When the sand sculptures get the social death script

I have to admit that people with emotional experience have different opinions.

Although this younger brother only had this emotional experience, many of the entry points he mentioned on the phone were things that Lu Changming had never thought about.

Six years ago, Chi Ji went to the United States without any warning. He tossed and turned, couldn't sleep because of this, and was depressed for a long time.

Why didn't he think about chasing it?

After his father confessed to him his real family background after graduating from high school, he already had enough ability to find out the past of the Chi family, and also found Chi Ji's trace in the United States.

He knew exactly which school Chi Ji was studying at, where he lived, and even his class schedule.

After Chi Ji graduated from university, he also knew which company Chi Ji worked as an intern.

Knowing the existence of Lucky, he didn't guess it through Chi Ji's WeChat avatar at all.

When did he start to stop at the pet store, when did he leave the store with Lucky in his arms, and he knew exactly what brand of kitten food Lucky ate when he grew up.

It's not that he hasn't been to the United States in the past six years, and stepped into that land several times because of work coincidences.

Why don't you go see Chi Ji, what are you afraid of?

Is it that difficult to create a chance encounter?

Lu Changming thought about it for a long time, and only felt that the six years of suffering were all self-inflicted.

Opportunities are everywhere, but he himself has no right to feel sorry for not grasping them.

In case what Chi Feng said is true.

The reason why Chi Ji asked him this question was to imply that the relationship between each other could go further. Does that mean that Chi Ji had actually thought about being together and had expectations.

So in these six years, maybe he wasn't the only one waiting.

Chi Ji was also waiting.

Because he didn't wait for him in the country of America, Chi Ji came back on his own initiative.

Mingming Chi Ji knew that the farther he was from the Chi family, the cleaner he would be, and he knew that as long as he returned to his country, he would always face Chi Chenglin's various difficulties again, and he would not be able to escape.

But he came back anyway.

Lu Changming finally understood what it feels like to be hypoxic when the chest began to feel dull pain.

He couldn't imagine it was real.

But this is the most reasonable possibility.

"Brother Lu, we are almost ready, come and try the lens to see the effect."

Mao Xiao's yell was heard not far away, but Lu Changming turned a deaf ear to it, until the other party yelled three times and stepped forward to pat him on the shoulder before pulling away from the memory.

He turned around and looked at the various seats that had been set up behind him, and without saying a word, he lowered his head and pulled the zipper of the down jacket from the beginning to the end.

Mao Xiao was taken aback, and hurriedly stopped him: "Hey, don't take it off in a hurry, you can't freeze to death if you only wear one underneath. Let's take a look at these angles first, and then take it off when the filming starts."

"fine."

Lu Changming stubbornly took off his coat, feeling the biting cold wind rushing towards his face, and passed the clothes to Mao Xiao expressionlessly.

"Hurry up and finish the filming, I have very important things to go back right away."

After finishing speaking, Lu Changming raised his footsteps and walked up the ice and snow without looking back. When he reached a certain place, he stopped and turned around. He accurately found the most perfect shooting position for the host, and said "OK" towards the field controller. ” gesture, and then turned his back to the camera.

The staff present were all wrapped in fleece and thick cotton clothes, only Lu Changming was wearing a thin corduroy shirt.

Seeing his shirt being blown up by the wind from a distance of more than ten meters, Mao Xiao felt cold for him, so he couldn't bear to shout: "Speed ​​up the progress."

The field recorder reacted quickly, and raised the board without saying a word.

"The first audition, hit the board."

Lu Changming is not from a major, but because he often starred in big productions and studied under well-known directors, his shooting experience is no worse than that of professional actors, and his sense of camera is also good.

Facing the team of my own studio, the whole process was very tacit, and all the shooting was completed efficiently in less than an hour.

After standing in a cold place for a long time, the skin and nerves became more and more numb. In addition, he was looking for the camera all the time, and his attention was completely diverted. During the whole shooting process, Lu Changming did not feel too cold.

When he put on the down jacket that Mao Xiao wore on his body after work, and felt that the activity of nerve cells gradually recovered and his body temperature began to rise, Lu Changming finally felt what it meant to be "frozen like a dog".

On the way back to the hotel, Lu Changming curled up in the back seat holding the hot water bottle in his hand.

He tried his best to turn his thoughts that were about to freeze, racking his brains to think about how he should face Chi Ji.

After learning theoretical knowledge, practice is another problem.

Lu Changming originally thought that after being awake for an hour with the cold wind blowing on him, he could really make up his mind, and frankly and frankly explained everything in front of Chi Ji, but as he got closer to the hotel, he began to hesitate again.

It's not that he is determined to be a retired performing artist, but that this matter itself requires too much courage to pave the way.

Chi Feng's thinking was right.

