fall in love in winter

"Okay. Let's go, don't be too nervous." Xie Mingjun coaxed softly, she didn't coax Dongyin to open the door anymore, she could feel Dongyin's trembling voice, she could feel Dongyin's fear.

Xie Mingjun said: "Dongyin, it's okay, we don't care about these things, we are very happy to come here, if you feel uncomfortable, we will not come."

She comforted her gently, fearing that the loud voice would startle the people inside, "I'm backing away, I don't see anything now."

Xie Mingjun took a few steps back and stepped into the black ashes. She has a cleanliness habit and frowned forcefully.She retreated to the side of the hut, and Chu Ningan sat on the suitcase, her hands propped on her legs, at a loss.

The three of them didn't know what to do.

They originally thought about New Year's Eve, how could Dongyin be missing, the four of them should be neat and tidy, and they wanted to give Dongyin a surprise, but they didn't expect...

Chu Ning'an stood up, took the suitcase back, and said, "I have to tell her what I think."

Lu Hanqiu yelled at her to stop her, but he didn't. Xie Mingjun helped up the suitcase and said, "Let her try it, maybe it can comfort Dongyin."

"She..." Lu Hanqiu looked at the house, and felt an invisible sense of oppression. It wasn't because the house was dilapidated, but because Dong Yin was 21 years old. She had lived here for 21 years. With the current social development...

Is there no one to help her?

Along the way, I have come across such houses, most of which are unoccupied or used as animal sheds, but she still lives here.

Lu Hanqiu asked: "Didn't she tell you? Is it what her family is like?"

"I said it, she said that she is poor and there is no one at home, but I think..." No matter how poor Xie Mingjun is, how poor can be, but after seeing her, she realized that Dongyin's life is even worse than she imagined. Bitter a lot.After walking this way, the place can be seen to be poor, but she never thought that Dongyin lived in this kind of house...

She looked at the courtyard, it couldn't be called a courtyard, it was just a wide country road, those weeds should have been broken by Dongyin yesterday.

Yesterday Dongyin was still sending a message in the group, saying that she was growing weeds, Xie Mingjun was still thinking that it was good, Dongyin’s courtyard can also grow flowers and grass, isn’t this a small country house, how did she expect that the yard is full Weeds that can grow as high as your knees.

Chu Ning'an talked a lot at the door, enlightened, coaxed, and said nothing, but she still didn't hear an echo. She came back dejectedly, looked up and wanted to sigh, but saw the hole in the wall.

The room is very small and airtight, and it seems that there is only this hole to peek into. Chu Ning'an dragged Lu Hanqiu to lift the stone over on tiptoe, and she said softly: "Let me take a look, if she is fine, I can rest assured. If you really don't want to See us, let's go, act like nothing happened."

Xie Mingjun helped out, "Be careful."

Chu Ning'an stood on the stone and looked in.

It was pitch black, and it was hard to see clearly inside. Only this hole leaked a ray of light. She saw the old wooden table, which was gray and seemed to have been used for decades. There was only one box in the room, which was the only piece of furniture. The furniture is not even a cabinet. Next to the box is a wooden bed. The wooden bed looks very old, and it seems that there is a layer of straw underneath.

The box that Dongyin brought back was next to her. She searched for a long time before finding Dongyin. Dongyin was not leaning against the door, but she was crouching in the corner of the bed with her head lowered, tightly twisting her fingers.

The scene is frightening.

Chu Ning'an tilted her head.

Yesterday in the group, Dongyin also sent a message saying: "I'm home, I cleaned up my little den beautifully, the quilt smells like sunshine after drying."

The nest she thought was the same as her hometown, or like a kitten's nest, with warm quilts and soft beds, where she could feel the scorching sun in summer.

A punch from reality smashed her fantasies to pieces. After she and Dongyin got along well, she felt that Dongyin was very sunny and hardworking, and felt... never thought that she was so depressed.

