Under the shadow

South District of City A

In a suburban cemetery

I don't think anyone would come here on New Year's Eve to pay homage to those who have passed away.

Because such a festive and lively day is more appropriate to pair with family reunion and happiness.

However, Jiang Ran was the exception.

In the silent cemetery, there was no one but her. Jiang Ran quickly shuttled between the tombstones with the food she had prepared, and finally stopped in front of a small tombstone that was quietly in the corner, looking at the girl in the black and white photo for a moment Eye sockets are red.

Taking out the contents of the bag and laying it out in front of Yu Jinyuan's monument, Jiang Ran sat down in front of her, leaned softly against the edge of the tombstone and opened two bottles of wine by the way.

"A Yuan, I'm here to see you." He raised his hand and slowly poured out a can of wine, Jiang Ran's voice was unconsciously stained with tears, low and gloomy, "A Yuan, I haven't seen you in a year, you don't think that I have listened to your words and forgotten you, huh, but I have let you down again."

There was silence around, only the 'rustling' sound of the branches brought by the breeze, and at the same time blowing Jiang Ran's long hair scattered behind him, the gentleness also brought a little warmth to Jiang Ran, I don't know if it was Yu Jinyuan who gave it to him. her response.

"A Yuan, Lan An and I broke up this year, but I'm with Yu Yang again." Caressing the face of the girl in the photo in front of the stele, Jiang Ran raised his head and drank the wine in his hand.

'Bada' Some liquid dripped down Jiang Ran's chin and fell to the ground, but it was quickly evaporated by the hot sun, leaving only a little water mark. I don't know if it is the tears swirling in the eye sockets or flowing down the lips. The undrinked liquor dripped from the jaw.

"A Yuan, am I such a scumbag?" There was a self-deprecating chuckle between the lips and teeth, the cans were squeezed into irregular shapes by gradually tightening hands, Jiang Ran's face began to be stained with a drunken blush , his eyes began to become blurred, "I don't like them, really, no matter if it's Lan Yu or Yu Yang, I don't like them, but...but I want to listen to you, Ah Yuan..."

Jiang Ran didn't know how long she stayed in front of Yu Jinyuan's tomb like this, she only knew that the sun was shining brightly when she came, and it was already sunset when she left, and she was the only one talking to herself in the empty park The voice keeps echoing:

Yu Jinyuan, why did you leave me alone?

You know, if I'm by your side, I won't be afraid even if it's hell, but you...why let me live well?

A Yuan, every day without you by my side is a painful torture for me.

A Yuan, I listen to you, I have started again, but no matter if it is Blue Gum or Yu Yang, I don't feel anything......Really not......

Ah Yuan, they are like you, but they are always... not you...

But, for me now, even a slight resemblance would be nice.....Yu Jinyuan....My Ah Yuan.....

Ah Yuan, are you unhappy? I haven't dreamed of you for a long time...

A Yuan, you have already left my world, don't leave my dream again, okay?

It’s been four years, Ah Yuan...... I’ve actually slowly begun to forget everything about you......

Ah Yuan, I used to hate this kind of myself, but now I'm starting to feel numb......

Is it because I have let go of your departure......

Yu Jinyuan.......Ah Yuan......

The breeze blew up the broken hair on her forehead, and the tears in her eyes gradually blurred Jiang Ran's vision. She didn't notice that in the shadow of a corner not far from her, a white figure stood silently in the original The complex and gentle gaze never left Jiang Ran's body, from the beginning to the end... just silently accompanied Jiang Ran all afternoon.

The glare of the sun gradually dissipated, and the deep orange sunset filled the world, creating a dreamlike and beautiful world.When Jiang Ran staggered out of the cemetery, she saw Yu Yang leaning against the car in white at a glance, and was stunned for a moment.

Like... Very similar, the gentle and peaceful Yu Yang in front of him and the Yu Jinyuan in his memory were slowly reuniting, making Jiang Ran a little confused for a moment from dream or reality.

"A Yuan..." Jiang Ran pursed her thin lips tightly, but still murmured unconsciously, causing Yu Yang to raise his head.

"Xiaoran, you came out, then let's... go home?" Sensing Jiang Ran's depression, Yu Yang's voice became a little cautious unconsciously, "Are you okay?"

"You don't have to learn from her." Withdrawing his eyes from Yu Yang, Jiang Ran returned to his usual indifference, and his voice lacked emotion and warmth, "No matter how similar you are, you are not her."

"But if you can be more like her, you will probably be able to give me some of your likes." Turning sideways for Jiang Ran to open the co-pilot's door, the smile on Yu Yang's face became stiff, and then revealed She gave a wry smile, but still thoughtfully said, "You should have had a drink with her just now, so let me drive."

