The koi in Dr. Li's house

Scenes of the past reappeared in his mind, Li Jinlun raised his head and raised his hands to cover his eyes.

In the past, I would often dream of teenagers being abused. The feeling of being tortured on my body made Li Jinlun struggle unconsciously every time to wake up.But this time he miraculously only dreamed of the last part, sad but no longer so frightened.With the juvenile jumping off the cliff, Li Jinlun was also freed from the nightmare.

Opening the drawer, Li Jinlun took out an opened pack of menthol cigarettes, took out one, held the cigarette between his white and slender index and middle fingers, brought it to his pale lips, and lit it.

I took a sip and exhaled slowly, the smoke was thin and quickly disappeared into the air.

Take another puff, slowly exhale the smoke rings one by one, and watch them disappear round and round.

Li Jinlun raised his hand, took a deep breath, paused, and exhaled thick white smoke after a while.Watch them float in the air in groups, and then slowly dissipate.

After taking three puffs, Li Jinlun extinguished the cigarette.

You can't live through anything, and you can't be addicted to everything. You must have self-control.This is Li Jinlun's philosophy of life, which he sticks to from beginning to end.

What he despises the most are those who have no self-control.In the hospital, Li Jinlun saw all kinds of controlled patients, drugs, drugs, cigarettes, alcohol, and even pleasure.Once a person loses self-control, he is almost like a puppet.

When did you start consciously restraining your thoughts and behaviors?

Probably after that nightmare.

During the three days when he was unconscious, Li Jinlun had nightmares.

At the moment when he just woke up, Li Jinlun couldn't tell who he was.

The continuous and realistic dreams also made him feel that another soul seemed to be stationed in his body - the young man who committed suicide by jumping off a cliff.

During the day, he was Li Jinlun, with a cold face and taciturn; but at night, when he fell into a dream, he was that poor boy.

Is this a division of humanity?Or an unscientific soul invasion?

Li Jinlun didn't know, and didn't dare to ask.

Because of fear, so dare not touch.

Li Jinlun has been avoiding to think about what happened in those three days, and his mother's abandonment has become irrelevant.

In addition to that nightmare that cannot be eliminated, those three days also became a gap in Li Jinlun's memory.

No matter how scheming Li Jinlun is, he is only a junior high school student, a simple boy.

Everything that happened in the nightmare was so cruel and real, and the selfishness and ugliness, weakness and self-righteousness of human nature were all presented one by one.Such pornographic and violent nightmares kept Li Jinlun unable to sleep all night, and his spirit almost collapsed.

Because of this dream, Li Jinlun knew the love and desire between men prematurely; he also realized that relatives may not kiss you, lovers may not love you, and they can betray you and abandon you at any time, as long as there are conditions At the same time, he also tasted loneliness and helplessness, sadness and despair prematurely...

All this made Li Jinlun mature rapidly, and there was a trace of vicissitudes in his indifferent eyes that did not match his age.

Li Jinlun also thought about telling Li Liyan, but it was hard for him to tell what happened in the dream, how could he tell his father?What will Dad think of himself when he finds out?Li Jinlun didn't dare to think about it anymore.

Li Jinlun also secretly wrote an anonymous letter to consult a psychologist, but the answer given by the doctor was ambiguous.In short, it is still the same sentence: specific analysis of specific problems!He urged Li Jinlun to go to his clinic for deep hypnotherapy.

Deep hypnosis?Wouldn't that expose his privacy to the doctor without reservation?

Li Jinlun has always been very wary, and would never consider this at all.Besides, if this doctor wants to be famous, he can be used as a special case in the paper.Now that the information is advanced, as long as there is human flesh, won't the whole world know about it?What do you think of yourself?It is estimated that it is immediately concluded that he is shaking M in the subconscious.His life might be ruined just like that!

Unable to tell others, Li Jinlun could only endure all this silently and independently.

Later, I had more nightmares and accumulated experience.Li Jinlun found that as long as he was in a particularly bad mood, he would definitely have a nightmare that night, and that dream appeared.

Li Jinlun began to learn how to control his emotions so that he could always maintain a relaxed and happy mood.

If I want to be relaxed and happy, the people around me must also be relaxed and happy. Li Jinlun tried to make a change.Starting from the attitude, Li Jinlun began to learn to smile.Fearing that his smile would not reach his eyes, he squinted his eyes and smiled, his brows and eyes were curved, and he looked gentle and amiable, changing from his previous ice face.

Practice smiling in front of the mirror like this every day, practice slowing down your speech and warming your tone, practice how to let go of everything, and make your mind peaceful...

Day after day, Li Jinlun's smile changes from stiff to natural, from natural to full of charm,

Li Jinlun successfully transformed from a gloomy boy into a gentle boy like moonlight.Handsome facial features, tall figure, gentle and kind, is simply loved by everyone, and the car sees the car.

My teenage years are simply unbearable to look back on.

Li Jinlun wiped his face, turned to look at the alarm clock, the hour hand pointed to 04:30.

This week it was Li Jinlun's turn to work the morning shift, and he had to get up at six o'clock.Another hour and a half.

Li Jinlun opened the quilt and prepared to get out of bed, it is impossible to go back to sleep, get up and exercise.

After only taking two steps, Li Jinlun almost slipped and fell.Looking down, there was a small puddle of water on the ground.

"How can there be water stains in the bedroom?"

Li Jinlun put on his glasses and squatted down to look at the small pool of water stains suspiciously, and found that this pool of water stains was not the only one, and the little drops of water marks extended to the outside, which was like a leaking bucket .

Li Jinlun was even more surprised, he followed the half-dried water stains all the way to the door of the bedroom.

Turn on all the lights in the house, bright as day.Li Jinlun felt uneasy in his heart, suppressing his fear, he continued to walk along the water drop, and at the end turned out to be a fish tank.

That water stain came out of the fish tank?

Li Jinlun opened his eyes wide in surprise, and instinctively searched for the red and white koi.