The progress bar is always 0% if you are flinching, and if you spread everything out clearly, you may come back against the wind.

It doesn't matter even if you fail, it's a big deal to chase after.

But the closer he got to the hotel, the more Lu Changming realized that he was not ready to put all his eggs in one basket.

The essential reason is that he is satisfied with everything he has now.

After working hard for so long, he can finally see Chi Ji every day, have breakfast and dinner with Chi Ji, and chat with him from time to time.

He also has enough ability to take good care of Chi Ji and not be bullied by anyone.

What he got now is precious, and far beyond expectations, he is not greedy at all.

Confess to Chi Ji, if Chi Ji doesn't have this idea at all, he will definitely alienate him because he can't bear this feeling.

In this way, the two of them really don't even have to be friends.

The past miss was already painful, and the subconscious repeatedly sounded the alarm, reminding him not to try again.

In the final analysis, he still has other ways to go, and there is no time when he has to put all his eggs in one basket.

There is no plan at all to lose everything you currently have.

Going down the mountain was much faster than going up the mountain. The battery car soon stopped at the entrance of the hotel. Lu Changming didn't recover from the cold at all until he stepped into the warm lobby.

As the elevator went up and he stepped on the soft carpet in the hotel corridor, Lu Changming's heartbeat began to beat faster and faster. It seemed that there was a time bomb in his chest. The timer on it kept counting down, and the sound of ticking was deafening.

Lu Changming put his hands in his pockets, and his palms were already sweating tightly holding the room card.

After arriving at a certain door, he stopped abruptly, then subconsciously held his breath, trying to forcefully suspend the countdown to the bomb in his heart in this way.

But the countdown didn't stop, and the beating speed became faster and faster.

Even at the moment when he entered the examination room for the college entrance examination and stood on the podium of the Global Music Festival, Lu Changming was not as helpless as he was at this moment.

Taking out the room card in his pocket, he lowered his head to examine the room number on it, and a thought suddenly came to his mind.

Then he didn't give himself any more time to think, and threw the room card into the air without hesitation.

The positive side is strong, but the negative side is timid.

If you can't make up your mind, leave it to fate.

The light room card flew over Lu Changming's head, drew a parabola in the air, and slid into the door along the bottom crack of the door like a float under the influence of the airflow before landing.

……

What does this mean?

Is there a third option?playing with me! ?

Why is this fate of suffering a thousand knives always teasing me! ?

Lu Changming's mentality exploded completely. He looked around and found no one around. He knelt on the ground on the spot and tried to find the location of the door card through the crack of the door.

But the gap in the door was too narrow, and even the face was stuck on the carpet, but there was still only a gap, and there was no shadow of the room card at all.

When he realized that this was a stupid thing, Lu Changming was just about to stand up, but saw the crack in the door disappear suddenly, and as the tip of the hotel slippers came into view, a clear and moving voice rang out.

"Lu Changming? What are you kneeling here for?"

Lu Changming's scalp went numb, and he got up from the ground in a hurry. He was so flustered that he didn't dare to look at Chi Ji directly, and scratched the back of his head with his eyes wandering: "The room, the room card was lost in the room, I'm looking for it."

Hearing this, Chi Ji lowered his eyes subconsciously to look at the ground, and found that the room card was stepped on by him, only a point leaked out, so he naturally bent down accordingly.

"Wait a minute! Let me see if..."

Before he finished speaking, Chi Ji straightened up and handed over the room card.

Lu Changming, who didn't see the front and back clearly at all, took it and put it in his pocket, bit the bullet, followed Chi Ji into the room, rubbed his hands involuntarily, and asked cautiously after brewing words: " Feeling okay? Feeling better?"

Chi Ji raised his eyelashes and glanced at Lu Changming inexplicably, nodded slightly with a calm expression, then turned around and poured a cup of hot water to him: "It's much better than yesterday, it's slowing down, did you shoot well?"

"It's okay, it's very smooth!"

Lu Changming nodded frantically honestly, raised his arm to catch the water Chi Ji handed over, and accidentally touched his fingertips while taking the cup.

Touching it and splitting it, Lu Changming didn't take it to heart.

However, when he withdrew his hand, Chi Ji suddenly lowered his eyes, stretched out his hand to hold his hand that was not holding the cup, and squeezed it, then retracted it quietly, turned around, walked to the side of the suitcase and squatted down to look for Nuan Baobao.

"Is it cold outside?" Chi Ji asked.

Lu Changming shrunk his fingertips as if he had touched the volcanic lava, and he froze in place while maintaining the action just now. He felt the fierce electric current spread along his arms to every corner of his body. It took him a long time before he answered incoherently.

"...It's okay, it's okay. It's mainly because it's not very hot, so it's a bit cold."