Chu Ning'an came down from the stone, Xie Mingjun wanted to stand up, but was stopped by Chu Ning'an, she said: "Don't look, let's go back."

"Huh?" Lu Hanqiu looked at her suspiciously. Just now she said that no matter what, she should take Dongyin out of the house and let her see the sunshine outside. Why now...

Lu Hanqiu went to see Chu Ning'an, and the tears in Chu Ning'an's eyes fell unconsciously. She didn't know what to do, so she said, "I, I'm hungry, I haven't eaten since last night, let's go back Let's eat."

As she spoke, she looked up at the hole again.

Like an invisible abyss, living in darkness for a long time, the hole is not used for lighting and ventilation, but more like a struggle for her, looking at the light that shines in, struggling desperately to get out.

Therefore, Dongyin has to study hard and run forward.

They sat for a while, and Lu Hanqiu agreed with Chu Ning'an's approach, pretending that they had never been here, that no one had discovered Dongyin's secret.

When Chu Ning'an got up to pick up her luggage, she heard several creaks and the door seemed to be opened, so she hurriedly turned her head to look.

Dong Yin stood at the door, pursing her lips hard, holding her clothes with her hands, trying her best to control her emotions, tears fell down one by one.

"I, I'm here..." She was a little speechless, as if her eyes had been stabbed by the early morning sun, her eyes kept blinking, and then reflected a colorful halo, with tears in her eyes.

Chu Ning'an wanted to go over and hug her, but she didn't dare, for fear of hurting her.

Xie Mingjun walked over, rubbed her hair with his hands, and said, "It's good if you stay here."

Dongyin was still speechless, tears were falling, she pinched Xie Mingjun's clothes and said, "...I have something to eat here."

She just heard Chu Ningan say that she was hungry.

Any coaxing or comforting words are useless, they will only make her more ashamed and hopeless, but she doesn't know why she is afraid that her friend will be hungry, so she struggles and feels uncomfortable to come out.

Chu Ning'an burst into tears, and kept wiping her face with the tissue Lu Hanqiu gave her. She choked up and asked, "I saw you eating just now, are you full?"

With a muffled voice, Dong Yin said that she was almost full.

"I'm not very hungry." Chu Ning'an said, "I just made an excuse." She was quite afraid that Dong Yin would run into that house again.

Dongyin pressed against Xie Mingjun's chest.

Listening to Xie Mingjun's heartbeat, it was very sonorous, Xie Mingjun's hands were tightly protecting her, Dongyin's nose was sore, she didn't dare to make a sound, and let the tears run down.

After the fall, she wanted to talk, but she was afraid that she would be too hypocritical, so she said she was going to get something. She went into the hut and closed the door a little, then wiped away her tears desperately to calm down her emotions.

Xie Mingjun clasped his hands, afraid that she would go in and not come out again.

However, Dongyin went in and got a clean handkerchief and tissue and came out, she carried the bucket and ran down again, Xie Mingjun didn't know where she was going, so she looked down on tiptoe, feeling that Dongyin had walked into a weed forest.

Dong Yin held something with an iron handle, pressed it hard a few times, and water came out. She brought the water over and asked Xie Mingjun and the others to wash their hands.

The water is warm and ready to go.

Several people washed their hands, Dong Yin pointed to Xie Mingjun's shoes and said, "Wipe them."

"Okay." Xie Mingjun came over with a tissue and wiped the shoes clean.

Dong Yin looked at the three people in the yard, her chest was so tight that she was about to suffocate, she summoned up the greatest courage in her life, and said, "Let me carry your boxes in."

Chu Ning'an didn't know how to respond, she looked at Xie Mingjun, who was polishing her shoes, Xie Mingjun nodded.

Dongyin carried all three boxes into the house, and when she came out she carried a red plastic bag, much like a plastic bag for garbage.

She said: "I, I'm going to the mountains to see my grandma, you can wait for me here."

