back in love with a girl

What's wrong with me?

Why am I here?

I seem to be looking for something?

Am I missing something important?

why am i so sad

who am I?

"Jian Shi!" The call was approaching, and the girl who fell alone on the beach looked up with tears on her face, and the tampered memories flooded in, and she seemed to finally remember her identity.

The weeping woman who kept her nagging was her own mother.

Following the man in the suit who was taking notes with the police was Dad.

And that dog, it should be Bush who has been raised all the time, not Bush. It seems to be changed to Obama, why is it changed to this name?Can not remember.

And why is the care and tenderness in the eyes of this boy who hurriedly ran to the front so familiar.

She felt very distressed when she thought of this, and she stretched out her hand to caress his face, but her eyes seemed to pass through him, saying something to another person: "Yin Yao... It's good that you didn't leave."

Yin Yao, who was still sad at first, looked up flattered, and before she had time to be happy, she noticed Jian Shi's blank gaze: "Jian Shi, what's wrong with you?"

"I don't know..." Jian Shi hugged his painful head, "I don't know anything..."

She felt as if she had just fallen asleep.

When I woke up the next day, I forgot about the lengthy dream.

After returning to reality, parents are there, classmates are also there, boyfriends are also there, and friends are also there.

It's just that the person who didn't know whether it was a nightmare or a sweet dream disappeared.

I can't remember the details of those dreams, but my subconscious is always forcing myself to think of that person.

It's like she's a different person.

And the people around did not mention that person tacitly.

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"Jian Shi, Jian Shi, Jian Shi??" Yin Yao's urging voice called back Jian Shi who was dazed by the reflection of the coffee liquid, "Have you decided what to order?"

"Oh..." Jian Shi turned to the menu in the waiter's hand as if he had been slapped in the face, "Whatever..."

"Then have a bruschetta and a new seafood salad." Yin Yao dismissed the waiter, and his eyes fell on Jian Shi who was persistently stirring the coffee again, "Jian Shi, let's get married."

"Oh..." Jian Shi responded, and finally realized, "What did you say?"

Yin Yao looked at her and said word by word: "I said let's get married. I have been pursuing you since high school, but I have never received an enthusiastic response. I am afraid of long nights and dreams, so, will you marry me?"

"What are you talking about... we are all under 20 years old, and we have not yet reached the legal marriage age." Jian Shi looked at him in disbelief.

"We can get engaged first. After a while, when you turn 20, we will get married. I will protect you and love you more than anyone else." Yin Yao promised, wanting to impress Jian Shi.

Before Jian Shi could speak, the waiter who went down earlier brought up a cake. The western restaurant was cleared at some time, and many acquaintances came in, singing happy birthday to encourage Jian Shi to agree to him.

Jian Shi watched all this indifferently, a little panicked.

She stood up and found an excuse to escape: "I'm going to the bathroom..."

But one person agreed for her: "The wedding date will be set next month."

Jian Shi stopped her pace and looked at her mother who she thought could understand her in disbelief.

Jane's mother smiled without showing any trace, and said to the audience: "It's a happy event for Jane's family, eat whatever you want today, I'll treat you."

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Turning on the faucet to the maximum, Jian Shi put her hands on her face trying to wake herself up.But the face in the mirror was so haggard and sad, she found that she didn't know what she wanted anymore.

A pair of small hands tugged at the corners of her skirt, five years old shook her displeasedly and asked, "Sister, sister, sister, do you really want Auntie Jianshi?"

"What are you talking about..." Jian Shi picked up a smile, squatted down and pinched her face, "What about aunt and sister?"

She had no image of this younger sister who appeared out of nowhere, but the two looked so alike that one had to believe that they were born to her parents.

Five years old hugged her neck, remembering Wen Yi's advice, just kept crying: "Sister, how can you really forget Aunt Jian Shi? How pitiful Aunt Jian Shi is in this case!"

In the restaurant, Jane's father pulled Jane's mother aside and scolded: "What do you mean? Are you so eager to marry your daughter?"

Jian's mother looked at the direction where Jian Shi left, and took a sip of red wine: "What do I mean, you don't care about your daughter, I only found out when Wen Yi told me that she actually fell in love with that woman, and that woman even abandoned her. lost her..."

