What to do if you have a crush on Party A

Mai Wenche basically ate this barbecue meal by himself. Although Ming Zhen sat beside him, he just tried everything casually.

After packing up the takeaway box after eating, Mai Wenche touched his belly contentedly and said, "It feels like my stomach has come out after eating this meal." Then he laughed at himself, "As I get older, my metabolism is not as good as it was when I was young. , it’s easy to gain weight after eating a few bites—”

"How old are you?" Ming Zhen comforted a little clumsily, "You haven't reached your thirties yet."

"Rounding up to thirty, I'm really old, and I have crow's feet." Mai Wenche approached seriously, pressing the fine lines at the corners of his eyes with his fingertips to show him.

The sudden closing of the distance made Ming Zhen startled, the curled eyelashes and pale fingers magnified in front of his eyes, he retreated quietly, disagreed and didn't know how to refute, so he could only whisper: "How about you?" They all look good."

Mai Wenche sighed: "Hey, when I was your age, no matter how much I ate, I didn't gain weight."

Ming Zhen finally protested in dissatisfaction: "It seems that you are much older than me, you are two years older than me!" Seeing that Mai Wenche had been rubbing his stomach, he added firmly, "You should None of them are fat."

Mai Wenche laughed again, touched his stomach with one hand, and suddenly attacked Ming Zhen's abdomen with the other: "Look, yours is abdominal muscles, mine is stomach—"

Even through the T-shirt, Ming Zhen could feel the heat of Makwenche's palm, obviously through the fabric, the contact between the square inches was infinitely magnified in an instant, he was startled, subconsciously took a breath and tightened his abdomen.

Mai Wenche felt the difference in hand feeling, and shouted: "Hey, don't breathe!"

"It's okay if you don't breathe!" Ming Zhen felt a little wronged by being questioned. The distance between the two was too close. He took a step back calmly, but couldn't help but lift up the hem of his clothes, as if to dispel some rumors like.

Although I haven't been exercising during this period, I have persisted in my good fitness habits over the years, and the shape of Mingzhen's chest and abdominal muscles is still very beautiful.Although he never shows off his fitness achievements in the circle of friends, it is natural for men to show off, let alone in front of the person he likes—just like a male peacock will show his bright tail screen, that is even a an animal instinct.

Therefore, at this moment, Ming Zhen, who pulled up the hem of her clothes to show off her abdominal muscles, had a look of eagerness to show off her courtship, but also a hint of natural embarrassment.

Mai Wenche smiled and stretched out his hands to rub his lower abdomen a few times, and said with emotion: "It requires too much body fat to maintain this kind of segmented abdominal muscles. I have to starve a lot to get some shape. Compared with abdominal muscles, It's better to train the chest muscles—" Just after finishing speaking, the flexible five fingers touched the chest muscles along the abdominal cavity.

Mai Wenche seemed to be scratching and rubbing—Ming Zhen felt that it must be his own illusion.

My heart is a little mixed.

When Mingzhen University lost weight before, Mai Wenche liked to "hands and feet" like this, such as wrapping around his waist and saying that he wanted to measure his waist, or hugging him and saying whether he felt lighter, or rubbing his little belly.

After so many years, such familiar and uncomplicated movements gave him the illusion of going back in time.

This kind of skin-to-skin contact between men is not too much intimacy, plus every physical contact between him is natural and normal, Ming Zhen not only can't resist, but also loves it, falling into unrealistic hallucinations.

Wondering whether Mai Wenche would like himself a little bit.

Imagine some ambiguous emotional flow between them.

Fantasizing about one day creating a secret relationship as a couple.

Ming Zhen didn't like to take pictures before, she felt that she was fat and unphotogenic.Even though I lost weight, I still don't have the habit of taking pictures.Suddenly one day, he realized that he was using photos to record his life. It was Mai Wenche who sent him a photo, saying that it was really funny that you danced in the square.

Mai Wenche went to work part-time that day, and was hungry when he got off work. When he passed by a square, he saw a baked sweet potato seller on the street, so he hurriedly bought a pad to fill his stomach.Feeling good after finishing a day's work and having just satisfied his appetite, Mai Wenche was so excited that he dragged Ming Zhen to the back of the square dance team.

How could Mingzhen know how to dance? He had no rhythm with his hands and feet. Mai Wenche was so teased that he leaned forward and back, grabbed his phone and took a photo.