"Okay" was stunned for a moment, and still gave a simple response, but then Jiang Ran still chose to remain silent.

On the way back, the two of them didn't talk all the way, one drove quietly, and the other pretended to look at the scenery outside the window as if nothing had happened, the atmosphere seemed a little stiff for a while.

A brisk mobile phone rang suddenly, breaking the silence between the two of them. Jiang Ran picked up Yu Yang's mobile phone, looked at the screen and asked casually, "Who is Mianmian? Do you want to answer it?"

"Oh, that person is an intern I brought. It's probably about work. You can pick it up for me."

Hearing that Jiangran pressed the hands-free button and connected the phone, it was actually not a big deal. The little girl was unavoidably inconsiderate when she just practiced. Yu Yang didn't say much, but just gave a few suggestions and things to pay attention to. After the matter, the call ended, and for a while, the atmosphere became silent again.

Soon, Yu Yang sent Jiang Ran downstairs to her house, but when he was about to leave, he was hugged by Jiang Ran behind him, "Today's New Year's Eve, why don't we spend it together"

Hearing Jiang Ran's words, Yu Yang was overjoyed immediately, turned around and hugged Jiang Ran's waist, buried his head in her shoulder and smirked, "Really? I am willing! Xiao Ran, that's great!"

Different from Yu Yang's excitement, Jiang Ran just patted Yu Yang's back lightly, without any change in tone, as if everything in the world was dispensable to her, "It's just celebrating the Spring Festival together, how old are you?" Still frizzy like a child"

Forcibly suppressing the smile on the corner of her mouth, Yu Yang let go of Jiang Ran, but the stammer in her tone still betrayed her current mood, "Then, I'll go to the car first, and you go up first, and we'll make dumplings together at night... .”

Facing Yu Yang who was chattering again in front of him, Jiang Ran raised his hand and rubbed his temples, interrupted Yu Yang's nagging with some helplessness, turned around and entered the corridor, leaving Yu Yang behind in a daze like a Smirking contentedly like a child.

The night fell slowly as the afterglow of the setting sun faded away, and the dots of stars filled the whole sky with the brightness of the moonlight, but the atmosphere in the house was silent, even a little cold.

Jiang Ran on the sofa was carelessly swiping his phone, wondering what he was looking at, while Yu Yang was sitting at the dining table and seriously preparing dumplings for the first New Year's Eve for the two of them. The dumpling filling was Jiang Ran's favorite celery stuffing.

A person who doesn't love is always freer than a person who loves deeply, isn't it?Inadvertently looking up at Jiang Ran on the sofa, a trace of bitterness flashed in Yu Yang's eyes.

Maybe... just a little more like it

But Yu Yang forgot, no matter how much she resembles Yu Jinyuan, she... is still not her...

Yu Jinyuan...that was the light that saved Jiang Ran from the darkness...it was also her only salvation...

So ah, she can never replace her

Just like........A shadow can only be a shadow all the time, and it can only exist by relying on light......

"What's the matter?" Perhaps Yu Yang's eyes were too hot and caught Jiang Ran's attention. Although he didn't turn his head, Jiang Ran still asked in case of accidents, "Yu Yang?"

Hearing the voice of his sweetheart, Yu Yang quickly came back to his senses, as if he had figured something out, with a relieved smile on his face, "It's nothing, I was just wondering if the dumplings I made would suit your taste."

“Just dumplings, all the same”

Are they all the same?That's right, just like you treat your partner, if it's not Yu Jinyuan, it probably doesn't matter who it is.

Jiang Ran, how unfortunate am I that I became someone else's shadow just to like you, bearing your love that has nowhere to rest......

Xiaoran, how lucky am I to be the one chosen by you among the many shadows......

I'm not greedy and I don't force more, it's good to be by my side like this, just like this...

Along with the hustle and bustle outside, gorgeous fireworks rose in the sky, and the profile faces of the two eating dumplings at the dining table by the window were also dyed with colorful colors, as if they were in touch with each other. Everyone saw a little light in each other's eyes, and at the same time bent their brows and eyes.

"Xiaoran, Happy New Year"

"Well, happy new year"

Jiang Ran/Yu Yang (read silently): Ah Yuan/Yu Jinyuan, Happy New Year

The name Yu Jinyuan probably won't disappear from Jiang Ran's life in this life. After all, she... is her light and her salvation in youth.

But it doesn't matter now, as long as you are by my side, even if there is another person, even if it's just for a moment

Just by my side, as long as you're by my side

Looking up at the drunk and unconscious Jiang Ran lying flushed on the table, Yu Yang walked to the window and put his hands together in front of the sky full of fireworks, making a wish full of love but humble... …

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To be honest, I don't want to update yet........ Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...