"This..." Jian's father didn't believe it at first, but seeing that Jian Shi had really forgotten about that person, he had to believe what Wen Yi said, "This way, we can't just casually dismiss Jian Shi as a child." Get married, what if... what if she remembers one day? That's not fair to Yin Yao."

"Uncle and aunt..." Yin Yao didn't know when he heard it, but he also took up the conversation, "This is my luck, I will never feel that it is unfair. I believe that one day Jian Shi will completely forget that person, as long as As long as Jian Yi is happy."

"Forget it!" Papa Jane gave up, "The company's affairs are troublesome enough every day, and I don't care what you guys do!"

"Jian Fangzheng, what's your attitude! Isn't Jian Shi your daughter?" Jane's mother was angry.

"Have you heard my opinion once when I spoke? You also know that it is my daughter?" Once the flames of war were ignited, they began to spread endlessly.

It was only later that Jian Shi remembered that it seemed to be the beginning of endless disputes between her parents.It's a pity that she has been concealed all the time, and she didn't know that it was caused by herself.

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"Jian Shi, I figured it out. Let's break up." Yin Yao loosened the ring on Jian Shi's ring finger and put it back in the box lovingly.

Jian Shi looked at him in disbelief: "What do you mean?"

"I'm sorry.. I still can't stand the condemnation of my conscience. You are too beautiful, after all, you don't belong to me. I don't deserve you." Yin Yao said, but he didn't dare to look at Jian Shi.

The irritated princess pushed him away and laughed, "I think you did this because our company failed! Don't pretend to be a lover. Count me as the wrong person."

"No...it's not like this..." Yin Yao didn't know how to explain, "I met Wen Xianhao two days ago...he told me something, which made me re-examine our relationship..."

Wen Hyun-ho?The new boss who keeps buying Jane's shares?Why did Yin Yao want to see him when he was fine?

Jian Shi frowned and said, "What did he tell you?"

"He said..." Yin Yao remembered what Wen Xianhao told him about his resignation on 25th. It turned out that the two of them loved each other so jealously that they even made her put down her dignity and begged Wen Xianhao to let Jane go.Thinking that 25 might really never come back again, he hesitated again, "It doesn't matter what he said, it's my own fault, Jian Shi, if I fell in love with someone else, you would let me go too, right?"

"What did you say?" Jian Shi's head was about to grow big, was Yin Yao coming out to her openly?

"No matter what, I will always be your guardian knight." Yin Yao thought for a while, and then added, "Starting tomorrow...I will go to work at Wen's. To avoid suspicion, I can only contact you by text message for the time being."

Someone wants to text you!

This was the first time Jian Shi was dumped, and she roared without saying anything.

After that, her life took a sharp turn, as if she really lost her protection.

The father's company went bankrupt and the family was at odds.

Fortunately, she moved out early and found a job with the active help of her friend Qu Zhuzhu.

After another three years, at the age of 25, she was invited to participate in the class reunion.

It was also that year that Wen's declared bankruptcy, and the new shareholders, Chu and Han, were fighting over their ex-boyfriend Yin Yao, who almost married her, and Wen Liyu, who had returned from studying in the UK.

But both of them have nothing to do with her Jane Shi.

Because at this moment, standing in the center of the reception, she is actually just a Cinderella pretending to be a princess.

When the classmate asked about the current situation intentionally or unintentionally, Jian Shi only responded half-truthfully:

"Am I doing well?"

"Yin Yao? I don't know his recent situation."

"Worked in a small company and just quit. The salary is not bad."

Qu Zhuzhu's piercing high heels felt as uncomfortable as scratching his eardrums.

The glass of high-strength wine spilled from his face and it was hot and painful.

Before Jian Shi showed up at the hotel, he once again saw Yan Xiangji's Qu Zhuzhu at the inconspicuous corner of the banquet, before he had time to say goodbye.

I saw the man smile at the other woman who came out of the bathroom, and then held her hand.

Qu Zhuzhu saw Yan Xiangji, who had promised himself that he would not like Jian Shi, hugged and kissed "Jian Shi".