"I'll go with you." Xie Mingjun squeezed the tissue, not knowing where to throw it, Dong Yin took the tissue and threw it into a sunken cement trough at the door.

Dong Yin said that the road might be difficult.

"It's okay, everyone is here." Chu Ning'an sniffed.

Dong Yin went to lock the door, she carried the bag and led the way.

They went down from the slope above, and there were several families below, the doors were all open, and the houses were full of people from the generation of parents and mothers, and they squinted their eyes.

Someone asked, "Dongyin?"

Dongyin didn't respond.

Several friends behind her did not respond either.

"Who is it, why is there a person with black and white hair?"

Those fathers and mothers all squinted their eyes. Dong Yin's hairstyle is okay, it's purple, so she might not be able to see it clearly, but Chu Ning'an's black and white paired hairstyle is too obvious.

Chu Ning'an didn't know whether these people had good intentions or bad intentions, and she couldn't understand what these people were saying, so she put her hands in her pockets.

Walking out of the village, they passed a few ridges. Chu Ning'an felt that the road was not difficult. It might be that Dong Yin was too inferior, and she was afraid that she would trouble them.

She thought so...

Walking to a small hillside, the top is covered with withered grass, Dongyin walks ahead and tramples down the grass, creating a barely passable path.

Then came a cemetery.

They are still buried in the ground here, and they still burn incense paper, like a barren hill with no jurisdiction, allowing it to grow wildly. When I turned my head, I found that Dong Yin's family was also on the top of the hill.

The mist in the morning turned into dew, and Dongyin's trouser legs were wet. She squatted down and took out the incense paper and candles, and the ground was wet. She still pulled out the nearby weeds to prevent them from burning up the mountain.

The incense paper burned after a few times.

Dong Yin kowtowed her head on the ground, her lips moved, maybe she wanted to speak, but she didn't know how to speak.Xie Mingjun frowned slightly, and she opened her lips and said, "Hello grandma, we are Dong Yin's friends, we came to play with her, and I am bothering you."

"We are very good friends. Hello grandma. My name is Chu Ning'an. Don't be surprised if I sent Dong Yin to dye her hair." Chu Ning'an said with a smile, kowtowed and pulled Lu Hanqiu Kowtow together.

Lu Hanqiu also spoke, "Dongyin is very good, both at study and at work. We are all learning from her."

What the old people like to hear, what they say.

Tears burst and fell into the burning incense paper.

The fire was extinguished, and after kowtowing, Dong Yin said, "Grandma, I'm back."

Xie Mingjun felt sorry for her. She was squatting, and when she kowtowed just now, her knees were covered with mud. Dongyin wanted to pat her clean, but when she saw her palms were dark, she took them back.

Xie Mingjun didn't care, pretending she didn't see it, she said: "Don't be afraid, we are with you, where are your parents, we will accompany you."

She thought that Dongyin must be very sad to visit three graves alone.Now that they are all here, they can accompany Dongyin well, Dongyin makes her feel so distressed.

Dong Yin held the incense paper in her hand, and there were a few gold ingots in the bag. She lit it again, threw all of these into the fire, and after burning for a while, she said, "This...she is actually my mother."

"Huh?" Xie Mingjun looked at her, not quite understanding.

Chu Ning'an tilted her head slightly, not daring to make too much noise, for fear of disturbing her.

Dongyin flicked the incense paper, and the crowd huddled together. It took her a long time to say: "I am an abandoned baby. I was abandoned when I was very young. My grandma took me back from the train station. At that time, my grandma was already old. It's huge."

She choked up and continued to fiddle with the burning incense paper on the ground. Some of them burned halfway, and some turned to ashes. After crying for so long, tears still fell, "Because it's a girl, the country No one wanted it, almost froze to death at the train station, my grandma picked it up and raised it.”

