Hard to change

Yu hoped that he wasn't sleepy at all, he was really tired, but if he didn't run away at this time, he was really worried that Qin Xiu wouldn't let go of that topic.

Not long after the sound of the hair dryer in the bathroom disappeared, he heard Qin Xiu come out lightly, lifted the quilt and got on the bed.

Qin Xiu gently hugged him from behind, put his head on the back of his neck, thought that he was going to hug him to sleep, but heard him say: "Hope, are you afraid?"

So he was afraid...

Yu hoped not to answer out loud, but he was thinking about these two words carefully in his heart.

Qin Xiu then whispered next to his ear: "Actually, you may not believe it when I tell you. I was more scared than you before."

"At the beginning of the confession, I was afraid that you would not agree, worried that you would not like men, worried that you would treat me as a pervert, worried that you already had someone you liked..."

"Later you agreed to try it out with me. I was very happy. Really, Wan Ming said that I was like a crazy person during that time." ЬΙΜiLǒù. ℃ǒM

"But soon I began to worry about whether there would be a deadline for the trial you said, or if I did something wrong, you would directly take back the opportunity to try with me. At that time, I was really like a fool. When you are together, you are so happy that you die, and as soon as you return to the dormitory at night, you start to think about it, worrying about whether you will break up the next day."

Qin Xiu kissed him on the neck, and then continued to say: "I remember that night by the school lake, that was the first time you kissed me, and it was also our first kiss for each other. I really wanted to run all over the school Shout, but I hold back."

"At that time, I was not as worried as before that you would break up with me, because I could vaguely feel that you liked me a little bit, so our first time, when I saw you crying, I was so unhappy. I was so angry that I also cried, but I was really distressed and cried."

"Really? Didn't you cry in a hurry?" Yu Xiwang finally couldn't help turning over, and put his forehead against his forehead. He was clearly smiling but he could faintly see the sparkle of water in his eyes.

Qin Xiu couldn't help laughing at what he said, sucked his nose and then continued: "I'm afraid that you will hurt, and I'm also afraid that you will regret it, so I asked you several times at that time, if you were not very firm Nod, I really can't bear it..."

"Really?" Yu hoped to say deliberately, "I remember that although someone did cry a lot that day, he bullied me a lot in the end, and I didn't have a fever the next day."

"You also said that some conditions are inherently superior, and there is nothing I can do about it, and you were... so cute at the time, holding back is something that a saint can do, and I am just an ordinary person. "Qin Xiu said in a confident tone.

Yu hoped that he couldn't help but also laughed, touched Qin Xiu's hair, and sighed: "Actually, I didn't expect that I would be with you for such a long time."

It was the first time I heard Qin Xiu tell him that if they want to be together, the only thing they need to pay attention to is that they can't tell anyone except their best friends, and of course they can't do some intimate actions in the place where there are people, such as hugging Holding hands and kissing etc.

At that time, he didn't understand at first, but considering that the two of them were still students at school, and their relationship was special, it was understandable to keep a low profile, so he didn't think too much about agreeing.

But later he liked Qin Xiu more and more, and gradually began to realize the disadvantages of concealing the relationship like this.

For example, 360 days a year, at least [-] days, you can see Qin Xiu appearing on the confession wall.

Another example is Qin Xiu tactfully rejected those girls who brought him water at the stadium, and said that he has people he likes, but there are always people who face difficulties and refuse to give up no matter what.

Many people even thought that it was just an excuse he made casually, but in fact there was no one he liked at all.

So even when they were together, there were still many girls who confessed to him, wrote him love letters and gave him gifts, and even boys appeared.

And Yu Hope, as a real boyfriend, can't say anything at this time, and can't control anything.

Even jealousy and anger have to be endured.

It's not that he hasn't experienced sadness and grievances, but he is a man after all, and some emotions only belong to girls, and he can't have them.

It was also because of this that later on he gradually began to doubt himself, doubting whether Qin Xiu really liked him as he said.

If he knew that Qin Xiu liked him very much before graduation, then after more than a year after graduation, he gradually became a little unclear.

He can understand not telling others at school, but he still has to sneak around after leaving school. He doesn't quite understand.

If it wasn't because they were in such an embarrassing state, Yu Hope would have confessed to his parents a long time ago, telling them that he likes boys, and if they accepted, he would take Qin Xiu back to see them.

Even if they can't accept it, he is willing to work hard and find a way to persuade them slowly, or prove it to them.

But because of Qin Xiu's evasive attitude all the time, he still couldn't muster up the courage to tell his parents confidently that he wanted to be with this person all his life.

Until now, Yu hoped that because of the appearance of Tong Yan, he realized more strongly that there might be a huge gap between himself and Qin Xiu not only in attitudes towards feelings, but also in their identities and family backgrounds.

If Qin Xiu is really the child of some influential person, then even if he doesn't need to think about it, he will know that he probably won't be able to climb high.

Yu Hope's parents are both ordinary state employees, and they don't have much extravagance in their lives, except for his son, hoping that he will have a stable job, get married and have children safely and happily in the future.

