Zhou Sijie is not as scary as the current situation.

Bian Jin said tremblingly: "Yes, I like Lian Li very much. He is very kind and treats his friends very well. It is very pleasant to get along with him."

While talking, he racked his brains to think of what else to say, and tricked Zhou Sijie into believing that he liked Lian Li as a friend. This state was like being dragged to the podium to endorse by the teacher in self-study in the early morning. One sentence.

At this time, the teacher will ask: "Did you recite it when you went back?"

What Zhou Sijie said was, "You know what I'm talking about."

None of the two sentences have the same word, but they both declare the same ending—he is dead.

Bian Jin lowered his head silently, not daring to make a sound.

Zhou Sijie's voice could not hear any waves, "I gave birth to him and I know his character. Most of his temper was forced out by me. It was I who forced him to be so withdrawn."

Bian Jin opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but didn't know what to say, so he could only continue to remain silent.

"I really want him to stand out and get rid of that person's shackles, so I don't want any factors that hinder him on his way to success." Zhou Sijie smiled wryly, "I suddenly realized when I knew how much work I had left. The shackles are mine, never his."

Bian Jin finally said, "This is not yours either, you are the victim, and you are not at fault."

Zhou Sijie chuckled, "You don't need to comfort me. I've heard my grandma say similar things many times. Before, I couldn't understand how the scars could disappear."

"But when I was in the hospital a few years ago, I suddenly figured it out. If it doesn't work out, I just don't want to see it." Zhou Sijie's mood was very relaxed, her eyebrows raised, like a girl talking about the future.

It's just that the future she talks about is not her own.

"You can like him, I am very grateful to you." Zhou Sijie sighed softly, with a low voice, "Very few people would like him because of me."

Bian Jin licked his lips, his throat was dry, and he said dryly: "There are many people in Xiachuan High School who like him. I, Jiang Lesheng, Lu Xu, Chu Zihao, and Chu Junhao all miss him. This time I will come They also asked me to bring him a lot of stuff."

"But they know Lian Li because of you. Without you, they wouldn't have any contact with Lian Li." Zhou Sijie coughed and his voice was a little hoarse, "But I don't mean to belittle Lian Li by saying this, he is a good man. Child, he is a very good child, he deserves these likes."

Bian Jin nodded, he turned around and poured a glass of water for Zhou Sijie, "I think so too."

"Thank you." Zhou Sijie just took a sip, "I know I don't have much time left, the most I can see is the lotus budding in the small pond in front of Wang Po's house."

"How come? You look so healthy now, Lian Li said that you look good recently." Bian Jin said anxiously.

"I know my own body." Zhou Sijie is only 35 years old this year, but at this moment he looks like a 75-year-old old man. "This life is really long."

Bian Jin was silent, he had a lot to say, but he felt that Zhou Sijie didn't want someone who could provide her ideas, she just wanted a listener.

"The only regret is that I can't attend Lian Li's high school graduation ceremony, and I can't send him to college."

"Although Lian Li looks like a very strong person, he is actually quite fragile inside." Zhou Sijie smiled wryly, "I heard him sobbing many nights."

"So I think it's great to have you like him. When I die, he can still have sustenance, otherwise he will definitely chase me with his character."

"Bian Jin." Zhou Sijie kept rubbing the cup in Zhou Sijie's hand.

Bian Jin: "I am here."

"You and Lian Li must be fine."

***

At noon on Sunday, Lian Li sent Bian Jin to the station.

"The things in the blue bag are Xia Chuan's specialties sent by Jiang Lesheng. They won't last long, so remember to eat them quickly. The red ones are some dried fruits, don't worry about them." Bian Jinzai recalled the things Lian Li brought one by one.

Lian Li felt that Bian Jin was like an elderly lady telling her grandchildren to eat well and sleep well, which was a bit funny, "Understood, I will check the rest one by one, don't worry."

Bian Jin glanced at the time, and there were still 10 minutes before the departure, "I'm hungry, I'll go to the convenience store to buy something to eat, do you want to eat sausage?"

"No need, just bring me a bottle of water." Lian Li sat on the spot and looked after Bian Jin's bag.

Bian Jin was very fast, and came back within a few minutes, with two bottles of water between his fingers in his right hand and a bag in his left hand.

"The soda water smells like mango, try it." Bian Jin handed him water, put his own bottle aside, opened the bag, there were two sausages inside, and took out one for Lian Li.

"It smells delicious, try it?" Bian Jin said, "You didn't eat much breakfast, you're a ghost if you're not hungry now."

Lian Li did not refuse this time, "Thank you."

Bian Jin raised his eyebrows, "Your mother is quite right."

"what?"

"She said that you will subconsciously refuse other people's kindness, but if someone you are familiar with repeats the invitation again, you will not have the heart to refuse."

"Really." Lian Li Wei bowed his head, was silent for a while, and said, "Actually, I heard the latter part of your conversation that day."

Bian Jin was not surprised, "I think so, after all, it doesn't take that long to wash a dish, and the wooden boards in the room are very thin, so there is no sound insulation."

"Yeah." In fact, Lian Li heard more than a part of it, he started to listen to "You like Lian Li, don't you?", he heard almost all of it.

"Your mother really understands you very well." Bian Jin said, "Although many of her actions are wrong, it is undeniable that she loves you very much."

"I know."

"Lian Li, in fact, life is a game spent in constant losing and gaining." Bian Jin grabbed Lian Li's right hand with his left hand and gently shook it, "I hope you will not dwell on losing and face all things positively." owned."

Bian Jin was about to leave, but Lian Li suddenly held his hand back, "You are the greatest luck I have ever had, and I will hold on tightly."

"I like you very much, Bian Jin."