The withered grass in the morning is frosted, layer by layer, like rolled and cooled candy coated with a layer of powdered sugar. If you lick it, your tongue will be cold and you will frostbite yourself.

With her feet creaking on it, Dongyin knelt on the ground and kowtowed to this grave that she didn't know was called mother or grandma. The friends around her kowtowed with her, their knees were soaked.

When the yellow paper is burned out, so is the incense.

They put the fake flowers they bought on the grave.

Dongyin wiped away her tears and made her face black. Xie Mingjun cleaned her carefully with a tissue. Dongyin told her story in a very flat tone. She held a small stick in her hand and broke it bit by bit. , a few friends, sat on the hillside and listened quietly.

In winter, when the heart-warming sun rises, Dongyin still feels cold, but not so cold anymore.

Dong Yin said that she was an abandoned baby, who was thrown at the train station two days after she was born, and her grandmother picked her up when passing by the train station.

At that time, my grandma was very old, 76 years old. Grandma had three sons, all three sons were married, and the eldest had grandchildren.

The grandma took Dongyin back, but the family disagreed, and told her to throw the baby away, but the grandma didn't agree, she had raised the doll at the train station for a few days, and she also waited for a few days, no one wanted to pick it up, If you don't take it back, you will freeze to death, or even be picked up by traffickers.

She took the child back, and the originally harmonious family broke out in war. The sons and daughters-in-law disagreed. Who will take care of the child?Who will eat and drink when the old lady is gone?

The old lady's original plan was to take the child back to the third family. The third family only had one young son, so the burden was not heavy, and her third son had always wanted a daughter.If the third child disagrees, she will ask the third child to register for the doll, and then she will bring the child up and not let him pay for it.

But the old lady made a mistake, and her third son didn't agree at all, and scolded the old lady, saying that she only knew how to oppress their family, that she was biased, and drove the old lady out of the house directly.

The old lady hugged the baby, but she had no choice but to tidy up the original cowshed, and then moved in with the child in her arms. The child had no milk, so she carried her from the beginning of the village to the end of the village, and went to other villages if there was no one in the village.

At any rate, the child was raised until he was one year old and could walk. The third child went to inquire about a family, but the family was barren and wanted to adopt Dong Yin.

The family conditions are good, and they can also feed Dongyin cereal. The old lady carried the baby and sent it there, but before raising it for half a year, the family was pregnant and insisted on sending Dongyin back. The third child did not tell the old lady. The old lady went to the street to ask if the doll was doing well, only to hear someone say, what a fart, she was only fed rice soup, she was skinny, she didn’t even have two clothes on, and she had chilblains all over her body.

When the old lady went to see it, tears almost fell down. It would be better to throw the child at the train station, and wrap it up in a thick quilt anyway.The old lady took the child back again, and never dared to give it up again.

The old lady farms and grows vegetables by herself, raises cattle and pigs, and even walks on the street to pick up bottles and cans to sell for money, thinking that the baby will have money to study and have clothes to wear in winter when she grows up.

When Dong Yin was three or four years old, she ran around with her grandma, and her grandma wouldn't let her follow her to pick up waste, so she insisted on picking up, and even picked up more than her grandma.The grandparents and grandchildren lived happily.

Until Dong Yin was five or six years old, she had to register for household registration, and the third family still didn't let go, fearing that the old lady would worry about having a second child and having a daughter, and she was even more reluctant to register for Dong Yin's residence.

The old lady had no choice, so she took her savings and led Dong Yin, who had not yet been named, to run around, begging for help.The old lady thought about it for a month, and now that the child is not happy, his previous name was Osmanthus or Flower, and he will be laughed at when he studies in the future.She saw that the words on the sign at the entrance of the police station were pretty, so she asked how to pronounce those words.

People said it was a road sign, reminding people to be polite and not to step on the lawn, saying: "The grass is full of love, how can you bear to step on it?"