"The weather forecast shows that it's minus ten degrees outside." Chi Ji found out a pack of warm babies, opened it, rubbed it in his hands, and stuffed it into Lu Changming's hands, "Drink more hot water, don't catch a cold."

"Oh... well, fine."

Lu Changming's mind suddenly became muddled. He held the cup in one hand, and squeezed the warm baby in the other. He sat on the corner of the bed restrainedly like a distant relative who came to visit, and blew the water in the cup every now and then.

Similarly, Chi Ji didn't speak anymore, walked to the sofa in front of the window and sat down, slightly bent down to type on the computer, as if he was replying to a work message.

After the operation was completed, he picked up the thermos cup next to the computer, leaned on the sofa and turned his head to look out the window.

Lu Changming subconsciously followed his gaze, his pupils trembled slightly, and his eyes suddenly opened up.

The fog dissipated, and the snow-capped mountains in the distance were clearly visible. The majestic mountains were covered with clouds and snow, towering over the vast land together with the Wanren Glacier.

The clouds are floating in the color of jade, with a bright head and a blue sky.

The mist that had shrouded the entire Dannuo Snow Mountain since yesterday dissipated under the penetration of sunlight.

Lu Changming was about to tell Chi Ji that when they were halfway through the filming, a gust of mountain wind whizzed past, and all the clouds and mists began to disperse.

They took one shot to the end and filmed the whole process with a high-speed camera.

In the picture, the clouds are moving, and the fog is also moving.

Only Lu Changming remained motionless, as if completely integrated with the beautiful scenery around him.

The reason why it is frozen like this is because this lens needs to stand in the cold wind for a long time.

At the same time, Chi Ji was also very lucky. When he woke up, he happened to have a panoramic view of the scene where the clouds and mists were cleared.

And, in the process, he figured out many, many things.

Thinking of this, Chi Ji withdrew his gaze fixed on the top of the snow mountain, turned his head and shifted his gaze to Lu Changming.

Lu Changming felt this gaze immediately, and his heartbeat began to accelerate uncontrollably on the spot.

"I asked you a question yesterday, do you remember?" Chi Ji stared at Lu Changming and asked slowly.

At this moment, Lu Changming panicked to the extreme like a prisoner being tortured waiting to be convicted. He lowered his head at a loss and held his breath: "Remember."

Chi Ji stared at him intently: "Then why didn't you answer me?"

"I..." Lu Changming broke out in a cold sweat on the spot, squeezed the warm baby in his hands in a panic, his palms were numb from the heat, and said falteringly, "If you think I'm not doing well enough, you can directly contact me Say, I will..."

"Lu Changming, you know I'm not struggling with this."

Chi Ji interrupted Lu Changming's words, his pretended composure finally showed a flaw, he took a deep breath to stabilize his violent heartbeat, but he couldn't suppress the trembling in his voice.

"Are you going to think of me as a fool as long as I don't ask you? I just want to say something now. The reason why you took such good care of me after I returned to China was because of your friendship with classmates back then or Chi Chenglin's embarrassing pity, or For...other reasons?"

In Chi Ji's eyes surging with uneasy emotions, Lu Changming was speechless.

How can there be another way to go?

From the very beginning, his starting point was wrong. The other road he thought was the one that would be completely blocked by Chi Ji sooner or later.

During this period of time, he had always thought that his disguise was flawless, without any flaws.

But he forgot that Chi Ji's mind is so delicate, how could he not see anything strange at all.

Lu Changming pursed his lips, realizing that he was at the end of his rope.

There was no other way but to gamble.

Seeing that Lu Changming's eyes dimmed at a speed visible to the naked eye, and he lowered his head and didn't even dare to take a look at himself, Chi Ji didn't know why so many grievances came from all of a sudden. With a sore nose, he suppressed crying and asked: "Lu Changming! Are you..."

"Yes."

Lu Changming raised his head suddenly, lost his breath, and looked straight into Chi Ji's eyes firmly: "I treat you well not because we are classmates, nor because of pity, but because I like you."

Chi Ji suffocated for breath, his heart skipped a beat for an instant, his eyes widened involuntarily, and his eye circles quickly turned red.

"I've always liked you, from the first time I saw you until now, nine years."

Lu Changming was afraid that he would continue to be afraid, so he said vigorously with the determination to be desperate like moths flying to a flame.

"I'm sorry to have kept it from you for so long. I didn't mean not to tell you. I was just worried that you would not be able to accept me. Instead, you felt too much pressure because of this relationship, and you couldn't get along with me as easily as before. So I always feel that There's no need to make a fuss, it doesn't matter to me in what capacity I'm with you, my original intention is just to make you happy, that's all."

After exhausting all the courage to speak, Lu Changming instantly wilted like a deflated ball, lowered his head in dejection, and choked out three words after being silent for a long time.