If it wasn't for this photo, he would have almost forgotten that he and Mai Wenche danced together in the square dance.So after that day, Ming Zhen decided that she would take pictures of everything she did with Mai Wenche in the future.Record what you eat, drink, and play.The original intention was simple, he didn't want to forget these precious memories.

Realizing that these photos can have other "playing methods", it comes from the "100 things for couples" that was once popular on social platforms.

That day, Mingzhen suddenly saw an update on Weibo from a blogger she followed, which read, "Camping together on the weekend, the progress bar is 21/100."

In the picture posted, there is a picture that says "List of 100 things about love", with many things circled in red pen.

Ming Zhen was so blessed that his heart was suddenly shaken, and he quickly searched the Internet for what is a list of 100 things about love.

Various answers popped up in the search results. He opened web pages one by one, and scrolled down one by one. Finally, he swallowed nervously.

Ming Zhen thought of the many photos he and Mai Wenche had left together to commemorate, he suddenly thought, then Mai Wenche and I can also clock in this "must do things for couples"!

After doing these 100 things, are we also "couples"?

He knows that in this logic, cause and effect are completely reversed, yet he deludes himself into thinking that these are the experiences of "we are together", these are the proofs that we are in love.Anyway, it's enough for me to accept it. It doesn't matter whether Mai Wenche recognizes it or not, he won't know.

When Ming Zhen typed the four words "Love List", she felt an inexplicable guilty conscience. Is the love that only I recognize is also love?

But when he chose a list at random, and started to check out the little things he and Ma Wenche had done one by one, the guilt gradually dissipated, and then his heart began to bulge like bubbles, Cheers jumped up.

Eat ice cream together. Checked√

Take a super happy group photo in front of the big Christmas tree. Checked√

Take a picture of the other person sleeping soundly. Checked√

Stay overnight together. Checked√

......

"Introduce each other generously in front of friends."

Ming Zhen looked at this and hesitated for a while, nervously scratching the dead skin around his thumb, and couldn't help but think of the scene when Mai Wenche took him to have dinner with the basketball team and said with a smile, "This is the junior I picked up on the way" , and then ticked carefully.

He knew he was changing concepts secretly.

A generous introduction between lovers is not the same thing as a generous introduction between friends, but he thought to himself, I don't care what the purpose is, anyway, he did it anyway.

Continue to look down, there are many small things that are really not suitable to be included, such as "take out a little money every month as a love fund to fulfill a small wish", such as "doing shameful things in various places at home , sofa, sink, kitchen", and the 100th ultimate romantic item "Accompany each other to try on a wedding dress".

He silently crossed out all these, and searched for other people's "100 things for couples" again, picked and picked from them, selected what they could achieve, and what he yearned to achieve, and finally formed a group that belonged to Ming Zhen. "100 Love List" with Mai Wenche.

At the beginning, he still recorded in the memo. The name of the list continued the codes 220 and 284 he used to write in the diary, pasted the date and photo, and then recorded the location and content: "On a certain day in a certain month, and 284 on a certain day what did they do together.”

Later, I felt that this memo record was not beautiful enough and not convenient enough, so I tried to write a code that can automatically generate typesetting only by entering text and pictures for each record.However, his ability to build a website was still limited at that time, and he finally found a platform where he could create a personal website online.It is a self-built love website that is said to be very popular abroad, and he rented it for a fee of 19 US dollars a year.

After exploring all the modules, I even paid for a custom domain name called "220and284".

On this self-built website, he not only experienced various sections on other people's websites, but also customized a lot of content with his immature coding ability.He made the entire website into a puzzle-like grid.The unfinished ones are gray, and the completed ones automatically light up in pink.

From then on, this website is like Mingzhen's diary. Every time you record, you only need to enter text and upload pictures, and those small gray grids will automatically light up.

More and more 100 things have been completed, and the brighter and more small grids, I can't help but feel a sense of accomplishment, as if after checking out this list, he and Mai Wenche will be able to achieve positive results.

This secret record has accompanied Ming Zhen almost throughout his college career.

After leaving City A, Ming Zhen lost contact with Mai Wenche, and never logged on to this website again.

Later, after grandma left, Ming Zhen's work gradually got on the right track, and she finally got some free time in life.After all, he is a young man with full of vigor, and Ming Zhen also feels lonely at times.In addition, life is so long, you can't step on a pit and never get up, so he decided to try to make other friends.

He first downloaded a same-sex dating app, but after two days of using it, he uninstalled it.The rampant "photo cheating" and explicit remarks on the dating software made him very uncomfortable.