"It means that the grass is so beautiful and green, who would have the heart to step on it?"

"That's good, it's called Yinyin, Dongyin, and my surname." The old lady touched Xiaodongyin who was waiting to register, and said, "Our Dongyin's good days are coming, no one is willing to bully Xiaocaoxiaohua of."

Dong Yin didn't understand anything, she grabbed the counter and hummed.

After registering, she still calls her old lady grandma.

The people in the village teased her maliciously, what is she called grandma?You should call mom!She is your mother, Dong Yin, you have an 80-year-old mother!

Also maliciously said that the old lady, who is so old and still such a young girl, was born with that wild man outside, can she live and feed her?Do you have milk?

Dong Yin didn't understand at that time, and was urged to call the old lady Mom, the old lady made her a schoolbag, and said with a smile: "It's fine to call grandma, and you can't tell people that I am your mother, it is grandma, do you know? "

Later, when she was in elementary school, the old lady often went to school to see her, and picked up some bottles and cans by the way. Dongyin would also pick up the school's bottles and cans in advance. .

One day, a child of the same age as her in the village fell out with her, and went around saying that her grandma was actually her mother's business, and used it to make fun of her, saying that she stinks of picking up garbage, and that she has an 80-year-old mother. A group of people To isolate her.

Dongyin is very sad, but she is not afraid, she has a grandma, she still picks up bottles and cans, and even tells grandma not to come to school, she is afraid that others will laugh at grandma.

But grandma would still come to school, she would bring a lot of beautiful rose flowers to the little girls in the class, and when sending rose flowers, she would let the little girls play with Dongyin.

During that time, Dongyin was very proud. She felt that she was different from other children. Her grandma would send flowers to other children every day. No other children had such a good grandma, and many children had never seen those flowers. She From the textbook, I saw that roses look similar to roses, so I boasted that they were roses, and one was very expensive.The children are also very envious of her, and naturally think that what they received are precious roses, and save the waste paper and bottles for her grandma every day.

When she was a child, she lived a carefree life. Although she would encounter unhappy things, she would turn her head and forget them, and would not be anxious or sad because of unknown things.

Until junior high school.

Grandma is almost 90 years old, and she can't walk anymore. She can't walk around like before, and she can't pick up bottles and cans, but she still uses a cane to feed chickens and ducks, and sell eggs. Duck egg saves money for Dong Yin.

Dongyin knew early on that earning money would not be easy, and the road ahead would be difficult.

Grandma told her not to pick up bottles at school, lest her classmates make jokes, she would find a way, but Dongyin is not afraid, just laugh when she laughs, she is only afraid that grandma is overworked, and she wants grandma to enjoy herself.

Verbal violence in junior high school and campus violence became more serious with the arrival of puberty. Dongyin was very afraid. She often encountered it. When others laughed at her, she comforted herself that she was fine. She comforted herself that her grandma was with her.

Reading, picking up waste, reading...

As long as you read No.1, you will get preferential treatment.

The teacher will not strictly require her to have breakfast at school, so she can save a sum of money for breakfast. The teacher will not strictly require her to stay at school at noon, so she can pick up bottles and cans, and the teacher will help her apply for subsidies from the school , as long as she is good enough, the school will be free of dinner.

She studied, won many awards, and took many awards.

It happened to be the New Year's Day holiday that day, so she thought about picking up more bottles, and after selling the money, she could buy a lollipop for her grandma to taste.

She picked it up, picked it up, bought good things and ran back. The big dog in the village chased her and kept barking at her. She was terrified. She ran to the door of the house and watched a group of people talking around.

Dongyin felt very uneasy.

A villager turned to her and said, "Dongyin, your grandma is gone. Go in and have a look, your grandma can't close her eyes."

Dong Yin walked over and dazedly wiped grandma's eyes.

She didn't shed a single tear, she couldn't cry, from the time she heard the news of her grandma's death to when she was buried, she never shed a single tear.