"Sorry……"

After listening to his words, Chi Ji didn't turn around for a long time as if he had been struck by lightning.

During this period of time, he thought more than once that Lu Changming might not be able to let go of the relationship he had when he was in school, and the possibility of his resurgence after returning to China.

But he never imagined that during the six blank years in between, Lu Changming was in the entertainment world in a true sense of the word, but he never forgot that first love that ended before it even started.

Except for the six years in the United States, he has never calculated other relevant figures.

So when the word "nine years" came out of Lu Changming's mouth, his only feeling was ignorance.

Six years seems to be an acceptable number, but nine years...

This is Lu Changming, he is Lu Changming who has risen from such a filthy place in the entertainment industry and has not been contaminated by any impurities.

And I actually occupied a certain place in such a person's heart for nine years.

At this moment, what accounted for the most in Chi Ji's emotions was not joy and surprise, but deep doubt.

How can he be?

The knuckles of Lu Changming's clenched fists turned white, and he felt that the flow of time seemed to be extremely slow at this moment. He lowered his head and dared not look straight ahead, as if a sinner who had committed a huge mistake felt ashamed and waited in agony Watching Chi Ji's final trial.

Recalling Lu Changming's prudence in front of him all the time, even the insignificant things carefully considered for him, Chi Ji first felt that his heart was tied up by thorny thorns, and immediately dripped with blood, and then was covered by soft and slender vines. Soothing and entangled, flowers bloom slowly from the healing place.

The room was too quiet. After waiting for a long time, Lu Changming heard the slight sound of the laptop being closed in front of him.

"Chang Ming, let's end this relationship."

There was a sharp pain in the heart in an instant. Lu Changming exhaled tremblingly, closed his eyes, and adjusted his breathing after a long time. He replied in an obscure voice: "Okay... I won't bother you again. If If you need help anywhere, just..."

Chi Ji interrupted him, and said softly, "Look up and look at me."

Lu Changming pursed his lips, rolled his throat to swallow the sourness in his heart, tried his best to adjust his expression and raised his head.

Chi Ji's brows and eyes were smudged with a gentle color, and the corners of his mouth were slightly bent as he watched Lu Changming's eyes.

"Let's be together if you want, okay?"

After speaking, Lu Changming couldn't react for a while, and then his temples twitched violently, and tinnitus appeared on the side of his ears for a long time, like the sequelae of long-term diving.

He stood up abruptly from the bed, trying to wake himself up by shaking his head, and looked at Chi Ji in disbelief: "What did you say?"

Chi Ji also put down the cup and stood up from the chair, repeating tirelessly.

"let's be together."

Perhaps it was because he was exposed to the cold outside today and his body's immunity had declined. Lu Changming deeply felt the belated altitude sickness, and the sudden dizziness made him feel that he was not very awake.

What's more, what's happening now is like a dream.

"Are you serious?" Lu Changming realized that everything was true through the slight pain caused by the warm baby's warmth in his palm, and stared straight at Chi Ji, "Don't think that because I like you for a long time Pity me, do you really want to?"

Seeing that Lu Changming still couldn't believe it until now, Chi Ji's nose was sore again, and his eyes were suddenly covered with fog and blurred.

He walked up to Lu Changming and raised his head to confirm again.

"Really willing."

After finishing speaking, Chi Ji felt that his vision suddenly became much clearer, and then his face suddenly became cold, as if something wet had slipped down.

He couldn't help sniffing, lowered his eyes in front of Lu Changming, and whispered.

"Sorry...for making you wait so long."

At a loss, Lu Changming put all the things in his hand aside. After looking around, he couldn't find a tissue, so he had to pull out his sleeve to wipe away the tears on his face. After finishing the work, he didn't know where to put his nervous hands.

"Don't, what are we doing on this happy day, don't say sorry again!"

Lu Changming's heart was beating like a drum. Excited, he raised his arms and made a gesture of hugging, but he braked in time and turned his course, scratching his head, and asked like a kid.

"Well, if I want to hug you, will this progress be too fast? If not, you can touch my hand to see if it's still cold. I only wore this inner dress when I was shooting, and it was completely frozen .If that doesn't work, then we'll..."

Before he could finish his incoherent words, Chi Ji spread his smile and lowered his head with a puff, then stepped forward and raised his arms around his waist, putting his face against his chest with a smile in his eyes.

Through the heavy down jacket, the sound of Lu Changming's heartbeat still reached Chi Ji's ears.

One after another, so clear and warm.

Chi Ji's eyes were once again blurred, and he folded his arms tighter, and smiled after Lu Changming's unresponsive and stiff movements hugged him back.

"We both look like idiots, let's find out how to fall in love on Baidu later."

Lu Changming nodded frantically in agreement.

"I'll post a Weibo to ask in a while."

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