In fact, there have been more than one time in the past few years. Yu hoped to see Qin Xiu's natural and intimate address and smile when he was sitting in front of the computer interacting with those fans, and sometimes the petting that made him feel embarrassed when he stood aside. Drowning tone...

At that time, he couldn't help but think: Has Qin Xiu really never been in love?Does he really not like girls?

And, how much does he like himself...

It is also the first time for Yu Hope to fall in love, and because it is with a boy, he will inevitably be conflicted sometimes.

Obviously, he was also worried about what would happen if someone found out, but when he really heard Qin Xiu say not to let anyone know, he felt very disappointed.

I don't know if people are like him when they face relationship problems, but he knows that he always thinks so much and has no sense of security, which is actually a very annoying thing.

He used to comfort himself, even if one day he finds out that Qin Xiu doesn't take this relationship seriously, it doesn't matter, he, a big man, will be able to deal with it gracefully, and won't be heartbroken like a girl, who doesn't think about eating and drinking.

So when they did that for the first time, Qin Xiu asked him several times if he thought it through. He also tried his best to tell himself that he was a man. I won't feel that I'm at a disadvantage, and I won't ask Qin Xiu to be responsible...

But now that things have come, he doesn't think he can still have the free and easy mentality he had before.

At least if they break up due to force majeure now or in the future, he doesn't know what will happen to him.

But if there is a day, in fact, what really makes people uncomfortable should be the powerlessness of this relationship.

Yu hoped that he had already made preparations to confess to his family. He was just waiting for Qin Xiu to give him enough courage and confidence to communicate with his family. It's just that he hasn't waited yet...

This time I didn't expect that the wound on the sole of my foot would heal after resting for almost a week.

Yu Hope actually thought it was just a minor injury, and he could go to shoot in three days at most.

But Qin Xiu couldn't say anything, he insisted on calling Han Fei himself, saying that Yu hoped he didn't know how the wound had been hurting for a day, which was an extremely exaggerated description.

You can't get off the ground, you have to be supported when you go to the toilet, you need someone to help you change clothes, and you have to help him wash everything when you take a bath...

Yu hoped to be speechless when he heard it from the sidelines, but he was not as tall as Qin Xiu, and although the wound on his foot was healed, he couldn't jump, so he couldn't do anything if his phone was taken away.

In the end, Qin Xiu hung up the phone with a heavy tone, pretending like that, Yu hoped that if it wasn't for the wound on his foot, he would have almost believed him.

"It's a pity that you don't become an actor. You lost a future actor for nothing." Yu hoped to squint at him, and snatched his phone back when he just sat down and didn't pay attention.

Qin Xiu shrugged, looking indifferent, "Anyway, I've said everything I need to say, even if you explain it now, it won't help."

"I found out why you are getting more and more idle now," Yu Xixi said, "Did you forget that you are an anchor? If I remember correctly, you haven't broadcast live for a while, right?"

"That's right, because I've already earned enough for the amount on the contract." Qin Xiu seemed very happy when he said this, and the corners of his mouth raised accordingly, "As soon as the contract expires in a while, I'll check with them. I will be really free, I hope, as I said before, I will give you a surprise when the time comes."

"Really? Are you sure? You've made enough money without a cent?" Yu hoped to be surprised, but at the same time he was extremely happy for him, because this probably meant that Qin Xiu, who was not bound by a contract, would be able to live with him aboveboard in the future. together.

Then, he felt it was time to try to confess his sexuality with his family.

Qin Xiu pressed his neck, kissed him hard, and said with a smile, "Yes, I will be free soon!"

"Then, are we—"

Yu hoped he hadn't finished speaking when the doorbell rang suddenly. He looked at Qin Xiu and motioned for him to open the door.

Qin Xiu asked as he walked, "Who is it?"

"It's me, Qu Jiayou." A familiar voice came from outside the door.

Yu hoped to stand up now, and hurriedly followed towards the door.

Qin Xiu opened the door, and the person standing outside was indeed Qu Jiayou, who was hugging a bouquet of flowers and carrying two boxes of supplements.

Sure enough, Yu hoped to see Qin Xiu's expression immediately cool down.

Before he could speak, Qin Xiu sneered and said, "What is this for?"

"Hi, I'm here on behalf of my colleagues from the company to see Hope," Qu Jiayou said with a smile, "Everyone on the phone was worried when they heard that you were so serious, so under Xiaobei's strong request and everyone's discussion I decided to send someone to see you."

"Thank you everyone, actually I——"

"Then why did you come here? You're not new here?" Qin Xiu asked first with a blank expression.

Yu hoped to give him a sideways glance, and then smiled awkwardly: "Everyone is too polite, I'm really fine, please make this trip, anyway, come and drink some water first."

"It's okay, don't be polite to me." Qu Jiayou said with a smile, "I was the one who asked to come and see you."

"Ah...ah?" After Yu hoped to react, he still thought he heard it wrong.

Qin Xiu stood aside with his arms folded, squinting his eyes at Qu Jiayou.

Unexpectedly, as soon as they sat down on the sofa, what Qu Jiayou said next almost caused Yu Xixi to spit out a mouthful of blood on the spot.

"Hope, I really miss you when you're not here for a few days." Qu Jiayou said with a serious expression, not joking at all.