From then on, Dongyin lived alone.Eating, sleeping, reading alone... Doing many things alone.

The sun hangs above their heads, and the shallow sunshine can't withstand the cold of winter, but it's better than never, there will always be a little warmth.

Dong Yin pursed her lips hard, and put her hands on her knees. She was wearing black pants. After a while, her pants would absorb heat and be very warm.

The tone of her storytelling is very flat, and she will be very happy when she talks about the stories when she was a child. This is one of the few happiness in her memory, and she remembers it very clearly.

What color is grandma's rose flower?

Pink, one plant can grow quite large.

There are also gardenias, which can be tied into the hair.

"Very happy." Dong Yin said.

It feels sad when it falls into their ears, and they are all living happily, so happy that they think that ordinary people in the world live like this.

It's really absurd and unexpected.

Chu Ning'an couldn't help asking: "Then your grandma's three sons, how did they treat you?"

Dongyin pointed out to them that there were two second-floor houses next to the small earthen house, "The white tiles belong to the third son's house, the red tiles belong to the second son, and the bungalow in the village is the house of the eldest son. They are not at home now." They moved to live in the city. They came back once during the Qingming Festival last year, so they probably won’t come back on New Year’s Day.”

As for what to do, Dong Yin thought about it, "They are okay with my grandma, but they will often accuse my grandma of supporting me, and when grandma is here, they will share some of the delicious food with grandma, and will buy clothes for grandma."

"What about you?" Xie Mingjun asked.

Dong Yin said: "For me... it's considered good. When they were young, their children would wear the clothes they couldn't wear, and they would wear them to me."

She has a good definition, and she feels good when others give her a bag.

Dongyin said in a low voice, "Everyone says I have no conscience, and I don't know if I have a conscience."

"Huh?" Xie Mingjun was puzzled.

Dong Yin continued: "After my grandma left, they discussed what to do with me and how to support me. At that time, my grandma's funeral happened to be held, and they asked me to take 2000 yuan to express my gratitude."

"2000 yuan! Where did you get the 2000 yuan? You dare not scold me for you. How old were you at that time, thirteen or fourteen? Just let you live alone? Even if you were picked up by your grandma, you are in it. Their household registration, they have to take care of you no matter what, just leave you alone, and have the nerve to say that you have no conscience? They have no sympathy! They are too cruel!" Chu Ning'an cursed angrily, cursed Tears fell, "I'm ashamed to ask you for 2000 yuan. Where did you get the money? Even if you have money, you can't take your money away."

Dongyin's eyes were also a little uncomfortable. She took a breath of cold air, "At that time, my grandma had some money. She sold all the cows and pigs. She saved nearly 3 yuan, and she gave it all to me."

"Maybe grandma already knew that time was running out, so she told me that the money was for me to study, to buy me clothes and sweets, and I couldn't give it to anyone who wanted it. Even if my uncle told me later If you want to buy her a coffin, you can't give me any of this money."

The old lady guessed quite accurately. Not long after she left, the three sons asked Dongyin for money. They calculated very accurately. They calculated how much money the old lady had. They wanted Dongyin to share [-] each. The three of them raised Dongyin as a younger sister.

Dongyin didn't give it, not a penny.

"My grandma said that adults don't ask children for help. No matter how old I am, those who ask me for help or ask me for money are not good people. She also said that if I live alone in the future, don't trust anyone and take good care of myself Later, when I was about to enter high school in the third year of junior high school, my third uncle fell ill. He asked me to borrow money and said that he would go to the hospital for medical treatment. Give it back to me. I didn’t give it to me. I took it to study. Later, he was ill for a long time. How long he was ill, others scolded me for a long time. Said that I have no conscience, said that if my grandma knew that I was so cruel, she would know that I have If Qian doesn't save her son, she must regret picking me up, and regret not strangling me back then."