However, he is not a sociable person at all, his circle is too small, and his eyesight is clumsy, so he can't find the development object of the same orientation at all.

Later, I thought, it would be better to simply solve the physiological needs.So after doing enough psychological construction and information retrieval, I gritted my teeth and went to the gay club with a condom in my trouser pocket.

...and then ran out in disgrace.

He found he couldn't.

This kind of inability is not a physical inability, it is because when he thinks of hugging and having sex with someone he has known for less than a few minutes, he just "no".

The inferiority complex in adolescence has a profound impact, and the traditional thinking in his bones is too deep-rooted, and he still cannot accept this kind of dewy love.

So, on weekends, he will clean the rental house by himself, and then go to the gym to exercise; or go out to the bookstore or library to read all kinds of reference books; otherwise, he will go to the supermarket and buy nothing , just wander around, just listen to the voice of people; no matter how bad it is, just sit by the side of the square and watch the aunt dancing cheerful square dance-in short, he tries to minimize the chance of letting himself stay alone in an empty room .

Then end the day's outing by going to the vegetable market to buy several days' worth of ingredients, and go home to carefully cook a few delicious meals as a comfort. ///

Over the years he is used to spending weekends alone.Now that he has returned to City A, he seems to have gained a different way of life. He has become friends with colleagues across the workplace and re-established contact with Mak Wenche. He feels happy from the bottom of his heart, but he is afraid that this is an illusion.

Sitting on the sofa after taking a shower, her body felt sleepy after being busy, and Ming Zhen felt a little laziness after being full.

The recent life and work seem to be going well, so Ming Zhen can't help but fall into idealism, as if Mai Wenche is really his lucky angel, as long as he meets him, his life will become sparkling.

The phone buzzed, and it was Du Pei who transferred 1 yuan to him, saying that he had received the money from his boyfriend, and he would pay back part of it first, and pay the rest one after another.

Ming Zhen didn't accept it. Du Pei's family's compensation for the traffic accident hadn't come down yet, and he didn't know how long it would take to go through the procedures. He asked Du Pei to keep it for now, and it wouldn't be too late to pay him back when the compensation came later. Anyway, he hasn't been short of money recently. flower.Ming Zhen's own family also had the embarrassing experience of relatives being sick and trapped in money, so he could feel Du Pei's helplessness when he was short of money.

As soon as the news was sent, Du Pei sent back a few emoticons of crying and hugging in circles, and then sent a message: [Brother Ming, I love you.woo woo woo woo】

Ming Zhen was amused, and was about to say something, but the other party withdrew the message, and seemed to be a little cautious and said: [I didn't mean that, don't mind, I'm just very grateful, very grateful to you! 】

A smile froze at the corner of his mouth, and he slightly pursed his lips.

The other party added a little superfluously: [I am also very grateful that you have always treated me like an ordinary person. 】

Du Pei has always been a sweet-talking person, saying all kinds of "likes" and "love" truthfully and falsely. Ming Zhen never thought about it in other directions. Du Pei deliberately didn't say such things to him again, and the two of them haven't exchanged half a point of view on Du Pei's sexual orientation since that day.

Du Pei didn't know that Mingzhen liked men as much as he did, so he worried that such a passionate confession would misunderstand a "straight man".Because some straight men are always invincible and confident, and feel that when they are friends with a gay, they always worry that the gay will fall in love with them.

Ming Zhen understands how the other party cherishes a sincere friend, doesn't want to cause trouble to others, and is afraid of being alienated because of being special.

Because, why isn't he like this to Mai Wenche?

Being so distracted, it seemed that he missed the right opportunity to chat again.However, even though he and Du Pei have been colleagues for 3 years, they got to know each other only after returning to City A, and it has only been three or four months now, so maybe... there is no need to worry so much.

It took Ming Hazel some time to fall asleep properly that night.He was renting a one-bedroom, one-living room apartment, and there was only one room, so the two naturally had to sleep in the same bed.He hadn't shared the same bed with Mai Wenche for a long time, the feeling of lying next to someone was too strange.

This strange feeling lasted until the next morning, when the alarm clock rang, Ming Zhen fumbled to press it off, when suddenly something warm was touched on the back of his waist, and he woke up with a jerk.

Turning around, he saw Mai Wenche's impatient appearance after being woken up, his eyes were too sleepy to open, and he mumbled and asked "What time is it" before he remembered why someone was on his bed. :? Production ○ Gewoci