Under the shadow

Time always likes to pass by people inadvertently, and when I think about it suddenly, I realize that it has been a long time ago.

Human beings are really strange creatures, constantly meeting, constantly running in, constantly quarreling, constantly parting, constantly letting go or clinging, and finally reuniting or forgetting each other.

2018 is a special year, not only for Qin Si, but also for Ji Huanian.

November 11st is a special day, not only because it is the second day of Qin Si's 1th birthday, but also because, on this day, Ji Huanian left without telling anyone or saying goodbye, just like this from Qin Si's Gone from life.

The only sign was the quarrel between the two the day before.

The once clean and tidy living room was full of mess that night, Ji Huanian looked at his trembling and red palms in place, his eyes were bewildered and incredulous.

And Qin Si, who was standing not far away, was in no better condition, with the red corners of his eyes, powerless and bitter eyes, and the obvious palm print on the left red and swollen cheek, it was not difficult for people to guess what happened just now. What.

It's been five years. It's been five years since we met for the first time. This is the first time Ji Huanian hit his sister who has been on top of his heart for the past five years.

And the reason is that Qin Si fell in love with him, which is really ridiculous...

Ji Huanian should have guessed it a long time ago. She should have thought of the current situation two years ago, but what was she thinking at that time?

It seems that he is pretending to be stupid, deceiving himself, and also 'deceiving' Qin Si.

Ji Huanian thought that Qin Si's liking for her was just dependent, and the only excessive possessiveness would disappear with age, and finally return to the initial emotional relationship between the two.

Qin Si thought that her ambiguous temptations had made Ji Huanian guess her thoughts. In her eyes, her response without rejection and without any expression was attributed to acquiescence, so she thought that she also liked her a little bit.

Since they both like each other a little bit, why can't they become lovers?Facing Ji Huanian's helplessness and resistance, Qin Si didn't understand. She admitted that she liked her, but she thought her liking was guilty. Why?

"Ji Huanian" looked at Ji Huanian who was slumped on the sofa with absent-minded eyes, Qin Si walked over and squatted in front of her, holding Ji Huanian's cold hand on his knee, the weakness and distress in his eyes made people feel Can't ignore "tell me why"

"Even if you want to reject me, at least give me a reason to give up. At least let me know what's wrong with me, Qin Si, so that your liking can convict you."

Every word, every word is heart-wrenching, looking at the bitterness and helplessness in Qin Si's eyes, Ji Huanian found that he had rehearsed the words countless times in his heart until his lips were silent. below.

"Is it because I'm young, or because......" After a pause, Qin Si didn't know what to think of, showing a smile and crying, and finally said the thing that stuck in her heart. , is also a thorn in Ji Huanian's heart, the name that once made Ji Hua have nightmares "is because of Ruan Lingshan"

Ruan Lingshan, Ji Huanian's first love was also her only love, starting from the third year of high school and ending five months before she met Qin Si.

The time is not short, the relationship has not been exhausted, and there is not even a quarrel that most couples have before breaking up. They just walked towards the parting quietly. No one mentioned a breakup, because they all knew that they lost, lost to Lost himself, but also lost to the secular.

If this is the case for people of the same age, what about Qin Si who is ten years younger than him?Ji Huanian is no longer the ignorant and impulsive girl who was still in adolescence, so she is not sure, whether she still has the courage to face a new relationship like she used to, and whether she still has the courage to face a new relationship like she once did. Time and energy are spent waiting to accompany such a child to grow up, even though Qin Si is far more mature and sensible than children of her age.

She was even more unsure whether the liking Qin Si spoke of was a liking or a habit, after all, Ji Huanian was once everything in Qin Si's life.

"A Si" tremblingly caressed Qin Si's red and swollen side face, Ji Huanian endured the sore nose, his voice was a little choked, revealing weakness and fatigue "The world is big, your days are long, maybe you can fit into your circle There are very few people, but I am definitely not the only one.”

"so what"

"A Si, go and see the world. I hope you can do what you want freely, go wherever you want, and not be bound by anything, even me."

"But have you ever thought that I just want to stay by your side?" Qin Si stepped forward and pressed Ji Huanian's shoulder, Qin Si was a little agitated, looked into Ji Huanian's eyes and gritted his teeth word by word, but Still reluctantly increasing the strength of her hand, she is afraid of pain, she knows "Ji Huanian, I am an adult today"

"I know"

"So why do you just refuse to believe me!" The emotional breakdown only lasted for a moment, facing Ji Huanian's powerlessness and evasion, Qin Si's emotions were stimulated to the peak, "Why do you just refuse to believe that I am not a whim, It's not because of habit, Ji Huanian! Just because I'm ten years younger than you?! So I'm guilty of liking you?!"

"Yes! Just because you are ten years younger than me!" The subconsciously blurted out sentence not only stunned Qin Si, but also stunned Yu Xiange and others who came to persuade the fight after hearing the news. The decisive Ji Huanian in Yu Nei would be in such a mess, with three thousand strands of hair scattered behind his back, and the watermark on his face could not tell whether it was the sweat caused by emotion or the tears of helplessness.

"You say you like me now because I'm only 28 years old this year, but Qin Si, how long can your current love last, five years? Or ten years? Will you still like me when I'm almost forty in ten years? Then At that time, there will be more people around you who are younger and more beautiful than me, and who share your language more than me, then, will you still like me?! Ah?!"

"You're not me, how do you know I won't"

"But you are not me, Qin Si, and no matter what promises and future you can give me now, these ten years alone are the gap that you will never be able to fill!"

One word at a time, every word to heart, Qin Si was silent, she wanted to refute, but found that she was powerless to refute, five years, this is the first time she felt that she was far away from Ji Huanian, so far away that she could do everything she could Even with all his strength, he couldn't touch a corner of her clothes.

However, it's not her fault that she is young. The only thing that a person can't decide in life, apart from his original family, is his own age.

Gender can be changed by surgery, but what about the date of birth?What Ji Huanian said was right, these ten years were a gap that Qin Si couldn't bridge in his entire life.

"A Si, let's go see the world." Carrying his tired body upstairs, Ji Huanian's voice was weak and vicissitudes, and disappeared at the corner of the second floor, "When you have experienced everything you should experience growing up, you will know more After getting married, you will find that you like Ji Huanian only because she has occupied most of your life, that's all."

The birthday of adulthood ended with a bad ending. On that day, Qin Si sat alone by the river all night, with cigarette butts and wine bottles piled up on the ground. It was also on that day that Qin Si learned to smoke and drink, alone Accompanied by Xingyue Jiangbo.

On October 2018, 10, Qin Si was 31 years old and Ji Huanian was 18 years old.

The next morning, when Qin Si stood in Ji Huanian's villa again, there was no one there to respond, the closet was mostly empty, the phone was turned off, no one knew about Muzhiqi Yuxiange, and they didn't know until after asking the company's front desk. I know that Ji Huanian was transferred by Fengluan headquarters to Northern Europe to help the newly established branch transition, and that was a month ago, and the time he stayed this month was only for the handover of work.

It turned out that she had already planned to leave...

And my confession was just an excuse for her to leave and escape......

On November 2018, 11, on this day, Qin Si's emotions completely collapsed, she couldn't find her, she, don't want her anymore...

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brief sad drama