After Dongyin finished talking about this matter, she was very anxious, she was afraid that Xie Mingjun and the others would think of her the same way, before Xie Mingjun and the others could speak, she explained tremblingly, "I also thought about giving the money, but there is I heard them say that this money is what they deserve, and even the house I live in is theirs. The house was repaired with grandma's money. Grandma said that the cattle pen was left to me... They want all my money and want me to go out to work, so I dare not give it. They take the money and I don't have it Money is enough to study, I’m going to rot here, I have to go to work in a factory, and when I’m old, they tell me that someone wants me to get married and have children. I was really scared at the time, very scared. They asked me to give me money, and at the same time Let my two children go to study in the city. I used the money for studying, and I never spent it recklessly. I used it for tuition fees, and I earned the money for meals."

She explained a lot, closed her eyes, "I don't know why it took so long, but I still feel sad when I think about it."

Xie Mingjun put his hand on her hair, rubbed her hair gently, and held her hand again.Dong Yin endured it for a long time, she held back her tears, "Later my third uncle got better, he said he just held back his breath, and if he wanted to live a good life, he just showed me what it means to be a conscientious person. Later he The family is really doing well, he took engineering as his boss and moved to the city very early."

No matter how well the old three's family lived, Dong Yin's behavior at that time seemed so hateful. People in the village didn't like her and thought she was a white-eyed wolf. The three uncles gradually moved away and no longer cared about her. .

Of course, he didn't care about her either.

"Dong Yin." Xie Mingjun looked at her seriously, and said, "You did the right thing, what your grandma said is right, adults have their own way, they have so many relatives and friends, there is no shortage of you, and more There is no shortage of your 1 yuan. They just think they deserve it. They just rely on their illness to control you. These people are rubbish. The normal way is that even if they are sick, they should not worry about it Your money, you didn't burden them at that time, and they shouldn't bother you. To put it bluntly, those people are selfish and really want to treat you well. They should have registered for you in the first place, not your grandma When you're old, beg someone to put your household registration in your own name, instead of letting her be scolded by someone poking her back."

Chu Ning'an also said: "Yes, no matter whether you did it right or not, first of all, they didn't do it right."

Dong Yin nodded vigorously.

There are still many things that Dongyin didn't say, it's too detailed, it will be very sad to say it, she doesn't want to get involved.She took a deep breath, and another deep breath.

Dong Yin would shrink herself up when encountering things, find a space to shrink herself up, and then comfort herself crazily, comfort herself all the time, and dig herself out of the mud.

It's the same now, she is actually very sad, and she doesn't want to tell others about these things, she knows that she is miserable, so she has comforted herself for so many years, telling herself that she can see the sun today, tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow.

She was very afraid that people would tell her, Dongyin, you are so pitiful, why are you so miserable, hearing such words, she always felt that good days would never come.

Over time, she didn't want to tell anyone about her past, and when people asked her, she replied pretendingly, ah, it's like this, I seem to be quite poor, I seem to have always been so miserable.

It's been too long, I've almost forgotten, I've already forgotten, I've had a very happy life, and the hard days have passed.

Actually.

She clearly knew that she would never forget it.

From the moment she got off the plane, she turned her head to look at the landing plane, at the familiar country road in front of her, at the familiar blue bricks and green tiles, she knew that the nightmare was accompanying her.

She really didn't want to come back here, but grandma was here, she had to come back, she could only pat the ashes off her body, wipe the mud off her shoes, and walk back with her best posture.

Maybe.

Maybe someone else will.

Wow, that Dongyin did the right thing, she got along well, and those relatives deserved to live a hard life, if I knew it today, why bother.

She wasn't that calm at all, she was still thinking, very humble and clichéd, that she would kill all directions and trample everyone under their feet.

If it can be done...

Dongyin touched her face, she held her chin with both hands, and exhaled the air that she took in deeply.Then she won't be followed by low self-esteem like a shadow.