She really didn't understand why the senior sister would lie to herself, and thought that Jian Shi must be behind it but never admitted it.

The embarrassed Jian Shi made Qu Zhuzhu feel the pleasure of revenge.

"Yan Xiangji", who had been watching in the dark, grabbed her hand and scolded, "What are you doing?!"

"What am I doing? Why don't you tell me what you have been hiding from me all these years!" The enraged admirer made Qu Zhuzhu feel happy, but soon, she was dragged to the bathroom and bumped into another Jian Shi ,"you misunderstood!"

Things in this world are so wonderful.

Jian Shi walked down the street in a daze. In just three years, she lost all her glamor and became such a messed self.

Wen Liyu, who was behind the scenes, also had no idea that he had identified the wrong person, so he confessed timidly: "I have been looking for you for a long time since I returned to England... I haven't heard from you... the second I saw you at the reception, I couldn't believe it My eyes... Bush... Is this a surprise you gave me? I didn't recognize it five years ago, so you are Jian Shi..."

"What did you say... Thank you for your hospitality today. I want to be alone, you go back first." Jian Shi was at a loss and stopped her from continuing.

"I...I...I..." Wen Liyu was as nervous as many times before.

Jian Shi thought it was funny, so he asked mischievously, "What me? Do you want to say thank you again? You're welcome!"

Before her jokes disappeared, she saw Wen Liyu's pupils suddenly narrowed and the "I love you!"

But she was too late to answer. .Out of curiosity, Jian Shi followed her gaze and looked back, and saw that the projection of himself in the window stretched out his hand, and grabbed her in abruptly...

Huh...huh...huh?Eh?Eh? ? .

"Don't go—" Wen Liyu rushed up and grabbed her other hand, pulling her outside.

But she failed after all, Jian Shi seemed to have heard something.I fell into it like a demon, and never looked back.

Wen Liyu sat on the ground dejectedly and looked at the quiet window, unable to accept the fact and muttered to himself: "Bush... have you left me again?"

"You are face blind..." across the road, her "Jian Shi" complained after waiting for the green light to come over.

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"Jian Shi, please come back..." She suddenly heard her own voice, feeling even more frightened and helpless, and couldn't help being startled.

That own shadow, with tears all over his face, looked at her sadly and nostalgicly.

Do I have this expression now?

The last bit of light went out, and they finally fell into the endless abyss...

A second before falling, Jian Shi finally remembered that the person holding her was her 19-year-old self.

At the age of 25, I wanted to leave, and I also decided to delete all my memories.

Unexpectedly, Wen Yi still failed to stop the Tibetan mastiff, and finally turned 15 years old into 25 years old. Is this the beginning of the [-]th cycle?

I don't know who broke the button of the time machine,

The little girl in front of her, who was a head shorter than herself, was wearing a magic milu milu nightgown, with messy hair just waking up, and she was looking at herself with clear and bright eyes.

The barking dog, the garden, and the villa.

"Who are you?" The 15-year-old's patience was quickly worn out, and he pulled his flip-flops and took two steps back vigilantly, "What about me, don't tell me I'm leaving."

"I'm you!" Jian Shi was afraid that she would leave, and finally said a very illogical sentence.

Jian Shi took a step forward and hugged the defenseless 15-year-old to his chest.

Like the 19-year-old who learned to bring herself, she gently patted the 15-year-old on the back, and whispered in her ear: "Jian Shi, don't be afraid... "I" is always by your side! "

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The author has something to say: I want to say that everyone who sees here is true love, thank you so much...

This open ending to break the curse of heterosexuality is because the author himself is quite disappointed with this story..

I always make pits on the spur of the moment, and then I don’t know what I want to write, and what foreshadowing is left...

As a result, I didn't code for a few days, and I forgot what I was going to write!

So Mr. Logic died...

Several times, I wanted to say irresponsibly, "I'm sorry, I can't make it up anymore, I should be a eunuch!"

This story has a big structure in my mind, but unfortunately I don't know how to present it completely. When it can be done someday, there may be a major overhaul... But I guess there will be no such day...